Me: I'm back yes, to everyones dissapointment lol. I'm sorry everyone but when i wrote this I was really high on sugar sorry if its to happy go lucky to be realistic
And suddenly I just felt like laughing. I started giggling. I don’t know what I found funny though. I’ve Остаться в живых my family, when I fall asleep I travel to a different world and get beaten, I’m stuck in a hospital and I’m laughing? Oh my god I am going crazy. That brought on another round of giggles for me. Like people didn’t think I was crazy before, I thought.
When my round of giggles subsided I felt ashamed of myself. Here I was laughing after my family died. I pushed my head into the pillow, why am I so weird, I thought. There’s nothing wrong with being weird, a voice сказал(-а) in my head. Of course there is, you’re going insane laughing at your family’s death, another voice whispered. This voice was a lot harsher, practically sneering at the other voice.
These voices were quite familiar to me. Whenever I thought something about myself, my mind would argue with itself. There was like an optimistic side and a pessimistic side. I would ask myself a Вопрос and the two sides would argue with themselves. I often thought of it as yin and yang. The two voices were so opposite but they balanced me out. I often acted on my optimistic side, and it made me feel better about myself. But it still couldn’t block out the other voice.
I sighed, maybe I was going crazy. For thirty секунды I considered what I could do. And then I remembered I didn’t know the time. I pulled myself up and swung my legs around to get out of bed. I groaned as my legs moved, they felt so stiff. How long have I been asleep? I carefully tested my weight against the floor. I got up and reached for the bedside таблица to lean against. I then reached for the Далее постель, кровати carefully stretching out my good leg. Finally I reached the chair by the window and I sat down gratefully.
The sun was just starting to rise, setting a розовый and yellow haze over the city. I leaned against the window sill putting all my weight against it. I debated what to do for a while when I remembered my book. I hobbled back over to my постель, кровати and grabbed my new book.
I sat back against the постель, кровати and continued Чтение the tapestry. As I was Чтение the sun was slowly creeping through the window. When the sun was shining fully into the room, lighting everything I finished my book. I actually got sad when the book finished. I read the last page and sighed. I closed the book and put it on the постель, кровати side table.
I closed my eyes and leaned back against the pillow. I had it propped up against the wall, so I could sit upright. I looked around the room taking it in properly for the first time. There were pale blue walls that could have been mistaken for white. или was I mistaking them for being blue? There were two other beds there besides mine. All three beds had white sheets all identical to each other.
What is it with hospitals and the colour white? I thought. I realised I didn’t like the room, everything was the same. And also there was no colour, if patients in hospital maybe brighten there день with colour, I thought. I laughed as I pictured fluoro green постель, кровати sheets.
I heard footsteps out in the hallway with my heightened sense. I wonder if all my senses are heightened I thought, или is it just my hearing. Далее meal I’ll try see if it tastes stronger and smell, well I can do that then as well. I thought about touch and rubbed my fingertips across the scratchy surface of the blankets. No different than before the crash, I thought.
I jumped as the door burst open. There were two doctors wheeling a stretcher through the door. I glanced at the постель, кровати and there was a boy on there. The boy had a lot of bruises and he had his leg in a cast. He was probably a little bit older than me. Maybe sixteen или seventeen. He was unconscious and the doctors gently eased him onto the bed. I looked away quickly not wanting to look like I was spying. One of the doctors checked his pulse and the other one wrote some notes down on a chart at the end of his bed. I looked through the little window in the door and saw his anxious family out in the hallway.
This was going to be awkward. One of the doctors left and walked outside to talk with the family, the other one came over to me.
“So Alyria, how are Ты feeling?” he asked.
“Sore,” I сказал(-а) smiling. He chuckled and went to check my chart. He ticked a few things and then put it down.
“Um excuse me sir but how long am I going to be here for?” I asked. He bit his lip and sighed.
“Alyria this is one of the worst parts of my job here but I’m afraid you’re going to be here awhile because we recently found out that your family crashing into the semi trailer wasn’t an accident,” He said. He seemed hesitant to tell me this. I felt a fury rising in me. An anger that had been buried in me for a long time began to rise. There goes my Happy mood
Before I could answer the boy’s family burst in and the mother rushed to his side. And the father walked hesitantly over to see the damage of his son. The sister was clinging to the father and edged around and stood beside her brother. I looked back at the doctor, remembering we were having a conversation. It seemed as though the world was against me though throwing obstacle after obstacle.
“I am going to hunt the people who did this and tear them to shreds,” I hissed through my teeth.
“Now Alyria, we don’t know why but Ты mustn’t go looking for trouble,” he said, he looked panicked about my sudden threat. There was something in his eyes that told me he wasn’t telling me the whole truth.
Should I tell her? It might push her over the edge, he thought.
