2x18-a Kiss before lying

I'm staring at the paper
Not knowing what to write
This usually goes so naturally
When you're not on my mind
But telling Ты how I feel
Is so hard to put in words
'Cause as far as you're concerned
I'm just the millionth Фан girl

But when everything goes wrong
And I'm at the darkest point of my life
There's only thing crossing my mind

I don't wanna fall into pieces
I don't wanna lose control
I don't wanna cry my сердце out
When I tend to be so strong
This feeling of Ты and I forever
It makes me emotional
It couldn't get much better
Then Ты knocking at my door

I'm wandering through the streets
Not knowing where...

I don’t know what’s playing in your mind
I can only base your story on what Ты write
If this is really Ты and this is not some kind of mask
Than I have a Вопрос for you, if it’s not too much to ask

How does it feel
To be left all alone
To have no one to lean on
To be unwanted
Bet Ты don’t wanna see
The damage Ты have caused
The Друзья Ты have lost
‘Cause Ты took them for granted
Now your dreams are haunted
‘Cause you’re so unwanted

You don’t know what has been going on
You don’t realize all the things Ты сказал(-а) were wrong
If this is who Ты are and you’re not hiding your inner truth...

So, Ты tell me
That I’m the most beautiful girl you’ve ever met
And now you’re going on
On how Ты can’t get me out of your head
Has no one filled Ты in
That I don’t do things I might regret
So Ты can pack up your little act
‘Cause I’m not falling for that

‘Cause I’m out of your league
You’re not even close to good enough for me
When I open my сердце
It’s gotta be right from the start
I know you’re wildest fantasies
But they don’t match with reality
So Ты can beg on your knees
You can’t get me

Now Ты tell me
That I should be thankful to have Ты around
And that instead of being...

I’m not bitter
I’m just being picky
I’m not cold
I’m just being lonely
I’m not lost
I’m just undiscovered
Living in my shell of safety
Building walls up once again

‘Cause I am afraid
That when I’d give Ты my сердце it might break
But I know
That when I’d give Ты my Любовь
I gotta give Ты all I have
Leave nothing out

I’m not broken
I’m just being scarred
I’m not hateful
I’m just playing it hard
You can reach me
If Ты try hard enough
But if you’d rather not stay, just walk away
And don’t waste both of our time

‘Cause I am afraid
That when I’d give Ты my сердце it might break
But...