Hello! So I have been wondering for sometime what was Kanade's perspective to see all that things happened in Afterlife. How she felt about her being enemy with SSS and how she felt about Otonashi. So I decided to write this Fanfiction for it! I am still not very confident about this one and I as well think its bit lengthy. So I expect your help to make this better!
Thank Ты for reading! Hope everyone will enjoy!
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That faithful night, Ты came running down to me. Ты were just another unlucky teenager in my eyes when I first saw you. I saw your clothes torn and body dusted up in that moonlight. I was quite used to see these kinds of things. Ты came running down from stairs and started to ask me about this world, Yuri and what was going around there. I was also used to this thing. Anybody who came here will always ask this type of thing. I told Ты what she was saying is right and Ты are dead. Ты looked at me with that confused face. Ты told me to prove that Ты were dead. I expected it coming from Ты since Ты had enough courage to come to me even when she told Ты I am your enemy.
"Hand Sonic, Version One."
I attacked you, ruthlessly like I used to attack others. But Ты asked me to do it. Ты panicked, but I didn't stop. Blade went straight into your chest, crimson blood spilling out. Ты Остаться в живых consciousness in no time. But something was unusual.
Isn't that place where his сердце should be? He doesn't have heart? How's that possible?
Ты didn't have heart. It bothered me to no end.
His heart… where is it…? Is it perhaps… in my body…? So he is that person...?
After our first meeting, we faced each other several times, like in Guild's way, at Operation Tornado, but we were enemies. I wanted to talk to you, but Ты supposed me as foe, just like others did. I decided to ignore my own wavering feelings and kept being loyal to my duty. But I had to find out еще things about you.
Then something unusual happened during Baseball Game. During finals, we were to lose from your team if Hinata had caught that Fly catch. But, Ты and that new girl ran their, stopping him from catching it. It wasn't accident, Ты both did it on purpose. I didn't understand meaning of that first. But when I tried to remember the whole scene and Hinata's expressions when ball was coming flying to him, I got it right.
Wasn't he going to disappear just now? Then why did they stop him?
Perhaps these people don't know much about disappearance?
Am I not fulfilling my duty correctly?
That bothered me as well.
Since Ты had came into this world, things started to make no еще sense. After that match, whenever I saw you, I started to get a weird feeling. The way Ты tried to save him, seemed nostalgic. It felt like something from my past is coming back to me. I wanted to get grab onto that feeling; I wanted to remember еще about my past than the thing that someone saved my youth and life. I wanted to know myself better.
Then it was time for tests. I had busied myself in studies, to try to do well and remain at my sense of duty as President. I certainly knew SSS is going to make trouble this time as well. But midst all of it, I got to know your name,
Otonashi.
I was quite happy. Then Ты asked me my name. It made me happier. I thought your name is really beautiful. But I fell to express myself that time.
And then SSS's plan fell upon me. I knew it was SSS who made me fell in tests somehow and I Остаться в живых my post as Student Council President. But I didn't have proof and I neither wanted to take revenge. I wasn't angry, but I was sad. I was sulking. Because I figured that Ты people still didn't know about leaving this world. And that's why Ты want to eliminate me as I am your enemy and want to live here. I had failed in my duty already. So I decided to not to stop Ты from making trouble anymore. It will not fulfill anything anymore.
If it's what they get happiness from, I will not interfere…
I just wanted to eat my Избранное dish then; but in between all that crowd gathered in Cafeteria, I Остаться в живых that chance as well. I was loosing every possible chance of happiness initially.
Then one day, suddenly Ты started to talk to me. I didn't know what to talk about exactly but Ты weren't giving up. I thought it was little troublesome that time. Then Ты suddenly asked me about eating in Cafeteria with you. I agreed without resisting as thought I would talk about it to you.
I was enjoying that time with you. Your expression when I ate Mafou Toufu was quite incredible. I wanted to laugh at that time, from my heart, at your innocent reaction. Ты then smiled and asked me if I liked it that much. I was happy, very happy. It was my first time to be asked by someone about myself. Your kind smile, kind words made my grief disappeared, at least a splitting. I felt like finally I have made a friend, but,
Why does he want to eat with me in first place?
