Stay with me forever
Jacob:
Saturday was always a busy день for me ever since John Dowling retired and Edward and Bella gave me a small loan to buy his garage. I always knew I was good with my hands. Being a mechanic just came easy to me. It was honest, hard work and it made me happy. My customers liked me, like the work I did, and appreciated not having to drive to Port Angeles anymore. I hired Seth and Leah Clearwater to help me out. I taught Seth everything I knew about cars and Мотоциклы and Leah was taking care of the paperwork end of my business. She handled all the calls, made sure the bills were paid, kept track of all the important stuff that I didn’t need to worry about. But the Магазин wasn’t opened today. I kept looking at the clock, counting down the минуты waiting for 11:30 to finally arrive. Today was Nessie’s birthday. I had spent a couple hours a день after the Магазин closed for almost a год now working on Nessie’s present. It was my obsession …a 1968 Ford мустанг Fastback. When I found it, it was a heaping wreck. I knew it would be hell to rebuild it, but I didn’t care. It was for my girl, my heart, my reason for living… my Nessie. I spared no expense on the rebuild. I spent countless hours looking for all the right parts, the right engine. I repainted it to the original color “Candy яблоко Red”. It was gonna fly. I just had a deep, deep feeling in me that she was going to Любовь it. Her first car was going to be the one I built for her and I was going to be the one to teach her how to drive it. I argued for so long with Edward about letting Nessie get her driver’s permit. And in typical rich guy fashion… daddy wanted to buy her a new car, but I flat out refused. Now it was almost time to leave for her party. I couldn’t wait to see her face when I pulled up in it. One flip of the key in the ignition and car’s engine came alive. It purred and growled for me. I had just enough time for one last test drive before I headed to the party. I couldn’t stop grinning as my foot kept testing the gas pedal. Sounded like me back in the day, when the fevers would take control of my body. But I hadn’t had any need to shape shift in years. Nessie had quieted all the uneasy, angry, tense feelings I ever had in my head with just her smile. My body had been so quiet for so long that I began to age again to my relief. At this point I could guesstimate I was probably еще like twenty four years old. Give или take a year. I let my hair grow out to the long length everyone remembered. I didn’t seem to lose any of my height или my muscle build though, but I didn’t care one way или the other. As long as I was older than Nessie at this point…it didn’t matter. I called Bella on my cell phone to let her know I was on my way so she would bring Nessie into the house for the final Tah Daahh!
One last test drive…sweet! I hit the gas and this monster just felt like it was airborne as the tires dug into pavement leaving a plume of exhaust fumes in its wake. I would be at the party in moments at the rate of speed I was going. The houses and trees were just a blur out the side windows as the engine “chirped” through each gear. I just couldn’t stop laughing to myself. My face began to hurt just a little with my ear to ear smile. This felt so much better than my Rabbit. Not that I didn’t still Любовь my car. But it was the power of the мустанг that was amazing me now.
I slowed into the last stretch of roadway just before the long driveway. I didn’t want Nessie to hear too much as a got closer to the house. Edward must have told the whole party that I was here. Everyone was waiting on the porch as I pulled up to the house. Edward had his hands over Nessie’s eyes. I could see her squirming with excitement as I got out and leaned against the side of my present.
Edward whispered into Nessie’s ear “Are Ты ready?”
“Yes, yes…!” Her voice answered back to him. She couldn’t stand it anymore.
Edward and I nodded to each other once as he released Nessie’s eyes. Everyone hollered at the same time “HAPPY BIRTHDAY!” as she took her first timid steps toward me and the gleaming car. She screamed in a gleeful cry and bounded off the porch at lightning speed, clearing the distance between us in seconds. My arms were spread wide with anticipation and I braced myself a bit and she jumped into my arms. She wrapped both her arms and legs around me in a vice grip hug as I caught her. I couldn’t help myself as a spun us around in circles a couple times. This was what I had be waiting and hoping for all year. All my hard work paid off as she repeated and repeated “Thank you, Jacob. Thank you! I Любовь it, thank you!
When I finally put her down I had only one thing on my mind. Taking her for a ride in her Mustang. Not wanting to be rude, I refrained from my Вопрос momentarily. Better say hello to everyone first. I let Nessie jump into the front сиденье, место, сиденья to enjoy her present and headed for the porch.
“Hey everyone, long time no see!” I сказал(-а) in greeting
Alice, Rosalie, Esme and Bella gave me each a hug. Bella was especially happy to see me as always. Edward, Emmett, Jasper gave me the usual high five and handshakes. I got all the “Wow and Awesome man!” as I expected. Carlisle shook my hand in greeting. Then there was Charlie. I hadn’t seen him in so long. I knew that he was gonna get a hug from me one way или the other.
“Hey Charlie!” I greeted him with a медведь hug
“Jacob, good to see you…Ow! Эй, take it easy on me I’m not as young as I may look. I laughed as I let him go. “So I heard Ты rebuilt the мустанг from the ground up. Ты did an amazing job. How is the Магазин going?”
“Been real busy. But I Любовь what I do so I really can’t complain”
“So…how is your dad?”
“He’s hanging in there. As best he can” I could feel my face give off a look of worry as I answered him.
“Hey I’m sure he will be fine. Carlisle has a good eye on him. Don’t let it get Ты down.”
“Sure, sure”
“Hey I think someone’s still waiting for you” he сказал(-а) as I looked back at Nessie still sitting in the Mustang.
Edward…Bella…would Ты mind if Ness and I take a short drive. We won’t be too long” I promised
“Please mom, dad…please!” Nessie called out from the driver’s side window at us.
They both nodded at us.
I didn’t wait a секунда longer as I raced back to the мустанг and opened the driver’s side door.
“Nessie scoot over…”
“Awh…Jacob I wanna drive! Please!” she whined at me. It was hard not to laugh a little at the face she made at me.
“Let me at least get us to a безопасно, сейф place first” I played back at her “Come on scoot…scoot over!” I didn’t know who was actually еще excited. But she did slide over as I climbed in to the driver’s seat. The roar of the engine lit her face up.
“Okay! Hold on…” I hit the gas and we left the house with the tires screaming again. We were halfway to La Push in minutes, but we were not going all the way. Just far enough off the main roads to make it safer for her away from the traffic. She didn’t stop smiling the whole way. I couldn’t help glancing over at her.
“So…do Ты really like it?”
“Are Ты kidding me, Jacob this is the best present I’ve ever had before!’
“I’m happy then that Ты like it”
“I Любовь it! Ты are the best Jake!”
“Thanks, sweetie”
We pulled off on the first side road and I brought the мустанг to a quick stop letting the tires skid just a bit. I threw the мустанг into park as I turned to her to begin driver’s education one-oh-one but she blushed and dropped her eyes suddenly. I noticed but didn’t miss a beat as I began my tutoring.
“Okay. First things first. One…this is a 68’ Mustang. It’s got a ton of horsepower! So I want Ты to promise me Ты will obey the speed limits when Ты are driving around town. Safety first…okay?
“Okay…but…”
“Number two. Always keep both hands on the wheel at all times. Ты keep them at ten o’clock and two o’clock like this…” I positioned my hands as a reference for her. Do Ты understand?
“Yes, but”
“Number three. Always keep at least three car lengths back away from the driver in front of you…Always! Got it?’
“Yes” she grumbled at me
“Okay we’re going to switch places now. Don’t touch anything until I get back in the car”
I got out, ran around the мустанг as she slid over to the driver’s сиденье, место, сиденья and got back on the passenger’s side quick.
“Okay now look below at your feet, Ты have two foot pedals. Ты are only going to use your right foot…not both feet. The pedal on the right is gas and the left is the brake. Now, Показать me gas first… break second. She maneuvered her foot to the gas pedal and the engine revved a few RPM’s. Then she repeated the same motion on the brake.
“Okay…now Ты see the gauges up here?” I pointed to the dashboard.
“This one is the one Ты want to check on…it tells Ты how fast Ты are gonna be going. Then Ты have the turn signal here on your left side “I сказал(-а) as I moved closer to her and leaned over the steering wheel to Показать her how it worked.
Feeling confident I had all the basics covered it was time to put everything I had just сказал(-а) into motion.
“Alright put Ты foot on the brake and put the gearshift into Drive.” I сказал(-а) as she followed my directions with ease. “Slowly depress the gas and keep your eyes on the road ahead of you.” The мустанг began to slowly creep forward. “See you’re driving. No big deal”
“This is scary, Jacob”
“Nah…you’re doing fine…just keep your eyes on the road.”
When we got about 20 feet down the road I saw the confidence in Nessie’s face grow and grow along with her smile.
“I’m driving Jake. This is fantastic! “
“Bet Ты can go a little bit faster now”
“You think, I mean are Ты sure-“
“Go ahead, just hit the gas. I got Ты covered”
A small twinkle in her eyes and a devious smile curled the corner of her lips matching mine. One быстрый, стремительный, свифт movement and she put her foot down on the gas pedal sending the мустанг easily over the 10 miles per час we were previously traveling at. She hollered at the вверх of her lungs”Whooo HOO!” I couldn’t help joining in with her. We reached the end of the dirt road in seconds.
“Nessie end of the line…hit the brake!” as she did the мустанг slid to a hault. She just broke out laughing. I really loved her laugh. It was completely contagious and every time she laughed, I found myself laughing too.
“Okay I think we had enough for one day”
As she began to protest I reminded her of her party guests waiting for her and she didn’t argue further. I was grateful for that. We switched seats with each other and I turned the мустанг around and headed back towards the party. I turned to her, I was just about to ask her if she really had fun when she suddenly kissed me square on the lips. The sudden and unexpected Kiss sent me into recoil as my head flew back against the driver’s side window and I slammed on the brakes as the мустанг slid sideways to a stop. My mouth was just hanging open in shock looking at her as I threw the мустанг into Park. She saw my reaction as a rejection and she slid into her сиденье, место, сиденья and began to gnaw on her lip just the way Bella used to do.
