This is a ficlet I wrote about eighteen months назад after season 3 finished airing. I just thought I'd share it here. Enjoy!
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"Sire?" Uther Pendragon looked up from his paperwork to see Vivienne standing timidly in the door way. Although she had addressed him, she was staring at the ground, unable to met his gaze. Uther couldn't blame her. Lately whenever they were in the same company together, he found himself looking anywhere but at her. They had an unspoken agreement to ignore each other. It had been that way ever since their affair.
Neither one of them had meant for that to happen. It just had. Gorlois had been away and it had been еще than a год since Ygraine's death and although Uther took pride in his little Arthur, he had been lonely, lonely for female companionship. He and Vivienne had just been having a friendly conversation and they Далее thing they knew they were in постель, кровати together.
The memory of that night and the shame they both felt the Далее morning, burned in Uther's mind and he knew Vivienne felt the same way. Which is why they had intentionally ignored each other, as if avoiding one other would erase what had happened. But it never would. They knew that and they could never think of each other in the same way again.
He didn't blame Vivienne, neither did he harbor any resentment towards her. He knew he was as much to blame as she was. They both were at fault.
So of course, seeing Vivienne standing there was something of a surprise and Uther instantly felt something was wrong, otherwise she would never come to him. "Yes? What is it?"
With her eyes still cast on the ground, Vivienne turned and close the door behind her. "There...there is something I have to tell you." Even though she wasn't looking at him, Uther could see tears running down her cheeks and she was trembling. He waited, knowing that it was best not to push her. She would say it when she was ready. "I...I'm...I'm pregnant."
The paper Uther had been holding, fell to the ground and Uther's eyes widened in shock. He felt numb. He didn't want to, but he knew he had to ask, "Is it mine?"
Vivienne nodded. "I believe so, sire. I've suspected for sometime, even before Gorlois came home, but I was only able to Подтвердить it this morning."
Uther felt a lump rise in his throat. Pregnant and with his child no doubt. Uther bit his lip unsure what to say and do. "Have...have Ты told Gorlois?"
She shook her head. "Not yet." She finally looked at him. "What are going to do?" Uther rose from his сиденье, место, сиденья and after a moment's hesitation gently put his arms around her.
"I don't know." he answered honesty. "If...if Ты told Gorlois Ты were pregnant, do Ты think he would believe it to be his child?"
"I don't see why he shouldn't." Uther nodded and then pulled away from her.
"Then let him believe that. It...it's for the best. The truth would break his heart, probably even kill him." Vivienne nodded in agreement and then left. Uther sighed. He was going to have another child.
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Uther was woken by the sound of servants hurrying to and fro. He heard whispers outside his room and he wondered why anyone would be up and about in the middle of the night. He opened the door in time to see Gaius hurrying past his chambers. "Gaius!" The physician stopped and turned to face his king. "What's going on? Is something wrong?"
"Vivienne has gone into labor." Gaius answered. "She is due to give birth any moment. I must hurry to her." Uther nodded, but his thoughts were not on Gaius. They were on Vivienne and the baby... his baby. Would they be alright?
He went back into his room and began to pace. It was no use trying to go back to sleep, he would be worrying all night. Even though he didn't Любовь Vivienne as he had Ygraine, he felt responsible and hoped she would live, she was after all the mother of his секунда child.
After what seemed hours later, their was a knock on his door. Uther ran over to it and threw it open. Gaius was standing there. "Yes?" asked Uther, trying to keep the anxiety and excitement he felt out of his voice.
"Gorlois wants you." Uther nodded, he had already dressed and he now followed Gaius to the chambers Gorlois and Vivienne shared.
Gorlois looked up and smiled with delight. "Uther! Come meet my daughter, Morgana." A daughter. He had a daughter. Morgana. Uther crept вперед towards the bed. Vivienne was holding their daughter. Both mother and child seemed healthy and Uther held back a sigh of relief.
It was with great difficulty that Uther pried his eyes off his new born daughter and turned to Gorlois. "Congratulations, Gorlois. Ты must be very proud." Vivienne looked at him and gave him a sympathetic smile. She knew how difficult it must be for him to say that.
"Would Ты like to hold her?" she asked. As a mother she understood that as Morgana's real father Uther would like to at least get to hold her. Gorlois nodded and didn't seem to mind the suggestion.
Uther nodded and Vivienne gently place Morgana in her father's arms. Uther stared down it the tiny face of his daughter. She was so small, so innocent. Too innocent and yet she was born of a wrongful union. Morgana was an illegitimate child.
He didn't know how long he held her, but it seemed too short a time and it was with great reluctance that he handed her over to Gorlois. As he did so, he felt as if part of his сердце had just been ripped out.
