~Chasing Cars~ [song my Snow Patrol]
Over Thanksgiving, Alice had convinced me to let her cut my hair. And surprisingly, I absolutly Любовь it. I keep thinking about what Edward will think about it, then I remember me and Edward aren't going to happen. I have Mason to think about and his wife passed away only a год ago.
Black Friday had been crazy. Alice got in a fight with some blonde over a giant жопа, попка tv to go in her room. Alice won. Rose got the boots she had been dying for, and Emmett's tool set. I had been able to get Mason's new постель, кровати set for his room. He has been hounding me about giving him a new room because his room is for babies. So, after his Футбол game on Saturday, he's going over to Alice's so I can do his room.
I dropped him off with Rose, on time today, and made my way to the hospital. I clipped my I.D. on my srub and made my way up the stairs.
"Belly! You're on time." Emmett yelled to me.
"I know! First time since ever." I laughed.
"Morning, Ang." I smiled.
"Morning, Bella. Oh, Dr. Cullen wants to see Ты in his office."
"Okay." I took a couple steps then stopped. "Wait, which Cullen?"
"Edward." she smirked, then continued her computer work.
Thud. Thud.
I could ear my сердце beat in my ears, I could feel it beating against my rib cage.
I walked down the hall, trying to steady my сердце rate, to Edward's office and knocked on his already opened door.
"You wanted to see me, Dr. Cullen?" I asked.
He looked up and laughed. "Did Ты just call me Dr. Cullen? Last time I checked I was Edward."
I blushed. "Okay. Ты wanted to see me...Edward?"
"Yes I did." He smiled. "I haven't got a chance to properly thank Ты for talking to me last week." He sat on the edge of his desk, his hands in his lap.
I walked over to him and placed my hand on his. "You don't have to thank me, Edward. Ты needed to talk and for someone to listen."
"Well, I feel like I do. So, how about I make ужин for Ты tonight? At my place? I think it would only be fair to let Ты into my home, since Ты let me in yours."
"Thank would be great but-"
"Bring him." He stated simply.
"Edward-"
"Bring Mason, bring yourself, and I will bring myself. I will call Ты to give Ты directions."
"Edward." I sighed.
"Now, I have a sick little girl I need to go check on." He winked and left, brushing my shoulder as he passed. "Oh." he turned around. "Your hair....beautiful." He turned back around and turned the corner.
I took a deep breath and turned the same corner.
"Bella!"
I jumped and covered my сердце with my hand. "God, Alice."
"Sorry. I know, 'You know the rules about scaring me when I'm thinking about boys'." She laughed. When she would scare me back in high school, I used to tell her that for laughs. The only boy I ever thought about was Riley. Now...Edward.
"Thinking about Riley, again?" she sighed and hooked her arm thorugh mine.
"No." I sighed. "Not this time."
"Thinking about Edward?" she asked simply.
"Yeah."
She nodded, her cue to tell me to continue.
"I don't know what to think, Alice. I mean...I really do like him. He's nice, and honest. He's beautiful, he makes me smile so easliy. But I have to think about Mason."
"Why do Ты always have to think about Mason? I understand he comes first in your life. Your Главная life. Mason shouldn't decide who или whne Ты date. Ты need to give a guy a chance then bring Mason into it. Think about Ты for a moment. Think about what Ты want. What would make Bella happy?"
"Edward."
"Then let Edward make Ты happy. I know he asked Ты out to ужин tonight because he ran it by me first. He's trying to open up to Ты Bella. He's trying to make Ты happy, so let him." she stood infront of me and placed her tiny hands on my shoulders. "I Любовь you, Bella. You're practily my sister. I want Ты to be happy and Ты deserve to be happy. Please try? Just let Edward in."
I nodded.
"Thank you, Bella." She smiled and dropped her hands. "You'll thank me one day. Oh, and i doubt Edward told Ты this, but dress nice."
"Momma?"
I was tucking Mason's рубашка into his pants. "Yeah, Baby?"
"You look pretty." He smiled.
"Thank you." I smiled and kissed his cheek.
"Are Ты done getting me ready? I'm ready to go to Edward's. He сказал(-а) he used to play Футбол and I want him to Показать me some stuff. Can I bring my ball?"
I stood up and helped him put on his coat. "I guess. But don't forget and leave it over there."
"Yes!" He grabbed his ball and took off for the front door.
I laughed and shook my head as I slipped my sweater on and grabbed my keys.
