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Previously on December/December:
A bunch of секунды later he was making it as fast as he could through the parking lot. He jumped on his bike, шлем in his hands already. He paused for a moment, thinking, licking his lips.
He tried one last time.
Still busy.
“Damn it...”
Well the best he could do if he got still time was keeping on calling until she would hang up.
The engine roared to life and he swung his bike along, brainstorming for something to tell her that would actually made some sense. That needed to be conceived carefully.
Damn it...
He hated having to lie to her, let alone the chance of letting her down или something.
He closed the choke fully and eased the throttle, shifting his weight вперед as soon as the front wheel hit the road out of the parking area.
Why did always events run in packs?
Damn it...
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Lisa laughed jovially “I don’t know....” she stooped slightly before the mirror flipping her hair back with one hand “I mean we barely managed to have a moment alone...”
“Alone huh?”
“Stop it Karen...” she giggled, looking sideways at her figure “We hadn’t even tried to sneak out of sight if that’s what you’re implying....”
She rubbed her hands down her hips: had she gained some weight since the last time she had worn this one? Did it always suit her this way?
“We aren’t even there yet...” she added
Karen smirked “You putting on some sexy stuff though, aren’t you?”
Lisa smiled widely “Ok, stop it! Right now!” she could totally picture her smiling mischievously on the other side “This is not meant to be a seduction-operation...we’re meant to talk....just talk” she repeated.
She rubbed her lips together to spread the transparent shiny gloss she had just put on.
“Yeah right...” Karen mocked her “’Cause Ты DIDN’T in fact already happened to have picked up a casual but-not-so-casual dress out of your wardrobe and Ты AREN’T in fact right now grovelling before a mirror like a щенок waiting for his ужин to be ready....” she trailed off knowingly
Lisa straightened up, gaping at the phone “Karen!!!” Karen burst out laughing “Ok, first of all....I’m not grovelling....and secondly....”
She frowned, stopping abruptly.
Karen prompted her amused, defiantly “And secondly?”
Lisa chewed her lips a little bit, pouting “Ok, there’s no секунда point.....” Karen giggled “...anyway what are you...spying on me?!”
“Ahahah, no well...I just happen to know Ты a little bit too well my dear....”
Lisa shook her head, sighing “You certainly do....” she admitted.
She casted another brief glance at the alarm on her bed-table. He would call. He would totally do that. She just had to be patient and get distracted. She let herself fall down on her постель, кровати and sat crossed-legged on it. Kapow leapt on and went crouching at her side, resting his muzzle on her knees. She started petting him
Karen kept quiet for a while. It wasn’t unusual. She often called her just for the sake of it, and sometimes they even ended up just making each other some company just holding on like that, in silence.
She must have sensed she could use some company today....
However this wasn’t the case.
“You sure Ты know what you’re doing right?” Karen asked her straight out with a very different tone all of a sudden.
Lisa rolled her eyes and pushed herself backwards over the surface of the bed, leaning against the head. She should have seen this coming; as much as Karen usually was the one pushing her forward, she was also the one always checking on her to be one hundred percent sure of the choices she made. Impulsive as she sounded, she was anything but.
“You think I haven’t asked myself the same thing?” Lisa asked her back, reassuringly.
Karen hesitated for a трещина, сплит second.
“No, I’m sure Ты did....” she сказал(-а) “I just....well, I was wondering whether Ты TRULY have thought it through....not just tonight или tomorrow. I mean...like...what you’ll be...” she paused “...facing up...along time...”
Lisa frowned, a little blissful smile still so unconsciously dancing on her lips. It hadn’t faded away all день “You mean because of his marriage?” Karen didn’t answer “Well...” she kept on scratching lightly under Kapow’s ear “...we already talked about it...and I remember someone talking my head off last time on how much of a coward I was being....” she teased good-humoured.
She sensed her smiling, but her tone didn’t change much “Point taken. Let sleeping Собаки lie...” Lisa licked her lips: she wasn’t sure she could have kept it dull for much longer anyway, whether Karen had pushed her to think about it или not.
“It’s all his fault anyway....” Lisa сказал(-а) nonchalantly at some point “Hadn’t he been so damn....” She felt her check flushed up “...adorable......wasn’t he always...” she added with a loving smile “...so adorable...”
Karen сказал(-а) nothing.
“You still there?” Lisa asked her perplexed after a while.
“Yeah, sure. I was just listening...”
After a bunch of секунды though she heard her sighing “Actually Liz...what I’m asking Ты is...” she hesitated “....you really have weighted all the consequences, right? Like...this is a decision that, for better или for worse, might change your life upside down altogether....you know that right?”
Lisa wiggled down, nestling her head backwards between the cushions “You think I don’t know that?”
She glanced stealthy at the alarm one еще time: 7.15.
Karen exhaled noisily “Just STOP answering my concerns adding up to them useless, rhetorical questions, will you?”
Lisa chuckled quietly, fiddling with a lock of hair “You worried he’s gonna hurt me?”
“Well....yeah of course, but...as strange as it might sound what he might do или not, it’s not my main concern right now....”
Lisa pouted, frowning mildly “Who is then?”
Karen hesitated again “You”
“Me?!”
“I’m еще worried about....you know....you never gave him a real chance to....well, seriously put it all out on the table...”
“Me?!”
Karen snorted “Would Ты just stop that? Yes YOU! Who else Ты see involved in this twisted, friendly-flirty relationship Ты two have set out?!”
Lisa opened her mouth to speak.
“Never mind...” Karen cut her short “My bad....rephrasing...” L
isa shut her mouth closed.
“What I meant was...you two never really have a talk about anything. Together, I mean. Planned something....had a real...well, yeah....a conversation”
Lisa rubbed her lips, slightly amused at this point “Karen I’m just not following you....could Ты please just speak English and stop fumbling with your own words. Ты remind me of Hugh really....”
Karen chewed her lips.
She sighed “Karen come on, speak your mind. What is that you’re really worried about? I won’t bite Ты for having dared to share with me some of your wisdom....” she taunted good-humorously “I promise....”
She heard her taking a deep, long breath, which gave her the funny feeling of having just set up some sort of time-bomb she was unaware of; или better having just incautiously stepped into a landmine.
“Well, I just don’t want to see Ты two going back to your...old ways that’s all I guess...”
Lisa slid one hand through her hair, pushing it backwards over the forehead “Our old ways?!”
“You know....I wish Ты just talk for real this time...”
“It’s what tonight is all about Karen, I told Ты from the beginning....kidding aside, we...”
“I don’t mean just tonight, или tomorrow...”
Shazam pulled Kaplw’s tail. He stood up and Lisa rolled on her stomach, lifting up her claves.
“What do Ты mean, not just tonight или tomorrow?”
“What I said” she сказал(-а) drily “It’s not a short term kind of talk I’m talking about...but еще like in the long run...” she trailed off.
Lisa wavered for a few секунды unsure on what she was hitting at.
“There’s not...so much to say after all” she сказал(-а) at last “I mean, I know he...cares....and...I just do ...as well” she сказал(-а) simply.
“Yeah I know” Karen pressed on “But maybe it’s time to find out whether Ты two are finally are standing on the same page, wishing for the very same stuff....don’t Ты think?”
Lisa rolled back on her back “I’m not sure I’m seeing your point...” she confessed “I think I can safely say that both the Цветы and the note spoke from themselves, Ты know....he still wants me, and I think that on my behalf having adm...”
Karen shifted backwards on the chair “I’m sure he does. I mean, it’s crystal clear he does. The Вопрос is for though...whether Ты too are ready to go whole hog with this...for real I mean”
“Me?!” she asked, surprised. She heard her snorting again, loudly, fairly annoyed even if in a teasing sort of way “Ok, ok...sorry, not making useless, rhetorical, questions...but...You think I’m not?”
Karen softened her tone “Liz, it’s just that...I keep listening to Ты telling me how sweet he is, how smart he is, how gentle and funny...how much Ты like spending time with him...Hugh here and Hugh there...I’ve never heard Ты babbling so much over Petri или even Giammario...”Lisa licked her lips blushing “...but in all these years and even tonight...I’ve never heard Ты be ready to say it...”
“What should I say?”
It was funny, ‘cause Karen hadn’t сказал(-а) a word yet but from the way her сердце had just leapt in her chest as soon as she had asked she could swear she wouldn’t be a Фан of the answer.
“Are Ты in Любовь with him или not?”
