Phase- Lily
When I heard Jacob yell my name I almost slipped and fell in the shower.
“Jake I’m in the shower!” I replied. The soap slipped out my hand and landed on my toe. Surprise enough it didn’t even hurt that much. I was so focused on making the душ as cold as I could. I was burning up.
I got out the душ dried off and ringed my hair. I was exhausted. I felt like crap. My head was still hurting, my feet legs. Hell every part of my body was aching. Everything was spinning. I was glad that Jake stayed with me last night. But I still didn’t feel that much better. And let’s not to mention, the events that happened left me confused. And a little scared.
I washed my face and pulled my hair back down. I headed back into my room to find Jake looking worried. As if I was kidnapped или like I wasn’t myself.
“Are Ты okay?” Jake asked. “You scared the living crap out of me Lil. How are Ты feeling? Any pain? Ты need anything?”
“No thanks Jake I’m fine” I smiled back. “I feel good...as if I never had been hurt. But Jake-“I stopped dead in my tracks. Jake grabbed me and pulled me into the room.
“Put some clothes on. I have some explaining to do. I know Ты have a lot of Вопросы after yesterday, so hurry!” He turned around and peeked around his shoulder to make sure I was getting dressed. или just to peek. He was right; I did have so many questions. What the hell did I see yesterday? Why did I see dogs, или Волки или whatever they were? And better yet, where was everyone when I was about to damn near drown? Before I knew it I started to get mad. A rush of rage shot threw me like venom.
“Wait. What the hell did happen yesterday? Where the hell where all of you, and what the hell did I see! Ты guys have been Актёрское искусство so damn suspicious sense I got here, everything seems so different, I want Ответы NOW Jacob Black!” I screamed at the вверх of my lungs. I couldn’t help myself. I found myself growing еще and еще consumed with fear. I glared back at him waiting for my answer. I caught me off guard when I noticed he didn’t look surprised at all.
“Listen Lilly, please calm down. Ты can’t do this now, not here. It’s too many people that can get hurt. Just please slip some clothes on and follow me. Please love” Jake replied. He now started to look scared. I could see tears welling in his eyes. But to my surprise, I didn’t really care. I wanted my Ответы and I wanted them now.
“No, Jacob. Explain to me right now. What the hell happen yesterday? I am not moving until I get what I want. NOW!” I felt myself getting even madder. I tried to calm down but nothing worked. I started pacing up and down the room still staring at Jake. He сказал(-а) nothing. He just looked back at me with his deepset eyes wet from tears. Why the hell was he crying? Punk
“JAKE! ANSWER ME!!”
“Lilly please try your hardest to calm down”
“NO! ANSWER ME JAKE! NOW-“
My face grew hot with anger. I could hear people coming up the steps. My guesses it was Sam and the rest. This upset me even more. Jake wasn’t answering me. I than began to think of all the things that were upsetting me at that moment. My grandmother was clearly dying. огонь began to run in my veins. I felt like my body was about to explode. I almost died yesterday, WE almost did. And no one was there when I needed them. They abandoned me. My body than began to shake ferociously. The room began to spin and my body grew tighter against my clothes. The pain began to become unbearable. I could feel every movement of everything around me. The exploding feeling came back and I began to hear my clothes tear. I couldn’t control everything. I could feel the ground beneath me shake. I could feel my body being torn inside out.
And then the shaking stopped.
I was on the floor. I could smell everything before I opened my eyes. My senses felt еще crisp and defined. This made me scared to open them. I opened my eyes startled by the bright light from the window pane. I looked around to find Sam hunched in front of Emily as if he was protecting her. From what I thought. I turned around to find Jake and Billy staring at me cautiously. I could hear Quill and Embry down stairs breathing slowly as if they were listening. Waiting…
My body began to ache. I looked down and stared at the big hairy paw. PAW? Why was the place my hand use to be a paw? I began to feel panicked. I tried to stand up but found myself on all fours. FOUR legs. I couldn’t Переместить in the tiny room that once was mine. Confused, scared, I began to howl to the вверх of my lungs…WHY WAS I HOWLING? Fear and anger began to shoot through me once more. I was a...monster.
But how could this be? I didn’t believe in monsters. Not like the ones in Grandma Lilly’s stories или like the ones in movies. I never believed in it. SO how had I become one? This couldn’t be true. I had to be dreaming.
Without thinking I lounged down the stairs with great force. It was almost as if I was flying. I felt myself on four legs running through the tiny cabin. I busted my way through the tiny door out towards the forest.
Lilly please! It’s me Jake, please don’t go away! Everything is fine just let me explain-
Jake, Let her go. She will be back for answers. Sam’s voice сказал(-а) over Jacobs.
I ignored the voices and ran and ran as fast as I could. Trying to run away from this bad dream.
Origin-Jake
It actually went a lot better than I expected.
I expected for her to be so enraged and out of control that she would bite my freaking head off. I didn’t expect it to be so soon. I thought I could by еще time when she woke up. She was so happy. But like myself the first time I phased when I got Главная from my “date” (or whatever Ты want to call it) With Bella, I was in a good mood until Billy did the dumbest thing that ticked me off.
I knew I had to find her. I didn’t really care what Sam told me, after all he was no longer the Alpha to me. Already in волк form I decided to take Leah along. I figured having another female present Показ Lilly she had someone to relate to other than myself.
Leah, where are you? Meet me at the clearing; we are going to find Lilly now.
Alrighty got ya Lilly answered. I could sense a little excitement in her voice. I knew she would be happy that she wasn’t the only female anymore. Well for now. I was thinking sense she left that I would help her control that side of her. I wanted nothing еще than for Lilly to be happy. How could she be happy like this? I didn’t want her to be the same…thing as I was. I wanted her to grow and be happy with me. Forever. I was going to do anything I could to help her focus on not phasing anymore.
Ты really think Ты could do that dipshit? Leah сказал(-а) Чтение my thoughts. I don’t think Ты could really stop it Jake. Her signs of her first phase started two days before she even did.
Look Leah. I just think Ты are happier than anything that you’re not the only female now so just shut now will you? Would Ты want the person Ты Любовь to be a werewolf like Ты huh?
Actually Leah smiled under her light brown fur. We were now face to face in the clearing I ordered her to meet me at. I wouldn’t mind it so much. We could hunt together. Kill Vamps together. Sounds like fun to me!
Your just sick Leah Ты know that. I was now beginning to become irritated by her. I would have told Paul, Sam или Quill and Embry to come but they had already phased back into human form. Plus I wanted to keep them out of it. The less opinions the better. I knew they were concerned just like me. But I also wanted to handle this my way. I could tell before I left that Paul didn’t want to go. I knew he was a little worried.
I picked up her scent right after she phased. I’m going to start southeast, and Ты круг around the meadow a couple times. I doubt she will get that far. I ordered Leah in my Alpha voice. She knew I meant business now.
Okay. Do Ты think she turned back to human form? Maybe she is like Ты and gained control quickly .Leah answered.
Leah was right. Sam and the others were impressed with me after my first phase. I turned back human only after a couple of hours. For them it took days, weeks, maybe even months. I remembered being scared just like Lilly is. I remembered laying there naked in the трава balled up crying. And how the others tried to comfort me.
Jake I can hear her can you? Leah сказал(-а) urgently. I listened as hard as I could to read her thoughts. All I could her was…her calling my name
She’s calling me. Let’s go this way!
We ran through the clearing towards the hills. It was even brighter outside than I wanted. I was scared that Lilly would wonder of and be found by someone. I was hoping she was hiding.
I could hear her name еще clear end clear as we ran. Her scent became stronger and stronger. And finally I saw her. Just like I was. Balled up naked and crying under a rock. In human form. I turned to look at Leah. She was already nudging her sack of clothes she had tied around her back to me. I phased back to my human form and slipped a рубашка around Lilly’s neck. It hurt me so much to see her like this. She has scratches all the way down her back. This was common for a first phase. Her temperature was high, and her skin tough. I picked her up and she laid her head against my chest. She knew she was безопасно, сейф now. With me.
I ran Главная with her in my arms still in human form. I knew she would need Ответы now. As soon as I walked up to the house I pushed the door open inside. I laid her down on the диван, мягкий уголок and got water from the kitchen. She drank the whole glass in one gulp. I giggled. It was kind of sexy to me. Then I noticed. I was still naked. I ran up the stairs and slipped some shorts on. By the time I came back downstairs Lilly was already raiding the fridge. Eating everything in sight.
“Urhm Lilly. Don’t Ты want to talk first?” I asked
“Oh yea.” She look embarrassed. She was still crying and sniffling and stuffing a twinkie in her mouth at the same time.
“I’m so sorry Lilly I wanted to tell Ты everything! But I couldn’t. We were going to find a way to let Ты figure it out. But it was already too late. This is the real reason why Ты are back in La push. There were bloodsuckers in your town in California. We couldn’t let Ты phase without us there, with no direction, and no help. I’m so sorry,” I rambled on. Lilly was still eating and listening to me at the same time. I rambled on about the legends that Granma Lilly told her. About how everything was true. About our ancestors, the wife who sacrificed herself. About the bloodsuckers. And Bella and the rest of the Cullen’s. She listened attentively crying and shocked. I could tell she was still in disbelief.
“So you’re telling me- she сказал(-а) with her mouth still full of chips- that all Ты were in Любовь with a vampire?”
“Uh yes. I was in love. She’s just my best friend. You’ll meet her soon! And the rest of her family.” I smiled. I was excited now that I could share the news with her. And that she was lightening up now. She looked way calmer. The color was back in her face and she was done eating.
“Wow. Who would have thought? I Любовь Собаки but I never thought I would become one. “She half smiled.
“Well I don’t like it when Ты call it dog. I rather it just be left to werewolf” I interrupted.
“Wait, I don’t get it. How could Ты be Друзья with these Cullen people if we are supposed to hate vampires? And kill them? “She asked. My body trembled when she сказал(-а) we. She was one of us now…dammit.
“Well they are the acceptation. Ты see they are…well vegetarians I guess Ты can say. They only drink animal blood and does not harm humans. It took me a while to actually like them but they grew on me. Like family now.” I answered. I knew it was many еще Вопросы to come. I still wondered why she was in so much control and so calm now. She really is like me when I turned. She was quickly in control and able to function properly. She didn’t even stay in волк form that long. Just a couple of hours.
“So Bella chose a vampire over you? Wow. I guess that’s a good thing for me.” She said. She was fully back to normal by now. I went on to explain about the other день at the lake and how we came across a new Вампиры on our reservation. We knew they weren’t from around here because they would have known about our treaty. So this meant there were possibly more.
“We have to act fast. Sam told me I should go by the Cullen’s today to tell them what happened and get their help. Maybe Ты should just stay in here and rest. I know you’re pretty sore.”
“No. I’m coming with you. I want to meet them. I want to know everything. “She said. She looked determined. And like she wanted to help. I couldn’t. I didn’t want her to get hurt. или maybe I wasn’t ready to her to meet the woman I use to be in Любовь with.
“Um, I don’t think so Lilly. I think Ты should really get some rest. We’ll talk about it tomorrow.” I bend down on my knees to get face to face with her. One good thing about Lilly was that she didn’t get taller yet. She was still small framed. I put her head in my hand and lightly kissed her on the lips. She kissed back with еще force.
“Jake. Thank Ты for being here for me. I would never expect anything like this to happen to me. But knowing Ты here makes it so much easier. I...I Любовь Ты Jake.” She hugged me and kissed my cheek
“I Любовь Ты to Lilly. And I promise, I will not let anything happen to you.” I kissed her back. I picked her up and carried her up stairs. I laid her on her bed. I gave her another kiss. She was already fast asleep. I began to walk out.
“Hey chump, can Ты open the window. It’s really hot in here.” Lilly сказал(-а) half sleep. I laughed and opened the window. “Goodnight Lill”
Initiation-Lilly
I still couldn’t grasp the fact of the series of events that were unfolding before my eyes. I am a werewolf. или shapes shifter. Whatever they called it. The very thing I never believed when Grandma Lilly told the legends of our Quileute heritage. I never believed all the hype on TV around Хэллоуин time. I never believed in full moons, Вампиры или anything of that nature. So how did I of all people become one?