“Nessie…why did Ты do that?” I asked her abruptly without realizing my tone.
“I’m sorry” she answered me in a shy quiet voice. But as quickly as she spoke to me she turned, flung the car door open and broke out into a sprint down the road as I jumped out after her.
“Nessie?...Nessie!” I called out as I came up behind her. I caught her wrist and spun her around to face me. When I looked at her I could see the tears running down her face that she was trying to hide from me.
“Nessie, I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to upset you…it’s just that you…I mean Ты shouldn’t be Поцелуи guys at Болталка like that. I don’t think you’re old enough yet.” I сказал(-а) as gently as I could.
“You don’t like me…is that…is that what Ты are saying. Ты don’t like me in that way?” I could hear the frustration in her voice.
“That’s not what I’m trying to say at all” I was trying to reassure her.
“What am I not pretty enough?” she hissed
“Nessie of course Ты are. Don’t be silly. You’re the most beautiful girl in the entire world. Why are Ты Актёрское искусство like this?” I сказал(-а) with all the sincerity I had in me. I was making my voice as soft as possible.
“They why can’t I Kiss you?” she murmured
“Ugh, er…Nessie…how can I explain this to you?” I sighed. I was struggling. I had to come up with something rational to say to her. But what? My mind was just coming up blank. She dropped her face into her hands to cover up the tears and began to sob softly. All I could do at this point was заворачивать, обертывание my arms around her to try to comfort her. I held her close to me. Think dummy, think! I kept saying to myself. Do I tell her about imprinting? Do I try to rationalize with her? My mind just kept searching. I let her go just enough to place one hand on her shoulders and cupped her chin with my free hand trying to lift her chin to have her look at me. As her eyes met mine and I was about to be brilliant finally …she put her palm to my face. Suddenly I could see in my mind everything she was thinking. Every image was crystal clear. The Обои washed over me, consumed me. They were of us, together…our wedding, our children, our home, growing old together everything…everything I’d been planning for our future. Everything I had been trying to avoid the moment she kissed me. I closed my eyes as her hand gently slipped from my cheek, and I shuttered. For a moment I couldn’t breathe properly. I felt the surge of heat come through me. Panicked I began to back away from her fearful that the inner волк in me would suddenly jump out at her. My body was trembling.
Jacob? Jacob what wrong? She kept stepping вперед worried and confused.
“No! Nessie…Back up! I was shouting at her. She didn’t understand the reason. She ignored my demands and kept stepping forward.
“Jake you’re scaring me…I’m sorry…I Just-“
“Nessie just stay back a minute! Don’t come any closer! Please Ты have to trust me on this!” I growled at her. She stopped short staring at me.
It took me a moment to recover…to stabilize my emotions. A took a couple of deep breaths. I finally came back to myself. Her Далее statement was still the bigger shock.
“Jacob, I’m in Любовь with you. And I get it. Ты don’t want me like that. I understand” she sighed.
“No, Nessie… that’s not it at all. Oh, if only Ты could read my mind right now. Ты would see differently. And I don’t care right now if your dad kills me for this later.”
I couldn’t stop myself as I closed the gap between us. I had to Показать her she was wrong to think I didn’t Любовь her. This was the moment I had been waiting for since the день she was born. I gently brushed her hair away from her beautiful face with one hand letting my fingers slide through. My other hand slid around her waist and I kissed her softly on her lips even though I was still trying to resist the momentary thought of Edward face in my head. My eyes stung with tears as I felt her lips return my intentions. I could hear both of our hearts skip beat at the exact same time. I kissed her deeper now tracing her lips with my mouth to hers in exploration. Her arms gently wrapped themselves around my waist. I pulled her body gently into mine. The intensity of our Любовь was mounting with each passing second. Neither one of us wanted it to end but it had to. We were due back at the party and I reluctantly but gently let her go. We were both trembling now.
“We are in big trouble…your dad is going to flip out when we get back to the house.” I laughed as she smiled at me. “Come on we got to go. We will have to continue this later.” I chuckled
“Que Quowle” was all she сказал(-а) to me.
“How do Ты even know that?” I questioned her in complete shock. She сказал(-а) it perfect, beautifully in fact. “Do Ты know what it means? I mean it my native language. But do Ты know?”
“Yes, I looked it up on the internet” She whispered.
“What does it mean?”I smiled asking her in disbelief.
“It means… Stay With Me Forever”
“You’re exactly right…and don’t worry. I will. I always will.” I сказал(-а) as I gave her a huge hug and kissed her again on her forehead. “Listen to me. We have to try to empty или heads. You’re dad will know our thoughts. He might already know. He’s not going to be happy about this.” I сказал(-а) with mounting concern. But it was too late. I could hear the Volvo as it was heading down the road to our location.
“Oh, No- Nessie run for the car! Get into the driver’s seat! Now! Hurry!” I yelled as was both sprinted towards the мустанг I ran around to the driver’s side as she jumped in to take the wheel.
“Jacob I don’t know what I’m doing-“
“Listen to me there isn’t time just put your foot on the gas and get out of here. Follow the road till Ты can’t go any further!
“Yes but-“
“Don’t argue with me now just GO! Get out of here!”
She hit the gas and headed quickly out of my sight. Edward was here a moment later. The Volvo skidded to a stop as he flung the door open and started heading toward me in fury. I put up both my hands as I backed up away from him trying to explain myself.
“What the hell do Ты think Ты are doing with my daughter Ты mongrel? He hissed each word out one at a time with pure rage as he was walking towards me.
“Edward! Stop! Ты don’t understand-“
But it was too late. He swung wildly at me as I did my best to out maneuver him. I didn’t want to fight him. We danced around in a круг dipping and weaving. I knew it wasn’t going to take him long to eventually find his target. With one свинг, качели of his arm he clashed my chest and sent me тележка, корзина wheeling in the air as my body struck a дерево with an agonizing blow. Reeling in pain I was grateful now to hear other cars and voices arrive as I lay in a fetal position on the ground.
“Edward…stop it!” Bella’s voice rang out.
Bella, Emmitt, and Jasper grabbing him swiftly knocking him down to the ground and pinning him in place. Bella ran to my side.
“Jacob, Jacob are Ты okay. Say something to me. Answer me” Bella’s voice quivered to me.
“I’m okay -I think…just can’t -catch my- breath” I panted.
“Why the hell didn’t Ты phase? He could have-“
“I didn’t -want to- fight him” I huffed in response
Esme and Carlisle arrived moments later. In a flash Carlisle was at my side.
“Jacob where are Ты hurt?” he asked.
“I’m not doc…just got to-catch my breath” Finally I got enough air back in my lungs to make a full sentence.
“Where is Nessie?” Bella frantically searched with her eyes.
“I can hear the мустанг coming now, I told her to go to the end of the road and wait for me. Guess she didn’t listen.”
As Nessie pulled up, Emmitt and Jasper had released Edward and he raced to the car yanking her out and practically threw her into the backseat of the Volvo. Bella was protesting his behavior on my defense…but I could see there was no talking to him as he spun the Volvo around in a frantic u-turn and sped away.
Carlisle got me to my feet as Bella was heading back to me. I could tell she wanted answers.
“Jacob, what the hell is going on?”
“We will leave Ты two alone to talk” Carlisle сказал(-а) as Bella and I waited for the cars to pull away.
“What did Edward say to Ты Bella?”
“Nothing he just flew out the door yelling mongrel!”
“And Alice? What did she see?”
“Jake Ты know Alice can’t see Ты или Nessie…so are Ты going to tell me what’s going on?”
“Bella…this is difficult for me to say to you. Believe me I didn’t mean to…I hadn’t planned on anything, I swear”
“Jake, what are Ты talking about? What happened?”
“Nessie kissed me!”
“What?”
“And I kissed her back, I’m sorry. It just happened-“
“You kissed my daughter...Jacob she’s seven! How could you?”
“She’s only seven in human years…open your eyes Bella. She’s not a little girl anymore. That doesn’t change anything, I know. But Bella she put her hand to my face…she showed me…” I broke off unable to complete my thought as Bella still had a look of horror on her face. I dropped my gaze. I couldn’t look at Bella anymore. I just paced back and forth in front of her. How was I going to tell Bella what I had been shown by Nessie without Bella freaking out. I couldn’t do it. I was too afraid what she would think and whether she would believe anything I was going to tell her.
“What did she Показать you?
I was still pacing in front of her. I knew Bella would not let me get away without an answer for her. I stopped in front of her and took her hands in mine.
“Bella she showed me our future. Mine and her’s. Everything in perfect detail.”
Bella’s shocked expression began to slowly shift into a perfectly happy smile. She knew I had imprinted on Nessie and there were times when I had told her I hoped Nessie would Любовь me as much as I loved her. Contentment was in her voice now “Jake that’s great…really. I’m really happy.
I let out a huge sigh of relief as Bella wrapped her arms around my waist and gave me a hug.
“Seriously…you’re not mad или anything” I asked her.
“No Jake. This is your destiny, and Nessie’s as well. This is meant to happen. I was hoping just little bit later than right now though.” She laughed
“Thanks, Bells… Ты don’t know how much this means to me. That Ты accept me.”
“Let’s get back to the house, okay. You, me and Edward we are going to get this all straightened out. Don’t worry” she promised. “And now I understand еще why Ты didn’t want to fight Edward”
“Wouldn’t be a good idea to get any further on his bad side. He must have read our minds или something. He got here so fast. He’s probably drilling Ness right now”
“Don’t worry, we’ll work something out”
“Bella…thank you. Thanks for understanding. Really”
Just as I finished my sentence, Bella’s cell phone rang.