Музыка at the airport lounge bar was being piped in at a maddening low volume and this wasn’t certainly the LAX so the at-times-insufferably-annoying-buzz in the background of the busy coming and going of people hurtling anxiously from one point to another was basically non-existent.
Hugh didn’t have to look around much to find who he was supposed to meet. He could have singled her out among thousands. Lawyers looked all the same: it was just something in the attitude, especially when they were flying around for business.
And women made no exception.
She reached her hand out to shake his and flicked her eyes down at the high-chair in front of hers with a courteous smile and an inviting gesture of her hand, as she took a napkin out of her purse.
Hugh kept quiet, sitting down.
“I hope our secretaries apologized to Ты Sir.” she started as she snapped open the catches of her attaché case “I mean, on the studio’s behalf of course, for the short notice on which this meeting has been arranged”
She took some files out of it and began flipping through them, quickly.
Hugh cleared his throat keeping his eyes slightly down as he looked everywhere around but at her “Yeah they did so....”
“And I apologize for having dragged Ты here, but my flight takes off in 40 минуты and check-in and boarding should start any time...”
Hugh sighed, wiggling on his chair rather uncomfortably. He leaned over, lowering his tone as he looked at his folded hands.
“I know. But I’d rather still wait and talk to Фред about this matter though....”
The woman lifted her eyes up at him then. They were round and of a pale shade of grey; a cold one, but nevertheless it didn’t take them much to make him come to mind hers.
She smiled politely, slightly turning to face him “Mr. Laurie, I know you’d rather such delicate matter to be taken care of exclusively by someone you’ve been trusting one-hundred percent for years already...”
Hugh nodded keeping serious “Indeed. I intend no offense to your professionalism Miss, but Ты understand...”
“I certainly do” she told him “But I can assure you, I’ll deal with it using the utmost discretion and my Studio wouldn’t have handed your file to me if there hadn’t been quite an....” she paused as if she was weighting up her words “...impediment which needed to be sorted out right away. The fastest, the better. And the only way they could be sure of it was using me as an intermediate, since I happened to be in the area on a business trip. Фред couldn’t leave the country now, so they faxed....”
Hugh lifted his eyes up, staring at her wide-eyed, his mind still processing “...impediment? I thought your people сказал(-а) it was about some procedural difficulties we needed to discuss?”
She pressed he lips together in a tight line hinting at a little smile and reached for the folder she had singled out among her papers.
“I think....they might have gilded the pill a little bit..” she сказал(-а) in an attempt to ease his tension with a lame euphemism. She didn’t succeed. “Besides, Ты understand, our policy is obviously aimed to keep the utmost discretion. We haven’t the habit of talking such delicate matters on the ph...”
“So what this is really about?”
Again she smiled, politely; but it was forced “It’s all here” she сказал(-а) patting on the folder now lying in front of her “I trust Ты understand this requires Ты to...”
Hugh’s eyes slid down over it briefly “Which kind of impediment are we talking about?” he asked her abruptly lowing his tone once again “I mean, are we talking my wife holding a grudge against me, are we talking Фред suggesting me to take things slower...” she took a sheet out of the folder as he talked “....or just press being about to rip my image off...’cause if that’s the case I already....”
“This is what we are talking about” she said, letting the sheet slide under his eyes.
He stared down at it and blood flushed to his head.
It was not a sheet.
It was a picture.
“You see this is exactly what I was talking about....”
Lisa’s mouth was hanging open. She had lifted up sitting crossed-legged “Karen it’s...I mean...” she stalled “You can’t possibly be serious...it’s...we haven’t even talked to each other yet...and you’re asking me....what....we just had a....thing this summer, how am I suppose to....”
“You do. Ты know Ты do...”
Lisa took a deep breath, fiddling with her nails.
“You know Ты do” Karen insisted “You’re just not willing to say it out loud. Not yet...”
Lisa shook her head, however unconvincingly; even for her “That’s not the point...”
But Karen wasn’t listening или she wasn’t just giving any credit to her words on purpose ‘cause she kept on as if she hadn’t even spoken “...and I wonder whether this is because Ты just wished he would say it first, или in truth, Ты haven’t realized how much this decision Ты just took is gonna be a deadly serious turn-over...for both of you...”
Lisa grumbled lightly “Karen, Ты think I don’t know the stakes at risk? Really?” she asked taken aback “What do Ты think I’ve been procrastinated for all these months?”
Karen kept quiet again for a bunch of seconds, pondering.
“What I think is that Ты didn’t ask yourself what Ты REALLY want from this relationship, in first place, honestly...” she сказал(-а) “You’re ready to rush headlong into it once again, but you’re still having a hard time admitting to yourself WHY is that...”
Lisa looked down at her legs, pensively.
“What difference does it make whether I say it или not?” she asked in soft voice after a while “I care and I need him in my life. That’s all matters. The rest...” she paused, shrugging lightly “We’re not just there yet...”
Karen shook her head, firmly “You’re wrong. Ты ARE” she told her gently “You WERE already. Back then if Ты ask me...you just didn’t...”
Lisa scoffed “You don’t know what you’re talking about....back then it was...” but she trailed off feeling suddenly a faint veil of sadness she couldn’t make sense of descending upon her.
“Back then, was....back then...” Karen сказал(-а) “Now is now”
Lisa scratched softly on her shoulder and remained pensive, resting her chin on the back of her hand.
“Liz, listen to me. Maybe last time put Ты off еще than Ты would have ever expected it to and I’m sorry it did. I wish I could do еще than just....giving Ты crappy, wordy Совет here, but Ты HAVE to ask yourself what Ты REALLY want at some point....and Ты better ask him, ‘cause otherwise you’ll just get back to your old ways, doing the same mistakes over and over again....”
Lisa lifted her head up “Mistakes?!” she asked incredulous “You think I’m making a mistake?” she pinched her tone higher “You think Ты could have mentioned it a little bit earlier, at a convenient time maybe?! Before I threw mys...”
“No no no, wait a секунда here” Karen lifted up a leg, bending it on the chair. She lifted a thumb up “First of all. It’s not my choice. It’s yours and you’ve your reasons, so why should it make any difference whether I approve wholeheartedly или not?”
“Well you’re my sister, I...”
“Nah, nah, nah, nah. Ты know it’s not that. You’ve the courage of your own choices when Ты want and this one makes no exception and that’s it. Feelings are yours, not mine....” Lisa looked right in front of her, at her image in the mirror, with faint scowl on her face “And secondly...no. I don’t think you’re making a mistake”
She pursued her lips for a секунда “Then why are you...?”
“I AM” Karen cut her off once еще “...’cause I wonder whether you’re truly prepared to face it all up: his marriage, the kids, the colleagues stuff....I mean, one thing is throwing yourself into it ‘cause Ты can’t take it anymore and just need the other person in your life...giving in to it just because we’re what we are, soul and flesh - and this is one side of the matter” Lisa didn’t know why but she felt suddenly vaguely guilty “ANOTHER is keeping yourself stubbornly unaware of the reason Ты can’t help wanting them to be a part of it”
Karen paused for a little longer this time and Lisa started to play with the fluff of the blanket rolling it up into little balls, pensive, fighting over the impulse to end this conversation and just living one день at the time.
They hadn’t even talked yet and her i-phone kept on not lighting up.
They had barely touched for God’s sake.
Even if when they had....
She felt blood rushing to her head.
“This is not just a recurrent fling...”she сказал(-а) with a small voice eventually “I do care about him...you know I do”
“I know Ты do” Karen сказал(-а) “And I’m sure he does to. And believe me hun, I totally relate to your feelings...and he just have this way of always winning your сердце back over and over again with all these lovely little things he does.....and I understand why Ты can’t help but falling for it, but...”
Lisa tensed “I did’t fall for....anything” she сказал(-а) with a little еще annoyance in her voice than she was intending to.
“I didn’t me...”
“...and what’s wrong with what he did anyway?” Lisa asked then “What’s wrong in getting a little flattered?” She couldn’t help casting another quick look at the alarm.
“Liz...” Karen told her calmly “I don’t think you’re naive или vain или anything....You know I don’t...all I’m saying...”
She stopped mid-sentence.
Someone was calling her name.
“So that’s it? I’m stuck?” Hugh asked keeping on staring down at the picture scattered on the таблица “Screwed for life with this?”
He looked up at her, hoping this was just a very bad dream.
