"So Friday?"
"I have plans with Matt Friday!"
"Okay. Okay. Let me know when Ты are available..."
"Okay bye Henex."
I didn't really have plans with Mat Friday, not yet anyway. He had been asking to go out with him like every single weekend since he got back. Not that i don't Любовь spending my time with him, but just not this much. Maybe I'm just over reacting.. I don't know. All I do know is that Matt has been every lovey dovey lately, еще than usual. It was cute at first but now it's kinda annoying. "Harsh there Jaz." I thought to myself. Ugh. I Любовь him and that's all that matters and I should probably feel blessed to have a boyfriend who is willing to spend all his time with me..right?
The Далее morning I woke an час early than usual, so I took it to my advantage and got a little еще dolled up for school then I did on a normal day. My hair was curled, makeup perfectly lined together, and clothes ironed. I felt good. Though it was freezing outside, normal Texas winter weather, Matt still picked me on time and he even picked me up a hot Шоколад to warm me up. Thank God he did too! All my harsh thoughts had passed from last night and Matt was back to being just sweet, WARM, Matt.
After walking me to 9th period he gave me a quick Kiss and swiftly moved towards building A. That Kiss probably put the icing on the cake for my day. Got my Сообщить card, All A's and I some how got a free cake at lunch because the register wasn't working and our English teacher had the flu so some Australian sub came and made us crack up at his accent. I know it would probably be the worst день for a "Paris Hilton" или someone snobby like that but it didn't take much to please me. I was happy with my A's and a free cake and nice warm Kiss from my boyfriend. Life was as smooth as Micheal's moonwalk.
I was eager to get into the car when the колокол, колокольчик, белл rang. The temperature went down at least 12 degrees in the past час and a half; not including the science project that was due Friday.! (It's Wednesday!) I just wanted to get Главная and fast.
It almost seemed as if Matt was doing it on purpose.
"So...you wanna stop for a mini blizzard?"
"When it's 40 degrees outside?" I rolled my eyes.
"I just thought...-"
"Well I think I just want to get Главная Matthew, okay?"
Not another word was сказал(-а) until we pulled up to my house.
"Well here we are. This wonderful Главная Ты have been "dying" to get to." He wouldn't even look at me.
"Thanks." My words were as hollow as my bones. WE just sat there.
"So are Ты gonna open my door или what?"
"No." One stab.
"Are Ты serious Matt?"
"Yup." Two stabs. Losing blood.
I was opening my door-
"Can I at least have a kiss?" Almost in tears yet my сердце was filled with огонь and anger. He gave me the most meaningless Kiss ever. He had never, and I mean never kissed me like that before.
Three stabs. Dead.
I slapped my door and stopped to my house and once I opened the door, he sped off.
"Gosh he's so damn stubborn." I wanted to scream it out loud instead of just in my head but i couldn't find words to speak. i just stomped up the stairs and fell to my bed. I decided to turn my phone off and just work on the project for science. That was why all this happened in the first place. I seemed to finish the project with some my best ideas and it all was put together quite nicely for last minute. I added a few "Jazzy Touch-Ups" and boom just like that it was ready to go.
Unfortunately, It only took three hours to do the project, so when I finished it was barely 6:00. About 15 минуты later I got a message from Matty.
*************
MattyLoveJazzy: Beautiful?
(no answer, five минуты later)
MattyLoveJazzy: Beautiful I'm sorry! I was a real jerk in the car and the whole ride home. I'm so sorry. Please forgive me. Ты Know i couldn't stay mad at you. I'm sorry :(
***************
Hmmmmm. I don't know what to say. I can't stay mad at him because I was being a jerk too but then again I don't want him thinking he can treat me that way. i Любовь him and I know i screwed up just as much as he did so I'm out ruled...by me myself.....?
**************
(Two минуты later)
JazzyLoveJesus: Okay okay. I'm sorry too. I know I was being a jerk too. Ты are forgiven.. but am I? :(
MattyLoveJazzy: Of course Ты are beautiful. i Любовь you. ♥
JazzyLoveJesus: ily2!♥ See Ты in the morning my love.
MattyLoveJazzy: Well it barely 6:30, Ты want to come have ужин at my house? My dad cooked spaghetti. (: Your favorite!
JazzyLoveJesus: Yummmmmm. Alright. See At 7:00. (:
MattyLoveJazzy: (: ♥
JazzyLoveJesus is offline.
MattyLoveJazzy is offline.
******************
"Aymen". My prayer finished.
I slept a little half hearten that night. That was my first real argument with Matthew and I obviously didn't like it. It felt so weird and sad. It was obviously a dump reason to fight but it still happened. I felt some tension between us that had еще to do then just not buying me a mini blizzard.....Something isn't right and I'm dying to know what it is!
"I have plans with Matt Friday!"
"Okay. Okay. Let me know when Ты are available..."
"Okay bye Henex."
I didn't really have plans with Mat Friday, not yet anyway. He had been asking to go out with him like every single weekend since he got back. Not that i don't Любовь spending my time with him, but just not this much. Maybe I'm just over reacting.. I don't know. All I do know is that Matt has been every lovey dovey lately, еще than usual. It was cute at first but now it's kinda annoying. "Harsh there Jaz." I thought to myself. Ugh. I Любовь him and that's all that matters and I should probably feel blessed to have a boyfriend who is willing to spend all his time with me..right?
