I have thought this over a dozen and a half times and I have finally reached a conclusion. I picked Al because of the reality of the situation for him. That meaning that I think Al thinks of the situation more than his brother, giving the state of his body and the fact that he is constantly reminded of it through not being able to feel, taste, smell, ect. Like I said this is not an easy question to answer, Ed to has suffered.
To be honest, I think they've both suffered equally in different ways, but I'm choosing Ed because I've actually tasted a bit of what he went through; and let me tell you...it's no walk in the park, that kind of guilt.
Physically, Al definitely lost more; and I'm not making light of the fact that he can't feel or connect with the world like he used to, or that his mind never rests, or that he can't remember the taste of food or the feel of rain. Or that he even questioned his own existence at one point. That's pretty heavy stuff.
But emotionally, I think Ed has suffered worse than Al. Seeing someone close to you carrying the consequences of your mistake, every day...knowing that you're supposed to look out for them, and yet you made them like that...I can't describe to you how heavy and dark that guilt feels. You can't look at them, or even look at yourself without feeling sick at what you've done, what you've stolen, how you've hurt that innocent person.
You try to bury the past and move on, but it always comes back to haunt you...whether you're awake or asleep. You try to focus on making a new start and fixing what you ruined, but the guilt still hangs on you like a lead weight and drags you back down. You wonder if you'll ever find healing or redemption, then remember you don't deserve it and refuse to forgive yourself...even when everyone else has. Over and over. Cycle after cycle.
And after a while, you decide that your own pain doesn't matter anymore. All that matters is healing the person you hurt. Only then will you feel justified in finding some shred of hope for yourself.
That is what Ed carries, every day. It's not always a conscious burden, but it's there. Don't let his cocky charades fool you.
Well , both of them have suffered a whole lot . Lost their mom , lost their body parts , I mean , its pretty sad . But Al lost his whole body .. :( wha
I'm sorry. But I don't like Al that much. I feel for his situation, I do. But, I love Ed more then any other character in all of FMA or Brotherhood. To quote an abridged I found of Brotherhood....
HE LOST HIS BODY IT'S AWFUL DX
True Ed lost his leg and arm but still, Al isn't able to eat, sleep and do normal things he use to do. it's not fair :,(
Both of their situations were bad D: but if you think about it Al can't feel a thing so if he gets ripped apart he won't feel it. On the other hand if Ed gets hurt he definetly will feel the pain both automail (if it breaks) and flesh. Plus Ed had to endure the surgery to get automail and he constantly gets it broken. Al does have a bad situation but at least he has something to look forward to after he gets his body back. (Apple pie) :D
Physically, Al definitely lost more; and I'm not making light of the fact that he can't feel or connect with the world like he used to, or that his mind never rests, or that he can't remember the taste of food or the feel of rain. Or that he even questioned his own existence at one point. That's pretty heavy stuff.
But emotionally, I think Ed has suffered worse than Al. Seeing someone close to you carrying the consequences of your mistake, every day...knowing that you're supposed to look out for them, and yet you made them like that...I can't describe to you how heavy and dark that guilt feels. You can't look at them, or even look at yourself without feeling sick at what you've done, what you've stolen, how you've hurt that innocent person.
You try to bury the past and move on, but it always comes back to haunt you...whether you're awake or asleep. You try to focus on making a new start and fixing what you ruined, but the guilt still hangs on you like a lead weight and drags you back down. You wonder if you'll ever find healing or redemption, then remember you don't deserve it and refuse to forgive yourself...even when everyone else has. Over and over. Cycle after cycle.
And after a while, you decide that your own pain doesn't matter anymore. All that matters is healing the person you hurt. Only then will you feel justified in finding some shred of hope for yourself.
That is what Ed carries, every day. It's not always a conscious burden, but it's there. Don't let his cocky charades fool you.
(Angsty comment is angsty, lol...)
... "Shut up Al! No one likes you!"
True Ed lost his leg and arm but still, Al isn't able to eat, sleep and do normal things he use to do. it's not fair :,(
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