Awake: A Troubled Marriage
Sam Lockwood-Beresford looked at her clock on her nightstand. It read 4:20 it was the first time in two months that she was not up feeding her newborn baby. She was thrilled. It's about time. Sam thought with tired relief.
Still she wanted to make certain that her baby was all right. As quietly as she could Sam got up. She stretched for a минута then she softly padded over to the nursery. After much deliberation Sam decided two months into her pregnancy that in order to make еще breathing room for their growing family they would have to Переместить out of Sam's modest Brooklyn apartment. As much as it pained her to Sam agreed to Clay's idea to move.
They then moved out of Brooklyn and in a modest through still large town house in Park Avenue. By the time Sam was in the four месяц of her pregnancy she and Clay had fully settled into their new town house. Through it took some adjusting mostly on Sam's part. Through by the eighth месяц of her pregnancy she was completely at Главная in the townhouse
The baby's nursery was right Далее door to their room. It was medium sized room and had pale washed розовый walls and ceiling. The carpet was a soft pale барберри, burberry burgundy. There were also soft blue and розовый stuffed Животные arranged around the room.
Sam peeked over the розовый легкий шлем с забралом, колыбель, люлька in the middle of the room. A soft smile appeared on her face as Sam watched her daughter.
She and Clay had discussed baby names all through her pregnancy. They had settled on Colin Clayton Lockwood-Beresford if their baby were a boy. If there baby were a girl they had agreed on Serenity Lilith Lockwood-Beresford. Her middle name derived form Lilith the name of Clay's mother.
On October tenth at exactly midnight Serenity Lilith Lockwood-Beresford was born. She weighed 6 pounds and was 8 inches. Sam and Clay were overjoyed. Serenity was a beautiful combination of both her and Clay. She had Sam's soft карамель colored hair and had Clay's dark brown eyes. They were able to take Serenity Главная after only staying one еще night in the hospital. Which Sam was very grateful for.
Lilith was equally overjoyed for Sam and Clay. Lilith was not only there for Serenity's birth but had over the past two months visited her granddaughter regularly. Sam would on her days off take Serenity over to visit Lilith. Lilith would constantly coo over her granddaughter Every time she would see Serenity Lilith would say happily Oh there's my Angel, come to Grandma!
Sam was happy by Lilith's reactions to her being pregnant and being a mom. She was also happy over how Lilith was handling being a grandmother. Lilith would nearly every time Sam would visit with Serenity give her Совет on how to care for her. Through Sam was grateful for her help Lilith was starting to get a bit overbearing.
Sam sighed and whispered quietly to her sleeping daughter “Grandma sure drives me crazy Ren.”
Suddenly Sam felt something around her waist. She gasped and turned. “Clay Ты nearly gave me a сердце attack!” Sam whispered furiously. Through her anger soon melted away by the warmth of his arms around her waist. Sam leaned into his arms. Clay nuzzled her hair and whispered apologetically “ Sorry Baby I didn't mean to scare you.” Sam turned around fully she wound her arms around his neck then she kissed him passionately for a few seconds.
They broke apart through her arms where still around his neck. Sam sighed and whispered “I forgive Ты Honey. “ Sam leaned into Clay again. He pulled her tighter to him. Clay whispered to Sam “So how is she doing?” Sam turned around and whispered “She's fine. I cannot believe she is finally slept through an entire night tonight. It's amazing”
Sam turned back around. She planted another passionate Kiss on Clay. Clay returned it with immense enthusiasm.
Sam gently pulled away and сказал(-а) with as much force as she could muster through her blazing passion for him
“Clay, Honey we can't. We have to take Serenity to a doctor's appointment tomorrow and it's early at six o' clock.” Clay kissed her neck softly. He then sighed and сказал(-а) a bit irradiated “Sam, please it's been so long. Can't we do.. something?” Sam sighed. It was true since they had Serenity neither of them were spending as much time together. Their intimate life was defiantly suffering as an result.
Sam still hadn't Остаться в живых all of her baby weight. Her extra weight wasn't her only issue when it came to sex. After working and taking care of Serenity whenever the subject came up Sam was usually to exhausted to do anything. Clay kept saying he didn't care about her weight. Through she still put the subject off and it was starting to take a strain on their marriage.
