I sat down on the sofa and so did edward,He sat down right beside me.After a while i drifted off to sleep,i dont know when i woke up but it was really dark.Then i noticed my head was on edward's shoulder,when i was asleep i must have leaned on him.I looked at edward he seemed comfortable and happy really happy,i took my head off edwards shoulder and looked at him.
"Your awake"he сказал(-а) smiling that dazzleing smile,he had dazzled me one again.
"Ya,i was really tired sorry"i сказал(-а) getting akeward.
"Its okay i didnt mind"he сказал(-а) smiling even wider.
"Of corse Ты didnt"i сказал(-а) and he laughed a bit i looked at my watch it was 9 o'clock.
"Where is charlie?"i asked.
"He called and сказал(-а) he would be Главная tomorrow that something happened and he is sorry"he сказал(-а) back to me.I was going to be Главная alone and i am pregnant something will happen knowing my luck.
"Um..do Ты mind staying here tonight because i will be Главная alone and me being pregnant makes me еще unlucky"i сказал(-а) smiling shyly.He looked shocked.
"Ya of corse thats fine"he сказал(-а) in a normal tone but i could hear that he was well happy.
"The food"i сказал(-а) while trying to stand up but he got up before me he smile and held out his hand i took it and got up.
"I saved it,its ready for Ты to eat"he сказал(-а) while holding out the chair for me to sit in.I ate my ужин then decided to go to постель, кровати i was still tired.
"I am going to get changed then i am going to постель, кровати so,um decide what Ты are going to do"i сказал(-а) then went up the stairs.
I dont go into the bathroom to get changed anymore since edward is never in my room,i got on some shorts then took off my shirt.Just then edward walked into my room i screamed and turned around,i heard the door close.
"I'm sorry i thought Ты were in the bathroom"he сказал(-а) i could hear the smile in his voice.
"I dont have to get changed in their anymore your not in my room,and this is not funny"i сказал(-а) in a angry tone he laughed a bit.
"It doesnt matter i've seen Ты naked before"he сказал(-а) sounding smug.
"Ya but that was when Ты were aloud to,but we are not together anymore so Ты cant see me like that anymore"i сказал(-а) to him he went silent.
"Well Ты should be"i сказал(-а) then opened the door the вверх i was wearing was skin tight.
"What did Ты want in my room anyway?"i asked while he looked me up and down.
"My eyes are up here"i сказал(-а) to him,he looked my in the eyes and smiled.
"Sorry and i am going to sit in the rocking chair if that is fine with you"he сказал(-а) to me melting me with his golden eyes.
"Ya fine"i сказал(-а) and moved out of the way of the door.He went in and sat in the chair.
I went and sat in my bed,it was really hot again but it was probebly just me.After a couple of минуты Renesmee started kicking,i gasped because it was like she was playing football.
"Whats wrong?"he asked concerend.
"Come here"i сказал(-а) to him,he got off the chair and stood beside the bed,i grabed his hand and pulled him onto the постель, кровати and put my hand to my stomack.Then Renesmee kicked again where his hand was he smiled and looked at me.
"That never gets old"he сказал(-а) then gasped realixing that he had just giving away that he had basically been in my room with me when i was asleep,he had been since the день jacob came to visit everynight but i never told him to go away it was nice having him here.
"Dont worrie i know that Ты are in here everynight i'm not stupid"i сказал(-а) laughing a bit.
"Well when your pregnant Ты dont get much sleep,and Ты are cold so when it feels like the have sunburn all over then coldness comes it normally means your water has broke или well in my case a vampire has their arms around you.And renesmee calms down when Ты are here"i сказал(-а) if i could see him i would most likly see someone really shocked.
"Um-sorry"he сказал(-а) shocked.
"Its okay"i сказал(-а) then turned on my bedside lamp i turned back round to edward but he face was inches from mine we both breathed in we were about to kiss.
"I cant"i сказал(-а) then layed down.
"I know im sorry"he сказал(-а) then went and sat back down on the chair,after a минута of silence i asked:
"What are Ты doing tomorrrow"
"I dont know i will probebly help them build the house what about you?"he asked
"I going up to La Push to visit jacob he asked me to come up"i сказал(-а) to him.
"Okay,be careful Ты never know when they could Ты know explode"he сказал(-а) trying to find the right words to say when they get angry and change.
