have Ты ever felt like Ты were trapped in the middle of something and Ты felt like there was no way out? i have and to tell Ты my story i have to start from the begining.
chapter one
first sight
i was 16 when i moved to america, it was different not like england it was warmer first and it felt weird i was use to covering up, but would that make me stand out? i looked around from where i was sitting, girls walking round in shorts and vest tops, guys the same yep i was deffenetly going to stand out if i wore my jumper skinnies and ugg boots. then a really depressing thought hit me.
tomorrow i would start school, great.
i was sat on the Стена at this time, outside my new Главная it was about seven that night but i wasn't tired. i thought about what tomorrow would be like i was going to be the new girl the outsider i missed my old Друзья i wish they were here they would tell me it was okay that i could do this/ there was no way in hell i could so this.
i had to find my way around the school, meet new people what was i meant to do?
i took another look around taking in there looks this time, geez how many blond people are there? they were all blond, blue eyes, tanned. where me i was black haired green eyes, and well i wasn't pale but i wasn't over the вверх tanned like some kids here.
they were all Чтение glosssy magazines on the трава while me i was sat on the Стена Чтение ` the house of night` - i took a liking to the book when my mum brought one for free when she got me the twilights- yep i am a Фан of the vampire mysterious stories - i felt out of place.
it was still light outside, and really warm, i missed home, i missed england and never thought i would be saying this but i missed the rain. wow i must really be depressed.
"you need to go to постель, кровати soon" i loved my mum but when she calls attention to me its like urgh! just kill me now.
everyone was staring it was weird, like gawking, sure at my old school i wasn't the most Популярное kid but i wasn't hated. they only stopped for a moment which made me wish i could read there mind at there first inpression, acturally maybe not.
with a sigh i jumped of the Стена and walked slowly into the house making a plan in my head, that no matter how bad it got i would suffer in silence, but i would do my time, accturaly i was exsited about tomorrow now, i turned around taking one last look at my new home. who was i kidding i was drreading what the Далее день was going to bring.
i couldn't ssleep that night heat was taking over and i was nervous.
i woke with a weird feeling, i hated early mornings but when i had to go a half час earlier it was worse. i was sat infront of the mirrow, okay here goes.
my hair was a weck i mean one of them that was standing up on end, so that deffenetly means straigtened. that took me longer then i thought but as soon as i got it straightened and styled i looked at the clock 7:30 crap! i had half час and the way my face looked far to blochy i covered it with foundation a little blusher - something told me i wouldn't need it but stil - and eye liner i could do my mascara when i got into the school lot. i rushed and grabbed the first clothes i could find, vest вверх and shorts and then shoes ahh карп i didn't look at the shoes so i had no idea, so i grabbed the first pair at the вверх of my bag. heals? oh well.
i ran down the stiars greatfull to see mum had left atleast a drink of молоко and some money out i downed the drink and ran out the house just catching the
"good luck" of my dad.
it was times like this i was glad i was 16 and was able to drive. and also that my parents had thought to send my car here i loved it it was a little hot розовый mini convertable. so still running i jumped in and put my foot down. it was easy to find the school well without the simple turn left go straight at the lights directions from my dad i could find it, it looked like a school and had convine high in capital letters on the side of the wall. and a hug sign saying office that told me that is were i needed to go.
i pulled into the nearest Космос and climbed out, the car park was only a little full so people were here, great.
flipping my hair back i started walkin.
the women in the office was like the others she was blonde and she was young and really really pretty.
"hello how can i help you?" she seemed really nice.
"hey erm im ellie black, i-" she cut me of
"oh yes i have Ты paper work right here and Ты new scedural Ты will be in Музыка first leason with mr johns"
"thank you" i told her as she handed me the papers
"have a nice день now" we both smiled as i took a deep breath and stepped out into the unkown.
it was packed now and i was looking at the map when i first bumped into him/
"oh im really sorry i wasn't looking were i was going" i told him as i collected all my things together
"no no it was me i was destracted" he held out his hand and i took it without looking at him, as my cheeks blushed
" thanks erm sorry i have to go sorry again" before he could say something i hurried on, great cluts on the first day.
i was lucky that Музыка was only around the corner and was realy lucky that i was one of the first people there so it didn't draw attention to me.
i walked straight to the bold headed guy that looked a litttle to gay.