She kept serious this time, no smile whatsoever “I’m not here to tell suggest Ты a long term procedural course Sir; my colleagues will advise Ты properly onto the best strategy you’ll be recommended to pursue”
He averted his eyes, licking his lips and nodded ostentatiously. He loathed when they started talking like that; and this was exactly why he wished a friend like Фред would have been here right now.
“I know this is annoying Sir, and I know you’d like to have some Ответы but I have any at the moment but the ones concerning this matter” she сказал(-а) firmly.
Hugh sighed, as his eyes wandered around the place unable to memorize any details “Which are?”
She disentangled her legs, took off her edge-cut, black glasses and put them away in their leather case “You need to get rid of it all” she сказал(-а) standing up already. Hugh lifted his eyes up. He hadn’t even noticed. The speakerphone must have been calling her flight “My office thinks keeping things under wraps by reaching a convenient agreement for both parts before getting to a real litigation is the best thing to do right now. We’ll deal with the aftermath later” Hugh let himself drop backwards on the chair” How had he ended up putting himself into such a mess?
“But most of all” she added lining up the pictures and putting them back into their carpet “Don’t do expose yourself in any way with your private life right now. No slips are allowed at this stage if Ты want to keep this landmine from blowing up”
She hold out her hand, ready to leave and Hugh stood up, not even closely ready to call this meeting off yet, but choice was one of the things he was short of apparently at the moment “My office will get in touch with Ты soon” she сказал(-а) busily smiling again.
Hugh shook her hand, unwillingly.
Lisa’s fingers kept playing with the embroidery of blanket, as she tried to not let Karen’s words getting too her too much. However they were already bouncing around in her head and she knew she wouldn’t get rid of the anytime soon.
And Hugh hand’t called her yet.
“Listen, sweetheart, I don’t want to be a party pooper here. I’m sorry. Just....”
She heard Carl’s voice. Then the хлопать, привкус of a little Kiss on the lips.
“Hi Liz!” he shouted in the receiver.
“Hi Carl...” she answered back, flatly.
Karen whispered something to him, but she couldn’t make the words out. The whisper ceased and she heard Karen’s hurried steps squeaking on the wooden floor of her living room; then a door yanking closed.
“Liz...you still there?”
She took a deep breath “Mmm...”
“I do have to go now, but seriously Liz...just talk to him” she told her in a concerned tone “For real. Once and for all. Don’t just” she paused “....go back....well, sleeping with him”
Lisa lifted her head up, gaping, blood rushing through her veins for a very different reason this time “Sleeping with him?!” she couldn’t believe her ears. Of all the people, Karen was the last one she thought could ever possibly judge her.
“I don’t mean it in a bad way...You know I would never” she told her seriously “But if you’re not honest with each other on what Ты both truly want out of this thing and expect from each other, it’s not gonna...”
She stopped.
“Yes sweetie, I can’t wait to know all about it. Hold on a second, I’m talking to Aunt Liz...be right there....”
Lisa casted another quick glance at herself in the mirror.
She wished he would have called her already. That would have made her feel so much better....
“If Ты don’t open up to each other completely...” Karen kept on, abruptly from where she had left “...I mean whatever happens between Ты two, Ты better be sure you’ll decide to...compromise in the same way...”
Lisa frowned again, but she was starting to lose her wits now “Compromise Karen? Ты serious?! Ты think he’ll ever do this to me?! That Hugh would ever ask me such thing?! Ты think he’ll ever hedge his bets again? On purpose?”
“Liz, calm down. I don’t think anything close to that. But perhaps Ты think the man has changed altogether and maybe even grown way spunkier - and possibly he has somehow - but Любовь is down to earth, not heaven...”
She scoffed “What’s with these ready-made phrases all of a sudden....”
But Karen ignored again “He might have changed to some extent Liz and maybe he did it ‘cause he wants you, but he’s always the same man too...he has his flaws...he’ll always have...I just want Ты to be aware of that”
Lisa shook her head, as if she didn’t know where Karen had taken that idea from “I never сказал(-а) I want him to be different....I never asked for such a thing...He’s who he’s, I know that...”
“I know Ты think Ты do, but there will come a time Ты won’t feel just as confident about it anymore. There might be stuff coming along Ты won’t know how to handle или how you’re supposed to feel about....you’ll feel stressed out, probably expecting from him еще than he can possibly give you. I know Ты Liz...and this is exactly why Любовь is a matter of choice...”
“You think I don’t know what...love is about?” she сказал(-а) with a slight hesitation.
“No of course not...” Karen told her caringly “But I also think Ты never committed to someone the way you’re supposed to commit to this relationship if Ты want to give it a real shot....”
Lisa stood up on her feet then, beginning to pace. She rubbed her lips together, moistening them quickly with the tip of her tongue. Karen was seriously starting to make her losing it this time “Let me get this straight” she сказал(-а) nervously sliding a hand through her hair “FIRST Ты talk me off to death so I reconsider my poor lack of judgement for keeping him at arm-length and THEN Ты get me down to death after psyching me out for an час with no purpose at all than telling me subtly it’s not even worth it?!”
There was a long silence then, one of those during which she could just heard the sound of her heartbeat slowly increasing in her chest. And it was 8.00 pm already.
“You don’t get it....” Karen told her at last “I DO think it is. I think Ты two are totally worth it. I think HE IS totally worth it too...ALL OF IT IS. What Ты have it’s ....the way he looks at you, the way Ты understand each other... Ты should totally seize this ball...”
Lisa stopped pacing and tossed he head backwards, slightly exasperated at this point “Oh Karen!! Then why....”
“It’s not me Lisa! It’s you!!”
She goggled, her jaw dropping down “Me?! How can it possibly be me Karen, you’re driving me nuts, damn it!
Karen pinched her voice higher too “’cause Ты don’t seem to know it yet Liz!!!”
Lisa closed her mouth, frowning “What?”
“Oh Liz...do Ты know how much this is totally worth it?! How much it will always be, despite of all the little bumps in the road you’ll have to overcome или you’ll end up throwing it all away once еще one day?”
Lisa gaped at the phone, narrowing her eyes “You’re blaming me?! I didn’t throw it away! He had a wife!!”
“He still does Liz! Get over it!! Even if he divorces one day, he’ll always have a wife, he’ll always have kids and he’ll always have a family besides you!!!A life Ты haven’t belonged to! A past!!! And so do you!! You’re not a blank page!!!”
Lisa’s lips pressed in a tight line “Ok, that’s it. I give up. Ты wanna fight? Be my guest, but I’m not playing this game” she сказал(-а) scornfully “I don’t know what’s your problem is with me tonight Karen, but I won’t be standing here letting Ты spoil my mood. It’s getting late, the phone has been busy for over an час and if Hugh calls...”
“Just do me a little favour...” Karen told her before she could finish and hung up on her.
Lisa took a deep breath.
“Will you?” she prompted gently.
She snorted “Which one?”
“Just...ask yourself what kind of ride you’re in for and ask him to jump in on the same one...and just don’t...”
She could help herself “Wasn’t it just one favour?” she asked annoyed.
Karen spoke to her gently again “Just another little one”
She sighed “Go ahead”
“Don’t ask him for the moon. One gets what life brings...which doesn’t mean you’re meant to compromise as in ‘be sadly content with the best Ты can do или have’, but just...well, make it work. Work on it. Live it in real life, without setting up standards to meet up; because дана your life, the world Ты live in, your job, your age...everything about your lifestyle...it wouldn’t work anyway. Again...it doesn’t have to be perfect, but it can be real...and if Ты get lucky...” she trailed off.
Lisa stood silent for a while then, just wishing she could find something to say that would invalid Karen’s argument; but she just could not.
“If Ты chose him Liz...you’ll never have a normal life, Ты just know that” Lisa kept quiet “But Ты might end up having so much еще than that... it’s just a matter of choice. I can’t tell Ты what do to, but Ты just ask yourself what kind of thing Ты want to settle for and...go for it, that’s the best Совет I can give you....”
Lisa sighed and then keeping her head down she peered at herself in the mirror bottom to вверх one еще time. Deep down inside she knew she was right: she knew she can’t possibly go backwards and settle for the kind of thing they had shared last summer, and something kept telling her he didn’t certainly want that, that he cared so much more, that he would never....but did he really? или they would have ended up stuck into this never-ending dance until they got tired of each other?
“You still Любовь me right?” Karen asked her eventually in a loving way.
She smiled with pressed lips “I hope I won’t be charged with a full-fare at least....”