"I know"i сказал(-а) to him.
"Goodnight"i сказал(-а) to him.
"Goodnight"he сказал(-а) i was half asleep in about 30 seonds so i was not really consious.
"I Любовь You"he сказал(-а) to me and without thinking as i was nearly asleep i said:
"I Любовь Ты too"then i fell asleep.
I woke up that morning feeling not as tired as i normally did,probebly because i knew edward was there.I sat up and edward was in the rocking chair,smiling again.
"Goodmorning"he сказал(-а) to me.
"Goodmorning"i сказал(-а) back to him.
"Your hair looks like a haystack"he said.
"Where have i heard that before"i сказал(-а) to him he smiled again.
"I think Ты should have some breakfast now dont you?"he сказал(-а) while getting up.
"Yes i have to change first,and dont come in this time"i сказал(-а) to him while getting up aswell.
"I'll try"he сказал(-а) then left my room,i went into the bathroom did what o had to do in there then got changed.I was wearing a blue вверх with comfortable trousers.Then i went downstairs,i went into the кухня and edward just serverd eggs on my plate i sat down and started eating.
"Thank you"i сказал(-а) to him.
"Your welcome"he сказал(-а) back smiling.
After a while of talking about the house and how edward would come over and help me explain to charlie about moving out and edward will be moving with me.
"I have to go to jakes now"i сказал(-а) to him because it was now two o'clock.
"Ya i better get going aswell get started on our house"he сказал(-а) in a normal tone again but i could hear he was full of happiness of saying our house.
"Okay then Cya later"i сказал(-а) to him.
"Cya"he сказал(-а) then drove off,a couple of минуты later jake turned up I walked outside and jake came out of the car and huged me.
"Hello"i сказал(-а) to him.
"Hello and hello to Ты too renesmee,you are getting bigger by the day"he сказал(-а) while putting his hand on my stomack.
"I know"i сказал(-а) to him we got in his car and drove to La Push.We got there and got out of the car.
"So what are we doing?"i asked.He looked a bit nervous.
"I have a picnic set up for us on thre beach"he сказал(-а) while taking my hand and leading me to the beach.
"This lookes lovely"i сказал(-а) while sitting down on the mat that was layed down,it did look lovely i was hungry.
"Good"he сказал(-а) and sat down too.
We ate our Еда aswell as talking about,wel everything renesmee,rene and how she was coming over but i didnt tell him about edward ad the house and my new apatite for blood.We were finally finished it was really nice.
"Thanks jake that was great,it was very knid of you"i сказал(-а) while standing up and so did he.
"Bella i have to ask Ты something"he сказал(-а) to me in a nervous way.
"Okay shot"i сказал(-а) to him but then he got down on one knee and pulled out a ring then looked me in the eyes.
"Bella will Ты marry me?"he asked OH MY GOD why is he doing this to me i thought he knew how i felt about him,i wish i didnt have to do this but i do.
"No....i'm sorry jake"i сказал(-а) then ran off,i looked back he was still in the same position shocked....hurt.I kept on running until i was at his house i took out my phone and called alice because i didnt have my truck jake brought me here.
"Hello?"it was edward why was he on alices phone.
"Edward wheres alice?"i asked crying.
"Their hunting i am the only one here are Ты okay?"he asked getting worried.
"Ya...um can Ты pick me up?"i asked still crying.
"Yes of corse where are you?"he asked.
"Im at la push dont worrie i'll walk to the line"i сказал(-а) remembering the treaty line.
"Thank you,i'll be right there"he сказал(-а) then hug up.
I walked to the line i was crying the hole time,when edward showed up i was still sniffling.I walked over to the car and got in,he looked at me and his eyes widened then narrowed probebly thinking what could have made me cry.He started driving i was calming down but my breaths were still sharp and quick.
"Are Ты okay?"he asked in a low voice.
"Not really"i managed to say.
"Did he hurt you?"he asked noticeabley getting angry.
"No"i answered back,it was getting better to breath and talk now.
"Is he hurt?"he asked,he really wants to know.
"Not physically but defentally hurt"i сказал(-а) in a low sad voice.He didnt speek.
"What hapened then?"he asked not looking at me just staring out the windsheild.
"He purposed to me"i murmered,then all of a sudden the car stoped i grabed onto the chair so i wouldnt fling forward.I looked at edward,he looked angry,sad,shocked and heartbroken and scared.The his eyes shot down to me left hand looking for a ring.
