I sat on the кухня counter, in the painful silence. I wanted this, why was I so sad? There was a knock on the door, and my сердце skipped a beat. I went and got it, and was surprised to see it was Andrew.
"Hey. I was hoping Ты weren't gone yet," he smiled. I smiled weakly.
"Hey. What's up?" I let him in.
"Just wanted to say goodbye. And see how you're feeling." My hand instinctively went back up to my throat, the gauze still wrapped around the healing stitches.
"I'm doing good. Thanks."
"No problem," he sighed. "So, Belinda's probably going to be in for life; for murder and attempted murder."
"Good," I сказал(-а) bitterly.
"I'm sorry 'bout that night," he сказал(-а) softly.
"Don't be. I was just in the wrong place at the wrong time... I'm sorry about your brother." He smiled sadly.
"It's ok. I guess now I don't feel as bad, thinking that Dalton was so upset with his life that he killed himself... It's still not fair, but... I don't know. I guess it kind of eases the guilt. I hate belinda's guts now, though. I thought she was just a poor little victim like the rest of us were. Guess not, huh?" I shook my head. Andrew looked down at my bags by the door. "So. You're going?" I nodded. "Why?" he asked. He chuckled a little. "I mean, I was starting to like you," he smirked. I smiled back, then sighed.
"I... I guess I'm just not fit out for this lifestyle anymore," I said. Andrew nodded understandingly.
"Well, I hope everything works out for you," he said.
"Thanks," I said. He opened his arms, and it took me a couple секунды to realize he was gesturing for a hug. I walked into his arms, and hugged him back. He squeezed me tight, then let me go. I reacted on an impulse next; I stretched up on my tip toes and kissed him on the cheek. I guess we were both speechless after that.
"Hey," Reed walked in, yawning. I took a giant step back from Andrew, and waved at Reed.
"Good morning." Reed stopped when he saw Andrew. He still didn't like him. He associated him with all the terrible things that were happening in our family.
"Uh, I was just leaving," Andrew said. He hugged me again one еще time, then left. I almost wanted to run after him, but my feet were anchored to the floor. Reed sighed.
"When is she getting here?" he asked, annoyed.
"I don't know. She сказал(-а) around noon," I answered. Reed sat down on the couch, and put his head in his hands. I walked over slowly and sat down Далее to him. "I still Любовь you, Ты know." He grunted. I put my hand on his back. "I do!"
"Then why're Ты leaving?" he said. I could hear the suppressed cries in his voice, and I leaned on him.
"I just can't live like this anymore. It's not your guys' fault. And don't Ты dare think for one секунда that I don't Любовь Ты guys." He looked up at me, tears were welled up in his eyes. He wrapped his arms around me, and pulled me into a big hug. Carmine came out from the hallway, his eyes wet and bloodshot as well. "You heard that, didn't you?" I asked. He nodded. "Good. Then I don't have to repeat myself," I said. I opened up an arm for him to Присоединиться the hug. We sat there, crying. I don't know why I was crying. I had wanted so badly to leave my old life behind, and now I was sad that I was getting it.
There was a knock at the door. That had to be her. I went and answered the door.
"Hello," Gail smiled. She assessed my expression, and pursed her lips. She patted my shoulder. "It's for the best, dear." I nodded.
"I gotta say goodbye first, ok?" She nodded.
"Of course, dear. I'll put your bags in the car. I hugged Carmine and Reed again.
"I Любовь Ты both. So much," I сказал(-а) through tears. I kissed them both on thier cheeks, and then went to Nikolai's room. I knocked on the door.
"Come in," he grumbled. I opened the door slowly, the doorhenges squeaking.
"I have to go now," I whispered. He was sitting on his bed, staring at his feet that hung off the edge. I sat down Далее to him.
"You sure Ты want to do this?" he asked. It pained me to say "yes." He sighed. "Well, I guess it wouldn't be fair of me to not let Ты go." He looked at me.
"I Любовь you," I said. I lunged forward, hugging him tight.
"I Любовь Ты too," he whispered. I kissed his cheek, and he kissed my forehead.
"Bye," I said, my vision blurred by tears. He hugged me again.
"Bye, baby sis," he said. I left, and Gail was already back from putting my stuff in her beatup truck.
"Ready to go?" she asked. I nodded. We got in the truck, and I saw my brothers waving from the apartment window. I waved back, and wiped away my tears.
***
"Harley!!" Aspen shouted, running from the house. I gasped when her head collided into my stomach, almost knocking the wind out of me.
"Hey," I laughed. Jezebel and Scout came out, Scout holding Bride. Jezebel came and hugged my waist as well.
"Are Ты really truly staying this time?!" Jezebel asked excitedly.
"Yes," I laughed.
"Yay!" they shouted. Sky ran from the house, and jumped up and licked my face, barking and panting.
"Welcome back," Scout smiled.
"Thanks," I smiled back. We all went to the park after that, even seeing Trace there.