I wanted ask, but I was afraid that it was out of pity. I didn't want to be pitied; neither had I wanted Ты to disappear, not now. Before I can say anything further, New President Naoi appeared there. I realized my mistake of eating Еда at wrong time. He imprisoned us for that. Time went by and I finally told Ты that you'll disappear if Ты befriend me. Ты seemed shocked, Ты seemed sad, for my sake. It made me feel happy. Then Ты сказал(-а) that whole SSS is in danger. Ты сказал(-а) only I can save. Ты сказал(-а) Ты trust me and are relying on me. Ты didn't have any idea how much those words meant to me. I fought only for those words.
I saw your new side on battlefield that day. Ты saved Naoi; Ты told him that his life was not fake. Ты helped him letting go of his regrets. Ты were doing what I supposed to do. Your place was changed in my eyes that day.
Then everything almost seemed like a dream to me; Ты tried to make me part of your group, Ты told me Ты were not going to disappear. Ты told me we all were friends. I was happy, very happy. Then Ты told me your дана name,
Yuzuru.
It was beautiful as well, just like you.
Then that treacherous accident happened. My clones went viral. Yuri was one to blame, but it was my fault as well for using that software. But that time also, Ты came for me. I was going unconscious when all those clones were merging in my body, but I felt Ты hug me and your voice calling out for me. It was so painful, was beyond my strength; but Ты were by my side. I knew I'll be alright. I fought hard. I wanted to come back as myself. I wanted to thank you.
When I regained my senses, Ты were sleeping near my chest. Your expressions seemed peaceful, I didn't want to disturb you. So, I tapped on your head, but Ты woke up. Ты were quite thrilled that Ты remembered about your death. That time, it made sense why I was feeling like that; why Ты remembered your past. I was assured that the сердце in my body was yours. But then Ты сказал(-а) Ты no longer had any regrets. It scared me. I thought Ты were going to disappear. But then Ты asked me what I was doing here. Ты wanted to help me. Ты wanted to become my partner. I became happier.
The events that took place after that have most special place in my heart. Our working together was fun. I was doing a good deed, that also together with you. We had to fight together as well, but I was glad that we were fighting not to destroy anything but save something. Working for Graduation ceremony was like my dream come true. When Yuri thanked me, I felt like I have completed my task here.
Everything that happened since your appearance here, good или bad things, I have had enjoyed them. Even though they were bad things, sad things, painful things, they felt real for first time. They seemed to be making еще sense. They made me feel alive. I don't want to forget anything. At last, it was the time I spent with my "Friends", the time I spent with you.
That evening after Graduation Ceremony was my last moment with Ты was what I was thinking, but before everything should start или end, I wanted to thank you… I wanted to thank… But then Ты said,
"Say Kanade, I want both of us to stay here, will Ты stay with me?"
Ты сказал(-а) Ты want to help other people who will come here in future and Показать them right path to disappearance. Ты сказал(-а) that might be your purpose for coming here. But it wasn't for me that way. I thought Ты were here to fulfill my regret, I became confused.
Why did Ты come here after all?
Answering your Вопрос was hard for me.
I still have to thank him though…,
Was only thought going round and round in my head.
"I want to be with Ты forever, I now I will be okay that way because…"
Ты seemed restless due to my silence, hesitated while talking. I walked down the stairs. I was thinking selfishly, but then I heard those words.
"Because I Любовь you… I Любовь Ты so much…"
Ты hugged me tight. It made me feel edgy.
So easily, Ты сказал(-а) it...
At least now, I have to say it…
But I can't… If I say something I'll disappear…
"Why won't Ты say anything?"
"If I say something I'll disappear… If I tell Ты how I honestly feel I think I'll vanish…"
But I spilled everything out. I talked about how Ты remembered your death, how your сердце is still beating in my chest, how I am fulfilling my regret of not thanking the person who gave me my youth now. Ты heard everything carefully, believed in me. I am so grateful to Ты Yuzuru.
I Любовь Ты Yuzuru…
"I Любовь Ты Yuzuru… Thank Ты for everything…"
"Kanade! Please don't disappear…!"
Your voice went hoarse, Ты hugged me even tighter. But I couldn't help it, my regret was fulfilled.
"Truly and deeply, thank Ты for giving my life to me."
Yuzuru, I still feel like those words weren't enough to express my Любовь and gratitude towards you. And I failed to stay with Ты too. I am really sorry, but it seems like we have to do certain things before meeting again, because I know it is our only destiny; Our only destiny is to meet again and stay together. I won't leave your side again, have faith in me. Thank Ты again for ending my wait, thank Ты again for everything. I will Любовь Ты forever.
