Inside the darkness of my tortured mind
I see a lifelless body
Covered with blood
As I run to hold it tight
I see myself
As tears run over my cheeks
And while the whole body is trembling
My mind is looking for a justification
In loathing and despite:
Oh, what did I achieve,
What have I become?
Living by the someone elses rules
Deprived of my one desires,
Just a shadow in this world
Where its beauty has never been shown
To my sad eyes.
But, is this the only exit of my горький existence,
Is this the way to end this resident pain?
And in the darkness of my mind
Tears run over my cheeks
Asking why,
Why rain never stops,
Why sun never shines
In my eyes,
Deadness is sleeping in its depravity
And I know that I don't belong
To this world,
I'm living in my own,
Living on my own.
I see a lifelless body
Covered with blood
As I run to hold it tight
I see myself
As tears run over my cheeks
And while the whole body is trembling
My mind is looking for a justification
In loathing and despite:
Oh, what did I achieve,
What have I become?
Living by the someone elses rules
Deprived of my one desires,
Just a shadow in this world
Where its beauty has never been shown
To my sad eyes.
But, is this the only exit of my горький existence,
Is this the way to end this resident pain?
And in the darkness of my mind
Tears run over my cheeks
Asking why,
Why rain never stops,
Why sun never shines
In my eyes,
Deadness is sleeping in its depravity
And I know that I don't belong
To this world,
I'm living in my own,
Living on my own.
I was cryin' just to get you Now I'm dyin' 'cause I let you
if the Любовь of your life died,
what would Ты do if they died a terrible death,
would Ты get revenge,
would Ты hate everyone,
would Ты become a murderer in return,
would Ты cry your life away,
или would Ты take your life away?
What would Ты do,
if your best friend committed suicide,
what would Ты do if they died terribly,
would Ты laugh because no tears will come,
would Ты cry until it is all over,
would Ты do the same,
would Ты run away,
или would Ты just throw it all away?
What would Ты do,
if Ты were hit by a car,
what would Ты do if Ты were dying,
would Ты feel sorry for yourself,
would Ты cry until the end,
would Ты remember everything Ты have ever done,
would Ты call your mom,
или would Ты hate the person until your life has gone away?
What would Ты do,
when everything ends for Ты или a friend?
What would Ты do?
I was cryin' when I met you Now I'm tryin' to forget you
Here is another poem. It is a bit dark but the truth is always darker than it seems.
Isolated,
I am isolated,
I isolate myself from the people who might care about me...
Watching,
They watch me but are blind,
Blind to the emotions that are always rinning through my mind while they just stare...
Broken,
My сердце is broken,
The cracks run deep and I know will never be filled...
Unseen,
I feel unseen,
Unseen by the ones who walk the halls and just look right through me...
Tears,
They never want to stop,
The tears stream down my face until the burn my cheeks...
Darkness,
I am Остаться в живых in a sea of black,
The waves crash around me and threaten to глотать, ласточка me forever
Isolated,
I am isolated,
I isolate myself from the people who might care about me...
Watching,
They watch me but are blind,
Blind to the emotions that are always rinning through my mind while they just stare...
Broken,
My сердце is broken,
The cracks run deep and I know will never be filled...
Unseen,
I feel unseen,
Unseen by the ones who walk the halls and just look right through me...
Tears,
They never want to stop,
The tears stream down my face until the burn my cheeks...
Darkness,
I am Остаться в живых in a sea of black,
The waves crash around me and threaten to глотать, ласточка me forever
There are times when our loss makes us to feel happy
When in a problem one small support makes us to feel lucky
Times when we are crying one word makes us to laugh
Even if сердце is all ours they live in half
Making fun even if we don’t like is their habit
On our single smile in sadness they jump and run like rabbit
Don’t recall the past, don’t worry about future
They teach us like experienced tutor
They are my dearest friends
Who live with me with Любовь that never ends
No end, everyday is a new start
There is no way we can be apart
When in a problem one small support makes us to feel lucky
Times when we are crying one word makes us to laugh
Even if сердце is all ours they live in half
Making fun even if we don’t like is their habit
On our single smile in sadness they jump and run like rabbit
Don’t recall the past, don’t worry about future
They teach us like experienced tutor
They are my dearest friends
Who live with me with Любовь that never ends
No end, everyday is a new start
There is no way we can be apart
Dedicated to a friend of mine, may he and his family and everyone who knew him know that he now is with God
____________________________________________________
Only knew Ты for a few years
Cause of Dad's new job
Ты always were my favorite
One of them to talk to
Ты always smiled
And never thought a bad thing
Even when your son was messing up
Ты just laughed and helped him
And always forgave
No one knew Ты would leave us
On that cold winter day
Now i cant rember your name without crying
We never were close
Yet we had so much in common
No one needed to know us
Ты and I were fine
I knew it wasnt a cold
It was always something more
Ты ignored it all
And went on with your life
I wanted to say something
And i never сказал(-а) goodbye
I wish i could of сказал(-а) goodbye
For Ты are here
No more
__________________________________________________
In memory of a friend who didnt deserve to die, we all miss Ты and Ты will never be forgotten
____________________________________________________
Only knew Ты for a few years
Cause of Dad's new job
Ты always were my favorite
One of them to talk to
Ты always smiled
And never thought a bad thing
Even when your son was messing up
Ты just laughed and helped him
And always forgave
No one knew Ты would leave us
On that cold winter day
Now i cant rember your name without crying
We never were close
Yet we had so much in common
No one needed to know us
Ты and I were fine
I knew it wasnt a cold
It was always something more
Ты ignored it all
And went on with your life
I wanted to say something
And i never сказал(-а) goodbye
I wish i could of сказал(-а) goodbye
For Ты are here
No more
__________________________________________________
In memory of a friend who didnt deserve to die, we all miss Ты and Ты will never be forgotten
When I talk to my Друзья I pretend I am standing on the wings
of a flying plane. I cannot be trusted to tell them how I am.
или if I am falling to earth weighing less
than a dozen roses. Sometimes I dream they have broken up
with their Влюбленные and are carrying Еда to my house.
When I open the mailbox I hear their voices
like the long upward-winding curve of a train whistle
passing through the tall grasses and ferns
after the train has passed. I never get ahead of their shadows.
I embrace them in front of moving cars. I keep them away
from my miseries because to say I am miserable is to say I am like them.
—Jason Shinder
of a flying plane. I cannot be trusted to tell them how I am.
или if I am falling to earth weighing less
than a dozen roses. Sometimes I dream they have broken up
with their Влюбленные and are carrying Еда to my house.
When I open the mailbox I hear their voices
like the long upward-winding curve of a train whistle
passing through the tall grasses and ferns
after the train has passed. I never get ahead of their shadows.
I embrace them in front of moving cars. I keep them away
from my miseries because to say I am miserable is to say I am like them.
—Jason Shinder