“You’re not telling me something,” I сказал(-а) looking into his eyes. He bit his lip,
“How did Ты know? Ah never mind, um we received this letter a week ago,” he сказал(-а) pulling out a piece of paper. He hesitated before giving it to me but I reached out and grabbed it from his hand. I scanned the page, and paled. This son of сука was going to die.
You’re going to die,
Just like your family
I heard еще footsteps out in the hallway, and Mr Marks came in.
He had a quick talk with the family beside me and then came over to me.
“Hello, Mr Marks, Its good to see Ты again” I сказал(-а) stiffly.
“Hello Alyria, what’s the matter?” he asked.
“What’s the matter? I’ve just found out my family was murdered, and now some nutter is coming after me,” I сказал(-а) through my lips.
“Oh Alyria, Ты must be so upset,” he said.
“Hell no, I hope he finds me, I am going to kill him,” I said, with angry tears in my eyes. He looked taken aback by my sudden venomous tone. I took in a deep breath trying to calm myself. I shoved the blankets off my body.
The little girl from the family had seen my little rant and saw my swollen foot.
“What happened to your foot?” she asked. The mother looked appalled at her daughter’s boldness. She hurried over and grabbed her, “I’m so sorry,” she said, scared of offending me. She looked so worried that I laughed. The father came over to apologize to.
“It’s okay,” I сказал(-а) quietly.
“Well little girl, I was in a car crash. It killed my whole family I thought it was an accident but it turns out I was wrong,” I сказал(-а) fiercely, tears sliding down my cheeks.
“It’s alright to cry honey,” the mother said.
“No one’s going to think you’re weak,” Mr Marks said. I nodded but I still didn’t cry. I turned my head away for a секунда and saw the boy starting to wake.
Ah, the poor thing losing her family
What a poor child
I wonder if we could do something to help?
Great, they saw me as some sobbing kid who needs help.
I took another deep breath to calm down
“You shouldn’t worry about me. But maybe Ты would like to greet your son,” I сказал(-а) smiling tightly. They turned around and he was watching us. Instantly they were by his side checking that he was okay. I smiled at him and then turned back to Mr Marks. We didn’t talk about anything important then, and I guess he didn’t want to upset me. In the end he promised to get me the Далее Tapestry book.
I frowned, maybe I didn’t know the seriousness of it but it all just sounded like something that happens in a movie. I knew it wouldn’t turn out the same; I would probably end up dying in the end. I think the worst thing about it does not know that I was going to die, but probably the fact that I won’t be able to have the same amount of freedom, I probably won’t be able to leave the building. I wonder who wants me dead so much. I couldn’t think of anyone who had a vengeance against the family.
I sighed and shoved the thought from my head. I didn’t bother the family beside me and they were quite preoccupied with their son. I leaned back against the подушка and closed my eyes.
There was a familiar rushing sensation and when I opened my eyes I had my head in my knees. I lifted my head and I was back in the little village tied to the familiar pole.
And suddenly I just felt like laughing. I started giggling. I don’t know what I found funny though. I’ve Остаться в живых my family, when I fall asleep I travel to a different world and get beaten, I’m stuck in a hospital and I’m laughing? Oh my god I am going crazy. That brought on another round of giggles for me. Like people didn’t think I was crazy before, I thought.
When my round of giggles subsided I felt ashamed of myself. Here I was laughing after my family died. I pushed my head into the pillow, why am I so weird, I thought. There’s nothing wrong with being weird, a voice сказал(-а) in my head. Of course there is, you’re going insane laughing at your family’s death, another voice whispered. This voice was a lot harsher, practically sneering at the other voice.
These voices were quite familiar to me. Whenever I thought something about myself, my mind would argue with itself. There was like an optimistic side and a pessimistic side. I would ask myself a Вопрос and the two sides would argue with themselves. I often thought of it as yin and yang. The two voices were so opposite but they balanced me out. I often acted on my optimistic side, and it made me feel better about myself. But it still couldn’t block out the other voice.
I sighed, maybe I was going crazy. For thirty секунды I considered what I could do. And then I remembered I didn’t know the time. I pulled myself up and swung my legs around to get out of bed. I groaned as my legs moved, they felt so stiff. How long have I been asleep? I carefully tested my weight against the floor. I got up and reached for the bedside таблица to lean against. I then reached for the Далее постель, кровати carefully stretching out my good leg. Finally I reached the chair by the window and I sat down gratefully.
The sun was just starting to rise, setting a розовый and yellow haze over the city. I leaned against the window sill putting all my weight against it. I debated what to do for a while when I remembered my book. I hobbled back over to my постель, кровати and grabbed my new book.
I sat back against the постель, кровати and continued Чтение the tapestry. As I was Чтение the sun was slowly creeping through the window. When the sun was shining fully into the room, lighting everything I finished my book. I actually got sad when the book finished. I read the last page and sighed. I closed the book and put it on the постель, кровати side table.