"I сказал(-а) no"i whispered.He let out a sigh of relife but then looked at me and saw i was in pain because of what i had done to jake.
"He shouldnt have asked it,he knew i didnt feel that way he could have saved himself this pain and saved me this pain because i had to break his heart,and watch the pain overcome his face the pain i caused!"i сказал(-а) as my voice got higher.
"Its not Ты fault"he finially сказал(-а) his voice sad.
"It is i сказал(-а) no to him i broke his heart"i nearly shouted.
"But Ты сказал(-а) what Ты felt and the answer to his Вопрос he wanted and answer if Ты wanted to spend the rest of your life with him and Ты сказал(-а) no"he сказал(-а) to me,he was right.Then we turned into his drive way i dont care that we were going to his house as long as it was away from jake.
We went into his house and sat on the sofa,i sat stareing at nothing not saying nothing just thinking about what had just happened and how jacob must feel.Then Renesmee kicked she was sad too.
"Its okay dont worrie"i сказал(-а) and edward looked at me wondering why i was talking to myself.
"I was talking to Renesmee not myself she calms down when i talk to her"i сказал(-а) rubbing my stomack.
"I see,but how did Ты know i was thinking about that?"he asked.
"Its not hard to guess i would be wondering the same thing"i сказал(-а) laughing a bit.Then i heard:
"She can be so strange sometimes"it was edward i looked at him and he was smiling.
If i wasnt strange i would be me"i сказал(-а) to him,he looked at me with wide eyes.
"How did Ты know that?"asked me shocked.
"You just сказал(-а) it"i сказал(-а) to him.
"No i thought it"he сказал(-а) to me.
"Well how else could i read your mind if it wasnt renesmee"i сказал(-а) to him.
"I dont know it seemes to be her"he сказал(-а) but then i got a idea.
"If renesmee can hear peoples thoughts cant Ты hear hers"i asked.
"Maybe"he сказал(-а) then started listening.
"Nothing its like a tinnie buzzing because your womb is protecting it"he said.
"Try moving closer"i сказал(-а) to him,"Its okay just try"i said.
Then he moved his head up against my stomack then i heard:
"Daddy can hear me"i gasped and so did edward we both heard her edward sat up again.
"I heard her"he whispered.
"I heard her too"i сказал(-а) to him both of us were in shock.
"I can hear whats in her head because she is a part of me,so she can read minds so when she hears someones thoughts i hear them too"i сказал(-а) finally figuring this out.
"Yes but she only lets Ты hear when she wants too"he whispered.
"She also feels what Ты feel because she is a part of Ты thats why she was upset earlier bacause Ты were too"he сказал(-а)
"She is very smart"i said.
"Yes she is her mind is very mature she can understand things that are very complex"he сказал(-а) then сказал(-а) in his mind"just like her mother".i smiled at him.
"Its going to take a while to get used to Ты being able to hear my thoughts"he said.
"Yes"i сказал(-а) laughing a bit.He smiled then сказал(-а) "God i Любовь her laugh"then he looked up at me and i was trying not to smile.
"Darn this is going to be hard"he said.
"Now Ты know why i am happy Ты cant read my thoughts"i сказал(-а) laughing.
Then everyone came in the door,then saw me and edward laughing an edward was still very close to me.
"Sorry are we interupting something"emmett сказал(-а) then sai in his mind"As if she could do anything shes pregnant"i laughed.
"Nothing emmett"edward сказал(-а) a bit angry about what emmett сказал(-а) in his mind.
"Why are Ты two so happy?"jasper asked then thought"Probebly got back together".
"No jasper we havent got back together"i said,jasper looked at me shocked.
"Oh ya,Renesmee can hear thoughts and when she hears thoughts and she wants bella to hear them well she lets bella hear"edward said.
"And i can also read renesmee's mind"he added,everyone looked shocked.
"That is amazing"carlisle said"Bella and renesmee amaze me еще everyday"he сказал(-а) in his head.
After that everyone was asking еще about the baby and what she was thinking until i finally said:
"She has gone to sleep now"everyone smile so did i because i wasnt ablw to hear anyone thoughts anymore it was giving me a sore head.
"What else is wrong bella i can feel anger,sadness and Ты also feel apologitic"jasper said.
"Oh ya something else happened today aswell"i sais to them.