"Don't run!" Mason was out of the car and up to Edward's door before I could blink. "Knock!"
He curled his little fist and beat the door three times. The lock clicked and opened Показ Edward with a grin on his face.
"Mason!" he picked Mason up and tossed him up in the air.
Mason laughed a belly laugh I hadn't heard since he was a baby. I couldn't help but to smile.
"I brought my ball! Can Ты Показать me how Ты do all those tricks and stuff."
"Sounds like a plan. Where's your mom?"
"Right here." I huffed. "He ran." I laughed.
"At least Ты made it." He smiled. "Come one in."
He set Mason down and let us in. His apartment was clean. Black, white, and grey clean. It didn't look much lived in. But then again, he hadn't really been "living".
"I hope Ты guys like chicken nuggets and french fries." Edward looked down at Mason.
"Dinosuar shaped?!" Mason gasped.
Edward nodded. "T-rex."
"That's my favorite! Do Ты have red coolaid?"
"Of course. Red is my Избранное color." Edward spoke in an obvious tone.
"Mine too!" Mason smiled. "Hey, you're just like me."
Edward laughed and nodded. "I guess I am."
I could really get used to this.
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Over Thanksgiving, Alice had convinced me to let her cut my hair. And surprisingly, I absolutly Любовь it. I keep thinking about what Edward will think about it, then I remember me and Edward aren't going to happen. I have Mason to think about and his wife passed away only a год ago.
Black Friday had been crazy. Alice got in a fight with some blonde over a giant жопа, попка tv to go in her room. Alice won. Rose got the boots she had been dying for, and Emmett's tool set. I had been able to get Mason's new постель, кровати set for his room. He has been hounding me about giving him a new room because his room is for babies. So, after his Футбол game on Saturday, he's going over to Alice's so I can do his room.
I dropped him off with Rose, on time today, and made my way to the hospital. I clipped my I.D. on my srub and made my way up the stairs.
"Belly! You're on time." Emmett yelled to me.
"I know! First time since ever." I laughed.
"Morning, Ang." I smiled.
"Morning, Bella. Oh, Dr. Cullen wants to see Ты in his office."
"Okay." I took a couple steps then stopped. "Wait, which Cullen?"
"Edward." she smirked, then continued her computer work.
Thud. Thud.
I could ear my сердце beat in my ears, I could feel it beating against my rib cage.
I walked down the hall, trying to steady my сердце rate, to Edward's office and knocked on his already opened door.
"You wanted to see me, Dr. Cullen?" I asked.
He looked up and laughed. "Did Ты just call me Dr. Cullen? Last time I checked I was Edward."
I blushed. "Okay. Ты wanted to see me...Edward?"
"Yes I did." He smiled. "I haven't got a chance to properly thank Ты for talking to me last week." He sat on the edge of his desk, his hands in his lap.
I walked over to him and placed my hand on his. "You don't have to thank me, Edward. Ты needed to talk and for someone to listen."
"Well, I feel like I do. So, how about I make ужин for Ты tonight? At my place? I think it would only be fair to let Ты into my home, since Ты let me in yours."
"Thank would be great but-"
"Bring him." He stated simply.
"Edward-"
"Bring Mason, bring yourself, and I will bring myself. I will call Ты to give Ты directions."
"Edward." I sighed.
"Now, I have a sick little girl I need to go check on." He winked and left, brushing my shoulder as he passed. "Oh." he turned around. "Your hair....beautiful." He turned back around and turned the corner.
I took a deep breath and turned the same corner.
"Bella!"
I jumped and covered my сердце with my hand. "God, Alice."
"Sorry. I know, 'You know the rules about scaring me when I'm thinking about boys'." She laughed. When she would scare me back in high school, I used to tell her that for laughs. The only boy I ever thought about was Riley. Now...Edward.
"Thinking about Riley, again?" she sighed and hooked her arm thorugh mine.
"No." I sighed. "Not this time."
"Thinking about Edward?" she asked simply.
"Yeah."
She nodded, her cue to tell me to continue.
"I don't know what to think, Alice. I mean...I really do like him. He's nice, and honest. He's beautiful, he makes me smile so easliy. But I have to think about Mason."
"Why do Ты always have to think about Mason? I understand he comes first in your life. Your Главная life. Mason shouldn't decide who или whne Ты date. Ты need to give a guy a chance then bring Mason into it. Think about Ты for a moment. Think about what Ты want. What would make Bella happy?"
"Edward."