“It’s Alice…Hey Alice what up” a long pause and look of anger came across Bella’s face. “What do Ты mean he didn’t come home. Alice where is he? What do Ты mean…he’s blocking Ты out? Did Ты see anything at all? The Вопросы kept rolling off Bella’s tongue and each one brought еще horror and concern to her eyes. “The airport? Are Ты sure? No! We’re on our way…bye”
“What’s going on?”
“Alice says she think Edward is bringing Ness to the airport but, she can’t be sure. He’s trying to block her thoughts. We have to get to the airport right now. He already has a half час jump on us”
“Let’s go!”
Bella and I jumped into the мустанг and began to speed to the airport. We didn’t say anything to each other. She started to call airlines trying to get as much information as she could on out-bound flight times. Nessie was not registered on a single one.
“I don’t understand…If she is not booked for departure on any of the airlines, maybe Alice was wrong.”
“Did Ты check for private flights”
“No, but good idea and I’m calling Edward”
By the time we reached the airport Edward was waiting outside the terminal for us. Bella jumped out of the car and ran to him insisting that I stay in the car and wait for her to return. It wasn’t like I couldn’t hear the whole conversation.
“What did Ты do, Edward? Where is Nessie?”
“Nessie is fine now. She is heading off to college.”
“College? Where? Where is my daughter Edward!”
“I’m not having this discussion with Ты right now Bella”
“Why? Where did Ты send her?”
“Bella! Our daughter is going to college. I’m not having her miss out on all the experiences Ты should have had. Not now, not ever. She is going to have a life. And as Ты are my wife Ты are going to respect my wishes.”
“College…fine! But did Ты have to send her away for that. Ты know Jacob-“
“Don’t even start defending that dog! Ты didn’t hear или see what I did. I read his mind! And her mind too. I could expect such thoughts from him…but not Nessie! Not my daughter.”
“Edward…Jacob doesn’t have any immediate plans for Nessie. I trust him. “
“I know what she showed him, Bella! She is not old enough to even be thinking of such things!”
I couldn’t sit still. I wanted to reason with Edward, but I had to put my trust in Bella now.
“Edward who are Ты really trying to hurt here…Jacob или me?”
“Look Bella…I’m not having my underage daughter lie around his house all день cooking and cleaning like a slave, barefoot and pregnant with puppies. She is going to make a life for herself first. If she is really meant to be with Jacob then it will happen…LATER! End of discussion!”
“Edward it’s not fair to me. Ты took my daughter away without even talking to me first”
“You can write to her, chat online, call whenever Ты want, and we will fly to her during her breaks. It’s not like Ты will never see her ever again.”
“Edward, please…”
“No Bella! After she get her Master’s degree in the field of her choice and has an accepted job offer, and experiences life… then and only then can she come home.”
“But what about Jacob…are Ты saying he can’t have any contact with her? How can Ты separate them like this? After everything he had done for us. We owe him! I wouldn’t even be here today if it wasn’t for Jacob!”
“Bella…I’m her father! I know what is best. Jacob will either learn to cope and wait, или I will remove him permanently from her life.” He hissed and clenched his teeth.
Bella couldn’t say anymore. She knew Edward was serious. He never raised his voice to her. He always bent to Bella’s every wish. But, not this time. As I sat in the Mustang, she turned to me with an expression on her face that could only mean one thing. I’m sorry, I tried. She was right though. I had дана the bloodsucker everything. Not only did he marry and vamp up the girl of my dreams, but now he was separating me from my true love, Nessie. I shook my head at them and ripped up the pavement as I sped away. I couldn’t stand it anymore. I had to go или risk getting out of the car and killing him right where he stood. If it was his plan that I have no contact with Nessie then that’s what he was going to get. I wasn’t hanging around to be tortured again by this bloodsucker. I was going to get as far away as I could. I hit the highway heading south. My plan was simple. Keep driving south till I couldn’t go any further. I Got to San Diego before I had to stop and sleep. Over the Далее couple of weeks I had drove thru Mexico into South America. I kept my course heading south through Peru into Chile only stopping long enough to eat and sleep. I crossed the Chilean border into Argentina and wound up in Puerto Santa Cruz. I figured I had driven long enough. There were enough people here for me to blend in even though I didn’t speak the language. I found a job as a mechanic and settled into a one room rental. I wasn’t happy, but I was away from that filthy bloodsucker, and that’s all I cared about at the time. A few months went by. I tried to keep busy. I called Главная only to check on my dad once a month. I never left a number, gave him an address или told anyone where exactly I was. I didn’t call Bella. I couldn’t медведь to hear her voice. I stayed in human form so the pack couldn’t communicate to me and settled in for the long wait. It would take a minimum of four years for Nessie to meet Edward’s criteria for her return home. That’s if she did double classes and didn’t come Главная on school breaks like Рождество или summertime. Because of my obsessive nature I worked at the гараж well into the night. And by the time I got back to my rental, all I could do was go to bed. My mind always started thinking of Nessie first. I replayed the Обои she had shown me. I dreamt of Nessie every night. It was the only way to be with her. Edward could stop me from seeing her in the real world, but my mind was the one place he couldn’t keep her away from me. I fell asleep quickly from exhaustion. But tonight was different. Suddenly a flash of an image burned into my dream. I jumped up in panic. “Sam! Oh no!” I launched myself out of постель, кровати and immediately shifted my body to my wolf. “Sam! Quil, Embry can anyone hear me?!” I shouted as loud as I could trying to communicate with the pack. No one answered so I tried again louder this time “Guys what’s going on! Can anyone hear me?!” But there was nothing but silence. I changed back to my human form and threw my clothes on. I ran out to the nearest pay phone to frantically started calling people in La Push. Twelve numbers later and no had picked up a phone at any of the houses, not even my dad. I knew something was wrong. I now was remembering the image that burned me earlier. It was Sam screaming, injured and crawling across a roadway to my father. My father was pinned in the passenger сиденье, место, сиденья of Sam’s truck. My father looked at Sam and then an explosion. I was out of options. I knew if everything I was seeing in my head was real and Sam was hurt, he would be at Carlisle’s home. My hand shook wildly as I dialed the number. It took two rings and then I heard Alice’s voice.
“Hello?”
“Alice! It’s Jacob. What’s going on up there?”
Alice didn’t respond. I heard Edward in the background. I slight bit of static came thru the receiver and then Edward voice.
“Jacob, where are you?”
“Edward what’s going on up there I-“
“Jacob we need Ты to come back to Forks immediately. Where are Ты now?
“Puerto Santa Cruz in South America”
“Okay. Jacob I know Ты have the мустанг but Ты need to get here as fast as possible. So I want Ты to hold the line. I have to make arrangements for Ты to get here…”
As I waited for what seemed like an eternity the image of Sam kept invading my head. I tried not to believe anything, but now Edward was making arrangements for me to come home. I knew this was serious. I began to pace trying to concentrate on my breathing.
“Jacob-?”
“Edward what the hell is going on?” He didn’t answer my question. He just continued speaking over me.
“There is a cargo ship docked in the harbor of Puerto Santa Cruz named the “Americana”. Bring the мустанг there. A gentleman named Juan Mendonca will see that it’s loaded properly. Then I need Ты to get to the airport. There is a private jet waiting there for you. Just come back to Forks. We will be here when Ты arrive.” The phone went dead as Edward hung up.
I got the мустанг to the dock. A small man was waiting there for me.
“You’re Juan Mendonca, right?”
“Yes Mr. Black…don’t worry about the car, she is in the best of hand now. I will personally be accompanying it to the United States.”
“Cool” I сказал(-а) as I threw him the keys.
“We have a car waiting for Ты there. It will take Ты directly to the airport”
“Okay, thanks.”
The driver opened the door for me as I climbed into the back seat, then ran around and jumped in the front seat. He sped away with me and rushed me as quickly as he could to the airport. When I arrived I could see an airport cop waiting for me. He had a sign up with my name. I bolted towards him.
“I’m Jacob Black”
“Follow me sir, your plane is already on the tarmac.”
I followed him with haste. He was jogging through the airport with me right on his heels. He flung a door open and we went down two flights of stairs through another door that led directly out to the jet. I had never flown before and this was the first time I had been this close to any kind of aircraft. A gleaming silver twin engine. The cop stopped at the end of the narrow steps that lead up to the plane.
“Here is your ticket Mr. Black…safe journey to you”
“Thanks” I сказал(-а) to him as I grabbed the ticket from his hand. “How long is it gonna take?
“You should be Главная before dawn, sir.”
I сказал(-а) nothing else as I climbed the stairs and took the first сиденье, место, сиденья I found by the windows. I realized only then that the rest of the plane was empty. The only person other than me was the flight attendant who came to greet me.
“Mr. Black, I’m Nancy. I will be your flight attendant today. Please buckle Ты seatbelt we are almost ready for departure. Can I get Ты anything to drink?”
“Just water for now…and can Ты call me Jacob, please.”
“Of course, Jacob. I’ll be right back with your water. I just want to let Ты know that we have a wide choice of in flight Фильмы and there is a phone for Ты if Ты need to make a call once we get airborne.”
”Thanks”
Nancy brought me the water and asked “Have Ты ever been on an airplane before?”
“No but I guess this is as good a time as any.”
“If Ты experience motion sickness I can bring Ты something to help”
“Motion Sickness?”
“It’s common for first time flyers.”
“Oh great.” I really didn’t like the sound of that one bit as I felt the plane begin to move, rotate and increase speed. Before I knew it my stomach felt like it was being left behind on the ground. I tried to relax as I watched the plane lift off into the air from out my window. My ears experienced a sudden pressure change. It felt like my eardrums were about to explode. It took about 10 минуты или so for the feeling to subside. I hadn’t noticed there was someone standing Далее to me.
