It's Saturday. They день my Любовь and enemy is coming to see all of us. Maybe he'll sweep me away in his arms, kiss, and then have a Kill Bill related sword fight until the Далее dawn. It's so odd. One минута I wanna just Любовь him, and let him hold me close in his muscular arms, but the Далее минута I just wanna be just the two of us like Beatrix Kiddo and Bill fighting out after seeing each other for the first time in four years. Am I really this insane? Yes. My insanity keeps me from this great and wonderful normality that people rave about. Yet, I haven't been out much in the eight years I've...

I went back to therapy today. Dr. Wiggins still asked еще and еще Вопросы about me. I learned three things today: 1) Dr. Wiggins is a lonely sad man with no one to talk to. 2) I'm planning on changing therapists, so I can have a better one to connect to, instead of a sad and lonely man that desperately needs to be in this chair еще than I do. And 3) If I don't call that guy soon, I'm going to end up sad and lonely with this doctor not shutting up about how smart he is and how he knows things. I've studied psychology all through high school and college and I still read about it, and what...

> Are Ты ready >Belive > all our dreams can come true--if we have the courage to кошелек them.
>to give [the audeince] an experince that touches them at an emotinal level is what's impotant. That to me is true magic > when the mind,body,and spirit work together anything is possible> fear is just a state of mind>Pain is a beautiful thing > it's like saying what u are is what u eat. well I belive Ты are what Ты think.what Ты feed your mind. your body will follow and belive.Even the most brillant medicne in the world can't cure the body if the patients mind refues to cooperate>if...

Before we went to Charlie's house, Criss went to his hotel room to get some of his workout clothes for gym. He wanted to work out with me, so I had to go to my room and some of my workout clothes too. I haven't been to an actual gym in a while, but I wanted to go. Not only would I have a workout, but I'll spend some time with Criss. I'm just glad to be connecting with him and not having a fight. We never usually fought when we were kids, but we did argue a little. It was just those two really bad ones that we had in the 90's and 2002. I just hope we don't have another one, especially anytime...

Criss was standing there, very beautiful, but yet rather vunerable. I could attack him at any second, but no. Not the right time and place. Sadie could put me back into the straight-jacket, getting dragged to the dreaded hoosegow. *sighs* It would be better being locked up with Hannibal Lecter than being alone. At least I'll have some genius to speak to and to share ideas with. We could be partners in crime together, freaking out Jodie Foster, making her job еще and еще harder than it really is, and making the clues much еще difficult than how they really are. I wonder if Criss could be...

The Далее morning, they free me from the straight-jacket. I have so many scars from trying to escape. I can't escape. It's impossible. Yet, almost everything in life is impossible. Almost like there's no hope. Ты get a lottery ticket, hoping to be richer than Donald Trump или Midus, who can touch anything that can turn into pure gold, but they lose everything and gain nothing. I have seen it all. Ты think Ты Любовь someone, but Ты wake up and he's not there. Ты think Ты trust someone, yet they blackmail Ты and dare to use your weaknesses against you. I'm no Superman. In fact, I'm weak and...