It wasn’t meant to hurt.
For either of us.
I guess it did.
I panicked. Shit, I did.
I was happy but I was scared. How can happiness and fear exist at the same time, every time?
I wanted it bad. Wanted Ты badly.
For a long time.
When I got to know about what Ты felt, what Ты told, I was happy. Maybe after a long time.
After a really, really, long time.
You always did make me feel something I’ve rarely felt.
You ever always, sincerely, the rose among the thorns.
But I was scared.
One bitten twice shy couldn’t even cover it. I knew this was different. Ты liked me back right? I’ve know Ты for so long.
But convincing myself that maybe, just maybe, this time it would be different was hard.
I was so confused. Torn between Ты and the right thing. God, what a choice.
I don’t know why I made this worse. I knew what I wanted. I wanted you, I wanted what Ты offered and I wanted to be happy. So why did I throw it away because I was thinking about the right thing?
When was the right thing ever right? Wasn’t the wrong turn the best turn?
Is it?
I panicked. I thought ‘why should I risk getting hurt again? Its not worth it’.
So I put out all the reasons I’ve thought to convince myself that I don’t need a guy. Even if they liked me.
I wanted to be single, I’m not ready for a relationship, my parents wont like it.
Its not really valid, however true, is it?
I’m such a coward.
I’ve always сказал(-а) to myself that I was the type of girl who would never let the “clichéd” get in the way of what I wanted the most.
I guess I did.
Its late, so late, but I have to say.
I am sorry.
I panicked - no excuse - but always my bad.
You’ve never probably see this, but I just wanted to get it out.
It wasn’t meant to hurt. But it did. For me.
Because I just let go of a man who meant a lot еще to me than rock music, because apparently, my normal medicine rock, couldn’t even heal the pain I felt.
Here’s to You: An Apology too late.
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Forever
Forever Ты are mine
Forever I’ll be here
Forever is what Ты promised
Your сердце is worth nothing
But the your soul is priceless
Forever can be a long time
Forever can be a long time cut short
It’s worth the suffering
It’s worth the sacrifice
To forever be yours
Forever protected by your eagle like wings
Forever loved by your ocean wide heart
Forever безопасно, сейф in your warm embrace
Forever is worth the wait
To be sliced thin
To stuffed thick
Forever is Forever
Forever is Eternity
Forever is a risk
Forever is a chance
Forever is worth the wait
Forever Ты are mine
Forever I’ll be here
Forever is what Ты promised
Your сердце is worth nothing
But the your soul is priceless
Forever can be a long time
Forever can be a long time cut short
It’s worth the suffering
It’s worth the sacrifice
To forever be yours
Forever protected by your eagle like wings
Forever loved by your ocean wide heart
Forever безопасно, сейф in your warm embrace
Forever is worth the wait
To be sliced thin
To stuffed thick
Forever is Forever
Forever is Eternity
Forever is a risk
Forever is a chance
Forever is worth the wait
preface
if the one person Ты told the truth to all the time was now the one person Ты have to keep it away from, would you?
would Ты be able to lie through your teeth and pray that he believes you? what if he was the one person Ты told everything to, he was the one who keeps Ты from falling apart, but if Ты told him anything he might be the one to bring Ты tummbling down.
if Ты had to chose between lieing to him, hurting him, and keeping him away from you, what would Ты chose? because if Ты dont chose right, he may very well die.
if the one person Ты told the truth to all the time was now the one person Ты have to keep it away from, would you?
would Ты be able to lie through your teeth and pray that he believes you? what if he was the one person Ты told everything to, he was the one who keeps Ты from falling apart, but if Ты told him anything he might be the one to bring Ты tummbling down.
if Ты had to chose between lieing to him, hurting him, and keeping him away from you, what would Ты chose? because if Ты dont chose right, he may very well die.
love bites
A год назад in my calculation,
A год ago, there were situations.
The same song played now and then,
In my memory, it had begun.
Tears from my eyes were shed this morning,
It was the most tears I was shedding.
My world isn’t complete without you,
My world and I don’t know what to do.
Любовь isn’t a toy and never was.
Любовь is what Ты cherish and keep as treasure.
My mind is at many topics at random,
It goes normal when you’re in my kingdom.
What ends my bad situations with people
Is my focus on you, my angel.
You’ll always be a part of me,
You’ll always be in my memory.
A год ago, there were situations.
The same song played now and then,
In my memory, it had begun.
Tears from my eyes were shed this morning,
It was the most tears I was shedding.
My world isn’t complete without you,
My world and I don’t know what to do.
Любовь isn’t a toy and never was.
Любовь is what Ты cherish and keep as treasure.
My mind is at many topics at random,
It goes normal when you’re in my kingdom.
What ends my bad situations with people
Is my focus on you, my angel.
You’ll always be a part of me,
You’ll always be in my memory.