“Good morning Jacob, I’m Captain John Hurley. Don’t worry son, I have been a pilot for 25 years. Nancy told me this is your first time flying.” He сказал(-а) holding his hand out to me. I shook it politely.
“So if you’re standing here then who is flying right now?”
“My co-pilot James Fredrick. We always have two pilots on each flight. I just wanted to introduce myself. Edward Cullen asked us to make Ты are as comfortable as possible. If Ты need anything at all, just ask Nancy”
“Okay, thank you”
He returned to the кабина at the front of the plane as Nancy came back over to me.
“How are Ты doing Jacob? Do Ты feel sick at all?”
“No thankfully.”
“Would Ты like anything to eat? I can bring Ты a menu.”
“No, I think I’m just going to close my eyes.”
“We have a диван, мягкий уголок over here if Ты want to lay on it. Ты seem to be uncomfortable in this little seat. I’m sure Ты would like to stretch out a bit.”
“Sure, sure”
“I’ll bring Ты a подушка and blanket then”
“Thanks” I сказал(-а) and headed for the диван, мягкий уголок at the rear of the plane. Nancy was back with the подушка and blanket before I got to the couch.”
“Sleep well Jacob. When Ты wake up, we will be in Seattle.” Nancy сказал(-а) and lowered the lights for me as I tried to relax and fell asleep. I don’t know how long I was out exactly. But I was tapped slightly by Nancy as she woke me up.
“Jacob…Jacob? We have arrived. It’s time to go. Your family is waiting for Ты outside”
I blinked once and then snapped up rubbing my eyes. I was on my feet and running for the door as I quickly thanked the captain and Nancy for their help and went through the door exiting the plane. At the вверх of the stairs I saw Edward and Bella waving for me. Three steps was all I needed to navigate down the stairs of the plane and I was sprinting toward them. Edward was the first to greet me. He stepped вперед and hugged me. A very odd sensation rippled thru me. I looked at Bella, but she hung her head and stayed behind Edward.
“Bella? Do I get a hello или what?”
“Hello…Jake…” she whispered but she didn’t move.
“So is anyone finally going to tell me what has happened?”
Edward finally spoke up. “Jacob…there has been an accident. Carlisle is taking care of Sam at the house as we speak. He has been asking for you-“
“Where is my father, Edward?” I stated as clearly as I could.
“Jacob…your father is gone. He and Sam were heading back to La Push from Charlie’s home. The driver of the diesel tanker Остаться в живых control and the truck jack knifed trying to avoid a herd of deer crossing the road. Sam tried to stop but it was too late. Sam was thrown from his truck on impact and both of his legs are completely shattered. Your dad was pinned in the collision. Sam tried to crawl to him…but the tanker exploded. Sam has been burned over half his body...I’m sorry…”
I slumped to the ground on my knees. I couldn’t believe what I was hearing, but it was true. The flash I saw of Sam, the desperation in his eyes as he saw my father lay helpless in the truck, the pain he was in, and the explosion. All of it was true. When I hit the ground, Bella came to me. She fell to her knees and hugged me with all her strength running her fingers thru my hair and Поцелуи my temples. I barely had it in me to заворачивать, обертывание my arm around her. She trembled in our embrace. If she was able to she would be crying.
“Jacob were going to bring Ты Главная to our house, okay?”
“No I need to see Sam first. “
Edward helped me to my feet and led us to the Volvo. Bella kept her arm around my waist as she placed me in the back сиденье, место, сиденья and then sat Далее to me. Edward didn’t spare a минута as he tore up the tarmac. It was about an час drive back to Forks. No one сказал(-а) anything the whole way. We pulled up to Carlisle’s house. I knew all the cars that were parked around the property. An immense crowd has gathered here awaiting my arrival. As I navigated through all the familiar faces of Друзья and family who greeted me I finally climbed the stairs to where Sam was, Emily and Carlisle were waiting at the вверх for me. Emily threw her arms around me as she sobbed and I hugged her warmly.
“Jacob…I’m sorry about your dad. Sam has been in a terrible state. He keeps repeating over and over that it’s his fault. I can’t console him.” Emily сказал(-а) thru her sobbing
“It’s okay…Emily. I’m here now. I’ll talk to him. It’s not his fault.” I whispered to her.
“Jacob, I’m trying to make him as comfortable as possible. He has a morphine drip. It may be making him a bit delusional. Please if Ты can try to calm him down. I need him to stay as quiet as possible for his wounds will heal.” Carlisle asked.
“I’ll try doc…”
They stepped out of the way and allowed me into the room. Sam was laying in a hospital постель, кровати twisting and wincing around. His face was full of guilt and grief as he kept ramming his fists into his temples. The same kind of look he had on his face when he hurt Emily. His hair and eyebrows were completely gone. His face, chest and arms were a multitude of charred remains. I choked back my stomach contents at the smell of burnt flesh that lingered in the room.
“Hey Sam…”
He looked up at me and started to babble. I quickly sat in the chair Далее to him and took his hand.
“Jacob, I…tried, the truck…your dad…I just couldn’t…”
“Sam stop this right now. It was an accident. It’s not your fault. Stop blaming yourself for everything alright.”
“I tried to save him Jake, I tried…”
“I know Ты did. I saw the whole thing!”
“What? How did you-“
“It’s hard to explain…but I did see the whole thing. Alpha telepathy…remember”
“Jake I’m sorry, I’m so sorry!”
“Look Ты have got to calm down. I’m here right. If I was going to blame Ты for this would I be here right now?”
Sam dropped his eyes and shook his head
“Sam you’re my brother. I know how much Ты loved my father. Believe me if there is anyone to blame for this…it’s me, not you. If I had been Главная where I should have been then likely chance this wouldn’t have happened. And then there is you…”
“Jake what do Ты mean, me?”
“I mean I should be me lying here like this not you, brother. I should have been driving my father back from Charlie’s place. Not you. I should be the one all banged up! I’m sorry Sam…” I сказал(-а) to him as tears began to well up in my eyes. “But you’re still here brother. At least I didn’t lose Ты both. You’re gonna be…okay.” I saw the slightest smile curl around Sam’s lips as I did my best to hold myself together. “Listen to me Sam…you just get better, okay. Just take it easy and rest. We’re gonna get through this.” I promised. Sam finally relaxed and closed his eyes.
Carlisle came back to the room to check the IV. “I’m going to give him something to help him sleep now, Jacob. I think he will be fine now that Ты are here.”
“Do whatever Ты can for him doc. Whatever it take. He has got to pull through this in one piece. For me…”
“Don’t worry Jacob. I rarely give up a fight. He’s going to get the best care from me that I can provide”
Emily came to my side. I let her have the сиденье, место, сиденья Далее to Sam so she could be close to him. I turned to walk out of the room as Emily’s voice stopped me short. “Jacob…please come back…soon.”
“Sure, sure” I answered her as I walked away.
As I got to the вверх of the stairs I began to scan the room for Nessie and I quickly realized she wasn’t here. My eyes flashed immediately to Edward with disgust. I knew he read my mind as he backed away and left the room. Bella met me at the bottom of the stairs.
“Nessie isn’t here right?”
“Jake…Edward just wanted to get Ты home…”
“My father died Bella! If this wasn’t enough reason to bring her home…then I don’t know what is!”
“Jake…we just-“
“Forget it Bella!” I shouted at her as I pushed my way through the crowd. By the time I was out the door I had phased and was running back to my father’s house. The pack thought for a moment about following me…but didn’t. They could sense I just wanted to be alone. As I walked thru the door of my father’s home, I could immediately sense the absence. The house was quiet. To awkwardly quiet. My eyes scanned the walls catching the family фото that hung everywhere. Dad’s wheelchair was in the center of the room. Right where Sam had left it. I knew it was easier for him to carry my dad. The metal arm of the chair was icy cold to my touch. On the кухня таблица was a large manila envelope. My dad had written on the front Letters to Jacob. I dumped the contents onto the table, opened the first one on top, and began to read it.
“Dearest Jacob,
I wish I had your address, son. There are so many things I want to tell you. I want Ты to know how very proud I am of you, son. Ты and your sisters have always been the highlight of my life. The best thing that has ever happened to me. I so wish your mother was alive to see how Ты have all grown up to be wonderful individuals. Especially Ты boy! I remember when Ты were born…your mom had a difficult pregnancy with you. Ты were always such a fighter. Ты would usually be kicking her in her sleep all night. But your mother never complained one bit. She knew even then that Ты were going to be a boy. I didn’t believe her at first. But she proved me wrong the день Ты were born. I remember when I held Ты for the first time. How perfect Ты were. My only son, my heir to our family’s great lineage. The blood in your veins is strong. Proof of the history of our people. The день that Ты phased for the first time…well it made me very proud. I know it has been difficult for Ты to accept, but don’t reject who Ты are. Instead embrace your spirit wolf. In times of need its presence will protect you. The pack is your family for life Jacob. Your brothers will guide Ты where I cannot. Ты are the rightful Alpha, my son. Trust the pack and they will follow Ты wherever life may take you. And remember, son, I will always Любовь you.
Billy
I sat there quietly looking at the scattered letters on the table. My dad had written me one for each день I was gone after the fight with Edward. Guilt engulfed every one of my senses. I was trying to hold everything together as the horrible struggle in my сердце began to break me down. I couldn’t take it any longer. I slammed my fists through the таблица smashing it into tiny pieces and collapsed onto the floor. The rage of emotions filled me. I hated myself. I hated all the pain I had caused my father. The man who only wanted me to be strong and happy. And here I was, just a weak kid hysterical and crying my сердце out. Screaming out apology after apology to the empty walls around me. But there was nothing I could do now to make it better или to bring him back. He was gone and I had no opportunity to tell him anymore how much I loved him. I was so taken by my state that I didn’t even hear Rachel and Rebecca as they came into the house. They immediately ran over to me, but it was too late. I was inconsolable by then.