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Thank Ты for reading! Hope everyone will enjoy!
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That faithful night, Ты came running down to me. Ты were just another unlucky teenager in my eyes when I first saw you. I saw your clothes torn and body dusted up in that moonlight. I was quite used to see these kinds of things. Ты came running down from stairs and started to ask me about this world, Yuri and what was going around there. I was also used to this thing. Anybody who came here will always ask this type of thing. I told Ты what she was saying is right and Ты are dead. Ты looked at me with that confused face. Ты told me to prove that Ты were dead. I expected it coming from Ты since Ты had enough courage to come to me even when she told Ты I am your enemy.
"Hand Sonic, Version One."
I attacked you, ruthlessly like I used to attack others. But Ты asked me to do it. Ты panicked, but I didn't stop. Blade went straight into your chest, crimson blood spilling out. Ты Остаться в живых consciousness in no time. But something was unusual.
Isn't that place where his сердце should be? He doesn't have heart? How's that possible?
Ты didn't have heart. It bothered me to no end.
His heart… where is it…? Is it perhaps… in my body…? So he is that person...?
After our first meeting, we faced each other several times, like in Guild's way, at Operation Tornado, but we were enemies. I wanted to talk to you, but Ты supposed me as foe, just like others did. I decided to ignore my own wavering feelings and kept being loyal to my duty. But I had to find out еще things about you.
Then something unusual happened during Baseball Game. During finals, we were to lose from your team if Hinata had caught that Fly catch. But, Ты and that new girl ran their, stopping him from catching it. It wasn't accident, Ты both did it on purpose. I didn't understand meaning of that first. But when I tried to remember the whole scene and Hinata's expressions when ball was coming flying to him, I got it right.
Wasn't he going to disappear just now? Then why did they stop him?
Perhaps these people don't know much about disappearance?
Am I not fulfilling my duty correctly?
That bothered me as well.
Since Ты had came into this world, things started to make no еще sense. After that match, whenever I saw you, I started to get a weird feeling. The way Ты tried to save him, seemed nostalgic. It felt like something from my past is coming back to me. I wanted to get grab onto that feeling; I wanted to remember еще about my past than the thing that someone saved my youth and life. I wanted to know myself better.
Then it was time for tests. I had busied myself in studies, to try to do well and remain at my sense of duty as President. I certainly knew SSS is going to make trouble this time as well. But midst all of it, I got to know your name,
Otonashi.
I was quite happy. Then Ты asked me my name. It made me happier. I thought your name is really beautiful. But I fell to express myself that time.
And then SSS's plan fell upon me. I knew it was SSS who made me fell in tests somehow and I Остаться в живых my post as Student Council President. But I didn't have proof and I neither wanted to take revenge. I wasn't angry, but I was sad. I was sulking. Because I figured that Ты people still didn't know about leaving this world. And that's why Ты want to eliminate me as I am your enemy and want to live here. I had failed in my duty already. So I decided to not to stop Ты from making trouble anymore. It will not fulfill anything anymore.
If it's what they get happiness from, I will not interfere…
I just wanted to eat my Избранное dish then; but in between all that crowd gathered in Cafeteria, I Остаться в живых that chance as well. I was loosing every possible chance of happiness initially.
Then one day, suddenly Ты started to talk to me. I didn't know what to talk about exactly but Ты weren't giving up. I thought it was little troublesome that time. Then Ты suddenly asked me about eating in Cafeteria with you. I agreed without resisting as thought I would talk about it to you.
I was enjoying that time with you. Your expression when I ate Mafou Toufu was quite incredible. I wanted to laugh at that time, from my heart, at your innocent reaction. Ты then smiled and asked me if I liked it that much. I was happy, very happy. It was my first time to be asked by someone about myself. Your kind smile, kind words made my grief disappeared, at least a splitting. I felt like finally I have made a friend, but,
Why does he want to eat with me in first place?
