I woke up to a fresh morning in my hotel room. There was a bright луч, рэй of sunlight that hit my eyes perfectly. Too bright that it almost made me blind. I sat up and yawned and remember what happened before I left seven days ago. Every morning I think about Michael and I from the airport. And everytime I do, I end up feeling a tear rolling down my face. I wiped it off then walk into my bathroom and saw a vase filled with nothing but purple, blue, black and red roses. There was a card leaning against the vase that had my name on it. I opened it and pulled out a note. The note read,"Evanescence "Taylor", Best of luck tonight. We know Ты have be down because Ты miss Michael. We wanted to cheer Ты up with your Избранное цветок in your Избранное colors. We Любовь you, Taylor. Love, Alex. Lola. Viktor. Lucien." I smiled and inhaled the scent to Цветы produced.
After I took a nice how душ and put on my black tank вверх and blue jeans, I blow dried my hair and put on my make-up. First my concealer, then bronzer. It was hard for me to find the lightest color because I was so pale like a vampire. Even the lightest color was a little dark for me. After I put on my cover up, I grabbed my mascara and then put on my eyeliner my eyes pop out and Показать off my hazel almost grey eyes. They actually looked creepy when I had my eyeliner one. But they also looked crepy without it. After I did quick little fix-ups, I walked out of my hotel room with my black sweater wrapped around my waist and my black studded кепка, колпачок on my head. When I was depressed или ready to do a rock concert, I showed it.
I got in my car and drove to the stadium. My band was already there but they were warming up for rehearsal. I recognized what the song was they were practicing and where in the song they were. I unwrapped my sweater, took off my кепка, колпачок and walked on stage and grabbed my microphone and belted my voice out as if it was the real thing. I gave everything like it was the concert. As I sang "Call Me When You're Sober", I noticed my voice sounded different. It sounded.......stronger. It sounded like I was Пение better than ever. I always sounded as if I was trying my best but this time I sounded perfect. Like as if everything was perfect so now I can be perfect. But nothing was perfect. That's the part the confused me.
When we got to the last verse and the pause came, I jumped into the air and slammed my feet down right when the instruments started to created the perfect sound. When my voice came out again, this time, I really gave everything. I had to hold the microphone away from me and yet I could hear myself perfectly. I felt like I could do anything. I never felt this way before except when I did that last performance and I saw Michael was there. I feel as if he is here. When I kept belting and the others attempted to play as loud as I sang but they still were slightly softer. I tried so hard to contain myself but I felt as if I had to let everything out and do it now.
After the song was finished, I stood near the edge of the stage, looking down at the floor wondering what got into me. I was breathing heavy and wanted to do more. "Taylor, what was that?" сказал(-а) Lola. I didn't answer at first but then I held the microphone close to my mouth and said,"I don't know. I have no idea." "Taylor, that was amazing! What got into you?" asked Alex. I turned around and said,"Do Ты ever get that feeling when Ты have the urge to just let everything out? To just explode?" No one answered. They just stood there, looking at me. "I don't know why but I felt like I was releasing everything. I have the same feeling that I had when we did that last performance and I saw Michael. I felt and feel complete even though we are apart." No one сказал(-а) anything. They just stared. "I want to do another. Uh....let's do 'Lithium'. Yeah, that song"
I turned to look out at the empty arena and imagined the placed filled with screaming people begging for еще of my voice and for Музыка to play. I took in deep breaths and started to sing even though the Музыка wasn't playing. By the time I got to the секунда time of saying "Lithium" I heard my Музыка playing and me getting that feeling again. I have no idea what it is but I liked it.
*That Night*
"Good luck, Taylor. Ты look awesome. You're going to do great." сказал(-а) Alex as he gave me a loving hug. "Thanks, Alex. Ты too. Now go. You're the секунда to last one to go on stage. I'll meet Ты out there. I Любовь you, big bro." Любовь you, lil sis." As I watched my brother walk on stage, my сердце was pounding hard. I was trying so desperately not to run out there and just start the Показать and bring everything out I have bottled up inside me. Maybe that's it. I feel so upset and alone and afraid because of me and Michael, I'm taking the chance to let all of it out through my Музыка again. Just like when we were kids and I became Evanescence from Step 1. When I finally put the pieces together, I realized, that was my reason. Everything is happening again except I know how this is going to end.
A smile grew onto my face as I thought about it. I could hear Michael as if he was here saying he loves me and good luck. I grabbed my microphone and slowly walked out on stage while looking out to the crowd. I got to my stand and place the microphone in it's holder. I stood there for a секунда then looked at my band then back at the crowd. When it finally got somewhat quiet, I took in a deep breath and started to sing "Going Under". Everyone in the arena started screaming as I sang the first sentence. "Now I will tell Ты what I've done for you." was the sentence. I stopped for a секунда until everyone came quiet again. "Fifty thousand tears I've cried." was the Далее sentence and everyone screamed again.
