Ari & Rachel ♥ Article: ☾happy anniversary, my moon☽

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posted by fairfarren

what i felt when i first met you

'sup girl. i don't even know how to start this или what to say but i'm a writer so imma wing it. there's like a galaxy worth of stuff i could say but then again it's like i can only grasp a constellation worth when i'm grasping. it's strange, sitting down and pouring out your сердце and soul. it makes Ты vulnerable and open to the world in a weird way, but Ты know everything about me anyway so it's not like it matters. anyway. so. when we met. hmm. that nostalgia man. i've already told Ты like a million times how i sat in my laundry room trying to get wifi to talk to you. it's a special memory for me, how there was always something in me that reached out to Ты even though Ты were no еще than a stranger to me, no еще than a passing wanderer in life. and yet, something drew me to you, something i still can't pinpoint even to this day. but as we talked, we got closer and i tried to treasure every second. there have been times where i have been a horrible person, a horrible friend and i have mistreated Ты and taken advantage of you. and there have been some horrible falling outs between us, in which i do not look upon often, but when i do, it's with a sorrowful countenance (excuse your resident literature buff lmao). but the point is, Ты have always accepted me. accepted all sides of me. without question. and i appreciate that еще than Ты know. that kind of loyalty and understanding cannot be earned или gained или bought. somehow i was lucky enough to meet you, to meet such a kind, honest person. and i have tried to accept each side of Ты as well and i hope i have done a good job. if i achieve nothing else in life, i will have wanted to be a good friend. if, before Ты die, i am that to Ты then my life will have been worth living.
i Любовь you. i Любовь the angry rachel, the passionate rachel, the procrastinating rachel, the sweet rachel, the clingy rachel, the hilarious rachel, the deep rachel, the sad rachel. i Любовь them all. by now you're probably tired of Чтение your name haha sorry. but i just want Ты to know that. i Любовь the sides i can't fathom, the sides i've forgotten, the sides i've not mentioned. i even Любовь the sides that irritate me, that annoy me. i even Любовь the sides i hate. don't ask me how или why but i just do. and i always will. if Ты ever need me for anything, i am by your side. Ты are eternally stuck with me. thank Ты for blessing me with your life, your presence, your soul. thank Ты for giving me this connection i can never replace, return, или trade.
we've been together four years. for years. that's crazy. years. touching someone's life so much they want to talk to Ты everyday, they're interested in every aspect of your life, they are your best friend. it feels like a century. it feels like a moment. i wouldn't have believed someone if they told me i would be this close to you, that Ты would mean this much to me. but now i can't imagine a world without you. fate или god или whatever, they were fucking smart to pull us together. we need each other. we build each other up when we're torn down. we wouldn't be here without each other. it's so weird to look upon. as an outsider, i don't think i could understand our friendship. it is a singular one. it is one in a hundred million. it's special. it's special to me, it's special in general. damn. how. i Любовь our crazy (THREE HOUR?!?!) conversations, how we can go from Дисней princesses to the crevices of our soul, how we can tell each other everything, how we can talk about everything. not everyone can do that. not everyone can have that. i am so fucking lucky, i swear to god. thank you.
i Любовь you. those three words are so simple and yet hold so much. Ты are everything to me. i Любовь you, my moon. and i will always be your sun.

"what do Ты see, when Ты look at me?
don't cover my scars, let them bleed
tell me, is this how it's supposed to be?
well then, i'm so, i'm so happy.
we don't need rehab."

lmao i got one Золото for this aMaZiNg article? i do Любовь you, мотыга, мотыги :p