"It's good to have ya back, Harley," he said, putting an arm around me. I laughed. Later we went back to Gail's house for dinner. Then, we had our movie night. We watched "Pictures of Hollis Woods."
"That was a nice movie," Jezebel сказал(-а) appreciatively.
"Yeah," we all agreed.
"I wonder if we'll ever get adopted too," Jezebel wondered. I frowned nervously. I came here to be with them; not get adopted.
"You already did," Gail said. We all looked to her. I don't know about everyoen else, but I was absolutely terrifired. Gail smiled. "It just got settled today. I adopted all of you." My jaw dropped, as did everyone else's. We all hugged her, giggling and the others crying from happiness. "Harley, that's ok, right?" Gail asked cautiously.
"Yes!" I said. It was a dream come true, actually! Now I knew for sure that my family wouldn't be seperated!
It was perfect.
"Hey. I was hoping Ты weren't gone yet," he smiled. I smiled weakly.
"Hey. What's up?" I let him in.
"Just wanted to say goodbye. And see how you're feeling." My hand instinctively went back up to my throat, the gauze still wrapped around the healing stitches.
"I'm doing good. Thanks."
"No problem," he sighed. "So, Belinda's probably going to be in for life; for murder and attempted murder."
"Good," I сказал(-а) bitterly.
"I'm sorry 'bout that night," he сказал(-а) softly.
"Don't be. I was just in the wrong place at the wrong time... I'm sorry about your brother." He smiled sadly.
"It's ok. I guess now I don't feel as bad, thinking that Dalton was so upset with his life that he killed himself... It's still not fair, but... I don't know. I guess it kind of eases the guilt. I hate belinda's guts now, though. I thought she was just a poor little victim like the rest of us were. Guess not, huh?" I shook my head. Andrew looked down at my bags by the door. "So. You're going?" I nodded. "Why?" he asked. He chuckled a little. "I mean, I was starting to like you," he smirked. I smiled back, then sighed.
"I... I guess I'm just not fit out for this lifestyle anymore," I said. Andrew nodded understandingly.
"Well, I hope everything works out for you," he said.
"Thanks," I said. He opened his arms, and it took me a couple секунды to realize he was gesturing for a hug. I walked into his arms, and hugged him back. He squeezed me tight, then let me go. I reacted on an impulse next; I stretched up on my tip toes and kissed him on the cheek. I guess we were both speechless after that.
"Hey," Reed walked in, yawning. I took a giant step back from Andrew, and waved at Reed.
"Good morning." Reed stopped when he saw Andrew. He still didn't like him. He associated him with all the terrible things that were happening in our family.
"Uh, I was just leaving," Andrew said. He hugged me again one еще time, then left. I almost wanted to run after him, but my feet were anchored to the floor. Reed sighed.
"When is she getting here?" he asked, annoyed.
"I don't know. She сказал(-а) around noon," I answered. Reed sat down on the couch, and put his head in his hands. I walked over slowly and sat down Далее to him. "I still Любовь you, Ты know." He grunted. I put my hand on his back. "I do!"
"Then why're Ты leaving?" he said. I could hear the suppressed cries in his voice, and I leaned on him.
"I just can't live like this anymore. It's not your guys' fault. And don't Ты dare think for one секунда that I don't Любовь Ты guys." He looked up at me, tears were welled up in his eyes. He wrapped his arms around me, and pulled me into a big hug. Carmine came out from the hallway, his eyes wet and bloodshot as well. "You heard that, didn't you?" I asked. He nodded. "Good. Then I don't have to repeat myself," I said. I opened up an arm for him to Присоединиться the hug. We sat there, crying. I don't know why I was crying. I had wanted so badly to leave my old life behind, and now I was sad that I was getting it.
There was a knock at the door. That had to be her. I went and answered the door.
"Hello," Gail smiled. She assessed my expression, and pursed her lips. She patted my shoulder. "It's for the best, dear." I nodded.
"I gotta say goodbye first, ok?" She nodded.
"Of course, dear. I'll put your bags in the car. I hugged Carmine and Reed again.
"I Любовь Ты both. So much," I сказал(-а) through tears. I kissed them both on thier cheeks, and then went to Nikolai's room. I knocked on the door.
"Come in," he grumbled. I opened the door slowly, the doorhenges squeaking.
"I have to go now," I whispered. He was sitting on his bed, staring at his feet that hung off the edge. I sat down Далее to him.
"You sure Ты want to do this?" he asked. It pained me to say "yes." He sighed. "Well, I guess it wouldn't be fair of me to not let Ты go." He looked at me.
"I Любовь you," I said. I lunged forward, hugging him tight.
"I Любовь Ты too," he whispered. I kissed his cheek, and he kissed my forehead.
"Bye," I said, my vision blurred by tears. He hugged me again.
"Bye, baby sis," he said. I left, and Gail was already back from putting my stuff in her beatup truck.