"hi im ellie black" i told him
"oh nice to meet Ты well welcome to america and to convine high"
"thank you, erm where should i sit?"
"anywhere " i took a сиденье, место, сиденья in the middle as everyone else started to fill in, not noticing me. thank god.
"right class today we will be Пение in pairs" what!? was he realy doing this? i started to lose my breath, things couldn't get worse или so i thought, " and we have a new student so does anyone wel should i say any boy like to volinteer to work with her?" i sunk down in my сиденье, место, сиденья oh god oh god oh god!
"ill do it" i recognised that voice he was the guy i have knocked over/
"great jake, ellie Ты and him can go to the other room and practise" i nodded and kept my head down as i got up and follwed the long black haired guy into the other room.
"so Ты ever sung before" he asked without turning.
"er yeah i was in the qior in my old school but i was at the back"
he turned at the sound of my voice "oh its you, Ты walked before i could say sorry again"
"oh yeah er i guess i needed to get here" i was still enbarassed.
he smiled and i looked at him deeper, he had long black hair really deep brown eyes that ooked chcocolate brown, to be honest he was gorgous!
"so what song are we singing?" i asked with a sudden burst of confidence.
he smiled again and walked over to the stack of papers "any of these i don't mind" he handed them and i flicked through them.
there were great Музыка all couple songs, Любовь the way Ты lie, this is me and others but one caught me eye,
"this is my Избранное song" i realised i сказал(-а) it out loud when he took the paper out of my hand
"two is better then one? boys like girls?" he had a brillient smile on his face which confused the way he asked the queastion.
"yeah feat taylor быстрый, стремительный, свифт how come? Ты don't like it?"
"no its acturally my Избранное song as well" he looked up and into my eyes and my breathe caught.
he had an amazing voice when he started
`i remember what Ты wore on that first day
Ты came into my life and i thought Эй, like this could be something
everything Ты do and words Ты say`
i was still listerning until it came to my part, i hated Пение out loud
`i remember every look upon Ты face`
`the way Ты rolled your eyes the way Ты taste Ты make it hard for breathing`
`and when i closed my eyes and dirft away i think of Ты and everythings okay im finaly now believing`
when we sung together it was wierd sparks flied and i wasn't scared.
`and im thinking two is better then one` and the song ended just before the колокол, колокольчик, белл went.
"wow"
"i know" i didn't know i spoke that out load until he answered me "so what leason do Ты have next?"
i had to check that even еще enbarassing.
"er, gymnastic"
he nodded and looked like he was about to say soemthing when 3 other guys burst into the room ignoring me and walking straight up to jake
"dude! i heard Ты were Пение with the new girl!" one said
"yeah but we also heard that she is english!" the other added
"and HOT! i mean really fiiiiiiine" jake laughed and i blushed
"guys this is ell" he swept his hand towards me as the threee of them turned around
"hey" i waved after all 3 morthes fell open.
when it didn't look like they were going to say anything jake laughed again
"ell this is danny, tom and liam guys this is ell the hot british girl Ты were talking about"
i waved a little feeling awkward.
we walked down the corridoor together laughing all four of us, everyone stopped and stared.
"why does everyone look?" i сказал(-а) out loud and really wished i hadn't
"cause your like prob the hottest new girl we have ever had" danny сказал(-а) draping his arm around my shoulders.
i laughed and сказал(-а) no more.
sorry about the spelling never could spell, please Комментарий :) hope Ты like it
chapter one
first sight
i was 16 when i moved to america, it was different not like england it was warmer first and it felt weird i was use to covering up, but would that make me stand out? i looked around from where i was sitting, girls walking round in shorts and vest tops, guys the same yep i was deffenetly going to stand out if i wore my jumper skinnies and ugg boots. then a really depressing thought hit me.