Jacob:
Saturday was always a busy день for me ever since John Dowling retired and Edward and Bella gave me a small loan to buy his garage. I always knew I was good with my hands. Being a mechanic just came easy to me. It was honest, hard work and it made me happy. My customers liked me, like the work I did, and appreciated not having to drive to Port Angeles anymore. I hired Seth and Leah Clearwater to help me out. I taught Seth everything I knew about cars and Мотоциклы and Leah was taking care of the paperwork end of my business. She handled all the calls, made sure the bills were paid, kept track of all the important stuff that I didn’t need to worry about. But the Магазин wasn’t opened today. I kept looking at the clock, counting down the минуты waiting for 11:30 to finally arrive. Today was Nessie’s birthday. I had spent a couple hours a день after the Магазин closed for almost a год now working on Nessie’s present. It was my obsession …a 1968 Ford мустанг Fastback. When I found it, it was a heaping wreck. I knew it would be hell to rebuild it, but I didn’t care. It was for my girl, my heart, my reason for living… my Nessie. I spared no expense on the rebuild. I spent countless hours looking for all the right parts, the right engine. I repainted it to the original color “Candy яблоко Red”. It was gonna fly. I just had a deep, deep feeling in me that she was going to Любовь it. Her first car was going to be the one I built for her and I was going to be the one to teach her how to drive it. I argued for so long with Edward about letting Nessie get her driver’s permit. And in typical rich guy fashion… daddy wanted to buy her a new car, but I flat out refused. Now it was almost time to leave for her party. I couldn’t wait to see her face when I pulled up in it. One flip of the key in the ignition and car’s engine came alive. It purred and growled for me. I had just enough time for one last test drive before I headed to the party. I couldn’t stop grinning as my foot kept testing the gas pedal. Sounded like me back in the day, when the fevers would take control of my body. But I hadn’t had any need to shape shift in years. Nessie had quieted all the uneasy, angry, tense feelings I ever had in my head with just her smile. My body had been so quiet for so long that I began to age again to my relief. At this point I could guesstimate I was probably еще like twenty four years old. Give или take a year. I let my hair grow out to the long length everyone remembered. I didn’t seem to lose any of my height или my muscle build though, but I didn’t care one way или the other. As long as I was older than Nessie at this point…it didn’t matter. I called Bella on my cell phone to let her know I was on my way so she would bring Nessie into the house for the final Tah Daahh!
One last test drive…sweet! I hit the gas and this monster just felt like it was airborne as the tires dug into pavement leaving a plume of exhaust fumes in its wake. I would be at the party in moments at the rate of speed I was going. The houses and trees were just a blur out the side windows as the engine “chirped” through each gear. I just couldn’t stop laughing to myself. My face began to hurt just a little with my ear to ear smile. This felt so much better than my Rabbit. Not that I didn’t still Любовь my car. But it was the power of the мустанг that was amazing me now.
I slowed into the last stretch of roadway just before the long driveway. I didn’t want Nessie to hear too much as a got closer to the house. Edward must have told the whole party that I was here. Everyone was waiting on the porch as I pulled up to the house. Edward had his hands over Nessie’s eyes. I could see her squirming with excitement as I got out and leaned against the side of my present.
Edward whispered into Nessie’s ear “Are Ты ready?”
“Yes, yes…!” Her voice answered back to him. She couldn’t stand it anymore.
Edward and I nodded to each other once as he released Nessie’s eyes. Everyone hollered at the same time “HAPPY BIRTHDAY!” as she took her first timid steps toward me and the gleaming car. She screamed in a gleeful cry and bounded off the porch at lightning speed, clearing the distance between us in seconds. My arms were spread wide with anticipation and I braced myself a bit and she jumped into my arms. She wrapped both her arms and legs around me in a vice grip hug as I caught her. I couldn’t help myself as a spun us around in circles a couple times. This was what I had be waiting and hoping for all year. All my hard work paid off as she repeated and repeated “Thank you, Jacob. Thank you! I Любовь it, thank you!
When I finally put her down I had only one thing on my mind. Taking her for a ride in her Mustang. Not wanting to be rude, I refrained from my Вопрос momentarily. Better say hello to everyone first. I let Nessie jump into the front сиденье, место, сиденья to enjoy her present and headed for the porch.
“Hey everyone, long time no see!” I сказал(-а) in greeting
Alice, Rosalie, Esme and Bella gave me each a hug. Bella was especially happy to see me as always. Edward, Emmett, Jasper gave me the usual high five and handshakes. I got all the “Wow and Awesome man!” as I expected. Carlisle shook my hand in greeting. Then there was Charlie. I hadn’t seen him in so long. I knew that he was gonna get a hug from me one way или the other.
“Hey Charlie!” I greeted him with a медведь hug
“Jacob, good to see you…Ow! Эй, take it easy on me I’m not as young as I may look. I laughed as I let him go. “So I heard Ты rebuilt the мустанг from the ground up. Ты did an amazing job. How is the Магазин going?”
“Been real busy. But I Любовь what I do so I really can’t complain”
“So…how is your dad?”
“He’s hanging in there. As best he can” I could feel my face give off a look of worry as I answered him.
“Hey I’m sure he will be fine. Carlisle has a good eye on him. Don’t let it get Ты down.”
“Sure, sure”
“Hey I think someone’s still waiting for you” he сказал(-а) as I looked back at Nessie still sitting in the Mustang.
Edward…Bella…would Ты mind if Ness and I take a short drive. We won’t be too long” I promised
“Please mom, dad…please!” Nessie called out from the driver’s side window at us.
They both nodded at us.
I didn’t wait a секунда longer as I raced back to the мустанг and opened the driver’s side door.
“Nessie scoot over…”
“Awh…Jacob I wanna drive! Please!” she whined at me. It was hard not to laugh a little at the face she made at me.
“Let me at least get us to a безопасно, сейф place first” I played back at her “Come on scoot…scoot over!” I didn’t know who was actually еще excited. But she did slide over as I climbed in to the driver’s seat. The roar of the engine lit her face up.
“Okay! Hold on…” I hit the gas and we left the house with the tires screaming again. We were halfway to La Push in minutes, but we were not going all the way. Just far enough off the main roads to make it safer for her away from the traffic. She didn’t stop smiling the whole way. I couldn’t help glancing over at her.
“So…do Ты really like it?”
“Are Ты kidding me, Jacob this is the best present I’ve ever had before!’
“I’m happy then that Ты like it”
“I Любовь it! Ты are the best Jake!”
“Thanks, sweetie”
We pulled off on the first side road and I brought the мустанг to a quick stop letting the tires skid just a bit. I threw the мустанг into park as I turned to her to begin driver’s education one-oh-one but she blushed and dropped her eyes suddenly. I noticed but didn’t miss a beat as I began my tutoring.
“Okay. First things first. One…this is a 68’ Mustang. It’s got a ton of horsepower! So I want Ты to promise me Ты will obey the speed limits when Ты are driving around town. Safety first…okay?
“Okay…but…”
“Number two. Always keep both hands on the wheel at all times. Ты keep them at ten o’clock and two o’clock like this…” I positioned my hands as a reference for her. Do Ты understand?
“Yes, but”
“Number three. Always keep at least three car lengths back away from the driver in front of you…Always! Got it?’
“Yes” she grumbled at me
“Okay we’re going to switch places now. Don’t touch anything until I get back in the car”
I got out, ran around the мустанг as she slid over to the driver’s сиденье, место, сиденья and got back on the passenger’s side quick.
“Okay now look below at your feet, Ты have two foot pedals. Ты are only going to use your right foot…not both feet. The pedal on the right is gas and the left is the brake. Now, Показать me gas first… break second. She maneuvered her foot to the gas pedal and the engine revved a few RPM’s. Then she repeated the same motion on the brake.
“Okay…now Ты see the gauges up here?” I pointed to the dashboard.
“This one is the one Ты want to check on…it tells Ты how fast Ты are gonna be going. Then Ты have the turn signal here on your left side “I сказал(-а) as I moved closer to her and leaned over the steering wheel to Показать her how it worked.
Feeling confident I had all the basics covered it was time to put everything I had just сказал(-а) into motion.
“Alright put Ты foot on the brake and put the gearshift into Drive.” I сказал(-а) as she followed my directions with ease. “Slowly depress the gas and keep your eyes on the road ahead of you.” The мустанг began to slowly creep forward. “See you’re driving. No big deal”
“This is scary, Jacob”
“Nah…you’re doing fine…just keep your eyes on the road.”
When we got about 20 feet down the road I saw the confidence in Nessie’s face grow and grow along with her smile.
“I’m driving Jake. This is fantastic! “
“Bet Ты can go a little bit faster now”
“You think, I mean are Ты sure-“
“Go ahead, just hit the gas. I got Ты covered”
A small twinkle in her eyes and a devious smile curled the corner of her lips matching mine. One быстрый, стремительный, свифт movement and she put her foot down on the gas pedal sending the мустанг easily over the 10 miles per час we were previously traveling at. She hollered at the вверх of her lungs”Whooo HOO!” I couldn’t help joining in with her. We reached the end of the dirt road in seconds.
“Nessie end of the line…hit the brake!” as she did the мустанг slid to a hault. She just broke out laughing. I really loved her laugh. It was completely contagious and every time she laughed, I found myself laughing too.
“Okay I think we had enough for one day”
As she began to protest I reminded her of her party guests waiting for her and she didn’t argue further. I was grateful for that. We switched seats with each other and I turned the мустанг around and headed back towards the party. I turned to her, I was just about to ask her if she really had fun when she suddenly kissed me square on the lips. The sudden and unexpected Kiss sent me into recoil as my head flew back against the driver’s side window and I slammed on the brakes as the мустанг slid sideways to a stop. My mouth was just hanging open in shock looking at her as I threw the мустанг into Park. She saw my reaction as a rejection and she slid into her сиденье, место, сиденья and began to gnaw on her lip just the way Bella used to do.
