This 15 год old girl used to maintain a common diary with her 13 год old best friend in which they wrote how they felt about each other and their friendship. When she discovered that her friend who had been a patient of clinical depression had tried to kill herself, she wrote this in the diary and it brought her best friend to tears...
The names have been changed as per author's request...
November 13
Dear Amira,
K so... without going on about any trivial stuff this time, Ты should know that I've еще than you'd expect to say about stuff I usually don't go on about on phone или in person...
When I heard about your suicide attempt from Jaya and the others, it took some time (visibly an understatement) to process. To be extremely honest, I was hurt... When I finally got everything in my head, I felt extremely hurt...
Ты most probably didn't tell me because Ты thought I'd cry, be pissed, be worried to death, или Ты won't be able to face me anymore, but let me tell you, not telling me was only worse...
Right now, I could go on about how it must be tough on Ты или try to provide Ты with solace but I want to be completely honest with you.
Talk to me when you're feeling that way dumbo!! That's exactly what I'm there for! When Ты called me up and сказал(-а) that the reason Ты managed to restrain yourself from such an attempt earlier was the feeling that Ты won't get to talk to me if Ты died, IT MADE ME HAPPY!! It made me soo happy that I could cry Ты know! I COULD LITERALLY CRY!
When all this came out the way it wasn't supposed to, I wanted to just.. slap some sense into you... I wanted to slap Ты soo hard! But then, I realized that the one at fault is me... I am the one who should be slapped, for еще reasons that I'd like to count... I have failed as a best friend - completely failed... Let alone prevention, I couldn't even see through you...
Well now, for goodness' sake, don't go on blaming yourself for this way of thinking of mine! Listen to all my venting! That's the least I expect of you... Of course well, Ты CAN blame yourself, if Ты want me to feel worse that is.
Think about it... put yourself in my shoes... Well, ik.. easier сказал(-а) than done...i'm feeling worse than one could imagine right now..
I mean... Miss Amira Sharma! How could you!! Ты stupid dumbo!! How could Ты let a stupid bunch of lazy neurons take control over you!! The Ты I know!!
I don't know shit about this clinical depression crap K? I'm a bloody idiotic dumbass! But seriously dude, I COULD help Ты tell off those lowlife neurons that Amira Sharma isn't as weak as Ты useless crappy cells think she is! only if Ты want me to, that is... Ты might think that you're weak... But you're not... And if Ты deny, I'd totally give in to the opinion that my friendship has been useless all along...
K... Ты might feel like Ты should die and the world is better off without you, but for once, for goodness' sake, look around... Your mom was sitting Далее to Ты crying when Ты woke up, wasn't she?
Ты have plenty of things to live for!! Want me to name 3? k!
1. Друзья & Family
2. One Direction
3. Me...
Damn!I don't remember when was the last time I felt so pissed!
I don't always say it, but dude, you're a BLESSING in my life! I have no idea where I would've been without Ты around! I wonder if I'd have ever come to know what friendship means if it weren't for you...
Every word I've ever written in this darned diary was straight from my heart!! I wouldn't waste my precious time I could've spent sleeping или watching Аниме in making that 'Secret Base'* for just some trivial friend...
I don't think I'd understand one BFF post on FB from the ones that we feel are relatable as of now if I hadn't met you!
Don't we always go on about how we're proud of this bond, which is totally different from those girly duos who claim to be best Друзья and flaunt their pics on social sites just to end up as strangers after a few years...
Okay... I finally feel like I'll HAVE to name a few things Ты can be proud of... So, here goes...
- your nature
- your face
- your figure
- your voice
- your hair
- your... wait... almost everything ever...
(complimenting Ты is STILL a drag... I'm sorry XD)
Damn! okay.. After this, I wouldn't mind if Ты reached the Ayush** level of conceit, I guess...
I wouldn't try to make an effort to keep under control the height of your flight either... Just start flying.
"Being down to earth is great, but being under the earth is nothing close to being good..."
I know stuff is easier сказал(-а) than done... But still, I'll help Ты start moving forward, step by step, maybe... I'll help Ты start looking up at yourself dude... You're totally еще amazing than Ты think Ты are... You're worth еще than Ты think Ты are... (Not every girl gets a reverse harem Ты know? XD)
A lot of people Любовь Ты Amira!! And I'm one of them... God doesn't send a lot of pieces like Ты down here...
Just smile already!
Didn't Ты say Ты won't let me be by myself even if I wanted to? I hope Ты keep your word...
If Ты ever feel that way again, CALL ME! And if by any, i.e. 1 in a 1000 chance, I don't pick up, read this diary... или the Secret Base! Ты can even come over. или listen to 1D... или WATCH ANIME!!
Now I wanna sound kinda selfish here, so.. Ты must know, without Ты around, I'd be еще lonely that I'd like to imagine... I don't have as many Друзья as Ты think I do... :P
I want to keep talking to Ты about 1D and ANIME!! Forever!!
I want to see our children marrying each other!! XD
Oh come on.. You're just 13... At least consider this... It won't be fun dying off a virgin! XP At least, live a life that satisfies Ты before dying Amira Sharma!!
(K.. I feel like an old sage all of a sudden...)
FOR THE SAKE OF ME AND MY FUTURE CHILDREN! DONT' DIE!!!
(I'm completely serious here...)
Любовь ya!
* Secret Base is probably a scrapbook that the Автор gave Amira as a gift.