"How are Ты doing!?!?!?!?!" I yelled into the microphone. As the crowd yelled Болталка things, I got into my sexy seductive mode. I grabbed the microphone off the stand and started to act like the stand was my stripper pole. I crouched down while starting the song up again and glided upwards and holding the stand. As I walked the stage, I started to lean down close to the audience and act seductive like a Готика yet gorgeous vampire would. That was what some people thought of me as. A gorgeous, sexy, seductive, fangless, mortal vampire.
So....I decided to act what I portrayed to be. I was in my dark heaven but I wanted to find that light again. Yet, I had to wait for a год and a half to go to it. It hurt to know that and I know Michael felt it too but we could do nothing about it. I kept seducing everyone with my voice and moves as I sang with the instruments. I was no longer Taylor Ward, the sweet girl everyone remembers from eight years назад that was so colorful and bright and loving and felt happy. I was Evanescence, a semi-gothic chick who's world was nothing but darkness and endless nights and who thought she would forever be alone. And yet a man she was Друзья with as a child saved her from her eternal darkness. As I though of this in my head, I belted everything I had out of my lungs. Now since I am Evanescence, I'm home.
After I took a nice how душ and put on my black tank вверх and blue jeans, I blow dried my hair and put on my make-up. First my concealer, then bronzer. It was hard for me to find the lightest color because I was so pale like a vampire. Even the lightest color was a little dark for me. After I put on my cover up, I grabbed my mascara and then put on my eyeliner my eyes pop out and Показать off my hazel almost grey eyes. They actually looked creepy when I had my eyeliner one. But they also looked crepy without it. After I did quick little fix-ups, I walked out of my hotel room with my black sweater wrapped around my waist and my black studded кепка, колпачок on my head. When I was depressed или ready to do a rock concert, I showed it.
I got in my car and drove to the stadium. My band was already there but they were warming up for rehearsal. I recognized what the song was they were practicing and where in the song they were. I unwrapped my sweater, took off my кепка, колпачок and walked on stage and grabbed my microphone and belted my voice out as if it was the real thing. I gave everything like it was the concert. As I sang "Call Me When You're Sober", I noticed my voice sounded different. It sounded.......stronger. It sounded like I was Пение better than ever. I always sounded as if I was trying my best but this time I sounded perfect. Like as if everything was perfect so now I can be perfect. But nothing was perfect. That's the part the confused me.
When we got to the last verse and the pause came, I jumped into the air and slammed my feet down right when the instruments started to created the perfect sound. When my voice came out again, this time, I really gave everything. I had to hold the microphone away from me and yet I could hear myself perfectly. I felt like I could do anything. I never felt this way before except when I did that last performance and I saw Michael was there. I feel as if he is here. When I kept belting and the others attempted to play as loud as I sang but they still were slightly softer. I tried so hard to contain myself but I felt as if I had to let everything out and do it now.
After the song was finished, I stood near the edge of the stage, looking down at the floor wondering what got into me. I was breathing heavy and wanted to do more. "Taylor, what was that?" сказал(-а) Lola. I didn't answer at first but then I held the microphone close to my mouth and said,"I don't know. I have no idea." "Taylor, that was amazing! What got into you?" asked Alex. I turned around and said,"Do Ты ever get that feeling when Ты have the urge to just let everything out? To just explode?" No one answered. They just stood there, looking at me. "I don't know why but I felt like I was releasing everything. I have the same feeling that I had when we did that last performance and I saw Michael. I felt and feel complete even though we are apart." No one сказал(-а) anything. They just stared. "I want to do another. Uh....let's do 'Lithium'. Yeah, that song"
I turned to look out at the empty arena and imagined the placed filled with screaming people begging for еще of my voice and for Музыка to play. I took in deep breaths and started to sing even though the Музыка wasn't playing. By the time I got to the секунда time of saying "Lithium" I heard my Музыка playing and me getting that feeling again. I have no idea what it is but I liked it.
*That Night*
"Good luck, Taylor. Ты look awesome. You're going to do great." сказал(-а) Alex as he gave me a loving hug. "Thanks, Alex. Ты too. Now go. You're the секунда to last one to go on stage. I'll meet Ты out there. I Любовь you, big bro." Любовь you, lil sis." As I watched my brother walk on stage, my сердце was pounding hard. I was trying so desperately not to run out there and just start the Показать and bring everything out I have bottled up inside me. Maybe that's it. I feel so upset and alone and afraid because of me and Michael, I'm taking the chance to let all of it out through my Музыка again. Just like when we were kids and I became Evanescence from Step 1. When I finally put the pieces together, I realized, that was my reason. Everything is happening again except I know how this is going to end.