Sam took a deep breath. She then exhaled and сказал(-а) “Sweet сердце I promise we can have some fun when we get back form the doctor's. I'll take Ren to your mother's she has been dying to see her. It's been nearly two weeks since she's seen her grandma.”
Clay took a deep breath and сказал(-а) tiredly “Sam Ты сказал(-а) that last week and it didn't happen. I'm starting to get real fed up with your excuses.”
Sam pulled away form him. She then softly padded out of Serenity's room. Clay followed her. Sam got into bed. Clay closed the door behind him. He lingered at the door for a few seconds. Sam still fuming reached into her nightstand drawer and pulled out an hair brush. She ran it through out her hair a couple of times. Sam then quickly braided her hair. Clay exhaled slowly he then reluctantly climbed into постель, кровати with her.
Sam sighed once again that night. She finally turned to her husband and сказал(-а)
“Clay I really don't think Ты have been appreciating how hard I've been working. Since Serenity's arrived I am not only still holding down my job but I am taking care of our daughter. I usually don't get Главная on a good день till at least nine in the evening. I barely have time to eat. Now over theses past few weeks the only thing Ты have been thinking about besides work is having sex. Well I”m sorry I'm not a Stepford wife and I can't give that to you. I have other important things on my mind. Like making sure our daughter is taking care of!”
Sam took a deep breath to calm herself. She knew she had hurt Clay's feelings. Through she had to admit what she had just сказал(-а) felt great. The tension had been building for months and weeks and it felt good for Clay to know how she was truly feeling despite the pain it brought to his eyes.
Clay just stared at her for a moment stunned by Sam's reaction.
He then sighed and сказал(-а) “Sam, Baby I”m so sorry I didn't mean for it to come out that I don't appreciate Ты because I do. I know how difficult our lives have been since Serenity has come along. We've been so busy and hardly get to spend time with each other. What I'm trying to say is.. I miss you.”
Hesitantly Clay started to put his arms around Sam. Sam sat rigid still contemplating weather или not to lean into his arms. Sam took another deep breath and finally relented to Clay's touch.
She sighed and сказал(-а) into his arms “I'm sorry that I blew up at you. It's just that this whole parent job is so much harder that I thought it would be. I foolishly thought it would be easy. I miss Ты too. I know we haven't been spending much time together less than either of us would like. Through I want to change that and I'm going to need your help to do so.”
Clay kissed her on the вверх of her head and сказал(-а) “Sam, Baby Ты so have my support. I'm sorry too. I guess I have been a tad preoccupied with sex.” Sam made a face. Clay backtracked and сказал(-а) “All right obsessed with sex. It's just I miss being with you.”
Sam hugged him and сказал(-а) “'So have I.” Clay kissed her and сказал(-а) “Your right Baby this parent job is tough. Through I know we can do it.” Sam smiled and сказал(-а) “Yeah we can. We just have to learn to prioritize.”
Clay laid down and Sam did the same. He then wrapped his arms around her. Once they were comfortable Sam sighed into Clay “So do Ты still want to take me up on my offer for tomorrow?”
Clay squeezed her softly and сказал(-а) “Sure Ты bet.”
Sam sighed again. She then сказал(-а) “I Любовь you, Clay.”
Clay kissed the вверх of Sam's head again he then сказал(-а) softly “I Любовь you.”
Sam then kissed Clay. She then drifted off into a deep content sleep.
The Далее morning the young family went to Serenity's doctor's appointment. Happily Serenity was a healthy two месяц old. There were no red flags during her exam.
Once the Serenity's exam was done she and Clay dropped Serenity off at Lilith's. She agreed to keep Serenity for the night.
Sam and Clay then hurried back to their townhouse. They ordered in Chinese.
Once they were done with ужин she and Clay bathed together. Sam still had left over lilacs and purple lavender scented candles form the time she told Clay she was pregnant. She quickly decorated their bedroom the exact same way as she had the last time. Sam also dressed the same.
She pulled on her black Белье with шнурок, кружева trimmings. She made Clay wait in the bathroom. Once Sam was finished pulling her hair into a french braid she called to him “All right Honey I'm done. Ты can come in now!”