"What happened now,renesmee change Ты into something else"emmett joked.
"No,jacob purposed to me"i сказал(-а) then everyone's eyes got wide but they all went silent.
"HA"emmett shouted,that woke up renesmee so i could hear everyones thoughts again"why did he ask that he knows he cant have her she is having a half vampire baby for goodness sake!"it was rose saying in her head but everyone elses thoughts were like that too.Then they thought"what did she say?"they all looked at my hand for ring,they sighed when they didnt see one.
"I сказал(-а) no"i murmered.
"I'm sorry"esme said.
"how did he take it?"alice asked me.
"Not well"i сказал(-а) then esme and alice came and sat beside me
"He was still in the same position when i left him......down on one knee"i сказал(-а) like i was in pain because i was i had broken his heart.
"Awww bella,its okay its not your fault he shouldnt have put Ты in that position"esme сказал(-а) lovingly.
"I know but he looked so hurt"i whispered.
"It alright"alice сказал(-а) then gave me a hug.
"I better go Главная charlie will be Главная soon"i сказал(-а) to them.
"I'll bring you"edward volountered.
"Thanks"i сказал(-а) then stood up with the help of esme.
"Cya"i сказал(-а) to everyone.
"Cya tomorrow"they all said.
I got in edwards car and he started driving,i was feeling sad,sorry and nervous.
"Whats wrong?"edward asked i forgot when renesmee is awake she feels what i feel and edward reads her mind.
"I am nervous charlie has probebly heard what happened from billy and he is going to Вопрос me about why i сказал(-а) no and all that"i сказал(-а) to him.
He didnt say anything until we turned up at my house.
"Yes he is going to Вопрос you,sorry"he сказал(-а) to me then sighed.
"Its okay its not youre fault"i sighed then got out of the car.
"Thank you,for everything"i сказал(-а) to him.
"Your welcome"he сказал(-а) back to me.
"Goodbye"i сказал(-а) to him.
"Goodbye"he сказал(-а) then i closed the door and drove off.I walked into my house and into the кухня charlie was sitting at the таблица Чтение the news paper.
"Hello"i сказал(-а) to him.
"Hello"he сказал(-а) in a dissaproving tone,ugh this is going to be a long evening.I took some Еда out of the fridge and put it in the microwave.
"I heard about what happened today"he сказал(-а) like it was a normal conversation.
"And...."i added on so he would continue i might aswell get this over with.
"And i think Ты made the wrong choice"he сказал(-а) then sighed.
"I dont think so,i am pregnant for one thing,i am going to be moving in with edward and i dont Любовь him so i think that is enough reasons to say no to him"i сказал(-а) back to him and he knew i was right because my reasons were good.
"You are not going to be pregnant forever so when Ты are not pregnant Ты could have got married.Jacob could have moved in with Ты instead of edward if Ты сказал(-а) yes,and Ты could learn to Любовь him Ты havent tried to Любовь him,you are always around edward he is holding Ты back"charlie сказал(-а) giving ulternatives to my reasons.
"No dad Ты cant learn to Любовь someone it just happenes,and of corse edward is around me i am having his child i will have this child for as long as i live and edward will want to see his daughter so edward will always be in my life,and what makes Ты think i dont Любовь edward?"i сказал(-а) to him,he was not prepared for me to have answeres to his questions.
"After all he has put Ты through Ты still Любовь him"charlie сказал(-а) shocked.I thought about what i was going to say Далее because i hadnt actually decided myself if i still Любовь edward so i will be telling myself aswell as charlie.
"Yes i still Любовь him,once Ты Любовь someone it doesnt just fade away and there is nothing Ты can do to change my mind okay charlie"i сказал(-а) to him his eyes widened then narrowed.
"Okay"he сказал(-а) as i gave him food.I ate my ужин then went up to my bedroom.I got changed and sat in my постель, кровати i started listening to my cd edward made it for me when i listen to it renesmee calms down.
I fell asleep a while after that but i soon heard edward coming in y window.I didnt open my eyes i just let him come in,this was one of the ways he got to be with me and renesmee.I felt him come and lay down beside me and put his hands on my stomack:
"Dont worrie i will get your mum back even if its the last thing i do"he сказал(-а) then kissed my stomack.
He seemes very determined maybe just maybe i will give him a chance to make up for what he has done to me.