when i just have been through the worse in my life
my eyes turn black,my skin turns white
i'll be like a ghost
life has been sucked right from me
i feel my skin tearing apart like it's going to shred
i'm shaking and lonely and cold
but it's funny that my only savior is just a little sharp metal thing
just a small razor can heal me that much?!
better than anybody i have ever known
i slide my left arm just a little as a start and i feel like i need еще and еще and more...
until i can not get enough
but then i feel so good,almost satisfied
watching my blood spilling on the floor,drop after drop very slowly
that's just the hottest painful pleasure i have ever experienced
i feel so unbalanced,so numb
i don't know if i need someone to touch me или to shoot me to know that i'm still alive
but i know i won't stop
i'll cut myself and fuck the wound
i'll lick my blood for all my pain
my eyes turn black,my skin turns white
i'll be like a ghost
life has been sucked right from me
i feel my skin tearing apart like it's going to shred
i'm shaking and lonely and cold
but it's funny that my only savior is just a little sharp metal thing
just a small razor can heal me that much?!
better than anybody i have ever known
i slide my left arm just a little as a start and i feel like i need еще and еще and more...
until i can not get enough
but then i feel so good,almost satisfied
watching my blood spilling on the floor,drop after drop very slowly
that's just the hottest painful pleasure i have ever experienced
i feel so unbalanced,so numb
i don't know if i need someone to touch me или to shoot me to know that i'm still alive
but i know i won't stop
i'll cut myself and fuck the wound
i'll lick my blood for all my pain
im so sick.
im sick of everything about you.
i hate what Ты say,
what Ты do,
everything.
it sets off some spark,
that just angers me inside and out.
im so sick.
im sick of your laugh,
your smile,
your eyes,
everything.
i hate how Ты talk to me,
how Ты treat me,
what Ты think of me as.
im not your toy,
im not your anything.
i dont belong to you,
im not a possession.
im just me.
and im so sick.
sick of everything in this godforsaken world.
especially you.
and i dont want to be something
that hates and is sick
of everything.
im just sick of you.
and honestly...
i dont want to be with you
anymore.
im so sick.
im sick of everything about you.
i hate what Ты say,
what Ты do,
everything.
it sets off some spark,
that just angers me inside and out.
im so sick.
im sick of your laugh,
your smile,
your eyes,
everything.
i hate how Ты talk to me,
how Ты treat me,
what Ты think of me as.
im not your toy,
im not your anything.
i dont belong to you,
im not a possession.
im just me.
and im so sick.
sick of everything in this godforsaken world.
especially you.
and i dont want to be something
that hates and is sick
of everything.
im just sick of you.
and honestly...
i dont want to be with you
anymore.
im so sick.
i cant take any more
of these drugs.
the poison,
attacking at my veins,
огонь spreading through,
cant breathe.
but i need these,
and i must feel this
in order to get better.
no matter what it takes,
i have to get over you.
and even if this is
the most irrational way
to get over you,
i still intend on doing this.
i dont care how many needles
i must pierce through my arms,
how many seizures i must suffer through,
whatever it takes.
im going to do my best
to forget Ты even exist.
i dont care how much cocaine i snuff,
how many pills i take,
how many cuts
slice through my skin,
или even if i end up
killing myself in the process.
i would be so lucky.
so,whatever it takes
to get over you
is the extreme
im going to have to
accomplish.
i dont care if i live,
i dont care if i die,
i dont care if all of this
is even real или not.
im just going to do
whatever it takes
to get Ты out of my mind.
even if i die...
of these drugs.
the poison,
attacking at my veins,
огонь spreading through,
cant breathe.
but i need these,
and i must feel this
in order to get better.
no matter what it takes,
i have to get over you.
and even if this is
the most irrational way
to get over you,
i still intend on doing this.
i dont care how many needles
i must pierce through my arms,
how many seizures i must suffer through,
whatever it takes.
im going to do my best
to forget Ты even exist.
i dont care how much cocaine i snuff,
how many pills i take,
how many cuts
slice through my skin,
или even if i end up
killing myself in the process.
i would be so lucky.
so,whatever it takes
to get over you
is the extreme
im going to have to
accomplish.
i dont care if i live,
i dont care if i die,
i dont care if all of this
is even real или not.
im just going to do
whatever it takes
to get Ты out of my mind.
even if i die...
Once upon a time There was a girl named Abby. She loved to talk. Her teachers eventually stopped calling on her.
One day, she talked during a огонь while a kid in her class was telling her teacher where the 17 other children were.
The teacher couldn't here her, and the Поиск for the children lasted twelve hours. During that time, a gang украл, палантин five computers, three cars, seventeen dogs, and blackmailed the mayor into giving them seven grand.
Abby was expelled from the school.
When she told her parents, they imediately looked for a school for her to go to.
But the only school that gave her acceptence was the class in the juvinille deliquent center.
So she was Главная schooled.
But she caused her parents so much trouble that in a week they Остаться в живых their all hair and were standing on the thin line between sanity and the nut house.
So they duct-taped her mouth shut.
THE END
One day, she talked during a огонь while a kid in her class was telling her teacher where the 17 other children were.
The teacher couldn't here her, and the Поиск for the children lasted twelve hours. During that time, a gang украл, палантин five computers, three cars, seventeen dogs, and blackmailed the mayor into giving them seven grand.
Abby was expelled from the school.
When she told her parents, they imediately looked for a school for her to go to.
But the only school that gave her acceptence was the class in the juvinille deliquent center.
So she was Главная schooled.
But she caused her parents so much trouble that in a week they Остаться в живых their all hair and were standing on the thin line between sanity and the nut house.
So they duct-taped her mouth shut.
THE END
As I grow to think about it еще and more, and understand it еще and more, I see that, as the saying goes, life is like a game of chess. But I have made my own saying up, which seems еще true to me. Life is like a venture into the unknown. Ты never know what might await Ты next, еще dangers, или even happy successes. But one thing is for certain, Ты cannot always be happy, или always be depressed. Life is like a mountain. Ты climb it, face all the challenges life brings you. Ты dump and break up, Ты win and make up. Things happen. Ты can't control it most of the time. So never blame yourself for bad things that happened to Ты in life. Life gets confusing a lot. But I still strive to reach my goals. Without goals, I would be like a broken-winged bird that could not fly. I would be aimless. I would not become better, build my character. Life is like a venture into the unknown, and I believe that to be true. So true.
I know I asked for too much before
I know I deserved for Ты to walk out the door
But Ты didn’t need to give it away
I promise Ты I’ll give it a try
Ты don’t have to buy my love
Ты don’t need to give so much
I know I asked for a lot, never seemed satisfied
The word want makes me needy
Cause Ты don’t have to buy my love
Wants have become a trigger
I’ll put your white string around my finger
Shouldn’t have asked
I never should’ve asked
Ты shouldn’t be buying love,
Don’t give it all away to me
I hope Ты finally see
That wanting from Ты makes me feel
Ты shouldn’t buy my love
I know I deserved for Ты to walk out the door
But Ты didn’t need to give it away
I promise Ты I’ll give it a try
Ты don’t have to buy my love
Ты don’t need to give so much
I know I asked for a lot, never seemed satisfied
The word want makes me needy
Cause Ты don’t have to buy my love
Wants have become a trigger
I’ll put your white string around my finger
Shouldn’t have asked
I never should’ve asked
Ты shouldn’t be buying love,
Don’t give it all away to me
I hope Ты finally see
That wanting from Ты makes me feel
Ты shouldn’t buy my love