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"I can't believe she's actually gone." Gorlois sobbed and Uther patted him the shoulder as they watched Vivienne's body being lowered into the earth. Gorlois clutched Morgana's hand. Uther looked down at his three год old daughter. She was too young to understand that her mother was dead and Uther felt protective of her.
He was her father after all. He should be the one holding Morgana's hand and trying to explain to her that her mother was never coming back, instead that was left to Gorlois.
Uther felt someone tug on his sleeve and he looked down to see Arthur looking up at him. Uther smiled at his son. His Любовь for his daughter had not replaced his Любовь for his son and he loved them both equally. He only hoped that he would never have to choose between them.
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"She's here!" Arthur cried looking out the window. Uther went over to Присоединиться his son and smiled as she saw Morgana accompanied by several guards making their way to the castle. Gorlois was now dead and Uther had adopted her as his ward. No one would think this unusual and Uther would finally have his daughter under his own roof. She would finally be his to Любовь and care for. At long last, Uther could be Morgana's father.
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Uther stared at the empty постель, кровати chamber. Morgana was gone...probably forever. She had been taken from him. The sorceress Morgause had taken his daughter from him and she would pay for it. One way или another Morgause would pay for it. "Father?"
Uther looked up to see Arthur still wearing his armor watching him. "I'm sorry." Arthur сказал(-а) simply. "I've failed you. I failed to protect Morgana."
"No," сказал(-а) Uther gently but firmly, "she was my responsibility and therefore it is my fault." He could not let Arthur take the blame for his. Uther knew Arthur loved Morgana like a sister, which is exactly what she was, only Arthur didn't know that. But he, Uther, was Morgana's father. It was his duty to look after her...and he had failed.
He looked at Arthur and was suddenly afraid that someone would snatch his son away from him too. He put his arms around him and held him protectively. Let them try!
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Uther paced the length of the трон room. That was pretty much all he had done for the past year. Pace, eat, drinking, and sleep...and worry. As Gaius had pointed out Morgana had been missing for еще than a year. There was very little chance of her ever being found now.
"Father!" Uther turned to see Arthur in full armor hurrying towards him. Uther frowned, he was back early, but as he got closer he saw that Arthur was smiling.
"We found her. We found Morgana." Uther nearly collapsed at the unexpected joyous news, but Arthur managed to catch him.
"How is she? Where is she?" Uther asked.
"She's in her chambers. Gaius is examining her now." Uther nodded and squeezed Arthur's shoulder. He smiled at his son and then turned to leave. Morgana was back. His daughter was home. Uther nearly cried with joy.
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Morgana was dying and Uther could only watch as her life slipped away. How had it come to this? He couldn't lose her...he couldn't! She had to be saved. It didn't matter how.
Gaius just stared at him in shock, when Uther suggested using magic to cure her. Gaius's shock grew when Uther confessed that Morgana was his daughter.
"She has to live, Gaius." he added with finality.
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"You can't do this!" Uther raged, staring at Morgause with absolute hatred. The sorceress who had once taken his daughter from him was now trying to steal his crown. "You have no right to the throne!"
"No, she does not." Uther blinked. Morgana? What was she doing? "But I do." Uther's whole body and mind went into shock. Morgana... do it couldn't be! But it was. In his mind he heard Gaius saying that there was a traitor in their midst and Uther felt numb as he realized that Morgana was that traitor. But how...? What made her think she could rightfully take his crown from him? Unless... "I am your daughter after all." She knew. Uther couldn't move. She knew. His child, his own daughter. "Don't look so surprised. I've known for some time."
Uther could only watch in horror and agony of mind as the crown was placed on Morgana's head and she was declared Queen of Camelot. Morgana.
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"Do Ты really hate me so much?" Morgana turned back and looked at Uther in such a way that left him in no doubt about how she felt.
"You can't even begin to imagine how much I hate you." As the door to his cell clanged shut, Uther sank to his knees. She hated him. Morgana, his own daughter hated him. He placed his face in his hands and wept.
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"Father." Uther looked up to see Arthur kneeling Далее to him. His son, his boy was here. Uther sobbed and Arthur put his arms around him. For the last week he had been torn between his anguish over Morgana's betrayal and his anxiety over Arthur's fate.
Arthur was safe, alive. But why had he come for him? Uther didn't deserve it. He had lied to Arthur about Morgana's true parentage and looked what had happened because of it. "I'm sorry." Uther sobbed. "I am so sorry!"
Arthur gently hushed him. "It's alright, Father. You're безопасно, сейф now."
"You don't...hate me?" Uther asked and Arthur pulled away and looked at his father in shock.
"Hate you? Never! You're my father and I Любовь you." Uther broke down again and held tight to his son. Arthur. His son, his boy. Uther had Остаться в живых a daughter. Morgana was not the young woman he had believed her to be, but Arthur was here now. Uther now realized that even though he had never thought he would have to choose between his two children, he had made his choice long ago...and look what it had cost him.