Most girls in my position would have handled it so much differently. Oddly enough I took it a lot better than expected. I had Jacob and my brothers to help me through all of this. They were this very thing way longer than I have been. They were going to teach me everything I needed to know. I finally knew why everyone treated me like I was a фарфор doll. или how everyone tried everything in their power to keep me from getting mad the whole time I was here. I finally knew why Jack, Paul and the others were so big and tall and strong. I knew why every time I hugged Jake I could feel the heat of his skin burn mine. I knew why I saw волк like creatures tearing apart a pale white figure in the distance. I knew my fate.
Jake was there for me every step of the way. He would never leave my sight, and whenever he did I could see how much it hurt him. He held me any chance he got. He kissed me lightly every chance he got. I never felt so loved in my life…and I loved it. I loved him еще than anything. He was mine...i am his…And together I knew we can handle whatever.
That’s what got me through this major change in my life.
“Okay Lilly wake up” I completely ignored Jacob and rolled over.
“Come on Lilly. You’ve been sleep for a while now. We want to take Ты out and explain something’s a little further love. It’s a lot Ты have to learn. And plus Ты have to get initiated into the pack. Kind of like hazing. Trust me it’s nothing like that sorority Ты were in back in California” he grinned. He still hated the fact of her even becoming a member of the pack. Every день he tried to figure out ways to make me stop phasing and hopefully get out of this. But Эй, like Sam said, it’s noting he can control. So he might as well still inform me.
I rolled over again and moaned. “My whole body hurts Jake. Cant I just sleep longer.” I huffed. My skin was still red, and hair still all over the place. All night I about my body aching. I knew I was still in a little pain. But I had to get up and moving. I had lots to learn. I began to feel a little excited.
“Look Lilly, if Ты don’t get up in about 5 минуты I’m going to….” SMACK! I slapped Jake across the face. Wow. He laughed. I guess I didn’t realize her strength yet.
“Omg Jake I’m so sorry! I didn’t mean to, Omg!” I cried. Tears started to stream down my face. “I’m so sorry; I can’t believe I just did that. I hate this!”
“Look lill” he сказал(-а) still smiling. “Its fine Ты just don’t know your strength now. Now come on Любовь get up babes. We have a lot to do today. It’s going to be fun trust me. Just slip a tank and some shorts on and bring a back pack.” He сказал(-а) getting up after Поцелуи me on my forehead.
“What do Ты want me to put in my backpack?” I asked. He looked at me and smiled. “Oh nothing” he answered. I didn’t even feel like arguing with him или asking why I was bringing an empty backpack. I got up and slipped a tank вверх and some cut of shorts on. I pulled my hair back into a пони tail and slipped on some shades. The sun light hurt my eyes. I wish I could have found some ear plugs somewhere. Everything was so loud. Maybe I’ll make some ear plugs. I found some tissue paper and balled it up. I slipped them into my ears. Ah much better. I looked ridiculous but at this point and time I really didn’t care. I walked out my room downstairs to look for Granma Lilly. Haven’t talked to her with all this nonsense that’s been going on. “Granma!” I yelled. I hope she wasn’t sleep.
“I’m in here sweetpea.” She answered. I found her at the кухня таблица Чтение Книги in brail. “Hey grams I сказал(-а) pulling up a сиденье, место, сиденья Далее to her. “How are Ты holding up?”
“I’m fine dear. The Вопрос is how are Ты holding up” She smiled.
“I’m fine.” I answered. Even after all of this I could never find the words to say to her. I wanted to cry out for help…to ask her why she didn’t tell me what my fate was. I didn’t get it. I wanted too much answers. But I didn’t really want to discuss it with her anymore. It didn’t feel comfortable. I knew she knew what was going on. But I rather we pretend for the time being that it wasn’t happening. I was so concerned with her health. I wanted nothing else to overshadow her happiness.
“So Ты going out with the boys today huh? “She asked. “Have Ты even thought of a name for Ты щенок yet sweetpea? Ты neglected the poor thing.” I than saw the щенок sleeping in her lap. I did forget all about him. I had been so tied up in what was going on I didn’t even have the chance to enjoy this addition to my family. I picked the щенок up and examined him. He was so cute. And furry. I laughed at the thought that we had something in common. Even though the thought disturbed me.
“I don’t know grandma it has to be something special. Like something unique. The perfect name hasn’t come to me yet. “I sighed. “I guess he will have to remain nameless for right now.”
“Okay Lill. Let’s go” Sam called from outside.
“Bye Grams.” I kissed her on the cheek and walked out the door. I was kind of scared about the день that lay ahead of me. I still was in shock about the whole situation.
“Well hello there beautiful!” Quill shouted as I walked out the door. Jacob punched him on the side of his arm. “OW, well she is beautiful. Ты have nothing to worry about. I already imprinted Ты dipshit.”
“What the hell does that mean” I asked. I had so many questions. My head started to spin.
Sam laughed “Don’t worry Lill. We are going to explain everything to Ты soon as we get in the forest. Okay everyone let’s Переместить out.” It was Jacob, Sam, Quill, Embry, Seth and I. W
“Where’s Leah? “ I asked. I grew quite fond of her.
“She’s already out there. Okay Jake grab Lill and let’s roll” Sam smiled. He ran off into the forest.
“Um grab me?” I asked. I was very capable of walking myself I thought. Jake smiled without answering and pulled me by hand into the forest.
“Now don’t get alarmed at what Ты about to see love” He grinned. “I’m going to phase and carry Ты on my back until we get to the clearing. We would want Ты to phase yourself but you’re not in complete control yet. So don’t get scared. Even though I am a good looking волк if I may say so myself” He joked.
“Um. Alright. I guess. But no funny stuff. I’m still shook. So don’t growl или bark или whatever it is we do.” I said. Once again with no answer he smiled. He jumped on to a big boulder in front of me. Without hesitation he jumped off.
“Jake don’t hurt yourself!” I screamed. But he had already began to shake. His body unfolded so quick I couldn’t believe my eyes. He had so much control. He immediately began to change shape in the air. I could see the hairs of his мех explode from under his skin. His head transformed into the shape of a wolf. By the time he landed on the ground he was done. He was about the size of a horse, a lot bigger than I expected. His мех was a Шоколад brown complexion. He was beautiful. And surprisingly I wasn’t afraid. How could I be afraid if I was to the very same thing deep down inside?
He flipped back onto the rock onto a дерево and lunged himself towards me. Okay now he was taking it too far. “Jake! I told Ты no funny stuff!” He barked what I guessed to be a laugh. He licked my face and bowed his head down toward me as if he was telling me to climb on. I obliged. His thick мех was kind of comfortable so I had no room to complain. I mounted myself on his back. I noticed I didn’t have anything to hold on to so I tried my hardest to put my arms around his neck. He turned his head up towards me and looked at me. His eyes were the same. They were my Jacobs eyes. I smiled. “I’m ready” I said. And then we were off.
Jacob was running so fast I couldn’t even determine what we were passing. The wind blew through my hair and unraveled my пони tail. I laughed as we hopped over rocks, and broken down trees through the forest. I couldn’t help but to enjoy every part. He made sure I wouldn’t fall by slowing down his pace once we got closer to the clearing. I could hear everything. The birds and every other animal in the forest. Jake was so agile and fast. Yet he was graceful. It reminded me as a dancer. Ballerinas are graceful as well. This really impressed me.
We finally slowed down to a walk and entered the clearing where everyone was waiting for us. Jake bowed his head down once еще let me down off his neck.
“Good boy” I сказал(-а) as I patted his head. He did the same bark или laugh или whatever Ты wanted to call it. Everyone was already in the human form by the time we got back. They were all consumed with some type of activity. Leah and Paul where hand wrestling why Seth and Quill were too busy arguing on who phased the fastest.
“Ah that’s a load of bullcrap Seth. You’re so small it must be easier for Ты to phase within 30 seconds. Now if Ты were a beast like myself” He grinned. “Than maybe it would take Ты 20 еще seconds.”
“Ah please Quill. I may be smaller but I’m faster. And a better looking wolf!” He huffed. They continued to argue while me and Jake walked up to Sam. He was looking around the area.
“Welp I guess the close is clear. Okay Lilly. Lesson one.” He threw a rock and it hit me on the side of my head. It left a small cut. “Ow! Sam! Dammit why did Ты do that?” I yelled. Jacob frowned at Sam, but remained cal like he knew what he was doing. I could feel myself getting mad. My body began to shake. Sam remained the in the same position without moving. Wow he didn’t look scared at all. I tried to remember what Jacob told me about remaining calm and slowly started to stop shaking. By the time I was done the cut on my face already disappeared.
“Wow good job Lill.”Sam applauded. “Good way to keep yourself cool Hun. That was a small test. Throughout a lot of this Ты will get very frustrated. Even little things will seem to piss Ты off and give Ты the urge of wanting to phase. Ты did really well though. Even Jacob couldn’t pass that test. He phased and almost ripped my head off” He laughed. Wow was that funny? These guys were insane. But I liked it.
“First let’s talk about the basics. As Jacob has already told you, we are not just called werewolves. еще as shape shifters. All the legends Granma Lilly told Ты were completely true. We are called Protectors Lilly. We protect are tribes and others from the harm caused by vampires. Ты already know all the details about that. Granma Lilly decided to send Ты off to California when Ты got the scholarship after Paul had his transformation. The transformation yielded when there weren’t any Вампиры on the lands. Our legends were not of existence at that time. Ты see Lilly I was the first to transform of our generations line. This started when the Cullen’s are dear Друзья who use to be looked at as enemies came back in town. None of us knew these legends will finally unfold in our eyes. Unlike Ты and the other I had no direction at first. Your grandmother saw the line of our ancestor’s fate was starting to re appear when the Cullen’s returned. After Paul phased she couldn’t медведь to allow Ты to have the same fate. Ты see Granma Lilly didn’t look at it as a burden. But a gift. But she still didn’t want her only granddaughter to endure it. She admits it to being selfish, though she did it with good intentions. Your grandmother has visions of the future. Sort of like Alice Cullen. When everything started to come out to all of us, she saw a vision of your fate that she will not share with us to this day. We all guess it’s not that good, so we not dare to ask. She brought Ты back when she learned Вампиры where in Calabasas along with you. She pulled Ты from your dancing school to bring Ты back here, so that when Ты phase Ты will be with us the rest of the pack to guide you. Whatever visions she has seen Lilly can be changed. So we want to prepare Ты for whatever it may be. But please don’t get intimidated. It’s all in fun” Sam said. He noticed when he mentioned the vision part the color out my face left. What had grandmother seen? Is this why she looked at me funny since I got here? I couldn’t even think about that now. Sam was right I had to stay focused
“You see when Jacob saw Ты Lilly it was literally Любовь at first sight for him. We as Волколаки do something that is called “imprinting”. We see the Любовь of our lives and imprint them…meaning we are to be with them forever. Nothing and I mean nothing can un ravel this love. Jacob saw Ты and couldn’t help himself. Ты two are destined to be. Ты see for instance, as Ты know I was in Любовь with Leah. “Sam’s smile turned into a sadden look. He turned around to see if Leah was listening but she was still laughing and engaged in her arm wrestling with Paul. “But when I met her sister Emily, I couldn’t help but to break the Любовь between me and Leah for Emily. I imprinted her at first sight, and am madly in Любовь with her every sense. Ты see I couldn’t help it Lilly. Emily is meant for me, were meant for each other.” He stared at the ground. I knew how much he loved Emily but I could never imagine him hurting Leah like that. I didn’t really think anything of it until now. Poor Leah I thought. I would have to discuss that with her later.
“So Jacob imprinted me? Do I imprint to?” I asked curious. Was this to mean if I met someone new and it was Любовь at first sight I would leave my Jacob?