Karen chuckled “I might Ты a little allowance...”
Lisa caught sight of the flashing, red light of the alarm in the reflection of the mirror. Perhaps it was really time she just took her leap, on her own, with no Фан guard under her feet, and saw what happened. What could possibly go wrong? She knew he cared, didn’t she?
She lifted her eyebrows “Same time, Далее week?”
Karen smiled “Of course....anytime”
He had always thought the only good thing about being an extra-paid actor– the only positive aspect that outrun the fact that money made along with his role made him insufferably famous – was that it allowed him to buy things he wouldn’t been able to keep under wraps otherwise.
Turned out he was wrong.
There was only so much money can get rid of.
But the rest would be just as messy as for everybody else.He seized his phone and before starting up, he dialled her number one еще time.
It was still busy so this time he ended up leaving a message. It wasn’t a день full of maybe possibilities: he had to be content with what his luck offered him at the moment.
He wondered which luck....
“Hi Liz. It’s me. I’m sorry, you’re hearing from me so late” he said, resting вперед on the handlebar “I tried to reach Ты earlier but Ты must have been on the phone...ehm...” he looked at up at the sky as breathed failed him a little “....anyway, I wished I could have just apologized to Ты for not having called Ты anymore. I’ve been...” he paused, taking in the faintly cold air of the late evening “...shooting didn’t finish as early as I thought” he lied feeling horrible for it already “....and I just had to take care of something first” he scratched his forehead. He felt confused and he wished he could have just talked to her already.He licked his lips, pensively. He ought to tell her. He couldn’t possibly do this to her, drag her again into it without at least telling her. He was being egoistic enough already.
“There’s something I’d like to talk to Ты about Liz” he told seriously to her voice mail “...something I think” he hesitated “...anyway, I’ll try to call Ты later. It’s nothing we should discuss by phone” he sighed and unexpectedly the desire to just tell her how he felt simply took him over, so he made a hazard “I just wish I could have....”
He heard a fast, triple beeping in his ear so he moved the phone away. He started down at it thunderstruck until it exhaled its last breath no еще than two секунды after.
He rubbed his face.
Someone must have fucking gotta be kidding him.....
He grunted loudly then, thrusting it away in his pocket “I just wish I could have fucking just hear Ты voice...”
He wore his шлем and started the bike, the angry roar of the engine fitting his current mood quite perfectly now.
“....and possibly fucking tell Ты how much I wanted to be with Ты rather than stuck in this fucking airport talking this bloody stuff....”
And then he sped away thinking things couldn’t get any worse today, for sure. He had reached the bottom.
или did he?
Lisa looked down at her hands, the phone held tightly inside them beeping up back at her, just waiting for someone to dial a number on it. She took a deep breath and finally talked herself into doing it.
She held her breath, waiting anxiously, mentally revising what she would tell him. She had already did it dozens of time, but she kept changing the words in her head, rethinking it all and she was worryingly sure she would end up empty-headed once he would answer.
“Hi...”
Her сердце leapt “Hi Hugh, sorry...”
“...you’re currently talking to me voicemail....” Lisa sighed halfway between a little bit disappointed and relieved though. She thought her сердце was about to burst out of her chest when she had heard his voice. Anyway she couldn’t force herself into hanging up “I can’t answer Ты right now....or possibly my phone died on me ....or I might not have it with me at the moment, which I understand is just a nonsense since this devilish device is meant to be portable...” her lips pressed into a little smile of amusement and she shook her head, laughing quietly “ ...but anyway...here Ты are trying to get an answer from a taped voice, which is in turn quite not very normal, so please leave a message. I’ll get to Ты as soon as possible. Bye”
She hung up rolling her eyes, then she became pensive, evaluating a new option. She looked down at Kapow and Shazam. They stopped playing with their ball and looked up at her too.
“Well, I can be subtle about it...can I?”
She pressed her lips and dialled again.
“FOX Телевидение Studios” a voice answered busily.
“Jeff it’s me....Lisa”
“Miss Edelstein, how can I help you?”
Lisa sighed “First of all, how many times did I tell Ты to call me using my fist name Jess? Would Ты please just stop that? We’re the same age for God’s sake...”
Jeff laughed “Sorry Miss, I just can’t talk myself into doing it....”
“It’s ridiculous, we’ve known each other for years already...how much is still supposed to pass?” she teased.
“I’ll do my best. I promise” he told her amused “I’ll try to be less respectful Далее time, calling Ты pal или sis, is that ok?”
“Much better” she сказал(-а) happily.
He chuckled “So, what can I do for you?”
“Oh nothing special, I just....” she pulled her hair to one side of her neck, with a quick movement “I was just wondering whether the others had already finished with the shooting that’s all...”
“They finished an час или so I guess....” he told her casually.
She frowned, taken aback “Oh...I thought, I mean....I didn’t think they would end up so early...” she bit her lips.
“You forgot something on set?”
“No, no, nothing like that....I just....I just needed...well, I hoped I could talk to Hugh for a second” she сказал(-а) without thinking “Never mind, I’ll reach him home...”
“Mr Laurie? I don’t know. He might still be around...perhaps in his trailer, I can check if Ты wish...”
“No, Jess never mind, really it’s not....”
“Hold on a секунда miss. Mike is telling me something....”
Lisa waited. There was no need to feel disappointed. It was just an hour. Maybe he was stuck in the traffic; maybe he was having a drink somewhere, hanging out with the crew. perhaps he...
“Miss?”
“Jeff it’s ok, even if he still around...just don’t. There’s no rush really, I’ll give him a buzz when he gets Главная thanks”
“No it’s just that he’s not home. Mike just told me. We switched turns only a минута назад so I have no idea. He says he went picking up his wife so you’d better call him on his cell. She didn’t land at LAX this time though so it might take him a little more...”
He waited.
“Miss? Lisa?!”
He lifted his eyebrows and hung up, shrugging.
Mike pushed the door open, looking at him“What?”
Jeff rubbed his neck, yawning “Nothing. She must have hung up before I got to the wife part....”
Lights were all turned off but the ones outside and those at the bottom of the swimming pool, enlightening with a green-sapphire kind of light the water, barely rippled by the rhythmic movement of his feet slowly snipping out of the edge, as he waited – или better hoped, once again, possibly foolishly he knew that - for this one to be magically picked up. Predictably, though, after the umpteenth ring, it sent him to voicemail, once again.
He looked ahead of himself towards the trees “Liz...it’s me...once again yeah” he сказал(-а) blankly with a slight hint of self-mockery in his tone “I’m sorry I’m calling Ты again, really... I just....well, Ты must have turned down the ringtone I guess ‘cause otherwise I would be truly annoying the hell out of Ты now, weren’t I?”
He waited, as if he expected someone to suddenly reassure him he wasn’t.
He sighed standing suddenly up on his feet “Anyway....I hope Ты just went to постель, кровати at some point and Ты aren’t instead just....impossibly mad at me” he сказал(-а) a bit woefully, as he paced head-down up and down the lane “I did want to call you, Liz. I just....” he paused weighting his words “I just couldn’t make it on time...”
He rubbed his nape, keeping quiet.
“I missed Ты today....”
He bit his upper lip. Nothing from the other side. Not a noise
“...at work I mean”
He wondered what kind of noise he expected to hear really, since he was talking to a voicemail by himself...
He straightened up clearing his throat “Well, anyway...ehm...I also called again ‘cause David called. He arranged a morning meeting at the Studios to discuss some promotional stuff for Далее год before the others leave....asking whether we can Показать up as well even if it’s nothing we aren’t already aware of but since no one knows...” he stopped. He wasn’t sure it was the right time to mention it.
“Well...we are supposed to be there by noon” he kicked a stone away “Well, I just figured Ты didn’t know, since...well Ты know....all the not-picking-up-above-mentioned-stuff-I-hope-has-nothing-to-do-with-me-specifically” he сказал(-а) in one single breath.
He sighed and walked up to the window switching down the outside lights “Good night Liz, I’ll see Ты tomorrow....” he paused “I’m sorry. Bye”
Lights were all turned off.
Nothing moved, but the dogs’ chests rhythmically going up and down with their quiet breathing in the dusk of her bedroom. Lisa made herself tinier on the armchair, bending her legs tighter against her chest, her eyes still fixed on the speaker which had just gone quiet. Something pushed to get out of her chest, but she fought it back closing her eyes tightly.