"Then let Edward make Ты happy. I know he asked Ты out to ужин tonight because he ran it by me first. He's trying to open up to Ты Bella. He's trying to make Ты happy, so let him." she stood infront of me and placed her tiny hands on my shoulders. "I Любовь you, Bella. You're practily my sister. I want Ты to be happy and Ты deserve to be happy. Please try? Just let Edward in."
I nodded.
"Thank you, Bella." She smiled and dropped her hands. "You'll thank me one day. Oh, and i doubt Edward told Ты this, but dress nice."
"Momma?"
I was tucking Mason's рубашка into his pants. "Yeah, Baby?"
"You look pretty." He smiled.
"Thank you." I smiled and kissed his cheek.
"Are Ты done getting me ready? I'm ready to go to Edward's. He сказал(-а) he used to play Футбол and I want him to Показать me some stuff. Can I bring my ball?"
I stood up and helped him put on his coat. "I guess. But don't forget and leave it over there."
"Yes!" He grabbed his ball and took off for the front door.
I laughed and shook my head as I slipped my sweater on and grabbed my keys.
"Don't run!" Mason was out of the car and up to Edward's door before I could blink. "Knock!"
He curled his little fist and beat the door three times. The lock clicked and opened Показ Edward with a grin on his face.
"Mason!" he picked Mason up and tossed him up in the air.
Mason laughed a belly laugh I hadn't heard since he was a baby. I couldn't help but to smile.
"I brought my ball! Can Ты Показать me how Ты do all those tricks and stuff."
"Sounds like a plan. Where's your mom?"
"Right here." I huffed. "He ran." I laughed.
"At least Ты made it." He smiled. "Come one in."
He set Mason down and let us in. His apartment was clean. Black, white, and grey clean. It didn't look much lived in. But then again, he hadn't really been "living".
"I hope Ты guys like chicken nuggets and french fries." Edward looked down at Mason.
"Dinosuar shaped?!" Mason gasped.
Edward nodded. "T-rex."
"That's my favorite! Do Ты have red coolaid?"
"Of course. Red is my Избранное color." Edward spoke in an obvious tone.
"Mine too!" Mason smiled. "Hey, you're just like me."
Edward laughed and nodded. "I guess I am."
I could really get used to this.
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My eyes were opened when I first saw you,you made my сердце skip a beat,I heard nothing but yours...your heart,Never have felt the way I feel about Ты in a century,I want Ты around me,but I'm in a dilema...you need to know
Chorus: Oh Bella,Oh Bella it's hard to resist,every Переместить Ты make,every step Ты take,every word Ты say,every breath Ты take makes my сердце ache,Oh Bella,Oh Bella it's hard to resist
I couldn't stop thinking about you,so oh,oh I revealed who I was,i could not hide, they say that's what happens when "two hearts collide" and I didn't believe until I experienced it,Does not change the fact that oh Bella Ты need to hear
(Chorus)
But now looking since Ты are mine,I guess Ты could say we are doing fine but Im still reserved ,you think Im obsurd for saying I have to be careful but the fact still remains...
(Chorus)
Chorus: Oh Bella,Oh Bella it's hard to resist,every Переместить Ты make,every step Ты take,every word Ты say,every breath Ты take makes my сердце ache,Oh Bella,Oh Bella it's hard to resist
I couldn't stop thinking about you,so oh,oh I revealed who I was,i could not hide, they say that's what happens when "two hearts collide" and I didn't believe until I experienced it,Does not change the fact that oh Bella Ты need to hear
(Chorus)
But now looking since Ты are mine,I guess Ты could say we are doing fine but Im still reserved ,you think Im obsurd for saying I have to be careful but the fact still remains...
(Chorus)
i have been with Edward for 2 years and i don't feel like our relationship is going anywhere, all we do now is have sex and that's mainly it. we were better of Друзья than boyfriend and gorlfriend i mean before we got together we used to talk, hang out and everything. i miss it.
but resantly Edwrad has been distint i mean he comes knocking for me at 1 0 clock in the morning asking me do i want to go out. i can tell if he does that one еще time Charlie is going to hit him, so for his benefit he better not do that again.
why do people change?
it's really bugging me. i see him all the time flirting with other girls, but if he caught me flirting with an another guy he would go mad and get all jealous.
why does he care? i mean if he can flirt with other girl's i'm sure i can flirt with other guys.
he is really starting to get on my nerves.
Do i Любовь him?
Should i dump him?
i guess i'll find out soon enough. This is his last chance.