"Ready to go?" she asked. I nodded. We got in the truck, and I saw my brothers waving from the apartment window. I waved back, and wiped away my tears.
***
"Harley!!" Aspen shouted, running from the house. I gasped when her head collided into my stomach, almost knocking the wind out of me.
"Hey," I laughed. Jezebel and Scout came out, Scout holding Bride. Jezebel came and hugged my waist as well.
"Are Ты really truly staying this time?!" Jezebel asked excitedly.
"Yes," I laughed.
"Yay!" they shouted. Sky ran from the house, and jumped up and licked my face, barking and panting.
"Welcome back," Scout smiled.
"Thanks," I smiled back. We all went to the park after that, even seeing Trace there.
"It's good to have ya back, Harley," he said, putting an arm around me. I laughed. Later we went back to Gail's house for dinner. Then, we had our movie night. We watched "Pictures of Hollis Woods."
"That was a nice movie," Jezebel сказал(-а) appreciatively.
"Yeah," we all agreed.
"I wonder if we'll ever get adopted too," Jezebel wondered. I frowned nervously. I came here to be with them; not get adopted.
"You already did," Gail said. We all looked to her. I don't know about everyoen else, but I was absolutely terrifired. Gail smiled. "It just got settled today. I adopted all of you." My jaw dropped, as did everyone else's. We all hugged her, giggling and the others crying from happiness. "Harley, that's ok, right?" Gail asked cautiously.
"Yes!" I said. It was a dream come true, actually! Now I knew for sure that my family wouldn't be seperated!
It was perfect.
inch by inch
bringing me closer
to my doom
Бабочки of
anticipation
flutter nervously
in my stomach
knuckles whiten
jaws clench
what have I
gotten myself into
the suspense
is killing me
I'm going to hate it
I'm going to Любовь it
I might lose my lunch
but I don't care
heaven help me
here it comes...
...
I hold my breath...
...
and then
I scream
my stomach
drops
my breath
is stolen
my heart
is pounding
adrenaline
courses
through
my veins
amid screams
of sweet terror
I fling up
my hands
and ride on
the wings
of Thrill!
I remember the день I fell in love.
Not just simple love.
No, this was head over heels, I'd die for Ты love.
I remember where I fell in love.
A small middle school in a small town.
A place Ты could easily miss.
I remember the my matchmaker.
A short women, but with еще огонь then Ты could ever imagine.
еще passion for what she does then I had ever seen.
I remember my girlfriends who were with me.
My athletic, sassy, fun-loving chicks.
My flirting consultants.
I remember him.
Good God, he was beautiful.
Yes, I remember the день I fell in love.
True Love.
Head over heels love.
With..................
Basketball.
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This is dedicated to my first real баскетбол coach. She taught me not just how to play basketball, but how to be part of a team. I have so much respect for her and I know I should thank her everyday for helping me fall in love. For Coach Joy.
Not just simple love.
No, this was head over heels, I'd die for Ты love.
I remember where I fell in love.
A small middle school in a small town.
A place Ты could easily miss.
I remember the my matchmaker.
A short women, but with еще огонь then Ты could ever imagine.
еще passion for what she does then I had ever seen.
I remember my girlfriends who were with me.
My athletic, sassy, fun-loving chicks.
My flirting consultants.
I remember him.
Good God, he was beautiful.
Yes, I remember the день I fell in love.
True Love.
Head over heels love.
With..................
Basketball.
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This is dedicated to my first real баскетбол coach. She taught me not just how to play basketball, but how to be part of a team. I have so much respect for her and I know I should thank her everyday for helping me fall in love. For Coach Joy.
Just a poem. I hope it isn't much of a bother to rate.
I dream of all things
Uncertain of dark deeds and pasts
Within these thoughts as dark as sea
When once those wings of black
Hung over all
Shadowing but of the wretched white
That blinds me of all beauty.
I dream of all things
From happiness to highs
Let down these pills
или I’m gone, retreat inside my mind
Where none but the darkest thoughts
Swallowing twilight
I dream of all things
From the stories told by hidden scars
Unable to Показать themselves
Under this intense scrutiny
That makes up this world’s attire
To the times that I could be happy
Without a drug to create
The much-needed illusion...
I dream of all things
No matter of their contents
Because, well,
Nightmares are still dreams.
I dream of all things
Uncertain of dark deeds and pasts
Within these thoughts as dark as sea
When once those wings of black
Hung over all
Shadowing but of the wretched white
That blinds me of all beauty.
I dream of all things
From happiness to highs
Let down these pills
или I’m gone, retreat inside my mind
Where none but the darkest thoughts
Swallowing twilight
I dream of all things
From the stories told by hidden scars
Unable to Показать themselves
Under this intense scrutiny
That makes up this world’s attire
To the times that I could be happy
Without a drug to create
The much-needed illusion...
I dream of all things
No matter of their contents
Because, well,
Nightmares are still dreams.