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"Sire?" Uther Pendragon looked up from his paperwork to see Vivienne standing timidly in the door way. Although she had addressed him, she was staring at the ground, unable to met his gaze. Uther couldn't blame her. Lately whenever they were in the same company together, he found himself looking anywhere but at her. They had an unspoken agreement to ignore each other. It had been that way ever since their affair.
Neither one of them had meant for that to happen. It just had. Gorlois had been away and it had been еще than a год since Ygraine's death and although Uther took pride in his little Arthur, he had been lonely, lonely for female companionship. He and Vivienne had just been having a friendly conversation and they Далее thing they knew they were in постель, кровати together.
The memory of that night and the shame they both felt the Далее morning, burned in Uther's mind and he knew Vivienne felt the same way. Which is why they had intentionally ignored each other, as if avoiding one other would erase what had happened. But it never would. They knew that and they could never think of each other in the same way again.
He didn't blame Vivienne, neither did he harbor any resentment towards her. He knew he was as much to blame as she was. They both were at fault.
So of course, seeing Vivienne standing there was something of a surprise and Uther instantly felt something was wrong, otherwise she would never come to him. "Yes? What is it?"
With her eyes still cast on the ground, Vivienne turned and close the door behind her. "There...there is something I have to tell you." Even though she wasn't looking at him, Uther could see tears running down her cheeks and she was trembling. He waited, knowing that it was best not to push her. She would say it when she was ready. "I...I'm...I'm pregnant."
The paper Uther had been holding, fell to the ground and Uther's eyes widened in shock. He felt numb. He didn't want to, but he knew he had to ask, "Is it mine?"
Vivienne nodded. "I believe so, sire. I've suspected for sometime, even before Gorlois came home, but I was only able to Подтвердить it this morning."
Uther felt a lump rise in his throat. Pregnant and with his child no doubt. Uther bit his lip unsure what to say and do. "Have...have Ты told Gorlois?"
She shook her head. "Not yet." She finally looked at him. "What are going to do?" Uther rose from his сиденье, место, сиденья and after a moment's hesitation gently put his arms around her.
"I don't know." he answered honesty. "If...if Ты told Gorlois Ты were pregnant, do Ты think he would believe it to be his child?"
"I don't see why he shouldn't." Uther nodded and then pulled away from her.
"Then let him believe that. It...it's for the best. The truth would break his heart, probably even kill him." Vivienne nodded in agreement and then left. Uther sighed. He was going to have another child.
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Uther was woken by the sound of servants hurrying to and fro. He heard whispers outside his room and he wondered why anyone would be up and about in the middle of the night. He opened the door in time to see Gaius hurrying past his chambers. "Gaius!" The physician stopped and turned to face his king. "What's going on? Is something wrong?"
"Vivienne has gone into labor." Gaius answered. "She is due to give birth any moment. I must hurry to her." Uther nodded, but his thoughts were not on Gaius. They were on Vivienne and the baby... his baby. Would they be alright?
He went back into his room and began to pace. It was no use trying to go back to sleep, he would be worrying all night. Even though he didn't Любовь Vivienne as he had Ygraine, he felt responsible and hoped she would live, she was after all the mother of his секунда child.
After what seemed hours later, their was a knock on his door. Uther ran over to it and threw it open. Gaius was standing there. "Yes?" asked Uther, trying to keep the anxiety and excitement he felt out of his voice.
"Gorlois wants you." Uther nodded, he had already dressed and he now followed Gaius to the chambers Gorlois and Vivienne shared.
Gorlois looked up and smiled with delight. "Uther! Come meet my daughter, Morgana." A daughter. He had a daughter. Morgana. Uther crept вперед towards the bed. Vivienne was holding their daughter. Both mother and child seemed healthy and Uther held back a sigh of relief.
It was with great difficulty that Uther pried his eyes off his new born daughter and turned to Gorlois. "Congratulations, Gorlois. Ты must be very proud." Vivienne looked at him and gave him a sympathetic smile. She knew how difficult it must be for him to say that.
"Would Ты like to hold her?" she asked. As a mother she understood that as Morgana's real father Uther would like to at least get to hold her. Gorlois nodded and didn't seem to mind the suggestion.
Uther nodded and Vivienne gently place Morgana in her father's arms. Uther stared down it the tiny face of his daughter. She was so small, so innocent. Too innocent and yet she was born of a wrongful union. Morgana was an illegitimate child.
He didn't know how long he held her, but it seemed too short a time and it was with great reluctance that he handed her over to Gorlois. As he did so, he felt as if part of his сердце had just been ripped out.
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"I can't believe she's actually gone." Gorlois sobbed and Uther patted him the shoulder as they watched Vivienne's body being lowered into the earth. Gorlois clutched Morgana's hand. Uther looked down at his three год old daughter. She was too young to understand that her mother was dead and Uther felt protective of her.