I closed my eyes and leaned back against the pillow. I had it propped up against the wall, so I could sit upright. I looked around the room taking it in properly for the first time. There were pale blue walls that could have been mistaken for white. или was I mistaking them for being blue? There were two other beds there besides mine. All three beds had white sheets all identical to each other.
What is it with hospitals and the colour white? I thought. I realised I didn’t like the room, everything was the same. And also there was no colour, if patients in hospital maybe brighten there день with colour, I thought. I laughed as I pictured fluoro green постель, кровати sheets.
I heard footsteps out in the hallway with my heightened sense. I wonder if all my senses are heightened I thought, или is it just my hearing. Далее meal I’ll try see if it tastes stronger and smell, well I can do that then as well. I thought about touch and rubbed my fingertips across the scratchy surface of the blankets. No different than before the crash, I thought.
I jumped as the door burst open. There were two doctors wheeling a stretcher through the door. I glanced at the постель, кровати and there was a boy on there. The boy had a lot of bruises and he had his leg in a cast. He was probably a little bit older than me. Maybe sixteen или seventeen. He was unconscious and the doctors gently eased him onto the bed. I looked away quickly not wanting to look like I was spying. One of the doctors checked his pulse and the other one wrote some notes down on a chart at the end of his bed. I looked through the little window in the door and saw his anxious family out in the hallway.
This was going to be awkward. One of the doctors left and walked outside to talk with the family, the other one came over to me.
“So Alyria, how are Ты feeling?” he asked.
“Sore,” I сказал(-а) smiling. He chuckled and went to check my chart. He ticked a few things and then put it down.
“Um excuse me sir but how long am I going to be here for?” I asked. He bit his lip and sighed.
“Alyria this is one of the worst parts of my job here but I’m afraid you’re going to be here awhile because we recently found out that your family crashing into the semi trailer wasn’t an accident,” He said. He seemed hesitant to tell me this. I felt a fury rising in me. An anger that had been buried in me for a long time began to rise. There goes my Happy mood
Before I could answer the boy’s family burst in and the mother rushed to his side. And the father walked hesitantly over to see the damage of his son. The sister was clinging to the father and edged around and stood beside her brother. I looked back at the doctor, remembering we were having a conversation. It seemed as though the world was against me though throwing obstacle after obstacle.
“I am going to hunt the people who did this and tear them to shreds,” I hissed through my teeth.
“Now Alyria, we don’t know why but Ты mustn’t go looking for trouble,” he said, he looked panicked about my sudden threat. There was something in his eyes that told me he wasn’t telling me the whole truth.
Should I tell her? It might push her over the edge, he thought.
“You’re not telling me something,” I сказал(-а) looking into his eyes. He bit his lip,
“How did Ты know? Ah never mind, um we received this letter a week ago,” he сказал(-а) pulling out a piece of paper. He hesitated before giving it to me but I reached out and grabbed it from his hand. I scanned the page, and paled. This son of сука was going to die.
You’re going to die,
Just like your family
I heard еще footsteps out in the hallway, and Mr Marks came in.
He had a quick talk with the family beside me and then came over to me.
“Hello, Mr Marks, Its good to see Ты again” I сказал(-а) stiffly.
“Hello Alyria, what’s the matter?” he asked.
“What’s the matter? I’ve just found out my family was murdered, and now some nutter is coming after me,” I сказал(-а) through my lips.
“Oh Alyria, Ты must be so upset,” he said.
“Hell no, I hope he finds me, I am going to kill him,” I said, with angry tears in my eyes. He looked taken aback by my sudden venomous tone. I took in a deep breath trying to calm myself. I shoved the blankets off my body.
The little girl from the family had seen my little rant and saw my swollen foot.
“What happened to your foot?” she asked. The mother looked appalled at her daughter’s boldness. She hurried over and grabbed her, “I’m so sorry,” she said, scared of offending me. She looked so worried that I laughed. The father came over to apologize to.
“It’s okay,” I сказал(-а) quietly.
“Well little girl, I was in a car crash. It killed my whole family I thought it was an accident but it turns out I was wrong,” I сказал(-а) fiercely, tears sliding down my cheeks.
“It’s alright to cry honey,” the mother said.
“No one’s going to think you’re weak,” Mr Marks said. I nodded but I still didn’t cry. I turned my head away for a секунда and saw the boy starting to wake.
Ah, the poor thing losing her family
What a poor child
I wonder if we could do something to help?
Great, they saw me as some sobbing kid who needs help.
I took another deep breath to calm down
“You shouldn’t worry about me. But maybe Ты would like to greet your son,” I сказал(-а) smiling tightly. They turned around and he was watching us. Instantly they were by his side checking that he was okay. I smiled at him and then turned back to Mr Marks. We didn’t talk about anything important then, and I guess he didn’t want to upset me. In the end he promised to get me the Далее Tapestry book.