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Previously on December/December:
A bunch of секунды later he was making it as fast as he could through the parking lot. He jumped on his bike, шлем in his hands already. He paused for a moment, thinking, licking his lips.
He tried one last time.
Still busy.
“Damn it...”
Well the best he could do if he got still time was keeping on calling until she would hang up.
The engine roared to life and he swung his bike along, brainstorming for something to tell her that would actually made some sense. That needed to be conceived carefully.
Damn it...
He hated having to lie to her, let alone the chance of letting her down или something.
He closed the choke fully and eased the throttle, shifting his weight вперед as soon as the front wheel hit the road out of the parking area.
Why did always events run in packs?
Damn it...
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Lisa laughed jovially “I don’t know....” she stooped slightly before the mirror flipping her hair back with one hand “I mean we barely managed to have a moment alone...”
“Alone huh?”
“Stop it Karen...” she giggled, looking sideways at her figure “We hadn’t even tried to sneak out of sight if that’s what you’re implying....”
She rubbed her hands down her hips: had she gained some weight since the last time she had worn this one? Did it always suit her this way?
“We aren’t even there yet...” she added
Karen smirked “You putting on some sexy stuff though, aren’t you?”
Lisa smiled widely “Ok, stop it! Right now!” she could totally picture her smiling mischievously on the other side “This is not meant to be a seduction-operation...we’re meant to talk....just talk” she repeated.
She rubbed her lips together to spread the transparent shiny gloss she had just put on.
“Yeah right...” Karen mocked her “’Cause Ты DIDN’T in fact already happened to have picked up a casual but-not-so-casual dress out of your wardrobe and Ты AREN’T in fact right now grovelling before a mirror like a щенок waiting for his ужин to be ready....” she trailed off knowingly
Lisa straightened up, gaping at the phone “Karen!!!” Karen burst out laughing “Ok, first of all....I’m not grovelling....and secondly....”
She frowned, stopping abruptly.
Karen prompted her amused, defiantly “And secondly?”
Lisa chewed her lips a little bit, pouting “Ok, there’s no секунда point.....” Karen giggled “...anyway what are you...spying on me?!”
“Ahahah, no well...I just happen to know Ты a little bit too well my dear....”
Lisa shook her head, sighing “You certainly do....” she admitted.
She casted another brief glance at the alarm on her bed-table. He would call. He would totally do that. She just had to be patient and get distracted. She let herself fall down on her постель, кровати and sat crossed-legged on it. Kapow leapt on and went crouching at her side, resting his muzzle on her knees. She started petting him
Karen kept quiet for a while. It wasn’t unusual. She often called her just for the sake of it, and sometimes they even ended up just making each other some company just holding on like that, in silence.
She must have sensed she could use some company today....
However this wasn’t the case.
“You sure Ты know what you’re doing right?” Karen asked her straight out with a very different tone all of a sudden.
Lisa rolled her eyes and pushed herself backwards over the surface of the bed, leaning against the head. She should have seen this coming; as much as Karen usually was the one pushing her forward, she was also the one always checking on her to be one hundred percent sure of the choices she made. Impulsive as she sounded, she was anything but.
“You think I haven’t asked myself the same thing?” Lisa asked her back, reassuringly.
Karen hesitated for a трещина, сплит second.
“No, I’m sure Ты did....” she сказал(-а) “I just....well, I was wondering whether Ты TRULY have thought it through....not just tonight или tomorrow. I mean...like...what you’ll be...” she paused “...facing up...along time...”
Lisa frowned, a little blissful smile still so unconsciously dancing on her lips. It hadn’t faded away all день “You mean because of his marriage?” Karen didn’t answer “Well...” she kept on scratching lightly under Kapow’s ear “...we already talked about it...and I remember someone talking my head off last time on how much of a coward I was being....” she teased good-humoured.
She sensed her smiling, but her tone didn’t change much “Point taken. Let sleeping Собаки lie...” Lisa licked her lips: she wasn’t sure she could have kept it dull for much longer anyway, whether Karen had pushed her to think about it или not.
“It’s all his fault anyway....” Lisa сказал(-а) nonchalantly at some point “Hadn’t he been so damn....” She felt her check flushed up “...adorable......wasn’t he always...” she added with a loving smile “...so adorable...”
Karen сказал(-а) nothing.
“You still there?” Lisa asked her perplexed after a while.
“Yeah, sure. I was just listening...”
After a bunch of секунды though she heard her sighing “Actually Liz...what I’m asking Ты is...” she hesitated “....you really have weighted all the consequences, right? Like...this is a decision that, for better или for worse, might change your life upside down altogether....you know that right?”
Lisa wiggled down, nestling her head backwards between the cushions “You think I don’t know that?”
She glanced stealthy at the alarm one еще time: 7.15.
Karen exhaled noisily “Just STOP answering my concerns adding up to them useless, rhetorical questions, will you?”
Lisa chuckled quietly, fiddling with a lock of hair “You worried he’s gonna hurt me?”
“Well....yeah of course, but...as strange as it might sound what he might do или not, it’s not my main concern right now....”
Lisa pouted, frowning mildly “Who is then?”
Karen hesitated again “You”
“Me?!”
“I’m еще worried about....you know....you never gave him a real chance to....well, seriously put it all out on the table...”
“Me?!”
Karen snorted “Would Ты just stop that? Yes YOU! Who else Ты see involved in this twisted, friendly-flirty relationship Ты two have set out?!”
Lisa opened her mouth to speak.
“Never mind...” Karen cut her short “My bad....rephrasing...” L
isa shut her mouth closed.
“What I meant was...you two never really have a talk about anything. Together, I mean. Planned something....had a real...well, yeah....a conversation”
Lisa rubbed her lips, slightly amused at this point “Karen I’m just not following you....could Ты please just speak English and stop fumbling with your own words. Ты remind me of Hugh really....”
Karen chewed her lips.
She sighed “Karen come on, speak your mind. What is that you’re really worried about? I won’t bite Ты for having dared to share with me some of your wisdom....” she taunted good-humorously “I promise....”
She heard her taking a deep, long breath, which gave her the funny feeling of having just set up some sort of time-bomb she was unaware of; или better having just incautiously stepped into a landmine.
“Well, I just don’t want to see Ты two going back to your...old ways that’s all I guess...”
Lisa slid one hand through her hair, pushing it backwards over the forehead “Our old ways?!”
“You know....I wish Ты just talk for real this time...”
“It’s what tonight is all about Karen, I told Ты from the beginning....kidding aside, we...”
“I don’t mean just tonight, или tomorrow...”
Shazam pulled Kaplw’s tail. He stood up and Lisa rolled on her stomach, lifting up her claves.
“What do Ты mean, not just tonight или tomorrow?”
“What I said” she сказал(-а) drily “It’s not a short term kind of talk I’m talking about...but еще like in the long run...” she trailed off.
Lisa wavered for a few секунды unsure on what she was hitting at.
“There’s not...so much to say after all” she сказал(-а) at last “I mean, I know he...cares....and...I just do ...as well” she сказал(-а) simply.
“Yeah I know” Karen pressed on “But maybe it’s time to find out whether Ты two are finally are standing on the same page, wishing for the very same stuff....don’t Ты think?”
Lisa rolled back on her back “I’m not sure I’m seeing your point...” she confessed “I think I can safely say that both the Цветы and the note spoke from themselves, Ты know....he still wants me, and I think that on my behalf having adm...”
Karen shifted backwards on the chair “I’m sure he does. I mean, it’s crystal clear he does. The Вопрос is for though...whether Ты too are ready to go whole hog with this...for real I mean”
“Me?!” she asked, surprised. She heard her snorting again, loudly, fairly annoyed even if in a teasing sort of way “Ok, ok...sorry, not making useless, rhetorical, questions...but...You think I’m not?”
Karen softened her tone “Liz, it’s just that...I keep listening to Ты telling me how sweet he is, how smart he is, how gentle and funny...how much Ты like spending time with him...Hugh here and Hugh there...I’ve never heard Ты babbling so much over Petri или even Giammario...”Lisa licked her lips blushing “...but in all these years and even tonight...I’ve never heard Ты be ready to say it...”
“What should I say?”
It was funny, ‘cause Karen hadn’t сказал(-а) a word yet but from the way her сердце had just leapt in her chest as soon as she had asked she could swear she wouldn’t be a Фан of the answer.
“Are Ты in Любовь with him или not?”