“Nessie…why did Ты do that?” I asked her abruptly without realizing my tone.
“I’m sorry” she answered me in a shy quiet voice. But as quickly as she spoke to me she turned, flung the car door open and broke out into a sprint down the road as I jumped out after her.
“Nessie?...Nessie!” I called out as I came up behind her. I caught her wrist and spun her around to face me. When I looked at her I could see the tears running down her face that she was trying to hide from me.
“Nessie, I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to upset you…it’s just that you…I mean Ты shouldn’t be Поцелуи guys at Болталка like that. I don’t think you’re old enough yet.” I сказал(-а) as gently as I could.
“You don’t like me…is that…is that what Ты are saying. Ты don’t like me in that way?” I could hear the frustration in her voice.
“That’s not what I’m trying to say at all” I was trying to reassure her.
“What am I not pretty enough?” she hissed
“Nessie of course Ты are. Don’t be silly. You’re the most beautiful girl in the entire world. Why are Ты Актёрское искусство like this?” I сказал(-а) with all the sincerity I had in me. I was making my voice as soft as possible.
“They why can’t I Kiss you?” she murmured
“Ugh, er…Nessie…how can I explain this to you?” I sighed. I was struggling. I had to come up with something rational to say to her. But what? My mind was just coming up blank. She dropped her face into her hands to cover up the tears and began to sob softly. All I could do at this point was заворачивать, обертывание my arms around her to try to comfort her. I held her close to me. Think dummy, think! I kept saying to myself. Do I tell her about imprinting? Do I try to rationalize with her? My mind just kept searching. I let her go just enough to place one hand on her shoulders and cupped her chin with my free hand trying to lift her chin to have her look at me. As her eyes met mine and I was about to be brilliant finally …she put her palm to my face. Suddenly I could see in my mind everything she was thinking. Every image was crystal clear. The Обои washed over me, consumed me. They were of us, together…our wedding, our children, our home, growing old together everything…everything I’d been planning for our future. Everything I had been trying to avoid the moment she kissed me. I closed my eyes as her hand gently slipped from my cheek, and I shuttered. For a moment I couldn’t breathe properly. I felt the surge of heat come through me. Panicked I began to back away from her fearful that the inner волк in me would suddenly jump out at her. My body was trembling.
Jacob? Jacob what wrong? She kept stepping вперед worried and confused.
“No! Nessie…Back up! I was shouting at her. She didn’t understand the reason. She ignored my demands and kept stepping forward.
“Jake you’re scaring me…I’m sorry…I Just-“
“Nessie just stay back a minute! Don’t come any closer! Please Ты have to trust me on this!” I growled at her. She stopped short staring at me.
It took me a moment to recover…to stabilize my emotions. A took a couple of deep breaths. I finally came back to myself. Her Далее statement was still the bigger shock.
“Jacob, I’m in Любовь with you. And I get it. Ты don’t want me like that. I understand” she sighed.
“No, Nessie… that’s not it at all. Oh, if only Ты could read my mind right now. Ты would see differently. And I don’t care right now if your dad kills me for this later.”
I couldn’t stop myself as I closed the gap between us. I had to Показать her she was wrong to think I didn’t Любовь her. This was the moment I had been waiting for since the день she was born. I gently brushed her hair away from her beautiful face with one hand letting my fingers slide through. My other hand slid around her waist and I kissed her softly on her lips even though I was still trying to resist the momentary thought of Edward face in my head. My eyes stung with tears as I felt her lips return my intentions. I could hear both of our hearts skip beat at the exact same time. I kissed her deeper now tracing her lips with my mouth to hers in exploration. Her arms gently wrapped themselves around my waist. I pulled her body gently into mine. The intensity of our Любовь was mounting with each passing second. Neither one of us wanted it to end but it had to. We were due back at the party and I reluctantly but gently let her go. We were both trembling now.
“We are in big trouble…your dad is going to flip out when we get back to the house.” I laughed as she smiled at me. “Come on we got to go. We will have to continue this later.” I chuckled
“Que Quowle” was all she сказал(-а) to me.
“How do Ты even know that?” I questioned her in complete shock. She сказал(-а) it perfect, beautifully in fact. “Do Ты know what it means? I mean it my native language. But do Ты know?”
“Yes, I looked it up on the internet” She whispered.
“What does it mean?”I smiled asking her in disbelief.
“It means… Stay With Me Forever”
“You’re exactly right…and don’t worry. I will. I always will.” I сказал(-а) as I gave her a huge hug and kissed her again on her forehead. “Listen to me. We have to try to empty или heads. You’re dad will know our thoughts. He might already know. He’s not going to be happy about this.” I сказал(-а) with mounting concern. But it was too late. I could hear the Volvo as it was heading down the road to our location.
“Oh, No- Nessie run for the car! Get into the driver’s seat! Now! Hurry!” I yelled as was both sprinted towards the мустанг I ran around to the driver’s side as she jumped in to take the wheel.
“Jacob I don’t know what I’m doing-“
“Listen to me there isn’t time just put your foot on the gas and get out of here. Follow the road till Ты can’t go any further!
“Yes but-“
“Don’t argue with me now just GO! Get out of here!”
She hit the gas and headed quickly out of my sight. Edward was here a moment later. The Volvo skidded to a stop as he flung the door open and started heading toward me in fury. I put up both my hands as I backed up away from him trying to explain myself.
“What the hell do Ты think Ты are doing with my daughter Ты mongrel? He hissed each word out one at a time with pure rage as he was walking towards me.
“Edward! Stop! Ты don’t understand-“
But it was too late. He swung wildly at me as I did my best to out maneuver him. I didn’t want to fight him. We danced around in a круг dipping and weaving. I knew it wasn’t going to take him long to eventually find his target. With one свинг, качели of his arm he clashed my chest and sent me тележка, корзина wheeling in the air as my body struck a дерево with an agonizing blow. Reeling in pain I was grateful now to hear other cars and voices arrive as I lay in a fetal position on the ground.
“Edward…stop it!” Bella’s voice rang out.
Bella, Emmitt, and Jasper grabbing him swiftly knocking him down to the ground and pinning him in place. Bella ran to my side.
“Jacob, Jacob are Ты okay. Say something to me. Answer me” Bella’s voice quivered to me.
“I’m okay -I think…just can’t -catch my- breath” I panted.
“Why the hell didn’t Ты phase? He could have-“
“I didn’t -want to- fight him” I huffed in response
Esme and Carlisle arrived moments later. In a flash Carlisle was at my side.
“Jacob where are Ты hurt?” he asked.
“I’m not doc…just got to-catch my breath” Finally I got enough air back in my lungs to make a full sentence.
“Where is Nessie?” Bella frantically searched with her eyes.
“I can hear the мустанг coming now, I told her to go to the end of the road and wait for me. Guess she didn’t listen.”
As Nessie pulled up, Emmitt and Jasper had released Edward and he raced to the car yanking her out and practically threw her into the backseat of the Volvo. Bella was protesting his behavior on my defense…but I could see there was no talking to him as he spun the Volvo around in a frantic u-turn and sped away.
Carlisle got me to my feet as Bella was heading back to me. I could tell she wanted answers.
“Jacob, what the hell is going on?”
“We will leave Ты two alone to talk” Carlisle сказал(-а) as Bella and I waited for the cars to pull away.
“What did Edward say to Ты Bella?”
“Nothing he just flew out the door yelling mongrel!”
“And Alice? What did she see?”
“Jake Ты know Alice can’t see Ты или Nessie…so are Ты going to tell me what’s going on?”
“Bella…this is difficult for me to say to you. Believe me I didn’t mean to…I hadn’t planned on anything, I swear”
“Jake, what are Ты talking about? What happened?”
“Nessie kissed me!”
“What?”
“And I kissed her back, I’m sorry. It just happened-“
“You kissed my daughter...Jacob she’s seven! How could you?”
“She’s only seven in human years…open your eyes Bella. She’s not a little girl anymore. That doesn’t change anything, I know. But Bella she put her hand to my face…she showed me…” I broke off unable to complete my thought as Bella still had a look of horror on her face. I dropped my gaze. I couldn’t look at Bella anymore. I just paced back and forth in front of her. How was I going to tell Bella what I had been shown by Nessie without Bella freaking out. I couldn’t do it. I was too afraid what she would think and whether she would believe anything I was going to tell her.
“What did she Показать you?
I was still pacing in front of her. I knew Bella would not let me get away without an answer for her. I stopped in front of her and took her hands in mine.
“Bella she showed me our future. Mine and her’s. Everything in perfect detail.”
Bella’s shocked expression began to slowly shift into a perfectly happy smile. She knew I had imprinted on Nessie and there were times when I had told her I hoped Nessie would Любовь me as much as I loved her. Contentment was in her voice now “Jake that’s great…really. I’m really happy.
I let out a huge sigh of relief as Bella wrapped her arms around my waist and gave me a hug.
“Seriously…you’re not mad или anything” I asked her.
“No Jake. This is your destiny, and Nessie’s as well. This is meant to happen. I was hoping just little bit later than right now though.” She laughed
“Thanks, Bells… Ты don’t know how much this means to me. That Ты accept me.”
“Let’s get back to the house, okay. You, me and Edward we are going to get this all straightened out. Don’t worry” she promised. “And now I understand еще why Ты didn’t want to fight Edward”
“Wouldn’t be a good idea to get any further on his bad side. He must have read our minds или something. He got here so fast. He’s probably drilling Ness right now”
“Don’t worry, we’ll work something out”
“Bella…thank you. Thanks for understanding. Really”
Just as I finished my sentence, Bella’s cell phone rang.
