My whole life, (I'm 17), I've had to live with the abuse expressed in this poem. And for a very long time, I believed I was everything she сказал(-а) I was. Until I met God. I learnt a lot еще about myself and who I could be and deserved to be and finally left. It's been almost a год now, and life couldn't be any happier for me!
Couldn't Be еще Wrong
© May Winter
Ты told me that Любовь wasn't meant for me
That I was the burden that everyone didn't need.
Ты let me be violated, stripped of all my pride
Took no acknowledgment of the hurt I tried to hide.
Ты looked at me in disgust whenever I passed your eyes
Told me how disgraced Ты were that I was a part of your life.
Ты battered and bruised me until I bled
Told me Ты hated me as Ты swung your walking stick across my head.
Ты told me I was a slut, just like my mother
Who slept with your husband and then gave birth to my brother.
Ты told me I was worthless and couldn't do anything right
Ты were the reason I stayed up crying all night.
Ты forced that нож across my wrists
With the hate Ты could only fully express with your fists.
Ты made me think that the only life for me
Was the life where I stressed myself fulfilling your needs.
Ты took your insecurities and made them my own
Its your voice that still haunts me especially when I'm alone.
Your face I still see in my happiest times
It's like this new life I own, still isn't mine.
Why won't Ты leave me and accept that I've gone?
Accept that I've found the courage to be strong.
I've found that me Ты сказал(-а) didn't belong
Because all that Ты taught about me, all that Ты said,
Grandma, God says you're wrong!
Couldn't Be еще Wrong
© May Winter
Ты told me that Любовь wasn't meant for me
That I was the burden that everyone didn't need.
Ты let me be violated, stripped of all my pride
Took no acknowledgment of the hurt I tried to hide.
Ты looked at me in disgust whenever I passed your eyes
Told me how disgraced Ты were that I was a part of your life.
Ты battered and bruised me until I bled
Told me Ты hated me as Ты swung your walking stick across my head.
Ты told me I was a slut, just like my mother
Who slept with your husband and then gave birth to my brother.
Ты told me I was worthless and couldn't do anything right
Ты were the reason I stayed up crying all night.
Ты forced that нож across my wrists
With the hate Ты could only fully express with your fists.
Ты made me think that the only life for me
Was the life where I stressed myself fulfilling your needs.
Ты took your insecurities and made them my own
Its your voice that still haunts me especially when I'm alone.
Your face I still see in my happiest times
It's like this new life I own, still isn't mine.
Why won't Ты leave me and accept that I've gone?
Accept that I've found the courage to be strong.
I've found that me Ты сказал(-а) didn't belong
Because all that Ты taught about me, all that Ты said,
Grandma, God says you're wrong!