I wanted ask, but I was afraid that it was out of pity. I didn't want to be pitied; neither had I wanted Ты to disappear, not now. Before I can say anything further, New President Naoi appeared there. I realized my mistake of eating Еда at wrong time. He imprisoned us for that. Time went by and I finally told Ты that you'll disappear if Ты befriend me. Ты seemed shocked, Ты seemed sad, for my sake. It made me feel happy. Then Ты сказал(-а) that whole SSS is in danger. Ты сказал(-а) only I can save. Ты сказал(-а) Ты trust me and are relying on me. Ты didn't have any idea how much those words meant to me. I fought only for those words.
I saw your new side on battlefield that day. Ты saved Naoi; Ты told him that his life was not fake. Ты helped him letting go of his regrets. Ты were doing what I supposed to do. Your place was changed in my eyes that day.
Then everything almost seemed like a dream to me; Ты tried to make me part of your group, Ты told me Ты were not going to disappear. Ты told me we all were friends. I was happy, very happy. Then Ты told me your дана name,
Yuzuru.
It was beautiful as well, just like you.
Then that treacherous accident happened. My clones went viral. Yuri was one to blame, but it was my fault as well for using that software. But that time also, Ты came for me. I was going unconscious when all those clones were merging in my body, but I felt Ты hug me and your voice calling out for me. It was so painful, was beyond my strength; but Ты were by my side. I knew I'll be alright. I fought hard. I wanted to come back as myself. I wanted to thank you.
When I regained my senses, Ты were sleeping near my chest. Your expressions seemed peaceful, I didn't want to disturb you. So, I tapped on your head, but Ты woke up. Ты were quite thrilled that Ты remembered about your death. That time, it made sense why I was feeling like that; why Ты remembered your past. I was assured that the сердце in my body was yours. But then Ты сказал(-а) Ты no longer had any regrets. It scared me. I thought Ты were going to disappear. But then Ты asked me what I was doing here. Ты wanted to help me. Ты wanted to become my partner. I became happier.
The events that took place after that have most special place in my heart. Our working together was fun. I was doing a good deed, that also together with you. We had to fight together as well, but I was glad that we were fighting not to destroy anything but save something. Working for Graduation ceremony was like my dream come true. When Yuri thanked me, I felt like I have completed my task here.
Everything that happened since your appearance here, good или bad things, I have had enjoyed them. Even though they were bad things, sad things, painful things, they felt real for first time. They seemed to be making еще sense. They made me feel alive. I don't want to forget anything. At last, it was the time I spent with my "Friends", the time I spent with you.
That evening after Graduation Ceremony was my last moment with Ты was what I was thinking, but before everything should start или end, I wanted to thank you… I wanted to thank… But then Ты said,
"Say Kanade, I want both of us to stay here, will Ты stay with me?"
Ты сказал(-а) Ты want to help other people who will come here in future and Показать them right path to disappearance. Ты сказал(-а) that might be your purpose for coming here. But it wasn't for me that way. I thought Ты were here to fulfill my regret, I became confused.
Why did Ты come here after all?
Answering your Вопрос was hard for me.
I still have to thank him though…,
Was only thought going round and round in my head.
"I want to be with Ты forever, I now I will be okay that way because…"
Ты seemed restless due to my silence, hesitated while talking. I walked down the stairs. I was thinking selfishly, but then I heard those words.
"Because I Любовь you… I Любовь Ты so much…"
Ты hugged me tight. It made me feel edgy.
So easily, Ты сказал(-а) it...
At least now, I have to say it…
But I can't… If I say something I'll disappear…
"Why won't Ты say anything?"
"If I say something I'll disappear… If I tell Ты how I honestly feel I think I'll vanish…"
But I spilled everything out. I talked about how Ты remembered your death, how your сердце is still beating in my chest, how I am fulfilling my regret of not thanking the person who gave me my youth now. Ты heard everything carefully, believed in me. I am so grateful to Ты Yuzuru.
I Любовь Ты Yuzuru…
"I Любовь Ты Yuzuru… Thank Ты for everything…"
"Kanade! Please don't disappear…!"
Your voice went hoarse, Ты hugged me even tighter. But I couldn't help it, my regret was fulfilled.
"Truly and deeply, thank Ты for giving my life to me."
Yuzuru, I still feel like those words weren't enough to express my Любовь and gratitude towards you. And I failed to stay with Ты too. I am really sorry, but it seems like we have to do certain things before meeting again, because I know it is our only destiny; Our only destiny is to meet again and stay together. I won't leave your side again, have faith in me. Thank Ты again for ending my wait, thank Ты again for everything. I will Любовь Ты forever.
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