2x18-a Kiss before lying

Got no reason to cry
I’m okay
Got no reason to hide
I’m okay
Got no reason to run from life
Or to fake a smile
Everything’s perfect this way
I’m okay

Bury me while I’m still breathing
Haunt me while I’m still sleeping
Torture me while I’m still feeling
Everything’s perfect this way
I’m okay

Got no place to run to
But I’m okay
Got no heaven to go through
Still I’m okay
Got no idea what to do
Or how to live without you
But everything’s perfect this way
I’m okay

Bury me while I’m still breathing
Haunt me while I’m still sleeping
Torture me while I’m still feeling
Everything’s perfect...

Ain't it sad
How I'm pushing people away
Refuse to let them in
All because of you
Ain't it sad
How I'm trying to Переместить on
But you're controlling my heart
Ever since I fell in Любовь with you

And even though I can only think about nothing but you
I still need to wake up and face the truth

'Cause Ты are
Everything I'll never have
I wish I could go back
To where I Остаться в живых my head
So I could erase that moment
I'm everything you'll never know
If this is how the story's supposed to go
Then I'd take a piece of paper and my favourite pen
And I'd write it all over again

I won't cry
This pain's too deep
to be lightened with...

Daddy thinks I’m afraid
I’m afraid of never finding a Любовь that fits me
Well, he’s right in a way
Because everyday I fear еще that we will never be

I’m zoning out on Ты and I can’t breathe
You’re haunting my thoughts so I can’t sleep
And even though I know we could never be
I don’t wanna lose this fantasy

Can I just close my eyes
And imagine Ты are Далее to me
Can I just pretend my life
to be so much еще than it seems
Can I just ignore the pain
Can I please пересекать, крест your way
It’s so hard to keep it inside
I just wanna Любовь you, can I

Mommy mocks the fact I once
I once loved Ты but doesn’t...

Boy, I hate you
Why Ты have to be the way that Ты are
If only Ты were different
It would make it much easier for me to Переместить on

I thought Ты finally belonged to the past
But who am I kidding, you’re a Любовь that seems to last

My сердце breaks whenever I think of you
And my soul dies ‘cause I know it will never be true
It’s getting еще obvious everyday
I’m in Любовь with you, again

It’s getting harder
To Переместить on without Ты every day
But Ты don’t even know me
I should just get a life and go my own way

My сердце breaks whenever I think of you
And my soul dies ‘cause I know it will never be true...

Here I stand
My сердце beating out of my chest
Here I stand
Trying to leave it all to rest

I'm taking small steps forward
Big steps backwards
'Cause this is the last where I wanna be
I'm swallowing my fear
And I'm gathering my courage
'Cause you're the last person I wanna see

But if I wanna get over this I need to get through this
There can't be no healing without pain
And I can't conceal it
And I won't believe it
That all of it would've been in vain

You promised I'd never be
Anything I saw in me
You didn't I'd make it to the big leagues
You never thought I'd stand a chance
But yet here I am
At some place Ты will...