“It’s Alice…Hey Alice what up” a long pause and look of anger came across Bella’s face. “What do Ты mean he didn’t come home. Alice where is he? What do Ты mean…he’s blocking Ты out? Did Ты see anything at all? The Вопросы kept rolling off Bella’s tongue and each one brought еще horror and concern to her eyes. “The airport? Are Ты sure? No! We’re on our way…bye”
“What’s going on?”
“Alice says she think Edward is bringing Ness to the airport but, she can’t be sure. He’s trying to block her thoughts. We have to get to the airport right now. He already has a half час jump on us”
“Let’s go!”
Bella and I jumped into the мустанг and began to speed to the airport. We didn’t say anything to each other. She started to call airlines trying to get as much information as she could on out-bound flight times. Nessie was not registered on a single one.
“I don’t understand…If she is not booked for departure on any of the airlines, maybe Alice was wrong.”
“Did Ты check for private flights”
“No, but good idea and I’m calling Edward”
By the time we reached the airport Edward was waiting outside the terminal for us. Bella jumped out of the car and ran to him insisting that I stay in the car and wait for her to return. It wasn’t like I couldn’t hear the whole conversation.
“What did Ты do, Edward? Where is Nessie?”
“Nessie is fine now. She is heading off to college.”
“College? Where? Where is my daughter Edward!”
“I’m not having this discussion with Ты right now Bella”
“Why? Where did Ты send her?”
“Bella! Our daughter is going to college. I’m not having her miss out on all the experiences Ты should have had. Not now, not ever. She is going to have a life. And as Ты are my wife Ты are going to respect my wishes.”
“College…fine! But did Ты have to send her away for that. Ты know Jacob-“
“Don’t even start defending that dog! Ты didn’t hear или see what I did. I read his mind! And her mind too. I could expect such thoughts from him…but not Nessie! Not my daughter.”
“Edward…Jacob doesn’t have any immediate plans for Nessie. I trust him. “
“I know what she showed him, Bella! She is not old enough to even be thinking of such things!”
I couldn’t sit still. I wanted to reason with Edward, but I had to put my trust in Bella now.
“Edward who are Ты really trying to hurt here…Jacob или me?”
“Look Bella…I’m not having my underage daughter lie around his house all день cooking and cleaning like a slave, barefoot and pregnant with puppies. She is going to make a life for herself first. If she is really meant to be with Jacob then it will happen…LATER! End of discussion!”
“Edward it’s not fair to me. Ты took my daughter away without even talking to me first”
“You can write to her, chat online, call whenever Ты want, and we will fly to her during her breaks. It’s not like Ты will never see her ever again.”
“Edward, please…”
“No Bella! After she get her Master’s degree in the field of her choice and has an accepted job offer, and experiences life… then and only then can she come home.”
“But what about Jacob…are Ты saying he can’t have any contact with her? How can Ты separate them like this? After everything he had done for us. We owe him! I wouldn’t even be here today if it wasn’t for Jacob!”
“Bella…I’m her father! I know what is best. Jacob will either learn to cope and wait, или I will remove him permanently from her life.” He hissed and clenched his teeth.
Bella couldn’t say anymore. She knew Edward was serious. He never raised his voice to her. He always bent to Bella’s every wish. But, not this time. As I sat in the Mustang, she turned to me with an expression on her face that could only mean one thing. I’m sorry, I tried. She was right though. I had дана the bloodsucker everything. Not only did he marry and vamp up the girl of my dreams, but now he was separating me from my true love, Nessie. I shook my head at them and ripped up the pavement as I sped away. I couldn’t stand it anymore. I had to go или risk getting out of the car and killing him right where he stood. If it was his plan that I have no contact with Nessie then that’s what he was going to get. I wasn’t hanging around to be tortured again by this bloodsucker. I was going to get as far away as I could. I hit the highway heading south. My plan was simple. Keep driving south till I couldn’t go any further. I Got to San Diego before I had to stop and sleep. Over the Далее couple of weeks I had drove thru Mexico into South America. I kept my course heading south through Peru into Chile only stopping long enough to eat and sleep. I crossed the Chilean border into Argentina and wound up in Puerto Santa Cruz. I figured I had driven long enough. There were enough people here for me to blend in even though I didn’t speak the language. I found a job as a mechanic and settled into a one room rental. I wasn’t happy, but I was away from that filthy bloodsucker, and that’s all I cared about at the time. A few months went by. I tried to keep busy. I called Главная only to check on my dad once a month. I never left a number, gave him an address или told anyone where exactly I was. I didn’t call Bella. I couldn’t медведь to hear her voice. I stayed in human form so the pack couldn’t communicate to me and settled in for the long wait. It would take a minimum of four years for Nessie to meet Edward’s criteria for her return home. That’s if she did double classes and didn’t come Главная on school breaks like Рождество или summertime. Because of my obsessive nature I worked at the гараж well into the night. And by the time I got back to my rental, all I could do was go to bed. My mind always started thinking of Nessie first. I replayed the Обои she had shown me. I dreamt of Nessie every night. It was the only way to be with her. Edward could stop me from seeing her in the real world, but my mind was the one place he couldn’t keep her away from me. I fell asleep quickly from exhaustion. But tonight was different. Suddenly a flash of an image burned into my dream. I jumped up in panic. “Sam! Oh no!” I launched myself out of постель, кровати and immediately shifted my body to my wolf. “Sam! Quil, Embry can anyone hear me?!” I shouted as loud as I could trying to communicate with the pack. No one answered so I tried again louder this time “Guys what’s going on! Can anyone hear me?!” But there was nothing but silence. I changed back to my human form and threw my clothes on. I ran out to the nearest pay phone to frantically started calling people in La Push. Twelve numbers later and no had picked up a phone at any of the houses, not even my dad. I knew something was wrong. I now was remembering the image that burned me earlier. It was Sam screaming, injured and crawling across a roadway to my father. My father was pinned in the passenger сиденье, место, сиденья of Sam’s truck. My father looked at Sam and then an explosion. I was out of options. I knew if everything I was seeing in my head was real and Sam was hurt, he would be at Carlisle’s home. My hand shook wildly as I dialed the number. It took two rings and then I heard Alice’s voice.
“Hello?”
“Alice! It’s Jacob. What’s going on up there?”
Alice didn’t respond. I heard Edward in the background. I slight bit of static came thru the receiver and then Edward voice.
“Jacob, where are you?”
“Edward what’s going on up there I-“
“Jacob we need Ты to come back to Forks immediately. Where are Ты now?
“Puerto Santa Cruz in South America”
“Okay. Jacob I know Ты have the мустанг but Ты need to get here as fast as possible. So I want Ты to hold the line. I have to make arrangements for Ты to get here…”
As I waited for what seemed like an eternity the image of Sam kept invading my head. I tried not to believe anything, but now Edward was making arrangements for me to come home. I knew this was serious. I began to pace trying to concentrate on my breathing.
“Jacob-?”
“Edward what the hell is going on?” He didn’t answer my question. He just continued speaking over me.
“There is a cargo ship docked in the harbor of Puerto Santa Cruz named the “Americana”. Bring the мустанг there. A gentleman named Juan Mendonca will see that it’s loaded properly. Then I need Ты to get to the airport. There is a private jet waiting there for you. Just come back to Forks. We will be here when Ты arrive.” The phone went dead as Edward hung up.
I got the мустанг to the dock. A small man was waiting there for me.
“You’re Juan Mendonca, right?”
“Yes Mr. Black…don’t worry about the car, she is in the best of hand now. I will personally be accompanying it to the United States.”
“Cool” I сказал(-а) as I threw him the keys.
“We have a car waiting for Ты there. It will take Ты directly to the airport”
“Okay, thanks.”
The driver opened the door for me as I climbed into the back seat, then ran around and jumped in the front seat. He sped away with me and rushed me as quickly as he could to the airport. When I arrived I could see an airport cop waiting for me. He had a sign up with my name. I bolted towards him.
“I’m Jacob Black”
“Follow me sir, your plane is already on the tarmac.”
I followed him with haste. He was jogging through the airport with me right on his heels. He flung a door open and we went down two flights of stairs through another door that led directly out to the jet. I had never flown before and this was the first time I had been this close to any kind of aircraft. A gleaming silver twin engine. The cop stopped at the end of the narrow steps that lead up to the plane.
“Here is your ticket Mr. Black…safe journey to you”
“Thanks” I сказал(-а) to him as I grabbed the ticket from his hand. “How long is it gonna take?
“You should be Главная before dawn, sir.”
I сказал(-а) nothing else as I climbed the stairs and took the first сиденье, место, сиденья I found by the windows. I realized only then that the rest of the plane was empty. The only person other than me was the flight attendant who came to greet me.
“Mr. Black, I’m Nancy. I will be your flight attendant today. Please buckle Ты seatbelt we are almost ready for departure. Can I get Ты anything to drink?”
“Just water for now…and can Ты call me Jacob, please.”
“Of course, Jacob. I’ll be right back with your water. I just want to let Ты know that we have a wide choice of in flight Фильмы and there is a phone for Ты if Ты need to make a call once we get airborne.”
”Thanks”
Nancy brought me the water and asked “Have Ты ever been on an airplane before?”
“No but I guess this is as good a time as any.”
“If Ты experience motion sickness I can bring Ты something to help”
“Motion Sickness?”
“It’s common for first time flyers.”
“Oh great.” I really didn’t like the sound of that one bit as I felt the plane begin to move, rotate and increase speed. Before I knew it my stomach felt like it was being left behind on the ground. I tried to relax as I watched the plane lift off into the air from out my window. My ears experienced a sudden pressure change. It felt like my eardrums were about to explode. It took about 10 минуты или so for the feeling to subside. I hadn’t noticed there was someone standing Далее to me.