Музыка at the airport lounge bar was being piped in at a maddening low volume and this wasn’t certainly the LAX so the at-times-insufferably-annoying-buzz in the background of the busy coming and going of people hurtling anxiously from one point to another was basically non-existent.
Hugh didn’t have to look around much to find who he was supposed to meet. He could have singled her out among thousands. Lawyers looked all the same: it was just something in the attitude, especially when they were flying around for business.
And women made no exception.
She reached her hand out to shake his and flicked her eyes down at the high-chair in front of hers with a courteous smile and an inviting gesture of her hand, as she took a napkin out of her purse.
Hugh kept quiet, sitting down.
“I hope our secretaries apologized to Ты Sir.” she started as she snapped open the catches of her attaché case “I mean, on the studio’s behalf of course, for the short notice on which this meeting has been arranged”
She took some files out of it and began flipping through them, quickly.
Hugh cleared his throat keeping his eyes slightly down as he looked everywhere around but at her “Yeah they did so....”
“And I apologize for having dragged Ты here, but my flight takes off in 40 минуты and check-in and boarding should start any time...”
Hugh sighed, wiggling on his chair rather uncomfortably. He leaned over, lowering his tone as he looked at his folded hands.
“I know. But I’d rather still wait and talk to Фред about this matter though....”
The woman lifted her eyes up at him then. They were round and of a pale shade of grey; a cold one, but nevertheless it didn’t take them much to make him come to mind hers.
She smiled politely, slightly turning to face him “Mr. Laurie, I know you’d rather such delicate matter to be taken care of exclusively by someone you’ve been trusting one-hundred percent for years already...”
Hugh nodded keeping serious “Indeed. I intend no offense to your professionalism Miss, but Ты understand...”
“I certainly do” she told him “But I can assure you, I’ll deal with it using the utmost discretion and my Studio wouldn’t have handed your file to me if there hadn’t been quite an....” she paused as if she was weighting up her words “...impediment which needed to be sorted out right away. The fastest, the better. And the only way they could be sure of it was using me as an intermediate, since I happened to be in the area on a business trip. Фред couldn’t leave the country now, so they faxed....”
Hugh lifted his eyes up, staring at her wide-eyed, his mind still processing “...impediment? I thought your people сказал(-а) it was about some procedural difficulties we needed to discuss?”
She pressed he lips together in a tight line hinting at a little smile and reached for the folder she had singled out among her papers.
“I think....they might have gilded the pill a little bit..” she сказал(-а) in an attempt to ease his tension with a lame euphemism. She didn’t succeed. “Besides, Ты understand, our policy is obviously aimed to keep the utmost discretion. We haven’t the habit of talking such delicate matters on the ph...”
“So what this is really about?”
Again she smiled, politely; but it was forced “It’s all here” she сказал(-а) patting on the folder now lying in front of her “I trust Ты understand this requires Ты to...”
Hugh’s eyes slid down over it briefly “Which kind of impediment are we talking about?” he asked her abruptly lowing his tone once again “I mean, are we talking my wife holding a grudge against me, are we talking Фред suggesting me to take things slower...” she took a sheet out of the folder as he talked “....or just press being about to rip my image off...’cause if that’s the case I already....”
“This is what we are talking about” she said, letting the sheet slide under his eyes.
He stared down at it and blood flushed to his head.
It was not a sheet.
It was a picture.
“You see this is exactly what I was talking about....”
Lisa’s mouth was hanging open. She had lifted up sitting crossed-legged “Karen it’s...I mean...” she stalled “You can’t possibly be serious...it’s...we haven’t even talked to each other yet...and you’re asking me....what....we just had a....thing this summer, how am I suppose to....”
“You do. Ты know Ты do...”
Lisa took a deep breath, fiddling with her nails.
“You know Ты do” Karen insisted “You’re just not willing to say it out loud. Not yet...”
Lisa shook her head, however unconvincingly; even for her “That’s not the point...”
But Karen wasn’t listening или she wasn’t just giving any credit to her words on purpose ‘cause she kept on as if she hadn’t even spoken “...and I wonder whether this is because Ты just wished he would say it first, или in truth, Ты haven’t realized how much this decision Ты just took is gonna be a deadly serious turn-over...for both of you...”
Lisa grumbled lightly “Karen, Ты think I don’t know the stakes at risk? Really?” she asked taken aback “What do Ты think I’ve been procrastinated for all these months?”
Karen kept quiet again for a bunch of seconds, pondering.
“What I think is that Ты didn’t ask yourself what Ты REALLY want from this relationship, in first place, honestly...” she сказал(-а) “You’re ready to rush headlong into it once again, but you’re still having a hard time admitting to yourself WHY is that...”
Lisa looked down at her legs, pensively.
“What difference does it make whether I say it или not?” she asked in soft voice after a while “I care and I need him in my life. That’s all matters. The rest...” she paused, shrugging lightly “We’re not just there yet...”
Karen shook her head, firmly “You’re wrong. Ты ARE” she told her gently “You WERE already. Back then if Ты ask me...you just didn’t...”
Lisa scoffed “You don’t know what you’re talking about....back then it was...” but she trailed off feeling suddenly a faint veil of sadness she couldn’t make sense of descending upon her.
“Back then, was....back then...” Karen сказал(-а) “Now is now”
Lisa scratched softly on her shoulder and remained pensive, resting her chin on the back of her hand.
“Liz, listen to me. Maybe last time put Ты off еще than Ты would have ever expected it to and I’m sorry it did. I wish I could do еще than just....giving Ты crappy, wordy Совет here, but Ты HAVE to ask yourself what Ты REALLY want at some point....and Ты better ask him, ‘cause otherwise you’ll just get back to your old ways, doing the same mistakes over and over again....”
Lisa lifted her head up “Mistakes?!” she asked incredulous “You think I’m making a mistake?” she pinched her tone higher “You think Ты could have mentioned it a little bit earlier, at a convenient time maybe?! Before I threw mys...”
“No no no, wait a секунда here” Karen lifted up a leg, bending it on the chair. She lifted a thumb up “First of all. It’s not my choice. It’s yours and you’ve your reasons, so why should it make any difference whether I approve wholeheartedly или not?”
“Well you’re my sister, I...”
“Nah, nah, nah, nah. Ты know it’s not that. You’ve the courage of your own choices when Ты want and this one makes no exception and that’s it. Feelings are yours, not mine....” Lisa looked right in front of her, at her image in the mirror, with faint scowl on her face “And secondly...no. I don’t think you’re making a mistake”
She pursued her lips for a секунда “Then why are you...?”
“I AM” Karen cut her off once еще “...’cause I wonder whether you’re truly prepared to face it all up: his marriage, the kids, the colleagues stuff....I mean, one thing is throwing yourself into it ‘cause Ты can’t take it anymore and just need the other person in your life...giving in to it just because we’re what we are, soul and flesh - and this is one side of the matter” Lisa didn’t know why but she felt suddenly vaguely guilty “ANOTHER is keeping yourself stubbornly unaware of the reason Ты can’t help wanting them to be a part of it”
Karen paused for a little longer this time and Lisa started to play with the fluff of the blanket rolling it up into little balls, pensive, fighting over the impulse to end this conversation and just living one день at the time.
They hadn’t even talked yet and her i-phone kept on not lighting up.
They had barely touched for God’s sake.
Even if when they had....
She felt blood rushing to her head.
“This is not just a recurrent fling...”she сказал(-а) with a small voice eventually “I do care about him...you know I do”
“I know Ты do” Karen сказал(-а) “And I’m sure he does to. And believe me hun, I totally relate to your feelings...and he just have this way of always winning your сердце back over and over again with all these lovely little things he does.....and I understand why Ты can’t help but falling for it, but...”
Lisa tensed “I did’t fall for....anything” she сказал(-а) with a little еще annoyance in her voice than she was intending to.
“I didn’t me...”
“...and what’s wrong with what he did anyway?” Lisa asked then “What’s wrong in getting a little flattered?” She couldn’t help casting another quick look at the alarm.
“Liz...” Karen told her calmly “I don’t think you’re naive или vain или anything....You know I don’t...all I’m saying...”
She stopped mid-sentence.
Someone was calling her name.
“So that’s it? I’m stuck?” Hugh asked keeping on staring down at the picture scattered on the таблица “Screwed for life with this?”
He looked up at her, hoping this was just a very bad dream.