tomorrow i would start school, great.
i was sat on the Стена at this time, outside my new Главная it was about seven that night but i wasn't tired. i thought about what tomorrow would be like i was going to be the new girl the outsider i missed my old Друзья i wish they were here they would tell me it was okay that i could do this/ there was no way in hell i could so this.
i had to find my way around the school, meet new people what was i meant to do?
i took another look around taking in there looks this time, geez how many blond people are there? they were all blond, blue eyes, tanned. where me i was black haired green eyes, and well i wasn't pale but i wasn't over the вверх tanned like some kids here.
they were all Чтение glosssy magazines on the трава while me i was sat on the Стена Чтение ` the house of night` - i took a liking to the book when my mum brought one for free when she got me the twilights- yep i am a Фан of the vampire mysterious stories - i felt out of place.
it was still light outside, and really warm, i missed home, i missed england and never thought i would be saying this but i missed the rain. wow i must really be depressed.
"you need to go to постель, кровати soon" i loved my mum but when she calls attention to me its like urgh! just kill me now.
everyone was staring it was weird, like gawking, sure at my old school i wasn't the most Популярное kid but i wasn't hated. they only stopped for a moment which made me wish i could read there mind at there first inpression, acturally maybe not.
with a sigh i jumped of the Стена and walked slowly into the house making a plan in my head, that no matter how bad it got i would suffer in silence, but i would do my time, accturaly i was exsited about tomorrow now, i turned around taking one last look at my new home. who was i kidding i was drreading what the Далее день was going to bring.
i couldn't ssleep that night heat was taking over and i was nervous.
i woke with a weird feeling, i hated early mornings but when i had to go a half час earlier it was worse. i was sat infront of the mirrow, okay here goes.
my hair was a weck i mean one of them that was standing up on end, so that deffenetly means straigtened. that took me longer then i thought but as soon as i got it straightened and styled i looked at the clock 7:30 crap! i had half час and the way my face looked far to blochy i covered it with foundation a little blusher - something told me i wouldn't need it but stil - and eye liner i could do my mascara when i got into the school lot. i rushed and grabbed the first clothes i could find, vest вверх and shorts and then shoes ahh карп i didn't look at the shoes so i had no idea, so i grabbed the first pair at the вверх of my bag. heals? oh well.
i ran down the stiars greatfull to see mum had left atleast a drink of молоко and some money out i downed the drink and ran out the house just catching the
"good luck" of my dad.
it was times like this i was glad i was 16 and was able to drive. and also that my parents had thought to send my car here i loved it it was a little hot розовый mini convertable. so still running i jumped in and put my foot down. it was easy to find the school well without the simple turn left go straight at the lights directions from my dad i could find it, it looked like a school and had convine high in capital letters on the side of the wall. and a hug sign saying office that told me that is were i needed to go.
i pulled into the nearest Космос and climbed out, the car park was only a little full so people were here, great.
flipping my hair back i started walkin.
the women in the office was like the others she was blonde and she was young and really really pretty.
"hello how can i help you?" she seemed really nice.
"hey erm im ellie black, i-" she cut me of
"oh yes i have Ты paper work right here and Ты new scedural Ты will be in Музыка first leason with mr johns"
"thank you" i told her as she handed me the papers
"have a nice день now" we both smiled as i took a deep breath and stepped out into the unkown.
it was packed now and i was looking at the map when i first bumped into him/
"oh im really sorry i wasn't looking were i was going" i told him as i collected all my things together
"no no it was me i was destracted" he held out his hand and i took it without looking at him, as my cheeks blushed
" thanks erm sorry i have to go sorry again" before he could say something i hurried on, great cluts on the first day.
i was lucky that Музыка was only around the corner and was realy lucky that i was one of the first people there so it didn't draw attention to me.
i walked straight to the bold headed guy that looked a litttle to gay.
"hi im ellie black" i told him
"oh nice to meet Ты well welcome to america and to convine high"
"thank you, erm where should i sit?"