He was her father after all. He should be the one holding Morgana's hand and trying to explain to her that her mother was never coming back, instead that was left to Gorlois.
Uther felt someone tug on his sleeve and he looked down to see Arthur looking up at him. Uther smiled at his son. His Любовь for his daughter had not replaced his Любовь for his son and he loved them both equally. He only hoped that he would never have to choose between them.
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"She's here!" Arthur cried looking out the window. Uther went over to Присоединиться his son and smiled as she saw Morgana accompanied by several guards making their way to the castle. Gorlois was now dead and Uther had adopted her as his ward. No one would think this unusual and Uther would finally have his daughter under his own roof. She would finally be his to Любовь and care for. At long last, Uther could be Morgana's father.
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Uther stared at the empty постель, кровати chamber. Morgana was gone...probably forever. She had been taken from him. The sorceress Morgause had taken his daughter from him and she would pay for it. One way или another Morgause would pay for it. "Father?"
Uther looked up to see Arthur still wearing his armor watching him. "I'm sorry." Arthur сказал(-а) simply. "I've failed you. I failed to protect Morgana."
"No," сказал(-а) Uther gently but firmly, "she was my responsibility and therefore it is my fault." He could not let Arthur take the blame for his. Uther knew Arthur loved Morgana like a sister, which is exactly what she was, only Arthur didn't know that. But he, Uther, was Morgana's father. It was his duty to look after her...and he had failed.
He looked at Arthur and was suddenly afraid that someone would snatch his son away from him too. He put his arms around him and held him protectively. Let them try!
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Uther paced the length of the трон room. That was pretty much all he had done for the past year. Pace, eat, drinking, and sleep...and worry. As Gaius had pointed out Morgana had been missing for еще than a year. There was very little chance of her ever being found now.
"Father!" Uther turned to see Arthur in full armor hurrying towards him. Uther frowned, he was back early, but as he got closer he saw that Arthur was smiling.
"We found her. We found Morgana." Uther nearly collapsed at the unexpected joyous news, but Arthur managed to catch him.
"How is she? Where is she?" Uther asked.
"She's in her chambers. Gaius is examining her now." Uther nodded and squeezed Arthur's shoulder. He smiled at his son and then turned to leave. Morgana was back. His daughter was home. Uther nearly cried with joy.
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Morgana was dying and Uther could only watch as her life slipped away. How had it come to this? He couldn't lose her...he couldn't! She had to be saved. It didn't matter how.
Gaius just stared at him in shock, when Uther suggested using magic to cure her. Gaius's shock grew when Uther confessed that Morgana was his daughter.
"She has to live, Gaius." he added with finality.
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"You can't do this!" Uther raged, staring at Morgause with absolute hatred. The sorceress who had once taken his daughter from him was now trying to steal his crown. "You have no right to the throne!"
"No, she does not." Uther blinked. Morgana? What was she doing? "But I do." Uther's whole body and mind went into shock. Morgana... do it couldn't be! But it was. In his mind he heard Gaius saying that there was a traitor in their midst and Uther felt numb as he realized that Morgana was that traitor. But how...? What made her think she could rightfully take his crown from him? Unless... "I am your daughter after all." She knew. Uther couldn't move. She knew. His child, his own daughter. "Don't look so surprised. I've known for some time."
Uther could only watch in horror and agony of mind as the crown was placed on Morgana's head and she was declared Queen of Camelot. Morgana.
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"Do Ты really hate me so much?" Morgana turned back and looked at Uther in such a way that left him in no doubt about how she felt.
"You can't even begin to imagine how much I hate you." As the door to his cell clanged shut, Uther sank to his knees. She hated him. Morgana, his own daughter hated him. He placed his face in his hands and wept.
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"Father." Uther looked up to see Arthur kneeling Далее to him. His son, his boy was here. Uther sobbed and Arthur put his arms around him. For the last week he had been torn between his anguish over Morgana's betrayal and his anxiety over Arthur's fate.
Arthur was safe, alive. But why had he come for him? Uther didn't deserve it. He had lied to Arthur about Morgana's true parentage and looked what had happened because of it. "I'm sorry." Uther sobbed. "I am so sorry!"
Arthur gently hushed him. "It's alright, Father. You're безопасно, сейф now."
"You don't...hate me?" Uther asked and Arthur pulled away and looked at his father in shock.
"Hate you? Never! You're my father and I Любовь you." Uther broke down again and held tight to his son. Arthur. His son, his boy. Uther had Остаться в живых a daughter. Morgana was not the young woman he had believed her to be, but Arthur was here now. Uther now realized that even though he had never thought he would have to choose between his two children, he had made his choice long ago...and look what it had cost him.
