I stared at my tiny room’s ceiling. The paint is starting to peel off and Dad’s been bugging me to work on it. I don’t want to. I just wanted to lie in постель, кровати and do nothing. Do nothing but think of her, dream of her.
Once again, her beautiful face flashed before my eyes…
“D-do Ты want me to l-leave? So Ты could be free?” She asked brokenly.
I winced at the memory of her lovely face torn with pain. That look on her face haunted me for months now.
“Do Ты want me to haul your stupid butt out of this room, Jacob Black?” Leah growled from the doorway.
I glared at her.
“Get lost, Leah.”
“There’s no sense in moping around. She’s in Dartmouth, now. This is your stupid idea. So, get over it.” She snapped harshly.
Leah sided with her step niece. She thought my idea was completely rash and stupid. I can’t blame her.
She sat on the floor by the doorway. “I never really thought Ты were completely brainless until now. Oh, correction. Completely heartless will suit Ты better.”
I squeezed my eyes tight forcing the tears back.
She cleared her throat and murmured, “Sorry.”
I sighed.
“What really made Ты decide to let her go, Jake?” She asked softly, almost sympathetically.
“Don’t want to talk about it.” I сказал(-а) under my breath.
“You obviously still Любовь her. Why shove her away?”
“For the Любовь of God, Leah, leave me alone!” I сказал(-а) through gritted teeth.
“You’re falling to pieces, tough guy. Ты just can’t expect me to face the other way.”
I have refused to phase. I don’t want the pack to suffer with me. I don’t want them to know how much this cost me. Besides it was much harder to deal with this when I'm human. I want that. I want to feel undiluted pain. I want to punish myself.
The only time I gave in was when I tried to follow her to the airport, the день she left for Dartmouth. I wanted to explain myself, to make her understand but I was too late. I saw how determined she was to forget about me.
“Please, tell me Jacob. The whole pack’s worried. All of us stayed away from the Cullen’s place. We don’t know how they would treat us. Edward very nearly hunted Ты down for breaking his precious daughter’s heart. The treaty’s almost back in effect. Sam isn’t happy about it and neither is Carlisle. Seth is going crazy, too. He missed Esme’s cooking.”
I rolled my eyes at her. “You know the Cullens won’t touch a single hair on your body. Bella won’t allow it so cut the whining.” I stared sardonically at her. “or do Ты miss the Cullens now, too?” I asked her sarcastically.
She made a face and didn’t respond. Though, I know she is far from fond of our former enemies, she was way past any misgivings she had before.
“Are Ты going to tell me why Ты broke up with Nessie или not?!” she demanded.
I didn’t answer her.
She suddenly bolted up from the floor and grabbed my cell phone from the bedside table.
“What do Ты think you’re doing?” I demanded.
Her eyes became dangerously determined.
“Why don’t we give Nessie a call? Maybe I could gain some information from her.”
I was shaking uncontrollably now. I stood in front of her.
“Don’t Ты dare!” I сказал(-а) each word separately, threateningly.
“Is that a command my dear Alpha?” she asked sarcastically.
I clenched my jaw tight and squeezed my eyes shut. I could see red haze beneath my lids. Someone help me, I could definitely strangle this girl right now.
“I don’t think so.” She quipped, answering her own question.I opened my eyes and saw her finger hit the sped dial.
“Leah…” I growled but my feet remained rooted on the bare wooden floor, my сердце stopped beating as we both listened to the ringing on the floor.
What would I say to her?
Would I beg her to come back?
“Why didn’t she answer her stupid phone?” She tossed my own battered phone on my постель, кровати as I gave a huge sigh of relief. I sank on the floor.
“Do that again, Leah and I’ll….” My threat was interrupted by my suddenly ringing phone. Nessie’s number flashed on the tiny screen.
“Aren’t Ты going to answer her call?” Leah asked, immediately knowing who it was.
I was out the door of my house in a flash. My clothed ripped into tiny shreds as I phased. I run as fast as I could from the ringing phone.