"anywhere " i took a сиденье, место, сиденья in the middle as everyone else started to fill in, not noticing me. thank god.
"right class today we will be Пение in pairs" what!? was he realy doing this? i started to lose my breath, things couldn't get worse или so i thought, " and we have a new student so does anyone wel should i say any boy like to volinteer to work with her?" i sunk down in my сиденье, место, сиденья oh god oh god oh god!
"ill do it" i recognised that voice he was the guy i have knocked over/
"great jake, ellie Ты and him can go to the other room and practise" i nodded and kept my head down as i got up and follwed the long black haired guy into the other room.
"so Ты ever sung before" he asked without turning.
"er yeah i was in the qior in my old school but i was at the back"
he turned at the sound of my voice "oh its you, Ты walked before i could say sorry again"
"oh yeah er i guess i needed to get here" i was still enbarassed.
he smiled and i looked at him deeper, he had long black hair really deep brown eyes that ooked chcocolate brown, to be honest he was gorgous!
"so what song are we singing?" i asked with a sudden burst of confidence.
he smiled again and walked over to the stack of papers "any of these i don't mind" he handed them and i flicked through them.
there were great Музыка all couple songs, Любовь the way Ты lie, this is me and others but one caught me eye,
"this is my Избранное song" i realised i сказал(-а) it out loud when he took the paper out of my hand
"two is better then one? boys like girls?" he had a brillient smile on his face which confused the way he asked the queastion.
"yeah feat taylor быстрый, стремительный, свифт how come? Ты don't like it?"
"no its acturally my Избранное song as well" he looked up and into my eyes and my breathe caught.
he had an amazing voice when he started
`i remember what Ты wore on that first day
Ты came into my life and i thought Эй, like this could be something
everything Ты do and words Ты say`
i was still listerning until it came to my part, i hated Пение out loud
`i remember every look upon Ты face`
`the way Ты rolled your eyes the way Ты taste Ты make it hard for breathing`
`and when i closed my eyes and dirft away i think of Ты and everythings okay im finaly now believing`
when we sung together it was wierd sparks flied and i wasn't scared.
`and im thinking two is better then one` and the song ended just before the колокол, колокольчик, белл went.
"wow"
"i know" i didn't know i spoke that out load until he answered me "so what leason do Ты have next?"
i had to check that even еще enbarassing.
"er, gymnastic"
he nodded and looked like he was about to say soemthing when 3 other guys burst into the room ignoring me and walking straight up to jake
"dude! i heard Ты were Пение with the new girl!" one said
"yeah but we also heard that she is english!" the other added
"and HOT! i mean really fiiiiiiine" jake laughed and i blushed
"guys this is ell" he swept his hand towards me as the threee of them turned around
"hey" i waved after all 3 morthes fell open.
when it didn't look like they were going to say anything jake laughed again
"ell this is danny, tom and liam guys this is ell the hot british girl Ты were talking about"
i waved a little feeling awkward.
we walked down the corridoor together laughing all four of us, everyone stopped and stared.
"why does everyone look?" i сказал(-а) out loud and really wished i hadn't
"cause your like prob the hottest new girl we have ever had" danny сказал(-а) draping his arm around my shoulders.
i laughed and сказал(-а) no more.
sorry about the spelling never could spell, please Комментарий :) hope Ты like it
Why do we complain about the unfairness of life?
We have been stroked by its handle, not felt its sharp knife.
Our hearts moan because we do not have the latest iPhone.
But have we stopped to see the cries of those without a home?
They come to our doors desperate for help.
But all we do is dismiss them with a rude yelp.
"Be not harsh to the orphan and the needy" says our Lord.
But some of us do not heed this and whip them with a steel rod.
Though the whole world we cannot feed.
We should not refrain from doing a good deed.
And prevent from drowning in a pool of greed
We have been stroked by its handle, not felt its sharp knife.
Our hearts moan because we do not have the latest iPhone.
But have we stopped to see the cries of those without a home?
They come to our doors desperate for help.
But all we do is dismiss them with a rude yelp.
"Be not harsh to the orphan and the needy" says our Lord.