I frowned, maybe I didn’t know the seriousness of it but it all just sounded like something that happens in a movie. I knew it wouldn’t turn out the same; I would probably end up dying in the end. I think the worst thing about it does not know that I was going to die, but probably the fact that I won’t be able to have the same amount of freedom, I probably won’t be able to leave the building. I wonder who wants me dead so much. I couldn’t think of anyone who had a vengeance against the family.
I sighed and shoved the thought from my head. I didn’t bother the family beside me and they were quite preoccupied with their son. I leaned back against the подушка and closed my eyes.
There was a familiar rushing sensation and when I opened my eyes I had my head in my knees. I lifted my head and I was back in the little village tied to the familiar pole.
i was a normal 18 год old colledge student until that night that horid night the night that all saftyein my life died it was a cold winters night and me and my friend trent were going to stay the night at the most haunted hospital in the world ( еще like most haunted place of death and despair)waverly hlls sanitoryoum. "come on tristen were going to be laughing stocks of the city if we dont go" "trent." i сказал(-а) " i dont think we should go" " are u chicening out." he сказал(-а) " no" i snapped " but its not right" i argued to him "its these millions of death beads and u have famly that died there and so do i" " he looked mad at me mentioning his uncle who died there but i had to make him stop. "no" he сказал(-а) " we are going." to hell i thought if only i new
inch by inch
bringing me closer
to my doom
Бабочки of
anticipation
flutter nervously
in my stomach
knuckles whiten
jaws clench
what have I
gotten myself into
the suspense
is killing me
I'm going to hate it
I'm going to Любовь it
I might lose my lunch
but I don't care
heaven help me
here it comes...
...
I hold my breath...
...
and then
I scream
my stomach
drops
my breath
is stolen
my heart
is pounding
adrenaline
courses
through
my veins
amid screams
of sweet terror
I fling up
my hands
and ride on
the wings
of Thrill!
I remember the день I fell in love.
Not just simple love.
No, this was head over heels, I'd die for Ты love.
I remember where I fell in love.
A small middle school in a small town.
A place Ты could easily miss.
I remember the my matchmaker.
A short women, but with еще огонь then Ты could ever imagine.
еще passion for what she does then I had ever seen.
I remember my girlfriends who were with me.
My athletic, sassy, fun-loving chicks.
My flirting consultants.
I remember him.
Good God, he was beautiful.
Yes, I remember the день I fell in love.
True Love.
Head over heels love.
With..................
Basketball.
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This is dedicated to my first real баскетбол coach. She taught me not just how to play basketball, but how to be part of a team. I have so much respect for her and I know I should thank her everyday for helping me fall in love. For Coach Joy.
Not just simple love.
No, this was head over heels, I'd die for Ты love.
I remember where I fell in love.
A small middle school in a small town.
A place Ты could easily miss.
I remember the my matchmaker.
A short women, but with еще огонь then Ты could ever imagine.
еще passion for what she does then I had ever seen.
I remember my girlfriends who were with me.
My athletic, sassy, fun-loving chicks.
My flirting consultants.
I remember him.
Good God, he was beautiful.
Yes, I remember the день I fell in love.
True Love.
Head over heels love.
With..................
Basketball.
--------------------------------
This is dedicated to my first real баскетбол coach. She taught me not just how to play basketball, but how to be part of a team. I have so much respect for her and I know I should thank her everyday for helping me fall in love. For Coach Joy.
Just a poem. I hope it isn't much of a bother to rate.
I dream of all things
Uncertain of dark deeds and pasts
Within these thoughts as dark as sea
When once those wings of black
Hung over all
Shadowing but of the wretched white
That blinds me of all beauty.
I dream of all things
From happiness to highs
Let down these pills
или I’m gone, retreat inside my mind
Where none but the darkest thoughts
Swallowing twilight
I dream of all things
From the stories told by hidden scars
Unable to Показать themselves
Under this intense scrutiny
That makes up this world’s attire
To the times that I could be happy
Without a drug to create
The much-needed illusion...
I dream of all things
No matter of their contents
Because, well,
Nightmares are still dreams.
I dream of all things
Uncertain of dark deeds and pasts
Within these thoughts as dark as sea
When once those wings of black
Hung over all
Shadowing but of the wretched white
That blinds me of all beauty.
I dream of all things
From happiness to highs
Let down these pills
или I’m gone, retreat inside my mind
Where none but the darkest thoughts
Swallowing twilight
I dream of all things
From the stories told by hidden scars
Unable to Показать themselves
Under this intense scrutiny
That makes up this world’s attire
To the times that I could be happy
Without a drug to create
The much-needed illusion...
I dream of all things
No matter of their contents
Because, well,
Nightmares are still dreams.