“Good morning Jacob, I’m Captain John Hurley. Don’t worry son, I have been a pilot for 25 years. Nancy told me this is your first time flying.” He сказал(-а) holding his hand out to me. I shook it politely.
“So if you’re standing here then who is flying right now?”
“My co-pilot James Fredrick. We always have two pilots on each flight. I just wanted to introduce myself. Edward Cullen asked us to make Ты are as comfortable as possible. If Ты need anything at all, just ask Nancy”
“Okay, thank you”
He returned to the кабина at the front of the plane as Nancy came back over to me.
“How are Ты doing Jacob? Do Ты feel sick at all?”
“No thankfully.”
“Would Ты like anything to eat? I can bring Ты a menu.”
“No, I think I’m just going to close my eyes.”
“We have a диван, мягкий уголок over here if Ты want to lay on it. Ты seem to be uncomfortable in this little seat. I’m sure Ты would like to stretch out a bit.”
“Sure, sure”
“I’ll bring Ты a подушка and blanket then”
“Thanks” I сказал(-а) and headed for the диван, мягкий уголок at the rear of the plane. Nancy was back with the подушка and blanket before I got to the couch.”
“Sleep well Jacob. When Ты wake up, we will be in Seattle.” Nancy сказал(-а) and lowered the lights for me as I tried to relax and fell asleep. I don’t know how long I was out exactly. But I was tapped slightly by Nancy as she woke me up.
“Jacob…Jacob? We have arrived. It’s time to go. Your family is waiting for Ты outside”
I blinked once and then snapped up rubbing my eyes. I was on my feet and running for the door as I quickly thanked the captain and Nancy for their help and went through the door exiting the plane. At the вверх of the stairs I saw Edward and Bella waving for me. Three steps was all I needed to navigate down the stairs of the plane and I was sprinting toward them. Edward was the first to greet me. He stepped вперед and hugged me. A very odd sensation rippled thru me. I looked at Bella, but she hung her head and stayed behind Edward.
“Bella? Do I get a hello или what?”
“Hello…Jake…” she whispered but she didn’t move.
“So is anyone finally going to tell me what has happened?”
Edward finally spoke up. “Jacob…there has been an accident. Carlisle is taking care of Sam at the house as we speak. He has been asking for you-“
“Where is my father, Edward?” I stated as clearly as I could.
“Jacob…your father is gone. He and Sam were heading back to La Push from Charlie’s home. The driver of the diesel tanker Остаться в живых control and the truck jack knifed trying to avoid a herd of deer crossing the road. Sam tried to stop but it was too late. Sam was thrown from his truck on impact and both of his legs are completely shattered. Your dad was pinned in the collision. Sam tried to crawl to him…but the tanker exploded. Sam has been burned over half his body...I’m sorry…”
I slumped to the ground on my knees. I couldn’t believe what I was hearing, but it was true. The flash I saw of Sam, the desperation in his eyes as he saw my father lay helpless in the truck, the pain he was in, and the explosion. All of it was true. When I hit the ground, Bella came to me. She fell to her knees and hugged me with all her strength running her fingers thru my hair and Поцелуи my temples. I barely had it in me to заворачивать, обертывание my arm around her. She trembled in our embrace. If she was able to she would be crying.
“Jacob were going to bring Ты Главная to our house, okay?”
“No I need to see Sam first. “
Edward helped me to my feet and led us to the Volvo. Bella kept her arm around my waist as she placed me in the back сиденье, место, сиденья and then sat Далее to me. Edward didn’t spare a минута as he tore up the tarmac. It was about an час drive back to Forks. No one сказал(-а) anything the whole way. We pulled up to Carlisle’s house. I knew all the cars that were parked around the property. An immense crowd has gathered here awaiting my arrival. As I navigated through all the familiar faces of Друзья and family who greeted me I finally climbed the stairs to where Sam was, Emily and Carlisle were waiting at the вверх for me. Emily threw her arms around me as she sobbed and I hugged her warmly.
“Jacob…I’m sorry about your dad. Sam has been in a terrible state. He keeps repeating over and over that it’s his fault. I can’t console him.” Emily сказал(-а) thru her sobbing
“It’s okay…Emily. I’m here now. I’ll talk to him. It’s not his fault.” I whispered to her.
“Jacob, I’m trying to make him as comfortable as possible. He has a morphine drip. It may be making him a bit delusional. Please if Ты can try to calm him down. I need him to stay as quiet as possible for his wounds will heal.” Carlisle asked.
“I’ll try doc…”
They stepped out of the way and allowed me into the room. Sam was laying in a hospital постель, кровати twisting and wincing around. His face was full of guilt and grief as he kept ramming his fists into his temples. The same kind of look he had on his face when he hurt Emily. His hair and eyebrows were completely gone. His face, chest and arms were a multitude of charred remains. I choked back my stomach contents at the smell of burnt flesh that lingered in the room.
“Hey Sam…”
He looked up at me and started to babble. I quickly sat in the chair Далее to him and took his hand.
“Jacob, I…tried, the truck…your dad…I just couldn’t…”
“Sam stop this right now. It was an accident. It’s not your fault. Stop blaming yourself for everything alright.”
“I tried to save him Jake, I tried…”
“I know Ты did. I saw the whole thing!”
“What? How did you-“
“It’s hard to explain…but I did see the whole thing. Alpha telepathy…remember”
“Jake I’m sorry, I’m so sorry!”
“Look Ты have got to calm down. I’m here right. If I was going to blame Ты for this would I be here right now?”
Sam dropped his eyes and shook his head
“Sam you’re my brother. I know how much Ты loved my father. Believe me if there is anyone to blame for this…it’s me, not you. If I had been Главная where I should have been then likely chance this wouldn’t have happened. And then there is you…”
“Jake what do Ты mean, me?”
“I mean I should be me lying here like this not you, brother. I should have been driving my father back from Charlie’s place. Not you. I should be the one all banged up! I’m sorry Sam…” I сказал(-а) to him as tears began to well up in my eyes. “But you’re still here brother. At least I didn’t lose Ты both. You’re gonna be…okay.” I saw the slightest smile curl around Sam’s lips as I did my best to hold myself together. “Listen to me Sam…you just get better, okay. Just take it easy and rest. We’re gonna get through this.” I promised. Sam finally relaxed and closed his eyes.
Carlisle came back to the room to check the IV. “I’m going to give him something to help him sleep now, Jacob. I think he will be fine now that Ты are here.”
“Do whatever Ты can for him doc. Whatever it take. He has got to pull through this in one piece. For me…”
“Don’t worry Jacob. I rarely give up a fight. He’s going to get the best care from me that I can provide”
Emily came to my side. I let her have the сиденье, место, сиденья Далее to Sam so she could be close to him. I turned to walk out of the room as Emily’s voice stopped me short. “Jacob…please come back…soon.”
“Sure, sure” I answered her as I walked away.
As I got to the вверх of the stairs I began to scan the room for Nessie and I quickly realized she wasn’t here. My eyes flashed immediately to Edward with disgust. I knew he read my mind as he backed away and left the room. Bella met me at the bottom of the stairs.
“Nessie isn’t here right?”
“Jake…Edward just wanted to get Ты home…”
“My father died Bella! If this wasn’t enough reason to bring her home…then I don’t know what is!”
“Jake…we just-“
“Forget it Bella!” I shouted at her as I pushed my way through the crowd. By the time I was out the door I had phased and was running back to my father’s house. The pack thought for a moment about following me…but didn’t. They could sense I just wanted to be alone. As I walked thru the door of my father’s home, I could immediately sense the absence. The house was quiet. To awkwardly quiet. My eyes scanned the walls catching the family фото that hung everywhere. Dad’s wheelchair was in the center of the room. Right where Sam had left it. I knew it was easier for him to carry my dad. The metal arm of the chair was icy cold to my touch. On the кухня таблица was a large manila envelope. My dad had written on the front Letters to Jacob. I dumped the contents onto the table, opened the first one on top, and began to read it.
“Dearest Jacob,
I wish I had your address, son. There are so many things I want to tell you. I want Ты to know how very proud I am of you, son. Ты and your sisters have always been the highlight of my life. The best thing that has ever happened to me. I so wish your mother was alive to see how Ты have all grown up to be wonderful individuals. Especially Ты boy! I remember when Ты were born…your mom had a difficult pregnancy with you. Ты were always such a fighter. Ты would usually be kicking her in her sleep all night. But your mother never complained one bit. She knew even then that Ты were going to be a boy. I didn’t believe her at first. But she proved me wrong the день Ты were born. I remember when I held Ты for the first time. How perfect Ты were. My only son, my heir to our family’s great lineage. The blood in your veins is strong. Proof of the history of our people. The день that Ты phased for the first time…well it made me very proud. I know it has been difficult for Ты to accept, but don’t reject who Ты are. Instead embrace your spirit wolf. In times of need its presence will protect you. The pack is your family for life Jacob. Your brothers will guide Ты where I cannot. Ты are the rightful Alpha, my son. Trust the pack and they will follow Ты wherever life may take you. And remember, son, I will always Любовь you.
Billy
I sat there quietly looking at the scattered letters on the table. My dad had written me one for each день I was gone after the fight with Edward. Guilt engulfed every one of my senses. I was trying to hold everything together as the horrible struggle in my сердце began to break me down. I couldn’t take it any longer. I slammed my fists through the таблица smashing it into tiny pieces and collapsed onto the floor. The rage of emotions filled me. I hated myself. I hated all the pain I had caused my father. The man who only wanted me to be strong and happy. And here I was, just a weak kid hysterical and crying my сердце out. Screaming out apology after apology to the empty walls around me. But there was nothing I could do now to make it better или to bring him back. He was gone and I had no opportunity to tell him anymore how much I loved him. I was so taken by my state that I didn’t even hear Rachel and Rebecca as they came into the house. They immediately ran over to me, but it was too late. I was inconsolable by then.
