I lived in my cold dark world for my entire life.
Feeble, absentminded, indifferent, and apathetic are what I am
After shunning the outside world for all its transgression towards me.
I survived through "drifting through life": doing what I am told, agreeing to whatever argument I find myself in, keeping whatever opinion I hold to myself
so that the situation I'm in will be over
and I can get back to my shell, my refuge
My world.
My world, my sanctuary,
my безопасно, сейф haven until an intruder tried to break in
My mother telling me to let her and my "loved ones" in.
What do I do?
What do I do?
The panic sets in; my world will be invaded
raped
dirtied by the people that "love" me!
What do I do?
What do I do?
Животные that are territorial bare their fangs или reveal their claws, warning intruders to back off
или die.
Fight? Ты want me to fight?
No, Ты want Ты to fight
for something that Ты created
cleaned
perfected
made yours time and time again.
So here I stand, thrashing, punching, cursing, shoving, screaming
no, no, NO!
A word I never would have thought felt so good to force out of my soul
A word I never thought I needed until I had to defend what I truly wanted:
My dark cold world.
Feeble, absentminded, indifferent, and apathetic are what I am
After shunning the outside world for all its transgression towards me.
I survived through "drifting through life": doing what I am told, agreeing to whatever argument I find myself in, keeping whatever opinion I hold to myself
so that the situation I'm in will be over
and I can get back to my shell, my refuge
My world.
My world, my sanctuary,
my безопасно, сейф haven until an intruder tried to break in
My mother telling me to let her and my "loved ones" in.
What do I do?
What do I do?
The panic sets in; my world will be invaded
raped
dirtied by the people that "love" me!
What do I do?
What do I do?
Животные that are territorial bare their fangs или reveal their claws, warning intruders to back off
или die.
Fight? Ты want me to fight?
No, Ты want Ты to fight
for something that Ты created
cleaned
perfected
made yours time and time again.
So here I stand, thrashing, punching, cursing, shoving, screaming
no, no, NO!
A word I never would have thought felt so good to force out of my soul
A word I never thought I needed until I had to defend what I truly wanted:
My dark cold world.
looked in the mirror and saw that ugly girl
That girl that constantly reminded of who I was,
Of what I was.
I was a murder
People say My parents death wasn’t my fault
I killed them
I felt guilty
I felt ashamed
I was the one to blame
My life flashed before my eyes
I saw the fire, the crash
I saw the flames erupt inside me
I felt tears burn my eyelids
I felt it as much they did
They burned, I burned
I didn't want to be left alone
I never wanted them to leave
Though I was taken from them
They were also taken from me
Though they're gone,
We both pay the price
Death
And Scars.
That girl that constantly reminded of who I was,
Of what I was.
I was a murder
People say My parents death wasn’t my fault
I killed them
I felt guilty
I felt ashamed
I was the one to blame
My life flashed before my eyes
I saw the fire, the crash
I saw the flames erupt inside me
I felt tears burn my eyelids
I felt it as much they did
They burned, I burned
I didn't want to be left alone
I never wanted them to leave
Though I was taken from them
They were also taken from me
Though they're gone,
We both pay the price
Death
And Scars.