She kept serious this time, no smile whatsoever “I’m not here to tell suggest Ты a long term procedural course Sir; my colleagues will advise Ты properly onto the best strategy you’ll be recommended to pursue”
He averted his eyes, licking his lips and nodded ostentatiously. He loathed when they started talking like that; and this was exactly why he wished a friend like Фред would have been here right now.
“I know this is annoying Sir, and I know you’d like to have some Ответы but I have any at the moment but the ones concerning this matter” she сказал(-а) firmly.
Hugh sighed, as his eyes wandered around the place unable to memorize any details “Which are?”
She disentangled her legs, took off her edge-cut, black glasses and put them away in their leather case “You need to get rid of it all” she сказал(-а) standing up already. Hugh lifted his eyes up. He hadn’t even noticed. The speakerphone must have been calling her flight “My office thinks keeping things under wraps by reaching a convenient agreement for both parts before getting to a real litigation is the best thing to do right now. We’ll deal with the aftermath later” Hugh let himself drop backwards on the chair” How had he ended up putting himself into such a mess?
“But most of all” she added lining up the pictures and putting them back into their carpet “Don’t do expose yourself in any way with your private life right now. No slips are allowed at this stage if Ты want to keep this landmine from blowing up”
She hold out her hand, ready to leave and Hugh stood up, not even closely ready to call this meeting off yet, but choice was one of the things he was short of apparently at the moment “My office will get in touch with Ты soon” she сказал(-а) busily smiling again.
Hugh shook her hand, unwillingly.
Lisa’s fingers kept playing with the embroidery of blanket, as she tried to not let Karen’s words getting too her too much. However they were already bouncing around in her head and she knew she wouldn’t get rid of the anytime soon.
And Hugh hand’t called her yet.
“Listen, sweetheart, I don’t want to be a party pooper here. I’m sorry. Just....”
She heard Carl’s voice. Then the хлопать, привкус of a little Kiss on the lips.
“Hi Liz!” he shouted in the receiver.
“Hi Carl...” she answered back, flatly.
Karen whispered something to him, but she couldn’t make the words out. The whisper ceased and she heard Karen’s hurried steps squeaking on the wooden floor of her living room; then a door yanking closed.
“Liz...you still there?”
She took a deep breath “Mmm...”
“I do have to go now, but seriously Liz...just talk to him” she told her in a concerned tone “For real. Once and for all. Don’t just” she paused “....go back....well, sleeping with him”
Lisa lifted her head up, gaping, blood rushing through her veins for a very different reason this time “Sleeping with him?!” she couldn’t believe her ears. Of all the people, Karen was the last one she thought could ever possibly judge her.
“I don’t mean it in a bad way...You know I would never” she told her seriously “But if you’re not honest with each other on what Ты both truly want out of this thing and expect from each other, it’s not gonna...”
She stopped.
“Yes sweetie, I can’t wait to know all about it. Hold on a second, I’m talking to Aunt Liz...be right there....”
Lisa casted another quick glance at herself in the mirror.
She wished he would have called her already. That would have made her feel so much better....
“If Ты don’t open up to each other completely...” Karen kept on, abruptly from where she had left “...I mean whatever happens between Ты two, Ты better be sure you’ll decide to...compromise in the same way...”
Lisa frowned again, but she was starting to lose her wits now “Compromise Karen? Ты serious?! Ты think he’ll ever do this to me?! That Hugh would ever ask me such thing?! Ты think he’ll ever hedge his bets again? On purpose?”
“Liz, calm down. I don’t think anything close to that. But perhaps Ты think the man has changed altogether and maybe even grown way spunkier - and possibly he has somehow - but Любовь is down to earth, not heaven...”
She scoffed “What’s with these ready-made phrases all of a sudden....”
But Karen ignored again “He might have changed to some extent Liz and maybe he did it ‘cause he wants you, but he’s always the same man too...he has his flaws...he’ll always have...I just want Ты to be aware of that”
Lisa shook her head, as if she didn’t know where Karen had taken that idea from “I never сказал(-а) I want him to be different....I never asked for such a thing...He’s who he’s, I know that...”
“I know Ты think Ты do, but there will come a time Ты won’t feel just as confident about it anymore. There might be stuff coming along Ты won’t know how to handle или how you’re supposed to feel about....you’ll feel stressed out, probably expecting from him еще than he can possibly give you. I know Ты Liz...and this is exactly why Любовь is a matter of choice...”
“You think I don’t know what...love is about?” she сказал(-а) with a slight hesitation.
“No of course not...” Karen told her caringly “But I also think Ты never committed to someone the way you’re supposed to commit to this relationship if Ты want to give it a real shot....”
Lisa stood up on her feet then, beginning to pace. She rubbed her lips together, moistening them quickly with the tip of her tongue. Karen was seriously starting to make her losing it this time “Let me get this straight” she сказал(-а) nervously sliding a hand through her hair “FIRST Ты talk me off to death so I reconsider my poor lack of judgement for keeping him at arm-length and THEN Ты get me down to death after psyching me out for an час with no purpose at all than telling me subtly it’s not even worth it?!”
There was a long silence then, one of those during which she could just heard the sound of her heartbeat slowly increasing in her chest. And it was 8.00 pm already.
“You don’t get it....” Karen told her at last “I DO think it is. I think Ты two are totally worth it. I think HE IS totally worth it too...ALL OF IT IS. What Ты have it’s ....the way he looks at you, the way Ты understand each other... Ты should totally seize this ball...”
Lisa stopped pacing and tossed he head backwards, slightly exasperated at this point “Oh Karen!! Then why....”
“It’s not me Lisa! It’s you!!”
She goggled, her jaw dropping down “Me?! How can it possibly be me Karen, you’re driving me nuts, damn it!
Karen pinched her voice higher too “’cause Ты don’t seem to know it yet Liz!!!”
Lisa closed her mouth, frowning “What?”
“Oh Liz...do Ты know how much this is totally worth it?! How much it will always be, despite of all the little bumps in the road you’ll have to overcome или you’ll end up throwing it all away once еще one day?”
Lisa gaped at the phone, narrowing her eyes “You’re blaming me?! I didn’t throw it away! He had a wife!!”
“He still does Liz! Get over it!! Even if he divorces one day, he’ll always have a wife, he’ll always have kids and he’ll always have a family besides you!!!A life Ты haven’t belonged to! A past!!! And so do you!! You’re not a blank page!!!”
Lisa’s lips pressed in a tight line “Ok, that’s it. I give up. Ты wanna fight? Be my guest, but I’m not playing this game” she сказал(-а) scornfully “I don’t know what’s your problem is with me tonight Karen, but I won’t be standing here letting Ты spoil my mood. It’s getting late, the phone has been busy for over an час and if Hugh calls...”
“Just do me a little favour...” Karen told her before she could finish and hung up on her.
Lisa took a deep breath.
“Will you?” she prompted gently.
She snorted “Which one?”
“Just...ask yourself what kind of ride you’re in for and ask him to jump in on the same one...and just don’t...”
She could help herself “Wasn’t it just one favour?” she asked annoyed.
Karen spoke to her gently again “Just another little one”
She sighed “Go ahead”
“Don’t ask him for the moon. One gets what life brings...which doesn’t mean you’re meant to compromise as in ‘be sadly content with the best Ты can do или have’, but just...well, make it work. Work on it. Live it in real life, without setting up standards to meet up; because дана your life, the world Ты live in, your job, your age...everything about your lifestyle...it wouldn’t work anyway. Again...it doesn’t have to be perfect, but it can be real...and if Ты get lucky...” she trailed off.
Lisa stood silent for a while then, just wishing she could find something to say that would invalid Karen’s argument; but she just could not.
“If Ты chose him Liz...you’ll never have a normal life, Ты just know that” Lisa kept quiet “But Ты might end up having so much еще than that... it’s just a matter of choice. I can’t tell Ты what do to, but Ты just ask yourself what kind of thing Ты want to settle for and...go for it, that’s the best Совет I can give you....”
Lisa sighed and then keeping her head down she peered at herself in the mirror bottom to вверх one еще time. Deep down inside she knew she was right: she knew she can’t possibly go backwards and settle for the kind of thing they had shared last summer, and something kept telling her he didn’t certainly want that, that he cared so much more, that he would never....but did he really? или they would have ended up stuck into this never-ending dance until they got tired of each other?
“You still Любовь me right?” Karen asked her eventually in a loving way.
She smiled with pressed lips “I hope I won’t be charged with a full-fare at least....”