A smile grew onto my face as I thought about it. I could hear Michael as if he was here saying he loves me and good luck. I grabbed my microphone and slowly walked out on stage while looking out to the crowd. I got to my stand and place the microphone in it's holder. I stood there for a секунда then looked at my band then back at the crowd. When it finally got somewhat quiet, I took in a deep breath and started to sing "Going Under". Everyone in the arena started screaming as I sang the first sentence. "Now I will tell Ты what I've done for you." was the sentence. I stopped for a секунда until everyone came quiet again. "Fifty thousand tears I've cried." was the Далее sentence and everyone screamed again.
"How are Ты doing!?!?!?!?!" I yelled into the microphone. As the crowd yelled Болталка things, I got into my sexy seductive mode. I grabbed the microphone off the stand and started to act like the stand was my stripper pole. I crouched down while starting the song up again and glided upwards and holding the stand. As I walked the stage, I started to lean down close to the audience and act seductive like a Готика yet gorgeous vampire would. That was what some people thought of me as. A gorgeous, sexy, seductive, fangless, mortal vampire.
So....I decided to act what I portrayed to be. I was in my dark heaven but I wanted to find that light again. Yet, I had to wait for a год and a half to go to it. It hurt to know that and I know Michael felt it too but we could do nothing about it. I kept seducing everyone with my voice and moves as I sang with the instruments. I was no longer Taylor Ward, the sweet girl everyone remembers from eight years назад that was so colorful and bright and loving and felt happy. I was Evanescence, a semi-gothic chick who's world was nothing but darkness and endless nights and who thought she would forever be alone. And yet a man she was Друзья with as a child saved her from her eternal darkness. As I though of this in my head, I belted everything I had out of my lungs. Now since I am Evanescence, I'm home.
Michael my heart,
last night I dream of you,
Ты were embracing me from my back.
I heard your heartbeat and it beats so fast,
like our promise that our Любовь will never end.
We had so much fun together,
that I wished to go on forever.
Talks and laugh ,kissing and cuddling,
like no other people existing.
Holding each others hands while we walked,
all your attention was just for us.
I can't think of anything when Ты talked,
but I Любовь Ты еще and more, Ты see.
We stopped walking and Ты looked at me sweetly,
then Ты leaned over and kissed me.
My сердце popped out and I saw butterflies,
Ты сказал(-а) Ты Любовь me truly. oh sorry and then, I awake up and my dream was to end.
It was still a memory to reminisce, your Kiss was so tender and sweet.
Любовь and miss Ты !! ♥
last night I dream of you,
Ты were embracing me from my back.
I heard your heartbeat and it beats so fast,
like our promise that our Любовь will never end.
We had so much fun together,
that I wished to go on forever.
Talks and laugh ,kissing and cuddling,
like no other people existing.
Holding each others hands while we walked,
all your attention was just for us.
I can't think of anything when Ты talked,
but I Любовь Ты еще and more, Ты see.
We stopped walking and Ты looked at me sweetly,
then Ты leaned over and kissed me.
My сердце popped out and I saw butterflies,
Ты сказал(-а) Ты Любовь me truly. oh sorry and then, I awake up and my dream was to end.
It was still a memory to reminisce, your Kiss was so tender and sweet.
Любовь and miss Ты !! ♥
Smile, even though it's breaking
When there are clouds in the sky
You'll get by...
If Ты smile
With your fear and sorrow
Smile and maybe tomorrow
You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If Ты just...
Light up your face with gladness
Hide every trace of sadness
Although a tear may be ever so near
That's the time Ты must keep on trying
Smile, what's the use of crying
You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If Ты just...
Smile, though your сердце is aching
Smile, even though it's breaking
When there are clouds in the sky
You'll get by...
If Ты smile
Through your fear and sorrow
Smile and maybe tomorrow
You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If Ты just smile...
That's the time Ты must keep on trying
Smile, what's the use of crying
You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If Ты just smile
I care for Michael Jackson cause he made me believe that Ты can do anything if Ты set your mind to it he has made me happy rather its his smile или Музыка the song "Cry" i would always listen to when i felt down или sad but i would look up and keep my head to the sky. I know Michael tried to change the world and he couldnt do it by himself. He needes help im wanting to help the world so bad and hope that people will never forget the King Of Pop. I have learned so many things if Ты compare my life with his. Well thats another story but i Любовь michael hes my idol some one i look up to hes always made me smile and if haters cant see that. Let them hate we dont care right? if Ты will comet why Ты Любовь and care for Michael Jackson our King of Pop
The owners of the Neverland Ranch -- the former Главная of Michael Jackson -- want to turn the property into a teenage Музыка haven.
TMZ has learned Colony Capital wants to develop a business plan to turn Neverland into a small Музыка institute -- similar to The Juilliard School in NYC. The plan is to teach teens all aspects of music, including Письмо and performing.
