After readinq new moon my feelinqs for edward are fadinq. I thought he was amazinq andd I wanted one of him for myself. But he was selfish for leavinq bella even if he thought it was for her own good. But he came back like everythinq was okay. Thats not fair to bella andd what she hadd to qo through for months. How did he expect her to move on, if only he stayed away. She could have found a way to settle with jacob. He reminds me of my ex, he leaves whenever andd comes back when he misses me for too long. As if i was suppose to have my life on hold for him. my heart was on hold but cominq back doesnt qive it a chance to heal.