Karen chuckled “I might Ты a little allowance...”
Lisa caught sight of the flashing, red light of the alarm in the reflection of the mirror. Perhaps it was really time she just took her leap, on her own, with no Фан guard under her feet, and saw what happened. What could possibly go wrong? She knew he cared, didn’t she?
She lifted her eyebrows “Same time, Далее week?”
Karen smiled “Of course....anytime”
He had always thought the only good thing about being an extra-paid actor– the only positive aspect that outrun the fact that money made along with his role made him insufferably famous – was that it allowed him to buy things he wouldn’t been able to keep under wraps otherwise.
Turned out he was wrong.
There was only so much money can get rid of.
But the rest would be just as messy as for everybody else.He seized his phone and before starting up, he dialled her number one еще time.
It was still busy so this time he ended up leaving a message. It wasn’t a день full of maybe possibilities: he had to be content with what his luck offered him at the moment.
He wondered which luck....
“Hi Liz. It’s me. I’m sorry, you’re hearing from me so late” he said, resting вперед on the handlebar “I tried to reach Ты earlier but Ты must have been on the phone...ehm...” he looked at up at the sky as breathed failed him a little “....anyway, I wished I could have just apologized to Ты for not having called Ты anymore. I’ve been...” he paused, taking in the faintly cold air of the late evening “...shooting didn’t finish as early as I thought” he lied feeling horrible for it already “....and I just had to take care of something first” he scratched his forehead. He felt confused and he wished he could have just talked to her already.He licked his lips, pensively. He ought to tell her. He couldn’t possibly do this to her, drag her again into it without at least telling her. He was being egoistic enough already.
“There’s something I’d like to talk to Ты about Liz” he told seriously to her voice mail “...something I think” he hesitated “...anyway, I’ll try to call Ты later. It’s nothing we should discuss by phone” he sighed and unexpectedly the desire to just tell her how he felt simply took him over, so he made a hazard “I just wish I could have....”
He heard a fast, triple beeping in his ear so he moved the phone away. He started down at it thunderstruck until it exhaled its last breath no еще than two секунды after.
He rubbed his face.
Someone must have fucking gotta be kidding him.....
He grunted loudly then, thrusting it away in his pocket “I just wish I could have fucking just hear Ты voice...”
He wore his шлем and started the bike, the angry roar of the engine fitting his current mood quite perfectly now.
“....and possibly fucking tell Ты how much I wanted to be with Ты rather than stuck in this fucking airport talking this bloody stuff....”
And then he sped away thinking things couldn’t get any worse today, for sure. He had reached the bottom.
или did he?
Lisa looked down at her hands, the phone held tightly inside them beeping up back at her, just waiting for someone to dial a number on it. She took a deep breath and finally talked herself into doing it.
She held her breath, waiting anxiously, mentally revising what she would tell him. She had already did it dozens of time, but she kept changing the words in her head, rethinking it all and she was worryingly sure she would end up empty-headed once he would answer.
“Hi...”
Her сердце leapt “Hi Hugh, sorry...”
“...you’re currently talking to me voicemail....” Lisa sighed halfway between a little bit disappointed and relieved though. She thought her сердце was about to burst out of her chest when she had heard his voice. Anyway she couldn’t force herself into hanging up “I can’t answer Ты right now....or possibly my phone died on me ....or I might not have it with me at the moment, which I understand is just a nonsense since this devilish device is meant to be portable...” her lips pressed into a little smile of amusement and she shook her head, laughing quietly “ ...but anyway...here Ты are trying to get an answer from a taped voice, which is in turn quite not very normal, so please leave a message. I’ll get to Ты as soon as possible. Bye”
She hung up rolling her eyes, then she became pensive, evaluating a new option. She looked down at Kapow and Shazam. They stopped playing with their ball and looked up at her too.
“Well, I can be subtle about it...can I?”
She pressed her lips and dialled again.
“FOX Телевидение Studios” a voice answered busily.
“Jeff it’s me....Lisa”
“Miss Edelstein, how can I help you?”
Lisa sighed “First of all, how many times did I tell Ты to call me using my fist name Jess? Would Ты please just stop that? We’re the same age for God’s sake...”
Jeff laughed “Sorry Miss, I just can’t talk myself into doing it....”
“It’s ridiculous, we’ve known each other for years already...how much is still supposed to pass?” she teased.
“I’ll do my best. I promise” he told her amused “I’ll try to be less respectful Далее time, calling Ты pal или sis, is that ok?”
“Much better” she сказал(-а) happily.
He chuckled “So, what can I do for you?”
“Oh nothing special, I just....” she pulled her hair to one side of her neck, with a quick movement “I was just wondering whether the others had already finished with the shooting that’s all...”
“They finished an час или so I guess....” he told her casually.
She frowned, taken aback “Oh...I thought, I mean....I didn’t think they would end up so early...” she bit her lips.
“You forgot something on set?”
“No, no, nothing like that....I just....I just needed...well, I hoped I could talk to Hugh for a second” she сказал(-а) without thinking “Never mind, I’ll reach him home...”
“Mr Laurie? I don’t know. He might still be around...perhaps in his trailer, I can check if Ты wish...”
“No, Jess never mind, really it’s not....”
“Hold on a секунда miss. Mike is telling me something....”
Lisa waited. There was no need to feel disappointed. It was just an hour. Maybe he was stuck in the traffic; maybe he was having a drink somewhere, hanging out with the crew. perhaps he...
“Miss?”
“Jeff it’s ok, even if he still around...just don’t. There’s no rush really, I’ll give him a buzz when he gets Главная thanks”
“No it’s just that he’s not home. Mike just told me. We switched turns only a минута назад so I have no idea. He says he went picking up his wife so you’d better call him on his cell. She didn’t land at LAX this time though so it might take him a little more...”
He waited.
“Miss? Lisa?!”
He lifted his eyebrows and hung up, shrugging.
Mike pushed the door open, looking at him“What?”
Jeff rubbed his neck, yawning “Nothing. She must have hung up before I got to the wife part....”
Lights were all turned off but the ones outside and those at the bottom of the swimming pool, enlightening with a green-sapphire kind of light the water, barely rippled by the rhythmic movement of his feet slowly snipping out of the edge, as he waited – или better hoped, once again, possibly foolishly he knew that - for this one to be magically picked up. Predictably, though, after the umpteenth ring, it sent him to voicemail, once again.
He looked ahead of himself towards the trees “Liz...it’s me...once again yeah” he сказал(-а) blankly with a slight hint of self-mockery in his tone “I’m sorry I’m calling Ты again, really... I just....well, Ты must have turned down the ringtone I guess ‘cause otherwise I would be truly annoying the hell out of Ты now, weren’t I?”
He waited, as if he expected someone to suddenly reassure him he wasn’t.
He sighed standing suddenly up on his feet “Anyway....I hope Ты just went to постель, кровати at some point and Ты aren’t instead just....impossibly mad at me” he сказал(-а) a bit woefully, as he paced head-down up and down the lane “I did want to call you, Liz. I just....” he paused weighting his words “I just couldn’t make it on time...”
He rubbed his nape, keeping quiet.
“I missed Ты today....”
He bit his upper lip. Nothing from the other side. Not a noise
“...at work I mean”
He wondered what kind of noise he expected to hear really, since he was talking to a voicemail by himself...
He straightened up clearing his throat “Well, anyway...ehm...I also called again ‘cause David called. He arranged a morning meeting at the Studios to discuss some promotional stuff for Далее год before the others leave....asking whether we can Показать up as well even if it’s nothing we aren’t already aware of but since no one knows...” he stopped. He wasn’t sure it was the right time to mention it.
“Well...we are supposed to be there by noon” he kicked a stone away “Well, I just figured Ты didn’t know, since...well Ты know....all the not-picking-up-above-mentioned-stuff-I-hope-has-nothing-to-do-with-me-specifically” he сказал(-а) in one single breath.
He sighed and walked up to the window switching down the outside lights “Good night Liz, I’ll see Ты tomorrow....” he paused “I’m sorry. Bye”
Lights were all turned off.
Nothing moved, but the dogs’ chests rhythmically going up and down with their quiet breathing in the dusk of her bedroom. Lisa made herself tinier on the armchair, bending her legs tighter against her chest, her eyes still fixed on the speaker which had just gone quiet. Something pushed to get out of her chest, but she fought it back closing her eyes tightly.