But some of us do not heed this and whip them with a steel rod.
Though the whole world we cannot feed.
We should not refrain from doing a good deed.
And prevent from drowning in a pool of greed
Are the nights getting too long?
Are the lights getting turned off?
Are the curtains being shut?
And are Ты the one shit out of luck?
Is it Ты being pushed around?
Is it Ты begging to be found?
Is it his cologne that waters your eyes?
или is it the fact that Ты remember all of the lies?
Was it Ты tied down onto his bed?
Was it Ты screaming at the site of his head?
Was it Ты who was crying all of those nights?
And the was it the fact that no one noticed, that helped Ты remain alright?
Do Ты regret ever meeting him,
или was it a lesson well-learned?
Do Ты regret ever helping him?
For your skin is now burned.
Do Ты regret ever Поцелуи him?
'Cause it your body penetrated,
and used for abuse.
Yet you've pretended not to care;
Ты just tie up a noose.
Are the lights getting turned off?
Are the curtains being shut?
And are Ты the one shit out of luck?
Is it Ты being pushed around?
Is it Ты begging to be found?
Is it his cologne that waters your eyes?
или is it the fact that Ты remember all of the lies?
Was it Ты tied down onto his bed?
Was it Ты screaming at the site of his head?
Was it Ты who was crying all of those nights?
And the was it the fact that no one noticed, that helped Ты remain alright?
Do Ты regret ever meeting him,
или was it a lesson well-learned?
Do Ты regret ever helping him?
For your skin is now burned.
Do Ты regret ever Поцелуи him?
'Cause it your body penetrated,
and used for abuse.
Yet you've pretended not to care;
Ты just tie up a noose.
Розы are red
violets are blue
when i flush the toilet
i remember you. . .
Ты who speak of beautiful words
when at my back Ты have this sharp swords
delighted by how Ты praise me
set me on огонь is what you'd like to see
what's even funnier is that i've done nothing to you
i'm just being me and there's nothing Ты can do :P
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a short poem for the haters ;)
loveyall,, ya make me famous!!!! :*
violets are blue
when i flush the toilet
i remember you. . .
Ты who speak of beautiful words
when at my back Ты have this sharp swords
delighted by how Ты praise me
set me on огонь is what you'd like to see
what's even funnier is that i've done nothing to you
i'm just being me and there's nothing Ты can do :P
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vjbvbovioir
nbfiovboibiosr
biopriobrnieo
nbovinbpoidneeeeeeeebnivbd
rfbjoldnbon
jfrborbfipob
fdnbnbp
biorbnipodnb
a short poem for the haters ;)
loveyall,, ya make me famous!!!! :*
The sky was growing dark when it all happened. I was strolling through the park, the same as any day. I was alone, all alone. i looked up to find not one облако in the sky.
'Night already?' I thought. I looked at my watch. 3:00 pm it read. "That's odd," I said. I decided to go Главная then.
As I made my way home, things got weirder. There were no cars on the улица, уличный and no lights on in any of the apartment buildings.
I turned down an allyway, my usual way home, when I felt an unatural tugging sensation in my gut. I didn't know why, but i was suddenly walking in the complete opposite direction of my house.
It felt like my body was under someone else's control. I started jogging, then running.
"Stop it!" I yelled. I tried to force my legs to stop moving, but as soon as I tried, I felt a searing pain go from my forehead to the base of my spine. I screamed and everything went black.
'Night already?' I thought. I looked at my watch. 3:00 pm it read. "That's odd," I said. I decided to go Главная then.
As I made my way home, things got weirder. There were no cars on the улица, уличный and no lights on in any of the apartment buildings.
I turned down an allyway, my usual way home, when I felt an unatural tugging sensation in my gut. I didn't know why, but i was suddenly walking in the complete opposite direction of my house.
It felt like my body was under someone else's control. I started jogging, then running.
"Stop it!" I yelled. I tried to force my legs to stop moving, but as soon as I tried, I felt a searing pain go from my forehead to the base of my spine. I screamed and everything went black.