The Далее morning I woke an час early than usual, so I took it to my advantage and got a little еще dolled up for school then I did on a normal day. My hair was curled, makeup perfectly lined together, and clothes ironed. I felt good. Though it was freezing outside, normal Texas winter weather, Matt still picked me on time and he even picked me up a hot Шоколад to warm me up. Thank God he did too! All my harsh thoughts had passed from last night and Matt was back to being just sweet, WARM, Matt.
After walking me to 9th period he gave me a quick Kiss and swiftly moved towards building A. That Kiss probably put the icing on the cake for my day. Got my Сообщить card, All A's and I some how got a free cake at lunch because the register wasn't working and our English teacher had the flu so some Australian sub came and made us crack up at his accent. I know it would probably be the worst день for a "Paris Hilton" или someone snobby like that but it didn't take much to please me. I was happy with my A's and a free cake and nice warm Kiss from my boyfriend. Life was as smooth as Micheal's moonwalk.
I was eager to get into the car when the колокол, колокольчик, белл rang. The temperature went down at least 12 degrees in the past час and a half; not including the science project that was due Friday.! (It's Wednesday!) I just wanted to get Главная and fast.
It almost seemed as if Matt was doing it on purpose.
"So...you wanna stop for a mini blizzard?"
"When it's 40 degrees outside?" I rolled my eyes.
"I just thought...-"
"Well I think I just want to get Главная Matthew, okay?"
Not another word was сказал(-а) until we pulled up to my house.
"Well here we are. This wonderful Главная Ты have been "dying" to get to." He wouldn't even look at me.
"Thanks." My words were as hollow as my bones. WE just sat there.
"So are Ты gonna open my door или what?"
"No." One stab.
"Are Ты serious Matt?"
"Yup." Two stabs. Losing blood.
I was opening my door-
"Can I at least have a kiss?" Almost in tears yet my сердце was filled with огонь and anger. He gave me the most meaningless Kiss ever. He had never, and I mean never kissed me like that before.
Three stabs. Dead.
I slapped my door and stopped to my house and once I opened the door, he sped off.
"Gosh he's so damn stubborn." I wanted to scream it out loud instead of just in my head but i couldn't find words to speak. i just stomped up the stairs and fell to my bed. I decided to turn my phone off and just work on the project for science. That was why all this happened in the first place. I seemed to finish the project with some my best ideas and it all was put together quite nicely for last minute. I added a few "Jazzy Touch-Ups" and boom just like that it was ready to go.
Unfortunately, It only took three hours to do the project, so when I finished it was barely 6:00. About 15 минуты later I got a message from Matty.
*************
MattyLoveJazzy: Beautiful?
(no answer, five минуты later)
MattyLoveJazzy: Beautiful I'm sorry! I was a real jerk in the car and the whole ride home. I'm so sorry. Please forgive me. Ты Know i couldn't stay mad at you. I'm sorry :(
***************
Hmmmmm. I don't know what to say. I can't stay mad at him because I was being a jerk too but then again I don't want him thinking he can treat me that way. i Любовь him and I know i screwed up just as much as he did so I'm out ruled...by me myself.....?
**************
(Two минуты later)
JazzyLoveJesus: Okay okay. I'm sorry too. I know I was being a jerk too. Ты are forgiven.. but am I? :(
MattyLoveJazzy: Of course Ты are beautiful. i Любовь you. ♥
JazzyLoveJesus: ily2!♥ See Ты in the morning my love.
MattyLoveJazzy: Well it barely 6:30, Ты want to come have ужин at my house? My dad cooked spaghetti. (: Your favorite!
JazzyLoveJesus: Yummmmmm. Alright. See At 7:00. (:
MattyLoveJazzy: (: ♥
JazzyLoveJesus is offline.
MattyLoveJazzy is offline.
******************
"Aymen". My prayer finished.
I slept a little half hearten that night. That was my first real argument with Matthew and I obviously didn't like it. It felt so weird and sad. It was obviously a dump reason to fight but it still happened. I felt some tension between us that had еще to do then just not buying me a mini blizzard.....Something isn't right and I'm dying to know what it is!
I know the way it eats your mind
The way your brain, eaten up
The one that leaves Ты silent, blind
Long after you've had enough
I know the way it devours your thoughts
The way Ты feel confused
It feels like a million knots
It leaves Ты feeling used
I know the way it stabs your сердце
The way it leaves Ты here to bleed
It makes quite sure to tear Ты apart
The time Ты really need
I know the way it hurts your feelings
The way it leaves Ты blue
Ты say Ты see, when not really seeing
Ты say Ты know, but that's not true
I know the way Ты try and hide it
But then Ты know you'll always find it
In the trees and in the gravel
This lie Ты call friendship, I can't unravel.
The way your brain, eaten up
The one that leaves Ты silent, blind
Long after you've had enough
I know the way it devours your thoughts
The way Ты feel confused
It feels like a million knots
It leaves Ты feeling used
I know the way it stabs your сердце
The way it leaves Ты here to bleed
It makes quite sure to tear Ты apart
The time Ты really need
I know the way it hurts your feelings
The way it leaves Ты blue
Ты say Ты see, when not really seeing
Ты say Ты know, but that's not true
I know the way Ты try and hide it
But then Ты know you'll always find it
In the trees and in the gravel
This lie Ты call friendship, I can't unravel.