** Ayush is someone, probably, the author's brother, who the duo has entitled as completely conceited.
That was it... Please share your thoughts in the comments...
The names have been changed as per author's request...
November 13
Dear Amira,
K so... without going on about any trivial stuff this time, Ты should know that I've еще than you'd expect to say about stuff I usually don't go on about on phone или in person...
When I heard about your suicide attempt from Jaya and the others, it took some time (visibly an understatement) to process. To be extremely honest, I was hurt... When I finally got everything in my head, I felt extremely hurt...
Ты most probably didn't tell me because Ты thought I'd cry, be pissed, be worried to death, или Ты won't be able to face me anymore, but let me tell you, not telling me was only worse...
Right now, I could go on about how it must be tough on Ты или try to provide Ты with solace but I want to be completely honest with you.
Talk to me when you're feeling that way dumbo!! That's exactly what I'm there for! When Ты called me up and сказал(-а) that the reason Ты managed to restrain yourself from such an attempt earlier was the feeling that Ты won't get to talk to me if Ты died, IT MADE ME HAPPY!! It made me soo happy that I could cry Ты know! I COULD LITERALLY CRY!
When all this came out the way it wasn't supposed to, I wanted to just.. slap some sense into you... I wanted to slap Ты soo hard! But then, I realized that the one at fault is me... I am the one who should be slapped, for еще reasons that I'd like to count... I have failed as a best friend - completely failed... Let alone prevention, I couldn't even see through you...
Well now, for goodness' sake, don't go on blaming yourself for this way of thinking of mine! Listen to all my venting! That's the least I expect of you... Of course well, Ты CAN blame yourself, if Ты want me to feel worse that is.
Think about it... put yourself in my shoes... Well, ik.. easier сказал(-а) than done...i'm feeling worse than one could imagine right now..
I mean... Miss Amira Sharma! How could you!! Ты stupid dumbo!! How could Ты let a stupid bunch of lazy neurons take control over you!! The Ты I know!!
I don't know shit about this clinical depression crap K? I'm a bloody idiotic dumbass! But seriously dude, I COULD help Ты tell off those lowlife neurons that Amira Sharma isn't as weak as Ты useless crappy cells think she is! only if Ты want me to, that is... Ты might think that you're weak... But you're not... And if Ты deny, I'd totally give in to the opinion that my friendship has been useless all along...
K... Ты might feel like Ты should die and the world is better off without you, but for once, for goodness' sake, look around... Your mom was sitting Далее to Ты crying when Ты woke up, wasn't she?
Ты have plenty of things to live for!! Want me to name 3? k!
1. Друзья & Family
2. One Direction
3. Me...
Damn!I don't remember when was the last time I felt so pissed!
I don't always say it, but dude, you're a BLESSING in my life! I have no idea where I would've been without Ты around! I wonder if I'd have ever come to know what friendship means if it weren't for you...
Every word I've ever written in this darned diary was straight from my heart!! I wouldn't waste my precious time I could've spent sleeping или watching Аниме in making that 'Secret Base'* for just some trivial friend...
I don't think I'd understand one BFF post on FB from the ones that we feel are relatable as of now if I hadn't met you!
Don't we always go on about how we're proud of this bond, which is totally different from those girly duos who claim to be best Друзья and flaunt their pics on social sites just to end up as strangers after a few years...
Okay... I finally feel like I'll HAVE to name a few things Ты can be proud of... So, here goes...
- your nature
- your face
- your figure
- your voice
- your hair
- your... wait... almost everything ever...
(complimenting Ты is STILL a drag... I'm sorry XD)
Damn! okay.. After this, I wouldn't mind if Ты reached the Ayush** level of conceit, I guess...
I wouldn't try to make an effort to keep under control the height of your flight either... Just start flying.
"Being down to earth is great, but being under the earth is nothing close to being good..."
I know stuff is easier сказал(-а) than done... But still, I'll help Ты start moving forward, step by step, maybe... I'll help Ты start looking up at yourself dude... You're totally еще amazing than Ты think Ты are... You're worth еще than Ты think Ты are... (Not every girl gets a reverse harem Ты know? XD)
A lot of people Любовь Ты Amira!! And I'm one of them... God doesn't send a lot of pieces like Ты down here...
Just smile already!
Didn't Ты say Ты won't let me be by myself even if I wanted to? I hope Ты keep your word...
If Ты ever feel that way again, CALL ME! And if by any, i.e. 1 in a 1000 chance, I don't pick up, read this diary... или the Secret Base! Ты can even come over. или listen to 1D... или WATCH ANIME!!
Now I wanna sound kinda selfish here, so.. Ты must know, without Ты around, I'd be еще lonely that I'd like to imagine... I don't have as many Друзья as Ты think I do... :P
I want to keep talking to Ты about 1D and ANIME!! Forever!!
I want to see our children marrying each other!! XD
Oh come on.. You're just 13... At least consider this... It won't be fun dying off a virgin! XP At least, live a life that satisfies Ты before dying Amira Sharma!!
(K.. I feel like an old sage all of a sudden...)
FOR THE SAKE OF ME AND MY FUTURE CHILDREN! DONT' DIE!!!
(I'm completely serious here...)
Любовь ya!
* Secret Base is probably a scrapbook that the Автор gave Amira as a gift.
** Ayush is someone, probably, the author's brother, who the duo has entitled as completely conceited.
That was it... Please share your thoughts in the comments...
