Courtney pov
I can't believe I just told him that. I've never told that to anyone before, not even my own family. But, I guess its not like he's gonna care, he'd probably stand by and watch me do it. I'm thinking about ending it tonight.
"Courtney, I don't understand. Why would Ты want to kill yourself?"
"You wouldn't understand Duncan, and it's not like Ты would care if I did."
"I do care Courtney, and I can try to understand."
Well, I guess since he already knows my deepest, personal secret I might as well tell him.
"Sometimes, it's just all to much."
"What's to much?"
"Life. I mean look at me, I'm just who doesn't have anyone in my life. When I was little, my parents didn't even want me. The first chance they got they sent me to some boarding school. And I was raised to win everything, never get close to anyone and that I don't need anyone, but then I met Ты and felt otherwise. I felt a connection with Ты that I've never felt with anyone before, but then I let this stupid game get the better of me. I hurt Ты and all the Друзья I've made here, causing Ты to leave me for Gwen and all my Друзья to abandon me. After all of this I kept thinking that it would've been best if I haven't even been born."
He's probably going to agree with me and ask for me to drink the poison right in front of his eyes. As I looked at him, I didn't see amusement, I only saw sadness.
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I'm soooooo sorry for the late update, I needed some time to get inspired. My brother and his Girlfriend are going to come and visit from California this Saturday and I'm pretty excited.
I will update as soon as possible
Peace out!
I can't believe I just told him that. I've never told that to anyone before, not even my own family. But, I guess its not like he's gonna care, he'd probably stand by and watch me do it. I'm thinking about ending it tonight.
"Courtney, I don't understand. Why would Ты want to kill yourself?"
"You wouldn't understand Duncan, and it's not like Ты would care if I did."
"I do care Courtney, and I can try to understand."
Well, I guess since he already knows my deepest, personal secret I might as well tell him.
"Sometimes, it's just all to much."
"What's to much?"
"Life. I mean look at me, I'm just who doesn't have anyone in my life. When I was little, my parents didn't even want me. The first chance they got they sent me to some boarding school. And I was raised to win everything, never get close to anyone and that I don't need anyone, but then I met Ты and felt otherwise. I felt a connection with Ты that I've never felt with anyone before, but then I let this stupid game get the better of me. I hurt Ты and all the Друзья I've made here, causing Ты to leave me for Gwen and all my Друзья to abandon me. After all of this I kept thinking that it would've been best if I haven't even been born."
He's probably going to agree with me and ask for me to drink the poison right in front of his eyes. As I looked at him, I didn't see amusement, I only saw sadness.
--
I'm soooooo sorry for the late update, I needed some time to get inspired. My brother and his Girlfriend are going to come and visit from California this Saturday and I'm pretty excited.
I will update as soon as possible
Peace out!