“No Ты see it’s different with Ты too. Quite remarkable. Jacob imprinted Ты at first sight. Ты are already marked to be with him. And since Ты two were already in deep Любовь when Ты phased, Ты imprinted him as well. Without knowing it”. A rush of relief ran through my body. Good I thought. We were meant to be forever.
“You are going to tell her about renessme though?” interrupted Quill. Sam and Jacob both shot mean looks at him. Jacob ran towards him and began to choke him on the ground.
“Can Ты keep your big mouth shut Quill?” Jake yelled. Sam pulled Jake off of him. “Quill we didn’t know if we should tell her that now he whispered. She still doesn’t know how to control her temper. I heard all of this and grew mad with anger again. They were still keeping things from me?
“What? Who is Renessme? I asked. I was curious now that Jacob made a big deal about it.
“Well um…”Jacob started. “Sam would Ты like to tell her? He asked looking embarrassed.
“Lill, before Ты came along Jacob imprinted on someone else. On Bella’s daughter Renessme. No before Ты get upset please let me explain this to you.” He сказал(-а) calmly. What? Ты want me to stay calm I thought? I couldn’t believe this…my Jacob? With Bella’s daughter? I thought he was in Любовь with Bella? Ugh this began to sound so confusing and sick to me. I was too interested in hearing the rest of the explanation before I got mad. So I decided to let him explain first. “Explain” I gnarled through my teeth. I looked at Jacob and he was facing the other way staring at the ground with his hand in his pockets.
“Okay” Sam proceeded calmly. “Of course Ты know Bella and Edward conceived before she was turned in to a vamp. Surprisingly, she gave birth to her daughter Renessme, while still a human. It nearly killed her so for that reason Edward turned her. Renessme wasn’t full vampire или full human. She half vampire and half human.” He paused to make sure I was still calm. “Jacob was of course devastated that Bella was in so much danger. But when he saw Renessme for the first time …well Ты know. He imprinted her. This is where the complications come in. We thought she posed a threat being this half human vampire creation. I was than Alpha of the pack and decided we had to destroy her to save our families. Naturally Jake was against this and left the pack. Jake is also an Alpha so was able to carry on. This is when Leah joined as the Beta. They finally convinced us that Renessme was no harm. The head of the Вампиры called the Volturi came to take Renessme because of the threat as well. It was kind of illegal for Вампиры to create these half breeds. We all decided to Присоединиться together to stop this, knowing we could all die from the power of this royal clan. But Эй, blah blah we won. There wasn’t even a fight to began with due to all of the witnesses and Bella’s amazing power to protect us all from their mind games. “
“So there it was. We won and Jacob was happily with Renessme. Though was a baby she grew a rapid pace. Ты see when we imprint on Дети we don’t look at them as being the Любовь of our lives. We look at them as little sisters till they become of age for us to love. We don’t grow as long as we keep phasing so we would still be of physical age.”
“Jacob carried on to Любовь Renessme. Until things got complicated. Ты see it’s in our nature to loath vampires. So what makes it easy to Любовь one? Our ancients heard about this…about Jacob loving a half vampire breed. They knew this had to be undone. They all got together and decided to use their power and will of the tribe to undue this imprint. They didn’t want to allow Jacob, an Alpha волк at that to Любовь another vampire. They felt it would mess up our whole purpose. Jacob didn’t really have a choice. Once they undid the imprint with powers beyond our belief; there was nothing he can do about it. He still loves and cares for her as a little sister though. Ты have nothing to worry about Lilly. That’s why we were so happy to see him imprint Ты because he had hell in a funk before Ты came back. He was devastated till he met Ты Lilly. Well were all happy but Paul” Sam laughed. Paul and Leah were now beside us listening to Sam’s every word as well. I had calmed down by the time Sam told me she was no longer imprinted by Jake. Though I still found myself to be jealous.
“So Ты were in Любовь with an infant?” I asked
“Well I wasn’t in Любовь with her yet” Jacob answered still staring at the ground.
“Well Lilly when Ты say it like that it sounds sick. But it’s not. Trust me... I imprinted a 3 год old.” Quill answered. And so did Ты brother.”
“Oh okay. I get it now.” I сказал(-а) with my eyes still fixed on Jake. I could tell he really didn’t want me to hear that part of the story.
“Okay I understand. It’s alright really. I’m not mad anymore.” I assured them all. It looked like they were just waiting for me to phase and kill them all.
“Okay now to the fun part. We’re going to teach Ты how phase with your control. или at least try to teach you. It’s something Ты have to acquire yourself” Sam said. He immediately phased into a large wolf. Not as big as Jake but almost the same size. It looked so easy. Damn I hope it would be for me. Everyone else phased behind him. Including Leah and Seth. I was now face to face with 5 wolves. Great.
“Um okay, so what do I do? “ I asked.
Jake phased back into human form. “Just focus. Now for the first couple of months it will be kind of hard for Ты to control your temper... But Ты must. If Ты don’t Ты can phase and hurt someone. Ты know that scar on the side of Lilly’s face? It’s from Sam. HE was completely devastated for doing it. But it was out of his control. So Ты must control Ты temper Lilly, it’s very important.” He told me. “Now when I first tired to phase on queue I use to think of something that made me anxious или upset. But this method will change once Ты gain еще control. Ты already pretty good at keeping Ты r cool so let’s practice phasing on queue.”
He pulled me away from the rest of the pack and smiled at me. “Okay now think of something that will make Ты want to phase. But carefully.” I automatically thought of Bella and this Renessme I just learned about. About how My Jacob use to be in Любовь with both of them. My body began to shake.
“Okay very good. Now focus Lilly. Ты have to do this carefully so that when Ты do phase Ты won’t go all bizerk. Now slowly think of shifting your shape. It’s a power within Ты that Ты must hold. One Ты grasp it don’t let go, allow yourself to change. But remain calm okay?” he asked.
“Okay” I replied sighing. I took deep breaths and tried to remain calm as possible. I than began to think of Jacob and how much I loved him. This made me calm down a little more. I felt the same tingling sensation all over my body as I did the first time. Everything around me began to shake. I felt the exploding feeling once еще and before I knew it I was staring at Jacob from a much higher distance. He was looking up at me smiling.
“Wow Ты are beautiful” he joked. “Look at her guys! Sexy” he smiled. I looked down at my мех and examined myself. I was pretty. My hair was black and silky against my frame. I was pretty small but very lean as well. I could feel defined muscles in my leg and back. “Those muscles must come from your ballet twinkle toes” Jake сказал(-а) as he saw me Переместить my leg up and down. I felt pretty good. Even though this s was so new to me.
Very good Lilly- I heard Sam’s voice in my head.
Don’t be alarmed now. This is one of the perks of being a member of a pack. This is how we communicate. Through our minds. It’s sort of a gift and a curse.
Yes and I finally get to hear another females voice other than a bunch of loser guys- сказал(-а) Leah. She barked a laugh. Oh so it was a laugh I thought.
What Ты think we like hearing your annoying voice Leah!? – Seth cut in
Ah shuttup Ты asshole-Leah answered
Ooooo I’m telling mom!-Seth joked
Shuttup Ты too. Ты are talking too much right now I’m sure she has to get use to it. Now shut your holes!-Jake сказал(-а) after phasing himself.
Now anyway. Very good love. You’re doing great. Now we will practice this every so often so Ты can get the hang of it. Now let’s go for a run. See how fast Ты are.-Jake said.
I like Ты Lilly but no offense I don’t think Ты can outrun me! Leah cut in as she began to run. I laughed a bark too, and immediately began to run behind her. I was so graceful. I leapt from rock to rock, дерево to tree. I was pretty fast. Really fast. I passed everyone else in the pack and was side by side by Leah. She looked at me with a wolfy grin and tried to speed up. But to my surprise I sprinted right in front of her. I was in front of everyone now. The speed was amazing. So this is how it feels I thought
Yea feel good doesn’t it!-Jake interrupted my thought.
Look at my baby go. She’s faster than Ты Leah! I’m surprisingly turned on by this-Jake smirked
Okay okay yea she’s faster than me. As long as it’s still a girl in the first place –Leah replied proudly.
AHh Ты two shuttup. She gets it from her brother-Paul cut in. I could tell he was proud too.
We ran and ran for hours. They gave me as much time as I needed to explore my abilities. They taught me how to hunt in волк form (thought I spit out every bite of deer I bit into). They continued to make me practice on controlling my anger. They provoked me with little things to make me mad. I was doing pretty well until Seth slapped Jacob across the face to make me mad. I phased and landed on вверх of him growling.
Jacob would scorn and cuss at all the guys every time I phased back. This naked thing was hard to grasp. I would always forget I didn’t have any clothes on (which explained the empty back pack). Jacob would take my clothes out and throw them to me as I hid behind a tree. The rest of the guys didn’t really care. They would slip shorts on while getting mean looks from Jacob. He didn’t want them parading around me naked either.
The sun decided to retire for the день and so did we. We all phased back and decided to go to the пляж, пляжный for a bon fire. Everything was calm now. We all gathered around the big огонь with hotdogs and other snacks. This made me so happy. I was starving. Quill had his 3 год old in his lap bouncing her up and down while she laughed. Emily had now joined us and was nestled on Sam’s lap looking at the stars with him fighting over which звезда belonged to whom. Paul and the rest were running in the dark cool waves dumping each other in the water. This all felt so right. We were a family.
I laid my head on Jacobs shoulder as he worked on his 7th hotdog. I couldn’t really complain I had eaten 9 myself. I had a crazy appetite. But we all did. Must be another perk to this thing.
“Babes Ты did great today” Jacob сказал(-а) with his mouth full. “Really impressive stuff. Ты have so much control already. Good job!” He smiled.
“Thanks love. I still haven’t really let it hit me yet. Though I can’t really complain it’s a lot of fun so far.” I сказал(-а) gazing at the sky.
“Hey Lill I have a Вопрос for you” Jake сказал(-а) with his smiling fading.”If Ты would have found about me…but Ты weren’t the same thing would Ты still be in Любовь with me?” He asked. He looked like he was about to cry.
“Of course I would Jacob! Nothing like this could ever break us. I would Любовь Ты no matter what. So don’t think otherwise. или ill rip your head off” I joked. He immediately began to lighten up. He got up and brushed the sand of his shorts. “Come on twinkle toes.” He сказал(-а) while trying to mock a ballet dancer. He was so big it looked horrible. I laughed and got up. He picked me up and started to run towards the ocean.”Jake put me down my hair is already messed up don’t get me wet!”
Of course he ignored me and threw me in the ocean. “Let me guess you’re still testing my temper huh?” I asked soak and wet.
“Nope that was just fun for me” He smiled. I lounged myself toward him and started splashing him. We all stayed at the пляж, пляжный all night. It was so much fun. And perfect.
Can Волколаки get butterflies?-Jake
3 days passed and it seemed like forever.
I was so tired. I woke up on my диван, мягкий уголок to find Paul staring at me.
“I talked to Lilly. She seems great! I can’t believe she okay already. I thought she would be gone for at least a month. Wow that’s my big sis.” He сказал(-а) proudly. “She’s upstairs sleep again. I could tell it took a toll on her physically. What about Ты punk did Ты cry?” Paul barked. He was laughing so loud it began to ring my ears. I slapped him on the back of his head and he chocked.
“AH Ты jerk. I should kick your жопа, попка out of my house for that!” he yelled.
“Ah shuttup Paul I’m sure it didn’t even hurt. Anyway I was surprised by how she took it too. She was very calm and collected after a while. Ah that’s my girlfriend I smiled. We haven’t even been together for two months and I already saw her naked! “I сказал(-а) knowing this would make Paul mad. I laughed as he began to chase me around the living room.
“You guys stop that there!” yelled Granma Lilly. She came down the stairs with the unnamed щенок that we bought Lilly for her birthday. It was looking big now. I picked him up.
“Hey little fellow! How Ты been? Still don’t have a name huh?” I сказал(-а) as I rubbed him behind his ears. He was still so small in my big hands.
“Well I’m sure Lilly will know what to name it now” Granma Lilly joked. “She’s still asleep? “She asked
“Yea grams “Paul answered. “ She needs her rest. Jake is taking her to see Belllllaaa today” He teased.
