"I ended up crying myself to sleep on Michael's side of the bed"
I sat on the диван, мягкий уголок watching the newest movie I had made,"Queen of the Damned" and I played the sister of LeStat, Lillia. Michael had wanted to watch it but then left near the ending to get ready to pack for his flight. He had to leave the house by 5:30 and his flight leaves at 6:30 for his tour with his brothers. As I kept thinking about the fact Michael was leaving and I wasn't going to see him for three years, I started to cry but I tried to keep it in. It was hard for me to be without him before. Now since we're in Любовь and engaged, I don't think I can go through that again. I started to Дебаты whether I should help him или not. Might as well cherish the last moments I'm going to have with him before I send him off at the airport. I headed my way up to our room and wiped the tears off my face.
I entered into our bedroom finding Michael sitting on his side of the bed, crying. I crawled across the постель, кровати and sat behind him with me legs spread apart so I could be against his back and I wrapped my arms around him. "Michael, what's the matter? What's wrong?" He grabbed my thigh from behind him and said,"I don't want to do this. I can't leave you. I don't want to leave." I started to get teary-eyed feel terrible for Michael. "I know, baby. I don't want Ты to go either, but before Ты know it we'll be back together. I'll come Главная from my tour and we'll be together again." I started to Kiss his shoulder and tried to comfort him in anyway I could.
He stood up and started to come ontop of me and Kiss my lips hard and deep like never before. "But I don't *kiss* want to wait three *kiss* years to be able to *kiss* hold Ты или *kiss* hug Ты или *kiss* Kiss Ты или touch Ты или *long kiss* make Любовь to you. I need you." Michael never gave me a chance to speak. All he did was trap me with his sweet mouth. He tried so hard to remove my рубашка while grinding and Поцелуи me but I kept resisting. "Michael......ugh.....you have to *kiss* stop." Michael slowly slid his tongue into my mouth and kept putting it in there as he kissed me hard. He never kissed me like that. Hard and deep while French Поцелуи me? He never rammed his tongue down my throat until now. I can tell he was upset and he wanted this just one last time before he was to say "Goodbye" until 1987.
I needed him to listen. Michael wasn't focusing on my words. I put my hands on his chest and started to rub up and down. I let out moans whenever my mouth was somewhat free. Michael was also doing that while still grinding me and making me заворачивать, обертывание my legs around his waist. He let go of my lips and was about to rip my рубашка apart. He was now rougher than ever! I placed my hands on his, indicating I didn't want Michael to do it. "What?" he asked. "Michael, I know Ты Любовь me and I know Ты don't want to leave me but Ты have no choice. And as much as I would like to make Любовь with Ты one еще time before we are separated, we can't. We don't have time. Good thing your bag is packed because we have to go now." I got off the постель, кровати and stood in front of Michael and grabbed his hand. He grabbed his last suitcase and we headed outside to the limo.
*At the airport*
Michael and his brothers all went to make sure everything was still ready for the jet. As they were all boarding the plane, Michael stayed off. He watched his brothers give their luggage and walk up the steps to the plane. Michael handed his own luggage and looked back at me. He сказал(-а) something to the pilot and started to walk back my way. I figured he wanted to say "Goodbye" one еще time. I started walking towards him and cry. Michael came up to me and wrapped his arms across my back and I wrapped my arms around his neck. We hugged each other the same way we did then night we had our first kiss. I was trying to hold back the tears but they kept coming out. I rubbed the back of his head and held him tight to me. "I'm going to miss you, so much." I said. "I'll miss you, too. I'll call every single день while I'm tour. I promise."
We finally let go of our grip and looked at each other. "I Любовь you." I сказал(-а) while beginning to really cry. Michael had tears coming out of his eyes but he wasn't crying. "I Любовь you." Michael grabbed the sides of my face and pulled me in to Kiss him one еще time. I pulled him into me as much as I could as he put his arms back around me. Our tears went down to our lips and mixed with the kiss. I held the back of Michael's head and, this time, started to, once more, French Kiss him. I could feel his grip getting tighter on my back. Our fast pace finally started to slow down and we started to Kiss еще gently. We stop but our lips were still touching. I caressed the side of his face as we gave each other one еще peck. Michael looked at me and cupped his hand on the side of my face. "Everything will be okay. I promise. I won't break my promise to marry you. I swear." he said.