Colony wants to turn the property into a campus, in which scores of teenagers -- rich and poor -- can learn the trade that made Michael Jackson a legend.
There are two big stumbling blocks. The first is making sure Santa Barbara County will sign off on such a project.
The секунда -- and bigger issue -- is whether Colony Capital can use Michael Jackson's name to promote such an institute. TMZ has good news for Colony .... sources directly connected with the Michael Jackson Estate tell us, "It's an interesting idea and we'd be open to it."
TMZ has learned Colony Capital wants to develop a business plan to turn Neverland into a small Музыка institute -- similar to The Juilliard School in NYC. The plan is to teach teens all aspects of music, including Письмо and performing.
Colony wants to turn the property into a campus, in which scores of teenagers -- rich and poor -- can learn the trade that made Michael Jackson a legend.
There are two big stumbling blocks. The first is making sure Santa Barbara County will sign off on such a project.
The секунда -- and bigger issue -- is whether Colony Capital can use Michael Jackson's name to promote such an institute. TMZ has good news for Colony .... sources directly connected with the Michael Jackson Estate tell us, "It's an interesting idea and we'd be open to it."
Ты came and changed my life
Ты Let Me survive
I never felt like this before
It's very perfect еще Than I Thought
I came to This world hopeless,helpless
Ты Made Me Speechless
I was alone with no friend
Ты came my friend
Until The end
and never looked for How Much Ты had to spend
when My fears came
Ты came and took The shame
Ты lifted me up In the sky
and Made me fly so high
like a butterfly
cause you're Энджел In My sky
Ты opened my heart
Through blocked walls
Ты Made Me See the light
through Darkness night
Ты were My dreams
through My fighting In nightmare
I can't explain Much
how I Feel About You
Just Let my feelings come to you
Cause I Любовь you
yes It's true!!!!!!!!!!
Ты Let Me survive
I never felt like this before
It's very perfect еще Than I Thought
I came to This world hopeless,helpless
Ты Made Me Speechless
I was alone with no friend
Ты came my friend
Until The end
and never looked for How Much Ты had to spend
when My fears came
Ты came and took The shame
Ты lifted me up In the sky
and Made me fly so high
like a butterfly
cause you're Энджел In My sky
Ты opened my heart
Through blocked walls
Ты Made Me See the light
through Darkness night
Ты were My dreams
through My fighting In nightmare
I can't explain Much
how I Feel About You
Just Let my feelings come to you
Cause I Любовь you
yes It's true!!!!!!!!!!
11/11/2010 11:00 PM PST by TMZ Staff
The first new Michael Jackson single will be a duet with Эйкон -- a song entitled "Hold My Hand" that was originally leaked in 2008.
Epic Records/Sony Музыка just announced the lead single off the upcoming album "Michael" -- and "Hold My Hand" will be released this coming Monday, November 15 on michaeljackson.com.
Эйкон and MJ recorded the track back in 2007 ... a raw, incomplete version was eventually leaked to the public.
The new album will feature a total of 10 tracks -- including the controversial "Breaking News" -- when it's released December 14.
The first new Michael Jackson single will be a duet with Эйкон -- a song entitled "Hold My Hand" that was originally leaked in 2008.
Epic Records/Sony Музыка just announced the lead single off the upcoming album "Michael" -- and "Hold My Hand" will be released this coming Monday, November 15 on michaeljackson.com.
Эйкон and MJ recorded the track back in 2007 ... a raw, incomplete version was eventually leaked to the public.
The new album will feature a total of 10 tracks -- including the controversial "Breaking News" -- when it's released December 14.
Michael Jackson could live again on the big screen -- TMZ has learned a former Jackson associate is trying to Магазин around a full-length movie featuring unseen rehearsal footage from MJ's 1981 концерт series.
The man behind the deal is Ron Newt -- who claims he was so close with Michael, that the singer gave him special behind-the-scenes footage from Jackson's 1981 Triumph Tour.
Now, after seeing the success of "This Is It " -- Newt tells TMZ he's put together a 64-minute feature film from his footage ... which includes several candid moments involving MJ and his brothers. Michael can also be seen dancing, Пение and directing the stage production.
Newt tells us he's already getting offers from several interested parties -- with proposals reaching into seven figures.
The man behind the deal is Ron Newt -- who claims he was so close with Michael, that the singer gave him special behind-the-scenes footage from Jackson's 1981 Triumph Tour.
Now, after seeing the success of "This Is It " -- Newt tells TMZ he's put together a 64-minute feature film from his footage ... which includes several candid moments involving MJ and his brothers. Michael can also be seen dancing, Пение and directing the stage production.
Newt tells us he's already getting offers from several interested parties -- with proposals reaching into seven figures.