“AH shut it Paul.” I sneered back. “I might. It all depends on how she feels today. She’s been sleeping for three days. She may need some еще time.” I hoped. I wasn’t nervous…okay I was nervous. This was going to be the most awkward experience of my teenage life. Ugh.
“Good morning!” Gleamed Emily as she glided through the door. “Is Lilly awake now?” she asked while Поцелуи Granma Lilly on the cheek.
“Nope not yet. “ I answered. “Still knocked out. I only slept for two days after my first phase. She must really be tired.”
“No I’m fine” Lilly сказал(-а) walking down the stairs. She seemed groggy. And tired. I wished she stayed asleep. I wanted her to get all the rest she could get. She looked at me and smiled a weak smile and stumbled down the stairs. She caught herself and swiftly landed on my lap. She was too tired to Переместить so she just laid her head on my chest.
“Well rise and shine sweatpea! “Said Emily. She was always the one who cheered everyone up. I wonder where Sam was.
“Where is Sam?” I asked.
“Not too sure. He left earlier to run around to see if those vamps Ты were searching for were around. He hasn’t been back yet. I thought he would be over here? “ Em said. She started to look worried. Paul and I immediately looked at each other. I lightly placed Lilly (who was asleep again) onto the couch. WE ran through the door and phased while running into the forest.
Can Ты pick up his scent? I asked anxiously.
Yea I got it. This way Paul answered.
We ran faster and faster till Paul dead in his tracks. What’s the ma- I began to say. Till I saw Sam. He was still in волк form. I immediately ran towards him. Sam was laid on his side his пальто drenched with blood. But thank God…he was stil breathing.
What happened here! Paul asked anxiously. He ran towards him and put his head above his nose to see if he was still breathing.
Sam can Ты hear me? Are Ты okay? What happened? Sam could only open his eyes. He blinked.
I picked him up and noticed something matted in his fur. By this time I was back to my human form. It was a charm bracelet that looked vintage. Sort of old looking.
“What’s that?” Paul asked after returning to his human form himself.
“I guess it’s a bracelet. He might have encountered those filthy bloodsuckers weve been waiting for. Let’s get him back to the house Em is problely about to go crazy.” I sighed and picked Sam up with no problem and Paul grabbed his feet. We made our way back to the house. Considering Sam would be healed in a about a день или two we decided to let him rest before we beggared him about what happen. WE laid him down on Lilly’s постель, кровати after he got enough strength to phase back to human form. By this time Lilly was awake and groggy herself. She looked a lot better. I was hoping she would feel a lot better to.
“I think I should go get Carlisle to take a look at Sam’s injuries” I told Emily to calm her down. Sam looked horrible. He had scratches on every inch of his chest. He even had some across his face. I felt anger rush through my veins. If it was bloodsuckers that did this I sure as hell was going to give Edward a hard time about not being on his job and making sure there weren’t newcomers in town.
“Lilly get dressed. Its time to meet the cullens.”
Вампиры do stink-Lilly
“Lilly? Are Ты dressed?” Jake called up. I wasn’t dressed at all. I just noticed I was naked standing in front of my dresser. It was the first time I wasn’t weak enough to notice my new senses. I could hear and see everything. Almost everything I touched was cold against my hand from my own extreme body heat. I was еще graceful than I ever been. I picked up my ballet shoes from the corner of my постель, кровати and stared at them. Then came a knock on my door.
“Can I come in?” asked Jacob. I pulled the towel off my dresser and slipped it on.
“Yes Ты can.” He walked in a little embarrassed I was in a towel than smiled.
“Well I see Ты didn’t get very far getting dressed. Need help twinkle toes? I have fashion sense. Even though I barely wear clothes myself “he smiled. Through all of the chaos now Jake still found a way to be happy and smile. He made me smile often. He walked towards the closet and picked up a tank вверх and some jeans.
“This is perfect!” he beamed. “Plain and simple. Yet sexy. Wooo! “
“Jake!” I screamed. “This is not funny! For God’s sake I’m about to meet the girl Ты were once in Любовь with! This is no laughing matter!” I could feel myself began to shake. No not again I thought. But before it got any further Jake grabbed me and kissed me. I calmed down. Woo that was a close one. He waved the jeans in my face laughing.
I laughed. “Yea jerk give me those. Ты do have style. But I wanted to wear something еще presentable. After all Ты have told me how beautiful Вампиры are. I’m going to feel intimidated. “I hope he couldn’t notice how nervous I was. After all I was about to meet the girl he was once in Любовь with. I was extremely jealous at this point.
“Babe, Ты look good in everything Ты wear. And doesn’t worry, I only have eyes for Ты now. “He cheesed. Ah I loved his smile. It made me melt. He walked towards me and sat on the bed. He pulled my face towards his and began to Kiss me. Not like any Kiss before, but way better. I kissed him back. My knees still got weak in the knees. Good I was hoping being a волк wouldn’t change that about our kisses.
I pulled him closer to me pulling his body over mine. Damn I was strong. He kicked off his shoes and rolled to his side still Поцелуи me. This was it. I knew I wanted to take it there. I had to. I wanted to. I wanted to make Любовь to Jacob.
“JACOB! LILLY! COME ON!” Seth yelled. He and Leah were down stairs waiting for us. They decided to Присоединиться us to going to the Cullen’s house. Darn I thought. An interruption. I started to feel myself getting angry but decided to keep it under wraps.
Jacob looked madder than I did. He huffed and got up muttering something under his breath. He took the подушка with him and laid it in his lap. I laughed to myself at that.
“Well. Uh...okay get dressed.” Jacob said. I could tell he was embarrassed. I laughed and began to get dressed in front of him. Might as well tease him a little. He blushed under his russet colored skin. Its okay I thought. It will be plenty of times we will have alone. No worries.
The Cullen’s house was еще beautiful than what Jacob have told me.
It was glass walls with a very intricate detail to the architecture. It was beautiful. This is what intimidated me more. I kind of dreaded to meet these vampires. I mean wasn’t I supposed to hate them? Better yet kill them? Even thought they were different of their time I couldn’t help but think how the pack could be Друзья with these people who kill and hunt humans. UGH I thought. Nasty.
We climbed out of Jakes Rabbit and headed towards the steps.
“Now listen Lilly, Ты have nothing to worry about okay. They are very kind people and are very excited to meet you. Especially Carlisle.” Seth told me
“Okay.” I replied. Everyone could tell I wasn’t so excited about this. Even Leah started laughing. She grabbed my shoulder and pushed me towards the door. I really liked Leah. I felt like we had a special bond. She was really helping me though this.
A small pale woman opened the door with a black spiky cut dressed in a dress, a кардиган and some heels. I liked her style. This must be Alice I thought.
“Well hello!” Alice beamed. She was beautiful. And so nice.
“Hey Alice!” Jake and Seth replied. Leah remained quiet rolling her eyes behind me.
“You must be Lilly! We’ve been waiting. We are so excited to meet you! Are Ты hungry? We cooked some макаронные изделия, макароны for Ты guys. And this time we cooked a lot Jake” She laughed. Her being so nice kind of made me a little sick. But I liked her. But Jacob was right. Вампиры did stink, BAD.
“Hello Alice. I’ve heard a lot about Ты to” I smiled. His kindness made me less nervous. I expected black long hair, and coffins everywhere. But their house was the nicest house I’ve ever seen. She invited me inside. Two еще Вампиры walked up. Esme and Carlisle.
“You are beautiful!” Esme сказал(-а) as she hugged me. Aw I liked her too. That’s two so far.
“Thank you, Ты are еще beautiful” I joked back. “Esme right?”
“That’s right! See Jake I told Ты I would Любовь her. This is my husband Carlisle.
“Hello Ms Lilly! Jake has told us so much about you. How are you?” Carlisle said. I liked him to so far.
“I’m fine. Still some getting used to. I guess it hasn’t really hit me yet, but I have Jake and the others to help me. So not so bad” I answered.
“I Любовь your dress” Alice cut in. “We should go shopping sometime.”
“I agree” I сказал(-а) with a big smile. I loved this family so far.
Jake took Carlisle in the room to explain everything that happened so far, and what happened with Sam. Alice guided me into the living room while Seth and Leah took Esme up on her offer to dig in to some of the макаронные изделия, макароны she made for us.
“So, where everyone else” I asked. I was kind of anxious to meet the others now that I felt comfortable.
“Well...Bella is just about to walk in …Now” Alice said. And soon as she сказал(-а) now Bella walked in the open clearing near the forest. She walked in the house with a male vampire. She was beautiful. Extremely beautiful. A sense of jealousy began to run through me. How could I compete with her? I mean yes I was beautiful, but she was …extremely beautiful. She was pale with golden eyes like the rest of them. Her hair was a little longer than mine a каштан color, and flowing across her cheeks. Wow I thought. Jake has good taste. I mean after all he chose me to imprint. So that means I have nothing to worry about …right?
“You’re nervous?” Alice whispered. “Don’t worry Ты two will be good friends.” Funny she сказал(-а) it like she was almost sure we were.
“Lilly!”Bella peered hugging me. “Wow Ты are beautiful! I’m so glad to finally meet this girl my best friend has been raving about to me forever.” She said. Wow I guess I liked her too. I smiled. I still felt intimidated, but couldn’t help but to…like her. She was so nice.
“Hello Lilly” сказал(-а) another vampire standing beside her. He was handing me a bouquet of roses. This must be Edward I thought. He was extremely handsome too. Wow how could people so beautiful be natural born killers? I had to keep remembering they were “Vegetarians” …I guess.
“Thank Ты “I answered. “Thanks so much. It’s nice to finally meet Ты two. I’ve heard tons about Ты guys. “I than saw that Bella noticed my being nervous. She smiled and pulled me aside. “Are Ты nervous? Please don’t be. Were family now. Ты don’t have to worry about anything. Jake is my best friend so that makes Ты important to me as well.” She really was sincere. I looked into her golden eyes and knew she was immediately telling me the truth. I couldn’t get mad at her. Even though I was still a little jealous. But I found myself to be …speechless.
“I…I really don’t know what to say. I mean I knew I would be nervous. No offense but my Jacob used to be in Любовь with you. Its just nerve racking that’s all. But meeting you, how could he not fall for you? You’re beautiful. And so nice.” I looked down and felt tears coming. “And me…I’m a monster now.” I couldn’t stop the words from coming out.
“Your not a monster. We all have things about us that we can’t control, but never call yourself a monster! That was old…Jake is in Любовь with Ты now. That was the past. Please don’t feel like he doesn’t Любовь Ты еще than anything. “Bella сказал(-а) wiping my tears. “And trust me Ты will get use to being a werewolf. It’s quite fun from what I see actually. Jake has a blast most of the time. “She smiled. She did began to make me feel a little better.
“Damn Jake she’s hot!” Yelled an unfamiliar voice.
“Emmett I swear if Ты touch her!” Jake screamed. I heard a lot of running.
“Oh that’s Emmett.” Bella said. She could tell I was confused. “Don’t pay attention to anything he says. He’s a jerk most of the time. And this is Rosalie. A pretty blond vampire walked in.
“Hey Lilly. Nice to meet you” She said.
“You too” I smiled back.
“Well that’s everyone!” Bella said. Except for Renessme. She’s sleeping but I will be еще than happy to introduce Ты to a little later. Now come in here and let’s get to know each other a little better. The boys are going back to La push to check on Sam with Carlisle. When Jasper gets back, oh yea Ты haven’t met him. He’s hunting. WE will all discuss our plans for finding out where this new coven of Вампиры has come from” She pulled me into the living room. I was a big living room. There was a huge plasma TV on the Стена facing the big luxurious couch. WE sat down and talked for HOURS. I loved all of them. They were so kind, fun and filled with life. WE automatically clicked. Bella told me stories of Jacob and the pack of how they bickered and fought. Stories of how things were before Bella could get the Cullen’s to get along with the pack. They were all so interesting and at times funny. Before I knew it it was nightfall, and the boys weren’t back yet.