Michael gave me one еще quick peck on my mouth and slowly let go of my body and just held my left hand. As he slowly walked backwards, Michael let go of my hand. I saw him turn around to face the plane. I could feel my сердце ache as I watched him leave. I wanted to do nothing but cry. I saw Michael turn back around to face me before he walked inside of the plane and wave to me. I waved back and watched him disappear. I was still crying even though I felt I was somewhat overreacting. I couldn't see any of the boys anymore. They all disappeared before my eyes. I heard the plane get ready to take off and saw Michael in one of the windows watching me. As the plane started to Переместить away, I waved to Michael as he did to me. Далее thing I knew, Michael was out of my sight and the plane was off the ground and in the air.
I walked back to the limo, holding my cell phone, waiting for it to ring and it be Michael. I honestly didn't feel as much pain as I thought I would. My stomach ached and I wanted to cry but I didn't feel like my сердце was ripped out again. Maybe it's because I knew I would see Michael again. I wasn't being torn away from him, I was just not going to see him for a while. I still missed him terribly. I rode in the far back by myself and put in my earbuds to listen to music. I turned my mP3 Player up to 15 and drowned myself in extremely loud heavy metal music. I never listen to mine или Michael's Музыка when I'm upset about us. I could feel my ear vibrating from the hard гитара and drums and the loud screaming the singer was making. Even though the person was screaming, I still understood what they were saying and the chorus fit how I felt perfectly.
The lyrics were,"I see hell in your eyes/Take it in by surprise/Touching Ты makes me feel alive/Touching Ты makes me die inside/". When I did look into Michael's eyes, they were bright like the fires from hell and I was always surprised by some of his "naughty" actions. When I do feel him and touch, I do feel alive and when I do touch him, my darker side dies. Everything that is сказал(-а) in the chorus is what I feel. And I feel......loved but alone. I closed my eyes and listened to the Музыка until I got to my big mansion "Never-Land".
After I came Главная and went upstairs, I took a душ and cleaned myself up and put on one of my shirts finding one of Michael's button-down shirts on the floor. I lifted it up and held it close, taking in the sweet smell Michael left on it. I decided to wear his рубашка instead so I could feel like he was somewhat here. I looked at the clock and saw it was 9:00 pm. Michael still hasn't called but that probably because he is still on the plane flying to Italy.
I crawled into постель, кровати and layed there, thinking of all the memories Michael and I have created in this room. All the funny memories, sweet memories, "naughty" memories and passionate memories. I closed my eyes and remembered the first time I saw him again and remembered how I felt when I saw Michael again. I layed there with my eyes shut and never opened them again. I started to feel tears running down the side of my face. As I layed there, I ended up crying myself to sleep on Michael's side of the bed, praying I would feel his arms around me and his body against mine while hearing his sweet innocent voice saying,"I Любовь you". But the weird thing is I DID feel a body against me and arms around me and I DID hear his voice but he didn't say "I Любовь you" he сказал(-а) "I'm here for you". I slowly turned around to see. . . . .
To be continued............
"I lifted it up and held it close, taking in the sweet smell Michael left on it"
Murray with a fan
Dr. Conrad Murray has Фаны ... with whipped cream on top.
Murray -- who's due in court Далее месяц in the Michael Jackson manslaughter case -- was corralled by a Фан Wednesday at a Houston Starbucks.
She gave us the pic but asked us to blur her face.
It's all about taking precautions.
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My Love
without Ты I feel like
I'm in a world with no love.
I wish I could go to sleep,
just to see Ты in my dreams.
I just want to hold Ты
in my arms.
Everybody says what we have
is lust, but its love.
People can say what they want,
but all I know is we were ment to be.
Not a день goes by without me thinking
about you.
Ты are my love,
no matter what.
Baby Ты gotta know my Любовь for Ты is
for all time.
So I have to say
baby be mine and I'll give you
all I have to give,
which will be till ther end of time.
I Любовь you
Michael Joseph Jackson.
By Gracie
To: Michael Jackson
Michael Jackson's most loyal Фаны are taking to the skies in order to send a message to Doc Murray -- and the plan is set to take flight the Далее time Murray is set to appear in court.
A group of Фаны have raised $1,250 to fly an airplane banner over the L.A. County Superior Courthouse between 1-2pm on April 5 ... when Dr. Murray is Далее scheduled to Показать his face.
The sign will read "We demand justice for Michael Jackson" -- and the group is so fired up about it, they've already sent out a press release with a Photoshopped image of what they think the scene will look like.
The same group of Фаны has already raised enough cash to buy Paris Jackson a birthday surprise ... she turns 12 Далее week.
