Im in deep depression...please help...

I was bullied from when I was 6 to around 17 years old so I know how Ты must feel but thinking about it all over again is one of the worst things Ты can do regarding this.

It looks like you're holding on to it way too tight and my Совет is Ты must try to let the past go because there is nothing Ты can do to change it though I completely understand if it only ended short time ago.

My other Совет is to go out and try to meddle with people again even though it is extremely tough. I admit I have a hard time doing it too after being bullied for so many years but if Ты don't do it, you'll never get over your fear of being bullied again.

Ты know I'm a victim too (except I had Друзья when I was a kid) & I suffer from mild depression about other issues in my life. Now I recently watched a video in one of my classes @ school about teen depression & encouraging victims of it to get help. I would strongly recommend Ты do, but if your anything like me who doesn't want my parents to find out или be caught going to the school counselor's office & be judged by others for it, tell your best friend или another close person Ты trust (I talk to someone who struggles a lot as well) because even though they may not be perfect или don't know how to help, sometimes it even just helps to get it off your chest. It's good to walk through these storms of life with someone, it just makes Ты feel a whole lot better & in your case, just let/accept people encourage Ты so that the damage can be undone.
P.S. Ты are the most amazing, beautiful, friendliest & decent person I know on the planet (& I'm not joking!!)