When I heard Jacob yell my name I almost slipped and fell in the shower.
“Jake I’m in the shower!” I replied. The soap slipped out my hand and landed on my toe. Surprise enough it didn’t even hurt that much. I was so focused on making the душ as cold as I could. I was burning up.
I got out the душ dried off and ringed my hair. I was exhausted. I felt like crap. My head was still hurting, my feet legs. Hell every part of my body was aching. Everything was spinning. I was glad that Jake stayed with me last night. But I still didn’t feel that much better. And let’s not to mention, the events that happened left me confused. And a little scared.
I washed my face and pulled my hair back down. I headed back into my room to find Jake looking worried. As if I was kidnapped или like I wasn’t myself.
“Are Ты okay?” Jake asked. “You scared the living crap out of me Lil. How are Ты feeling? Any pain? Ты need anything?”
“No thanks Jake I’m fine” I smiled back. “I feel good...as if I never had been hurt. But Jake-“I stopped dead in my tracks. Jake grabbed me and pulled me into the room.
“Put some clothes on. I have some explaining to do. I know Ты have a lot of Вопросы after yesterday, so hurry!” He turned around and peeked around his shoulder to make sure I was getting dressed. или just to peek. He was right; I did have so many questions. What the hell did I see yesterday? Why did I see dogs, или Волки или whatever they were? And better yet, where was everyone when I was about to damn near drown? Before I knew it I started to get mad. A rush of rage shot threw me like venom.
“Wait. What the hell did happen yesterday? Where the hell where all of you, and what the hell did I see! Ты guys have been Актёрское искусство so damn suspicious sense I got here, everything seems so different, I want Ответы NOW Jacob Black!” I screamed at the вверх of my lungs. I couldn’t help myself. I found myself growing еще and еще consumed with fear. I glared back at him waiting for my answer. I caught me off guard when I noticed he didn’t look surprised at all.
“Listen Lilly, please calm down. Ты can’t do this now, not here. It’s too many people that can get hurt. Just please slip some clothes on and follow me. Please love” Jake replied. He now started to look scared. I could see tears welling in his eyes. But to my surprise, I didn’t really care. I wanted my Ответы and I wanted them now.
“No, Jacob. Explain to me right now. What the hell happen yesterday? I am not moving until I get what I want. NOW!” I felt myself getting even madder. I tried to calm down but nothing worked. I started pacing up and down the room still staring at Jake. He сказал(-а) nothing. He just looked back at me with his deepset eyes wet from tears. Why the hell was he crying? Punk
“JAKE! ANSWER ME!!”
“Lilly please try your hardest to calm down”
“NO! ANSWER ME JAKE! NOW-“
My face grew hot with anger. I could hear people coming up the steps. My guesses it was Sam and the rest. This upset me even more. Jake wasn’t answering me. I than began to think of all the things that were upsetting me at that moment. My grandmother was clearly dying. огонь began to run in my veins. I felt like my body was about to explode. I almost died yesterday, WE almost did. And no one was there when I needed them. They abandoned me. My body than began to shake ferociously. The room began to spin and my body grew tighter against my clothes. The pain began to become unbearable. I could feel every movement of everything around me. The exploding feeling came back and I began to hear my clothes tear. I couldn’t control everything. I could feel the ground beneath me shake. I could feel my body being torn inside out.
And then the shaking stopped.
I was on the floor. I could smell everything before I opened my eyes. My senses felt еще crisp and defined. This made me scared to open them. I opened my eyes startled by the bright light from the window pane. I looked around to find Sam hunched in front of Emily as if he was protecting her. From what I thought. I turned around to find Jake and Billy staring at me cautiously. I could hear Quill and Embry down stairs breathing slowly as if they were listening. Waiting…
My body began to ache. I looked down and stared at the big hairy paw. PAW? Why was the place my hand use to be a paw? I began to feel panicked. I tried to stand up but found myself on all fours. FOUR legs. I couldn’t Переместить in the tiny room that once was mine. Confused, scared, I began to howl to the вверх of my lungs…WHY WAS I HOWLING? Fear and anger began to shoot through me once more. I was a...monster.
But how could this be? I didn’t believe in monsters. Not like the ones in Grandma Lilly’s stories или like the ones in movies. I never believed in it. SO how had I become one? This couldn’t be true. I had to be dreaming.
Without thinking I lounged down the stairs with great force. It was almost as if I was flying. I felt myself on four legs running through the tiny cabin. I busted my way through the tiny door out towards the forest.
Lilly please! It’s me Jake, please don’t go away! Everything is fine just let me explain-
Jake, Let her go. She will be back for answers. Sam’s voice сказал(-а) over Jacobs.
I ignored the voices and ran and ran as fast as I could. Trying to run away from this bad dream.
Origin-Jake
It actually went a lot better than I expected.
I expected for her to be so enraged and out of control that she would bite my freaking head off. I didn’t expect it to be so soon. I thought I could by еще time when she woke up. She was so happy. But like myself the first time I phased when I got Главная from my “date” (or whatever Ты want to call it) With Bella, I was in a good mood until Billy did the dumbest thing that ticked me off.
I knew I had to find her. I didn’t really care what Sam told me, after all he was no longer the Alpha to me. Already in волк form I decided to take Leah along. I figured having another female present Показ Lilly she had someone to relate to other than myself.
Leah, where are you? Meet me at the clearing; we are going to find Lilly now.
Alrighty got ya Lilly answered. I could sense a little excitement in her voice. I knew she would be happy that she wasn’t the only female anymore. Well for now. I was thinking sense she left that I would help her control that side of her. I wanted nothing еще than for Lilly to be happy. How could she be happy like this? I didn’t want her to be the same…thing as I was. I wanted her to grow and be happy with me. Forever. I was going to do anything I could to help her focus on not phasing anymore.
Ты really think Ты could do that dipshit? Leah сказал(-а) Чтение my thoughts. I don’t think Ты could really stop it Jake. Her signs of her first phase started two days before she even did.
Look Leah. I just think Ты are happier than anything that you’re not the only female now so just shut now will you? Would Ты want the person Ты Любовь to be a werewolf like Ты huh?
Actually Leah smiled under her light brown fur. We were now face to face in the clearing I ordered her to meet me at. I wouldn’t mind it so much. We could hunt together. Kill Vamps together. Sounds like fun to me!
Your just sick Leah Ты know that. I was now beginning to become irritated by her. I would have told Paul, Sam или Quill and Embry to come but they had already phased back into human form. Plus I wanted to keep them out of it. The less opinions the better. I knew they were concerned just like me. But I also wanted to handle this my way. I could tell before I left that Paul didn’t want to go. I knew he was a little worried.
I picked up her scent right after she phased. I’m going to start southeast, and Ты круг around the meadow a couple times. I doubt she will get that far. I ordered Leah in my Alpha voice. She knew I meant business now.
Okay. Do Ты think she turned back to human form? Maybe she is like Ты and gained control quickly .Leah answered.
Leah was right. Sam and the others were impressed with me after my first phase. I turned back human only after a couple of hours. For them it took days, weeks, maybe even months. I remembered being scared just like Lilly is. I remembered laying there naked in the трава balled up crying. And how the others tried to comfort me.
Jake I can hear her can you? Leah сказал(-а) urgently. I listened as hard as I could to read her thoughts. All I could her was…her calling my name
She’s calling me. Let’s go this way!
We ran through the clearing towards the hills. It was even brighter outside than I wanted. I was scared that Lilly would wonder of and be found by someone. I was hoping she was hiding.
I could hear her name еще clear end clear as we ran. Her scent became stronger and stronger. And finally I saw her. Just like I was. Balled up naked and crying under a rock. In human form. I turned to look at Leah. She was already nudging her sack of clothes she had tied around her back to me. I phased back to my human form and slipped a рубашка around Lilly’s neck. It hurt me so much to see her like this. She has scratches all the way down her back. This was common for a first phase. Her temperature was high, and her skin tough. I picked her up and she laid her head against my chest. She knew she was безопасно, сейф now. With me.
I ran Главная with her in my arms still in human form. I knew she would need Ответы now. As soon as I walked up to the house I pushed the door open inside. I laid her down on the диван, мягкий уголок and got water from the kitchen. She drank the whole glass in one gulp. I giggled. It was kind of sexy to me. Then I noticed. I was still naked. I ran up the stairs and slipped some shorts on. By the time I came back downstairs Lilly was already raiding the fridge. Eating everything in sight.
“Urhm Lilly. Don’t Ты want to talk first?” I asked
“Oh yea.” She look embarrassed. She was still crying and sniffling and stuffing a twinkie in her mouth at the same time.
“I’m so sorry Lilly I wanted to tell Ты everything! But I couldn’t. We were going to find a way to let Ты figure it out. But it was already too late. This is the real reason why Ты are back in La push. There were bloodsuckers in your town in California. We couldn’t let Ты phase without us there, with no direction, and no help. I’m so sorry,” I rambled on. Lilly was still eating and listening to me at the same time. I rambled on about the legends that Granma Lilly told her. About how everything was true. About our ancestors, the wife who sacrificed herself. About the bloodsuckers. And Bella and the rest of the Cullen’s. She listened attentively crying and shocked. I could tell she was still in disbelief.
“So you’re telling me- she сказал(-а) with her mouth still full of chips- that all Ты were in Любовь with a vampire?”
“Uh yes. I was in love. She’s just my best friend. You’ll meet her soon! And the rest of her family.” I smiled. I was excited now that I could share the news with her. And that she was lightening up now. She looked way calmer. The color was back in her face and she was done eating.
“Wow. Who would have thought? I Любовь Собаки but I never thought I would become one. “She half smiled.
“Well I don’t like it when Ты call it dog. I rather it just be left to werewolf” I interrupted.
“Wait, I don’t get it. How could Ты be Друзья with these Cullen people if we are supposed to hate vampires? And kill them? “She asked. My body trembled when she сказал(-а) we. She was one of us now…dammit.
“Well they are the acceptation. Ты see they are…well vegetarians I guess Ты can say. They only drink animal blood and does not harm humans. It took me a while to actually like them but they grew on me. Like family now.” I answered. I knew it was many еще Вопросы to come. I still wondered why she was in so much control and so calm now. She really is like me when I turned. She was quickly in control and able to function properly. She didn’t even stay in волк form that long. Just a couple of hours.
“So Bella chose a vampire over you? Wow. I guess that’s a good thing for me.” She said. She was fully back to normal by now. I went on to explain about the other день at the lake and how we came across a new Вампиры on our reservation. We knew they weren’t from around here because they would have known about our treaty. So this meant there were possibly more.
“We have to act fast. Sam told me I should go by the Cullen’s today to tell them what happened and get their help. Maybe Ты should just stay in here and rest. I know you’re pretty sore.”
“No. I’m coming with you. I want to meet them. I want to know everything. “She said. She looked determined. And like she wanted to help. I couldn’t. I didn’t want her to get hurt. или maybe I wasn’t ready to her to meet the woman I use to be in Любовь with.
“Um, I don’t think so Lilly. I think Ты should really get some rest. We’ll talk about it tomorrow.” I bend down on my knees to get face to face with her. One good thing about Lilly was that she didn’t get taller yet. She was still small framed. I put her head in my hand and lightly kissed her on the lips. She kissed back with еще force.
“Jake. Thank Ты for being here for me. I would never expect anything like this to happen to me. But knowing Ты here makes it so much easier. I...I Любовь Ты Jake.” She hugged me and kissed my cheek
“I Любовь Ты to Lilly. And I promise, I will not let anything happen to you.” I kissed her back. I picked her up and carried her up stairs. I laid her on her bed. I gave her another kiss. She was already fast asleep. I began to walk out.
“Hey chump, can Ты open the window. It’s really hot in here.” Lilly сказал(-а) half sleep. I laughed and opened the window. “Goodnight Lill”
Initiation-Lilly
I still couldn’t grasp the fact of the series of events that were unfolding before my eyes. I am a werewolf. или shapes shifter. Whatever they called it. The very thing I never believed when Grandma Lilly told the legends of our Quileute heritage. I never believed all the hype on TV around Хэллоуин time. I never believed in full moons, Вампиры или anything of that nature. So how did I of all people become one?