Once again, her beautiful face flashed before my eyes…
“D-do Ты want me to l-leave? So Ты could be free?” She asked brokenly.
I winced at the memory of her lovely face torn with pain. That look on her face haunted me for months now.
“Do Ты want me to haul your stupid butt out of this room, Jacob Black?” Leah growled from the doorway.
I glared at her.
“Get lost, Leah.”
“There’s no sense in moping around. She’s in Dartmouth, now. This is your stupid idea. So, get over it.” She snapped harshly.
Leah sided with her step niece. She thought my idea was completely rash and stupid. I can’t blame her.
She sat on the floor by the doorway. “I never really thought Ты were completely brainless until now. Oh, correction. Completely heartless will suit Ты better.”
I squeezed my eyes tight forcing the tears back.
She cleared her throat and murmured, “Sorry.”
I sighed.
“What really made Ты decide to let her go, Jake?” She asked softly, almost sympathetically.
“Don’t want to talk about it.” I сказал(-а) under my breath.
“You obviously still Любовь her. Why shove her away?”
“For the Любовь of God, Leah, leave me alone!” I сказал(-а) through gritted teeth.
“You’re falling to pieces, tough guy. Ты just can’t expect me to face the other way.”
I have refused to phase. I don’t want the pack to suffer with me. I don’t want them to know how much this cost me. Besides it was much harder to deal with this when I'm human. I want that. I want to feel undiluted pain. I want to punish myself.
The only time I gave in was when I tried to follow her to the airport, the день she left for Dartmouth. I wanted to explain myself, to make her understand but I was too late. I saw how determined she was to forget about me.
“Please, tell me Jacob. The whole pack’s worried. All of us stayed away from the Cullen’s place. We don’t know how they would treat us. Edward very nearly hunted Ты down for breaking his precious daughter’s heart. The treaty’s almost back in effect. Sam isn’t happy about it and neither is Carlisle. Seth is going crazy, too. He missed Esme’s cooking.”
I rolled my eyes at her. “You know the Cullens won’t touch a single hair on your body. Bella won’t allow it so cut the whining.” I stared sardonically at her. “or do Ты miss the Cullens now, too?” I asked her sarcastically.
She made a face and didn’t respond. Though, I know she is far from fond of our former enemies, she was way past any misgivings she had before.
“Are Ты going to tell me why Ты broke up with Nessie или not?!” she demanded.
I didn’t answer her.
She suddenly bolted up from the floor and grabbed my cell phone from the bedside table.
“What do Ты think you’re doing?” I demanded.
Her eyes became dangerously determined.
“Why don’t we give Nessie a call? Maybe I could gain some information from her.”
I was shaking uncontrollably now. I stood in front of her.
“Don’t Ты dare!” I сказал(-а) each word separately, threateningly.
“Is that a command my dear Alpha?” she asked sarcastically.
I clenched my jaw tight and squeezed my eyes shut. I could see red haze beneath my lids. Someone help me, I could definitely strangle this girl right now.
“I don’t think so.” She quipped, answering her own question.I opened my eyes and saw her finger hit the sped dial.
“Leah…” I growled but my feet remained rooted on the bare wooden floor, my сердце stopped beating as we both listened to the ringing on the floor.
What would I say to her?
Would I beg her to come back?
“Why didn’t she answer her stupid phone?” She tossed my own battered phone on my постель, кровати as I gave a huge sigh of relief. I sank on the floor.
“Do that again, Leah and I’ll….” My threat was interrupted by my suddenly ringing phone. Nessie’s number flashed on the tiny screen.
“Aren’t Ты going to answer her call?” Leah asked, immediately knowing who it was.
I was out the door of my house in a flash. My clothed ripped into tiny shreds as I phased. I run as fast as I could from the ringing phone.
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On youtube.com there is a video of Stephanie being interviewed.She is going to Опубликовать Midnight Sun.If Ты have read her draft of Midnight Sun или even if Ты haven't then Ты can right how Ты think it should be.She wants to see what her Фаны (aka- Us)think.And she also beleives that if we have a story in us then we should write it out and Показать evryone what we're capable of.
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