A group of Фаны have raised $1,250 to fly an airplane banner over the L.A. County Superior Courthouse between 1-2pm on April 5 ... when Dr. Murray is Далее scheduled to Показать his face.
The sign will read "We demand justice for Michael Jackson" -- and the group is so fired up about it, they've already sent out a press release with a Photoshopped image of what they think the scene will look like.
The same group of Фаны has already raised enough cash to buy Paris Jackson a birthday surprise ... she turns 12 Далее week.
i know I Can’t Help It, but I Just Can’t Stop Loving You. I Wanna Be Where Ты Are, King of Pop… Heaven Can Wait – I Want Ты Back and If ‘N I Was God i’d make Ты Invincible! Maybe Tomorrow this Heartbreaker will be over and we can be Happy you’ll still be around to Heal the World. but if it’s It’s Too Late to Change the Time and Ты Fly Away with the Ghosts and I’ll Be There to Keep the Faith. Is It Scary? hell yes… In Our Small Way your Фаны Lonely Teardrops mean we can Never Can Say Goodbye.
H концерт was an idea of his brother Michael, Jermaine. The artists participating in the концерт in Лондон were not announced.
Bad is gonna win?
After all great picks Ты made we came to a conclusion:
Bad will face Number Ones,while Thriller faces HIStory.Now the game is on,pick your Избранное and let's see who wins.Again,be careful for what Ты pick.After 13 days these picks expire and winners face at the end.Who is gonna face who?
Bad and Thriller? или HIStory and Number Ones?
Pick as your сердце says,don't be ashamed.If Ты like Number Ones pick it,no one is gonna know.OH,almost forgot count the Музыка Видео in too since it's part of an album.
And now,it's time to pick,START PICKING.
Good luck.
HIStory for earth song?Or Number Ones for Earth song?
Ты were there
Before we came
Ты took the hurt
Ты took the shame
They built the walls
To block your way
Ты beat them down
Ты won the day
It wasn't right
It wasn't fair
Ты taught them all
Ты made them care
Yes, Ты were there
And thanks to you
There's now a door
We all walk through
And we are here
For all to see
To be the best
That we can be
Yes, I am here
'Cause Ты were there
And we are here
For all to see
To be the best
That we can be
Yes, I am here
'Cause Ты were there
And we are here
For all to see
To be the best
That we can be
Yes, I am here
'Cause Ты were there
Before we came
Ты took the hurt
Ты took the shame
They built the walls
To block your way
Ты beat them down
Ты won the day
It wasn't right
It wasn't fair
Ты taught them all
Ты made them care
Yes, Ты were there
And thanks to you
There's now a door
We all walk through
And we are here
For all to see
To be the best
That we can be
Yes, I am here
'Cause Ты were there
And we are here
For all to see
To be the best
That we can be
Yes, I am here
'Cause Ты were there
And we are here
For all to see
To be the best
That we can be
Yes, I am here
'Cause Ты were there
Ben, the two of us need look no еще
We both found what we were looking for
With a friend to call my own
I'll never be alone
And Ты my friend will see
And you've got a friend in me
(You've got a friend in me)
Ben, you're always running here and there
(Here and there)
Ты feel you're not wanted anywhere
(Anywhere)
If Ты ever look behind
And don't like what Ты find
There's something Ты should know
You've got a place to go
(You've got a place to go)
I used to say 'I' and 'me'
Now it's 'us' now it's 'we'
(I used to say 'I' and 'me')
(Now it's 'us' now it's 'we')
Ben, most people would turn Ты away
I don't listen to a word they say
They don't see Ты as I do
I wish they would try to
I'm sure they'd think again
If they had a friend like Ben
(A friend)
Like Ben
(Like Ben)
Like Ben
We both found what we were looking for
With a friend to call my own
I'll never be alone
And Ты my friend will see
And you've got a friend in me
(You've got a friend in me)
Ben, you're always running here and there
(Here and there)
Ты feel you're not wanted anywhere
(Anywhere)
If Ты ever look behind
And don't like what Ты find
There's something Ты should know
You've got a place to go
(You've got a place to go)
I used to say 'I' and 'me'
Now it's 'us' now it's 'we'
(I used to say 'I' and 'me')
(Now it's 'us' now it's 'we')
Ben, most people would turn Ты away
I don't listen to a word they say
They don't see Ты as I do
I wish they would try to
I'm sure they'd think again
If they had a friend like Ben
(A friend)
Like Ben
(Like Ben)
Like Ben