Most girls in my position would have handled it so much differently. Oddly enough I took it a lot better than expected. I had Jacob and my brothers to help me through all of this. They were this very thing way longer than I have been. They were going to teach me everything I needed to know. I finally knew why everyone treated me like I was a фарфор doll. или how everyone tried everything in their power to keep me from getting mad the whole time I was here. I finally knew why Jack, Paul and the others were so big and tall and strong. I knew why every time I hugged Jake I could feel the heat of his skin burn mine. I knew why I saw волк like creatures tearing apart a pale white figure in the distance. I knew my fate.
Jake was there for me every step of the way. He would never leave my sight, and whenever he did I could see how much it hurt him. He held me any chance he got. He kissed me lightly every chance he got. I never felt so loved in my life…and I loved it. I loved him еще than anything. He was mine...i am his…And together I knew we can handle whatever.
That’s what got me through this major change in my life.
“Okay Lilly wake up” I completely ignored Jacob and rolled over.
“Come on Lilly. You’ve been sleep for a while now. We want to take Ты out and explain something’s a little further love. It’s a lot Ты have to learn. And plus Ты have to get initiated into the pack. Kind of like hazing. Trust me it’s nothing like that sorority Ты were in back in California” he grinned. He still hated the fact of her even becoming a member of the pack. Every день he tried to figure out ways to make me stop phasing and hopefully get out of this. But Эй, like Sam said, it’s noting he can control. So he might as well still inform me.
I rolled over again and moaned. “My whole body hurts Jake. Cant I just sleep longer.” I huffed. My skin was still red, and hair still all over the place. All night I about my body aching. I knew I was still in a little pain. But I had to get up and moving. I had lots to learn. I began to feel a little excited.
“Look Lilly, if Ты don’t get up in about 5 минуты I’m going to….” SMACK! I slapped Jake across the face. Wow. He laughed. I guess I didn’t realize her strength yet.
“Omg Jake I’m so sorry! I didn’t mean to, Omg!” I cried. Tears started to stream down my face. “I’m so sorry; I can’t believe I just did that. I hate this!”
“Look lill” he сказал(-а) still smiling. “Its fine Ты just don’t know your strength now. Now come on Любовь get up babes. We have a lot to do today. It’s going to be fun trust me. Just slip a tank and some shorts on and bring a back pack.” He сказал(-а) getting up after Поцелуи me on my forehead.
“What do Ты want me to put in my backpack?” I asked. He looked at me and smiled. “Oh nothing” he answered. I didn’t even feel like arguing with him или asking why I was bringing an empty backpack. I got up and slipped a tank вверх and some cut of shorts on. I pulled my hair back into a пони tail and slipped on some shades. The sun light hurt my eyes. I wish I could have found some ear plugs somewhere. Everything was so loud. Maybe I’ll make some ear plugs. I found some tissue paper and balled it up. I slipped them into my ears. Ah much better. I looked ridiculous but at this point and time I really didn’t care. I walked out my room downstairs to look for Granma Lilly. Haven’t talked to her with all this nonsense that’s been going on. “Granma!” I yelled. I hope she wasn’t sleep.
“I’m in here sweetpea.” She answered. I found her at the кухня таблица Чтение Книги in brail. “Hey grams I сказал(-а) pulling up a сиденье, место, сиденья Далее to her. “How are Ты holding up?”
“I’m fine dear. The Вопрос is how are Ты holding up” She smiled.
“I’m fine.” I answered. Even after all of this I could never find the words to say to her. I wanted to cry out for help…to ask her why she didn’t tell me what my fate was. I didn’t get it. I wanted too much answers. But I didn’t really want to discuss it with her anymore. It didn’t feel comfortable. I knew she knew what was going on. But I rather we pretend for the time being that it wasn’t happening. I was so concerned with her health. I wanted nothing else to overshadow her happiness.
“So Ты going out with the boys today huh? “She asked. “Have Ты even thought of a name for Ты щенок yet sweetpea? Ты neglected the poor thing.” I than saw the щенок sleeping in her lap. I did forget all about him. I had been so tied up in what was going on I didn’t even have the chance to enjoy this addition to my family. I picked the щенок up and examined him. He was so cute. And furry. I laughed at the thought that we had something in common. Even though the thought disturbed me.
“I don’t know grandma it has to be something special. Like something unique. The perfect name hasn’t come to me yet. “I sighed. “I guess he will have to remain nameless for right now.”
“Okay Lill. Let’s go” Sam called from outside.
“Bye Grams.” I kissed her on the cheek and walked out the door. I was kind of scared about the день that lay ahead of me. I still was in shock about the whole situation.
“Well hello there beautiful!” Quill shouted as I walked out the door. Jacob punched him on the side of his arm. “OW, well she is beautiful. Ты have nothing to worry about. I already imprinted Ты dipshit.”
“What the hell does that mean” I asked. I had so many questions. My head started to spin.
Sam laughed “Don’t worry Lill. We are going to explain everything to Ты soon as we get in the forest. Okay everyone let’s Переместить out.” It was Jacob, Sam, Quill, Embry, Seth and I. W
“Where’s Leah? “ I asked. I grew quite fond of her.
“She’s already out there. Okay Jake grab Lill and let’s roll” Sam smiled. He ran off into the forest.
“Um grab me?” I asked. I was very capable of walking myself I thought. Jake smiled without answering and pulled me by hand into the forest.
“Now don’t get alarmed at what Ты about to see love” He grinned. “I’m going to phase and carry Ты on my back until we get to the clearing. We would want Ты to phase yourself but you’re not in complete control yet. So don’t get scared. Even though I am a good looking волк if I may say so myself” He joked.
“Um. Alright. I guess. But no funny stuff. I’m still shook. So don’t growl или bark или whatever it is we do.” I said. Once again with no answer he smiled. He jumped on to a big boulder in front of me. Without hesitation he jumped off.
“Jake don’t hurt yourself!” I screamed. But he had already began to shake. His body unfolded so quick I couldn’t believe my eyes. He had so much control. He immediately began to change shape in the air. I could see the hairs of his мех explode from under his skin. His head transformed into the shape of a wolf. By the time he landed on the ground he was done. He was about the size of a horse, a lot bigger than I expected. His мех was a Шоколад brown complexion. He was beautiful. And surprisingly I wasn’t afraid. How could I be afraid if I was to the very same thing deep down inside?
He flipped back onto the rock onto a дерево and lunged himself towards me. Okay now he was taking it too far. “Jake! I told Ты no funny stuff!” He barked what I guessed to be a laugh. He licked my face and bowed his head down toward me as if he was telling me to climb on. I obliged. His thick мех was kind of comfortable so I had no room to complain. I mounted myself on his back. I noticed I didn’t have anything to hold on to so I tried my hardest to put my arms around his neck. He turned his head up towards me and looked at me. His eyes were the same. They were my Jacobs eyes. I smiled. “I’m ready” I said. And then we were off.
Jacob was running so fast I couldn’t even determine what we were passing. The wind blew through my hair and unraveled my пони tail. I laughed as we hopped over rocks, and broken down trees through the forest. I couldn’t help but to enjoy every part. He made sure I wouldn’t fall by slowing down his pace once we got closer to the clearing. I could hear everything. The birds and every other animal in the forest. Jake was so agile and fast. Yet he was graceful. It reminded me as a dancer. Ballerinas are graceful as well. This really impressed me.
We finally slowed down to a walk and entered the clearing where everyone was waiting for us. Jake bowed his head down once еще let me down off his neck.
“Good boy” I сказал(-а) as I patted his head. He did the same bark или laugh или whatever Ты wanted to call it. Everyone was already in the human form by the time we got back. They were all consumed with some type of activity. Leah and Paul where hand wrestling why Seth and Quill were too busy arguing on who phased the fastest.
“Ah that’s a load of bullcrap Seth. You’re so small it must be easier for Ты to phase within 30 seconds. Now if Ты were a beast like myself” He grinned. “Than maybe it would take Ты 20 еще seconds.”
“Ah please Quill. I may be smaller but I’m faster. And a better looking wolf!” He huffed. They continued to argue while me and Jake walked up to Sam. He was looking around the area.
“Welp I guess the close is clear. Okay Lilly. Lesson one.” He threw a rock and it hit me on the side of my head. It left a small cut. “Ow! Sam! Dammit why did Ты do that?” I yelled. Jacob frowned at Sam, but remained cal like he knew what he was doing. I could feel myself getting mad. My body began to shake. Sam remained the in the same position without moving. Wow he didn’t look scared at all. I tried to remember what Jacob told me about remaining calm and slowly started to stop shaking. By the time I was done the cut on my face already disappeared.
“Wow good job Lill.”Sam applauded. “Good way to keep yourself cool Hun. That was a small test. Throughout a lot of this Ты will get very frustrated. Even little things will seem to piss Ты off and give Ты the urge of wanting to phase. Ты did really well though. Even Jacob couldn’t pass that test. He phased and almost ripped my head off” He laughed. Wow was that funny? These guys were insane. But I liked it.
“First let’s talk about the basics. As Jacob has already told you, we are not just called werewolves. еще as shape shifters. All the legends Granma Lilly told Ты were completely true. We are called Protectors Lilly. We protect are tribes and others from the harm caused by vampires. Ты already know all the details about that. Granma Lilly decided to send Ты off to California when Ты got the scholarship after Paul had his transformation. The transformation yielded when there weren’t any Вампиры on the lands. Our legends were not of existence at that time. Ты see Lilly I was the first to transform of our generations line. This started when the Cullen’s are dear Друзья who use to be looked at as enemies came back in town. None of us knew these legends will finally unfold in our eyes. Unlike Ты and the other I had no direction at first. Your grandmother saw the line of our ancestor’s fate was starting to re appear when the Cullen’s returned. After Paul phased she couldn’t медведь to allow Ты to have the same fate. Ты see Granma Lilly didn’t look at it as a burden. But a gift. But she still didn’t want her only granddaughter to endure it. She admits it to being selfish, though she did it with good intentions. Your grandmother has visions of the future. Sort of like Alice Cullen. When everything started to come out to all of us, she saw a vision of your fate that she will not share with us to this day. We all guess it’s not that good, so we not dare to ask. She brought Ты back when she learned Вампиры where in Calabasas along with you. She pulled Ты from your dancing school to bring Ты back here, so that when Ты phase Ты will be with us the rest of the pack to guide you. Whatever visions she has seen Lilly can be changed. So we want to prepare Ты for whatever it may be. But please don’t get intimidated. It’s all in fun” Sam said. He noticed when he mentioned the vision part the color out my face left. What had grandmother seen? Is this why she looked at me funny since I got here? I couldn’t even think about that now. Sam was right I had to stay focused
“You see when Jacob saw Ты Lilly it was literally Любовь at first sight for him. We as Волколаки do something that is called “imprinting”. We see the Любовь of our lives and imprint them…meaning we are to be with them forever. Nothing and I mean nothing can un ravel this love. Jacob saw Ты and couldn’t help himself. Ты two are destined to be. Ты see for instance, as Ты know I was in Любовь with Leah. “Sam’s smile turned into a sadden look. He turned around to see if Leah was listening but she was still laughing and engaged in her arm wrestling with Paul. “But when I met her sister Emily, I couldn’t help but to break the Любовь between me and Leah for Emily. I imprinted her at first sight, and am madly in Любовь with her every sense. Ты see I couldn’t help it Lilly. Emily is meant for me, were meant for each other.” He stared at the ground. I knew how much he loved Emily but I could never imagine him hurting Leah like that. I didn’t really think anything of it until now. Poor Leah I thought. I would have to discuss that with her later.
“So Jacob imprinted me? Do I imprint to?” I asked curious. Was this to mean if I met someone new and it was Любовь at first sight I would leave my Jacob?
“No Ты see it’s different with Ты too. Quite remarkable. Jacob imprinted Ты at first sight. Ты are already marked to be with him. And since Ты two were already in deep Любовь when Ты phased, Ты imprinted him as well. Without knowing it”. A rush of relief ran through my body. Good I thought. We were meant to be forever.
“You are going to tell her about renessme though?” interrupted Quill. Sam and Jacob both shot mean looks at him. Jacob ran towards him and began to choke him on the ground.
“Can Ты keep your big mouth shut Quill?” Jake yelled. Sam pulled Jake off of him. “Quill we didn’t know if we should tell her that now he whispered. She still doesn’t know how to control her temper. I heard all of this and grew mad with anger again. They were still keeping things from me?
“What? Who is Renessme? I asked. I was curious now that Jacob made a big deal about it.
“Well um…”Jacob started. “Sam would Ты like to tell her? He asked looking embarrassed.
“Lill, before Ты came along Jacob imprinted on someone else. On Bella’s daughter Renessme. No before Ты get upset please let me explain this to you.” He сказал(-а) calmly. What? Ты want me to stay calm I thought? I couldn’t believe this…my Jacob? With Bella’s daughter? I thought he was in Любовь with Bella? Ugh this began to sound so confusing and sick to me. I was too interested in hearing the rest of the explanation before I got mad. So I decided to let him explain first. “Explain” I gnarled through my teeth. I looked at Jacob and he was facing the other way staring at the ground with his hand in his pockets.
“Okay” Sam proceeded calmly. “Of course Ты know Bella and Edward conceived before she was turned in to a vamp. Surprisingly, she gave birth to her daughter Renessme, while still a human. It nearly killed her so for that reason Edward turned her. Renessme wasn’t full vampire или full human. She half vampire and half human.” He paused to make sure I was still calm. “Jacob was of course devastated that Bella was in so much danger. But when he saw Renessme for the first time …well Ты know. He imprinted her. This is where the complications come in. We thought she posed a threat being this half human vampire creation. I was than Alpha of the pack and decided we had to destroy her to save our families. Naturally Jake was against this and left the pack. Jake is also an Alpha so was able to carry on. This is when Leah joined as the Beta. They finally convinced us that Renessme was no harm. The head of the Вампиры called the Volturi came to take Renessme because of the threat as well. It was kind of illegal for Вампиры to create these half breeds. We all decided to Присоединиться together to stop this, knowing we could all die from the power of this royal clan. But Эй, blah blah we won. There wasn’t even a fight to began with due to all of the witnesses and Bella’s amazing power to protect us all from their mind games. “
“So there it was. We won and Jacob was happily with Renessme. Though was a baby she grew a rapid pace. Ты see when we imprint on Дети we don’t look at them as being the Любовь of our lives. We look at them as little sisters till they become of age for us to love. We don’t grow as long as we keep phasing so we would still be of physical age.”
“Jacob carried on to Любовь Renessme. Until things got complicated. Ты see it’s in our nature to loath vampires. So what makes it easy to Любовь one? Our ancients heard about this…about Jacob loving a half vampire breed. They knew this had to be undone. They all got together and decided to use their power and will of the tribe to undue this imprint. They didn’t want to allow Jacob, an Alpha волк at that to Любовь another vampire. They felt it would mess up our whole purpose. Jacob didn’t really have a choice. Once they undid the imprint with powers beyond our belief; there was nothing he can do about it. He still loves and cares for her as a little sister though. Ты have nothing to worry about Lilly. That’s why we were so happy to see him imprint Ты because he had hell in a funk before Ты came back. He was devastated till he met Ты Lilly. Well were all happy but Paul” Sam laughed. Paul and Leah were now beside us listening to Sam’s every word as well. I had calmed down by the time Sam told me she was no longer imprinted by Jake. Though I still found myself to be jealous.
“So Ты were in Любовь with an infant?” I asked
“Well I wasn’t in Любовь with her yet” Jacob answered still staring at the ground.
“Well Lilly when Ты say it like that it sounds sick. But it’s not. Trust me... I imprinted a 3 год old.” Quill answered. And so did Ты brother.”
“Oh okay. I get it now.” I сказал(-а) with my eyes still fixed on Jake. I could tell he really didn’t want me to hear that part of the story.
“Okay I understand. It’s alright really. I’m not mad anymore.” I assured them all. It looked like they were just waiting for me to phase and kill them all.
“Okay now to the fun part. We’re going to teach Ты how phase with your control. или at least try to teach you. It’s something Ты have to acquire yourself” Sam said. He immediately phased into a large wolf. Not as big as Jake but almost the same size. It looked so easy. Damn I hope it would be for me. Everyone else phased behind him. Including Leah and Seth. I was now face to face with 5 wolves. Great.
“Um okay, so what do I do? “ I asked.
Jake phased back into human form. “Just focus. Now for the first couple of months it will be kind of hard for Ты to control your temper... But Ты must. If Ты don’t Ты can phase and hurt someone. Ты know that scar on the side of Lilly’s face? It’s from Sam. HE was completely devastated for doing it. But it was out of his control. So Ты must control Ты temper Lilly, it’s very important.” He told me. “Now when I first tired to phase on queue I use to think of something that made me anxious или upset. But this method will change once Ты gain еще control. Ты already pretty good at keeping Ты r cool so let’s practice phasing on queue.”
He pulled me away from the rest of the pack and smiled at me. “Okay now think of something that will make Ты want to phase. But carefully.” I automatically thought of Bella and this Renessme I just learned about. About how My Jacob use to be in Любовь with both of them. My body began to shake.
“Okay very good. Now focus Lilly. Ты have to do this carefully so that when Ты do phase Ты won’t go all bizerk. Now slowly think of shifting your shape. It’s a power within Ты that Ты must hold. One Ты grasp it don’t let go, allow yourself to change. But remain calm okay?” he asked.
“Okay” I replied sighing. I took deep breaths and tried to remain calm as possible. I than began to think of Jacob and how much I loved him. This made me calm down a little more. I felt the same tingling sensation all over my body as I did the first time. Everything around me began to shake. I felt the exploding feeling once еще and before I knew it I was staring at Jacob from a much higher distance. He was looking up at me smiling.
“Wow Ты are beautiful” he joked. “Look at her guys! Sexy” he smiled. I looked down at my мех and examined myself. I was pretty. My hair was black and silky against my frame. I was pretty small but very lean as well. I could feel defined muscles in my leg and back. “Those muscles must come from your ballet twinkle toes” Jake сказал(-а) as he saw me Переместить my leg up and down. I felt pretty good. Even though this s was so new to me.
Very good Lilly- I heard Sam’s voice in my head.
Don’t be alarmed now. This is one of the perks of being a member of a pack. This is how we communicate. Through our minds. It’s sort of a gift and a curse.
Yes and I finally get to hear another females voice other than a bunch of loser guys- сказал(-а) Leah. She barked a laugh. Oh so it was a laugh I thought.
What Ты think we like hearing your annoying voice Leah!? – Seth cut in
Ah shuttup Ты asshole-Leah answered
Ooooo I’m telling mom!-Seth joked
Shuttup Ты too. Ты are talking too much right now I’m sure she has to get use to it. Now shut your holes!-Jake сказал(-а) after phasing himself.
Now anyway. Very good love. You’re doing great. Now we will practice this every so often so Ты can get the hang of it. Now let’s go for a run. See how fast Ты are.-Jake said.
I like Ты Lilly but no offense I don’t think Ты can outrun me! Leah cut in as she began to run. I laughed a bark too, and immediately began to run behind her. I was so graceful. I leapt from rock to rock, дерево to tree. I was pretty fast. Really fast. I passed everyone else in the pack and was side by side by Leah. She looked at me with a wolfy grin and tried to speed up. But to my surprise I sprinted right in front of her. I was in front of everyone now. The speed was amazing. So this is how it feels I thought
Yea feel good doesn’t it!-Jake interrupted my thought.
Look at my baby go. She’s faster than Ты Leah! I’m surprisingly turned on by this-Jake smirked
Okay okay yea she’s faster than me. As long as it’s still a girl in the first place –Leah replied proudly.
AHh Ты two shuttup. She gets it from her brother-Paul cut in. I could tell he was proud too.
We ran and ran for hours. They gave me as much time as I needed to explore my abilities. They taught me how to hunt in волк form (thought I spit out every bite of deer I bit into). They continued to make me practice on controlling my anger. They provoked me with little things to make me mad. I was doing pretty well until Seth slapped Jacob across the face to make me mad. I phased and landed on вверх of him growling.
Jacob would scorn and cuss at all the guys every time I phased back. This naked thing was hard to grasp. I would always forget I didn’t have any clothes on (which explained the empty back pack). Jacob would take my clothes out and throw them to me as I hid behind a tree. The rest of the guys didn’t really care. They would slip shorts on while getting mean looks from Jacob. He didn’t want them parading around me naked either.
The sun decided to retire for the день and so did we. We all phased back and decided to go to the пляж, пляжный for a bon fire. Everything was calm now. We all gathered around the big огонь with hotdogs and other snacks. This made me so happy. I was starving. Quill had his 3 год old in his lap bouncing her up and down while she laughed. Emily had now joined us and was nestled on Sam’s lap looking at the stars with him fighting over which звезда belonged to whom. Paul and the rest were running in the dark cool waves dumping each other in the water. This all felt so right. We were a family.
I laid my head on Jacobs shoulder as he worked on his 7th hotdog. I couldn’t really complain I had eaten 9 myself. I had a crazy appetite. But we all did. Must be another perk to this thing.
“Babes Ты did great today” Jacob сказал(-а) with his mouth full. “Really impressive stuff. Ты have so much control already. Good job!” He smiled.
“Thanks love. I still haven’t really let it hit me yet. Though I can’t really complain it’s a lot of fun so far.” I сказал(-а) gazing at the sky.
“Hey Lill I have a Вопрос for you” Jake сказал(-а) with his smiling fading.”If Ты would have found about me…but Ты weren’t the same thing would Ты still be in Любовь with me?” He asked. He looked like he was about to cry.
“Of course I would Jacob! Nothing like this could ever break us. I would Любовь Ты no matter what. So don’t think otherwise. или ill rip your head off” I joked. He immediately began to lighten up. He got up and brushed the sand of his shorts. “Come on twinkle toes.” He сказал(-а) while trying to mock a ballet dancer. He was so big it looked horrible. I laughed and got up. He picked me up and started to run towards the ocean.”Jake put me down my hair is already messed up don’t get me wet!”
Of course he ignored me and threw me in the ocean. “Let me guess you’re still testing my temper huh?” I asked soak and wet.
“Nope that was just fun for me” He smiled. I lounged myself toward him and started splashing him. We all stayed at the пляж, пляжный all night. It was so much fun. And perfect.
Can Волколаки get butterflies?-Jake
3 days passed and it seemed like forever.
I was so tired. I woke up on my диван, мягкий уголок to find Paul staring at me.
“I talked to Lilly. She seems great! I can’t believe she okay already. I thought she would be gone for at least a month. Wow that’s my big sis.” He сказал(-а) proudly. “She’s upstairs sleep again. I could tell it took a toll on her physically. What about Ты punk did Ты cry?” Paul barked. He was laughing so loud it began to ring my ears. I slapped him on the back of his head and he chocked.
“AH Ты jerk. I should kick your жопа, попка out of my house for that!” he yelled.
“Ah shuttup Paul I’m sure it didn’t even hurt. Anyway I was surprised by how she took it too. She was very calm and collected after a while. Ah that’s my girlfriend I smiled. We haven’t even been together for two months and I already saw her naked! “I сказал(-а) knowing this would make Paul mad. I laughed as he began to chase me around the living room.
“You guys stop that there!” yelled Granma Lilly. She came down the stairs with the unnamed щенок that we bought Lilly for her birthday. It was looking big now. I picked him up.
“Hey little fellow! How Ты been? Still don’t have a name huh?” I сказал(-а) as I rubbed him behind his ears. He was still so small in my big hands.
“Well I’m sure Lilly will know what to name it now” Granma Lilly joked. “She’s still asleep? “She asked
“Yea grams “Paul answered. “ She needs her rest. Jake is taking her to see Belllllaaa today” He teased.
“AH shut it Paul.” I sneered back. “I might. It all depends on how she feels today. She’s been sleeping for three days. She may need some еще time.” I hoped. I wasn’t nervous…okay I was nervous. This was going to be the most awkward experience of my teenage life. Ugh.
“Good morning!” Gleamed Emily as she glided through the door. “Is Lilly awake now?” she asked while Поцелуи Granma Lilly on the cheek.
“Nope not yet. “ I answered. “Still knocked out. I only slept for two days after my first phase. She must really be tired.”
“No I’m fine” Lilly сказал(-а) walking down the stairs. She seemed groggy. And tired. I wished she stayed asleep. I wanted her to get all the rest she could get. She looked at me and smiled a weak smile and stumbled down the stairs. She caught herself and swiftly landed on my lap. She was too tired to Переместить so she just laid her head on my chest.
“Well rise and shine sweatpea! “Said Emily. She was always the one who cheered everyone up. I wonder where Sam was.
“Where is Sam?” I asked.
“Not too sure. He left earlier to run around to see if those vamps Ты were searching for were around. He hasn’t been back yet. I thought he would be over here? “ Em said. She started to look worried. Paul and I immediately looked at each other. I lightly placed Lilly (who was asleep again) onto the couch. WE ran through the door and phased while running into the forest.
Can Ты pick up his scent? I asked anxiously.
Yea I got it. This way Paul answered.
We ran faster and faster till Paul dead in his tracks. What’s the ma- I began to say. Till I saw Sam. He was still in волк form. I immediately ran towards him. Sam was laid on his side his пальто drenched with blood. But thank God…he was stil breathing.
What happened here! Paul asked anxiously. He ran towards him and put his head above his nose to see if he was still breathing.
Sam can Ты hear me? Are Ты okay? What happened? Sam could only open his eyes. He blinked.
I picked him up and noticed something matted in his fur. By this time I was back to my human form. It was a charm bracelet that looked vintage. Sort of old looking.
“What’s that?” Paul asked after returning to his human form himself.
“I guess it’s a bracelet. He might have encountered those filthy bloodsuckers weve been waiting for. Let’s get him back to the house Em is problely about to go crazy.” I sighed and picked Sam up with no problem and Paul grabbed his feet. We made our way back to the house. Considering Sam would be healed in a about a день или two we decided to let him rest before we beggared him about what happen. WE laid him down on Lilly’s постель, кровати after he got enough strength to phase back to human form. By this time Lilly was awake and groggy herself. She looked a lot better. I was hoping she would feel a lot better to.
“I think I should go get Carlisle to take a look at Sam’s injuries” I told Emily to calm her down. Sam looked horrible. He had scratches on every inch of his chest. He even had some across his face. I felt anger rush through my veins. If it was bloodsuckers that did this I sure as hell was going to give Edward a hard time about not being on his job and making sure there weren’t newcomers in town.
“Lilly get dressed. Its time to meet the cullens.”
Вампиры do stink-Lilly
“Lilly? Are Ты dressed?” Jake called up. I wasn’t dressed at all. I just noticed I was naked standing in front of my dresser. It was the first time I wasn’t weak enough to notice my new senses. I could hear and see everything. Almost everything I touched was cold against my hand from my own extreme body heat. I was еще graceful than I ever been. I picked up my ballet shoes from the corner of my постель, кровати and stared at them. Then came a knock on my door.
“Can I come in?” asked Jacob. I pulled the towel off my dresser and slipped it on.
“Yes Ты can.” He walked in a little embarrassed I was in a towel than smiled.
“Well I see Ты didn’t get very far getting dressed. Need help twinkle toes? I have fashion sense. Even though I barely wear clothes myself “he smiled. Through all of the chaos now Jake still found a way to be happy and smile. He made me smile often. He walked towards the closet and picked up a tank вверх and some jeans.
“This is perfect!” he beamed. “Plain and simple. Yet sexy. Wooo! “
“Jake!” I screamed. “This is not funny! For God’s sake I’m about to meet the girl Ты were once in Любовь with! This is no laughing matter!” I could feel myself began to shake. No not again I thought. But before it got any further Jake grabbed me and kissed me. I calmed down. Woo that was a close one. He waved the jeans in my face laughing.
I laughed. “Yea jerk give me those. Ты do have style. But I wanted to wear something еще presentable. After all Ты have told me how beautiful Вампиры are. I’m going to feel intimidated. “I hope he couldn’t notice how nervous I was. After all I was about to meet the girl he was once in Любовь with. I was extremely jealous at this point.
“Babe, Ты look good in everything Ты wear. And doesn’t worry, I only have eyes for Ты now. “He cheesed. Ah I loved his smile. It made me melt. He walked towards me and sat on the bed. He pulled my face towards his and began to Kiss me. Not like any Kiss before, but way better. I kissed him back. My knees still got weak in the knees. Good I was hoping being a волк wouldn’t change that about our kisses.
I pulled him closer to me pulling his body over mine. Damn I was strong. He kicked off his shoes and rolled to his side still Поцелуи me. This was it. I knew I wanted to take it there. I had to. I wanted to. I wanted to make Любовь to Jacob.
“JACOB! LILLY! COME ON!” Seth yelled. He and Leah were down stairs waiting for us. They decided to Присоединиться us to going to the Cullen’s house. Darn I thought. An interruption. I started to feel myself getting angry but decided to keep it under wraps.
Jacob looked madder than I did. He huffed and got up muttering something under his breath. He took the подушка with him and laid it in his lap. I laughed to myself at that.
“Well. Uh...okay get dressed.” Jacob said. I could tell he was embarrassed. I laughed and began to get dressed in front of him. Might as well tease him a little. He blushed under his russet colored skin. Its okay I thought. It will be plenty of times we will have alone. No worries.
The Cullen’s house was еще beautiful than what Jacob have told me.
It was glass walls with a very intricate detail to the architecture. It was beautiful. This is what intimidated me more. I kind of dreaded to meet these vampires. I mean wasn’t I supposed to hate them? Better yet kill them? Even thought they were different of their time I couldn’t help but think how the pack could be Друзья with these people who kill and hunt humans. UGH I thought. Nasty.
We climbed out of Jakes Rabbit and headed towards the steps.
“Now listen Lilly, Ты have nothing to worry about okay. They are very kind people and are very excited to meet you. Especially Carlisle.” Seth told me
“Okay.” I replied. Everyone could tell I wasn’t so excited about this. Even Leah started laughing. She grabbed my shoulder and pushed me towards the door. I really liked Leah. I felt like we had a special bond. She was really helping me though this.
A small pale woman opened the door with a black spiky cut dressed in a dress, a кардиган and some heels. I liked her style. This must be Alice I thought.
“Well hello!” Alice beamed. She was beautiful. And so nice.
“Hey Alice!” Jake and Seth replied. Leah remained quiet rolling her eyes behind me.
“You must be Lilly! We’ve been waiting. We are so excited to meet you! Are Ты hungry? We cooked some макаронные изделия, макароны for Ты guys. And this time we cooked a lot Jake” She laughed. Her being so nice kind of made me a little sick. But I liked her. But Jacob was right. Вампиры did stink, BAD.
“Hello Alice. I’ve heard a lot about Ты to” I smiled. His kindness made me less nervous. I expected black long hair, and coffins everywhere. But their house was the nicest house I’ve ever seen. She invited me inside. Two еще Вампиры walked up. Esme and Carlisle.
“You are beautiful!” Esme сказал(-а) as she hugged me. Aw I liked her too. That’s two so far.
“Thank you, Ты are еще beautiful” I joked back. “Esme right?”
“That’s right! See Jake I told Ты I would Любовь her. This is my husband Carlisle.
“Hello Ms Lilly! Jake has told us so much about you. How are you?” Carlisle said. I liked him to so far.
“I’m fine. Still some getting used to. I guess it hasn’t really hit me yet, but I have Jake and the others to help me. So not so bad” I answered.
“I Любовь your dress” Alice cut in. “We should go shopping sometime.”
“I agree” I сказал(-а) with a big smile. I loved this family so far.
Jake took Carlisle in the room to explain everything that happened so far, and what happened with Sam. Alice guided me into the living room while Seth and Leah took Esme up on her offer to dig in to some of the макаронные изделия, макароны she made for us.
“So, where everyone else” I asked. I was kind of anxious to meet the others now that I felt comfortable.
“Well...Bella is just about to walk in …Now” Alice said. And soon as she сказал(-а) now Bella walked in the open clearing near the forest. She walked in the house with a male vampire. She was beautiful. Extremely beautiful. A sense of jealousy began to run through me. How could I compete with her? I mean yes I was beautiful, but she was …extremely beautiful. She was pale with golden eyes like the rest of them. Her hair was a little longer than mine a каштан color, and flowing across her cheeks. Wow I thought. Jake has good taste. I mean after all he chose me to imprint. So that means I have nothing to worry about …right?
“You’re nervous?” Alice whispered. “Don’t worry Ты two will be good friends.” Funny she сказал(-а) it like she was almost sure we were.
“Lilly!”Bella peered hugging me. “Wow Ты are beautiful! I’m so glad to finally meet this girl my best friend has been raving about to me forever.” She said. Wow I guess I liked her too. I smiled. I still felt intimidated, but couldn’t help but to…like her. She was so nice.
“Hello Lilly” сказал(-а) another vampire standing beside her. He was handing me a bouquet of roses. This must be Edward I thought. He was extremely handsome too. Wow how could people so beautiful be natural born killers? I had to keep remembering they were “Vegetarians” …I guess.
“Thank Ты “I answered. “Thanks so much. It’s nice to finally meet Ты two. I’ve heard tons about Ты guys. “I than saw that Bella noticed my being nervous. She smiled and pulled me aside. “Are Ты nervous? Please don’t be. Were family now. Ты don’t have to worry about anything. Jake is my best friend so that makes Ты important to me as well.” She really was sincere. I looked into her golden eyes and knew she was immediately telling me the truth. I couldn’t get mad at her. Even though I was still a little jealous. But I found myself to be …speechless.
“I…I really don’t know what to say. I mean I knew I would be nervous. No offense but my Jacob used to be in Любовь with you. Its just nerve racking that’s all. But meeting you, how could he not fall for you? You’re beautiful. And so nice.” I looked down and felt tears coming. “And me…I’m a monster now.” I couldn’t stop the words from coming out.
“Your not a monster. We all have things about us that we can’t control, but never call yourself a monster! That was old…Jake is in Любовь with Ты now. That was the past. Please don’t feel like he doesn’t Любовь Ты еще than anything. “Bella сказал(-а) wiping my tears. “And trust me Ты will get use to being a werewolf. It’s quite fun from what I see actually. Jake has a blast most of the time. “She smiled. She did began to make me feel a little better.
“Damn Jake she’s hot!” Yelled an unfamiliar voice.
“Emmett I swear if Ты touch her!” Jake screamed. I heard a lot of running.
“Oh that’s Emmett.” Bella said. She could tell I was confused. “Don’t pay attention to anything he says. He’s a jerk most of the time. And this is Rosalie. A pretty blond vampire walked in.
“Hey Lilly. Nice to meet you” She said.
“You too” I smiled back.
“Well that’s everyone!” Bella said. Except for Renessme. She’s sleeping but I will be еще than happy to introduce Ты to a little later. Now come in here and let’s get to know each other a little better. The boys are going back to La push to check on Sam with Carlisle. When Jasper gets back, oh yea Ты haven’t met him. He’s hunting. WE will all discuss our plans for finding out where this new coven of Вампиры has come from” She pulled me into the living room. I was a big living room. There was a huge plasma TV on the Стена facing the big luxurious couch. WE sat down and talked for HOURS. I loved all of them. They were so kind, fun and filled with life. WE automatically clicked. Bella told me stories of Jacob and the pack of how they bickered and fought. Stories of how things were before Bella could get the Cullen’s to get along with the pack. They were all so interesting and at times funny. Before I knew it it was nightfall, and the boys weren’t back yet.