Clay who himself was in clad only in a white t-shirt and boxers. He took in what she had done and сказал(-а) “Baby it's great.” Clay then shifted nervously form foot to foot. Sam too took a two deep breaths. It had after all been a long time.
Sam slid off the bed. She went to Clay and wrapped her arms around his waist. She kissed him softly. She then сказал(-а) “Don't worry Honey it's like riding a bike Ты never forget. Don't worry we'll take it slow.”
Sam started to take his рубашка off. Through before she could Clay was already there. Once he had pulled his рубашка off he kissed Sam vigorously. With out breaking rhythm Clay entangled his arms around her neck. Sam then slid the вверх and shortly after the bottom of her Белье off. Clay in turn slid his boxers off. They did all of this without breaking the intense rhythm of their kissing.
Clay pulled away and сказал(-а) breathlessly “Form what Ты can see. I don't want to go slow I want to go really fast.”
Sam smiled and сказал(-а) “Well lead on Honey.” Clay then took a sliding step вперед and pushed Sam backwards onto their bed. They then made Любовь and Sam never remembered a еще passionate или vigorous session.
Then then lay entangled in each other panting breathless form their many rounds. Sam propped herself up on her elbow and looked at Clay with an intense loving gaze.
She kissed him then сказал(-а) “Clay Ты were so right. We needed this. Do Ты think your mother could baby-sit every Monday night?”
Clay chuckled. He then kissed her and replied “I don't think so Baby. But I'm sure she can baby-sit every other weekend.” Sam smiled and сказал(-а) “Works for me. Do Ты want to go again?”
Clay threaded his arms around her waist. He then softly through quickly flipped her on вверх of him.
Sam laughed and сказал(-а) “I guess that's a yes?” Clay nodded. Sam started to Kiss him.
Before they got any farther Sam put an hand to Clay's lips and сказал(-а) “Clay, Honey I promise Ты there will be еще nights like this one. We just have to learn to balance the passion with being parents.” Clay nodded again and replied “We can do it Baby I know we can. I Любовь Ты so much. Thank Ты for this night.”
Sam smiled and сказал(-а) “I Любовь you. Your welcome and thank Ты too.”
At that moment Sam knew she and Clay could work out any troubles that came along in their marriage. They would work them out together.
The couple then continued their passionate Любовь making.
Sam Lockwood-Beresford looked at her clock on her nightstand. It read 4:20 it was the first time in two months that she was not up feeding her newborn baby. She was thrilled. It's about time. Sam thought with tired relief.
Still she wanted to make certain that her baby was all right. As quietly as she could Sam got up. She stretched for a минута then she softly padded over to the nursery. After much deliberation Sam decided two months into her pregnancy that in order to make еще breathing room for their growing family they would have to Переместить out of Sam's modest Brooklyn apartment. As much as it pained her to Sam agreed to Clay's idea to move.
They then moved out of Brooklyn and in a modest through still large town house in Park Avenue. By the time Sam was in the four месяц of her pregnancy she and Clay had fully settled into their new town house. Through it took some adjusting mostly on Sam's part. Through by the eighth месяц of her pregnancy she was completely at Главная in the townhouse
The baby's nursery was right Далее door to their room. It was medium sized room and had pale washed розовый walls and ceiling. The carpet was a soft pale барберри, burberry burgundy. There were also soft blue and розовый stuffed Животные arranged around the room.
Sam peeked over the розовый легкий шлем с забралом, колыбель, люлька in the middle of the room. A soft smile appeared on her face as Sam watched her daughter.
She and Clay had discussed baby names all through her pregnancy. They had settled on Colin Clayton Lockwood-Beresford if their baby were a boy. If there baby were a girl they had agreed on Serenity Lilith Lockwood-Beresford. Her middle name derived form Lilith the name of Clay's mother.
On October tenth at exactly midnight Serenity Lilith Lockwood-Beresford was born. She weighed 6 pounds and was 8 inches. Sam and Clay were overjoyed. Serenity was a beautiful combination of both her and Clay. She had Sam's soft карамель colored hair and had Clay's dark brown eyes. They were able to take Serenity Главная after only staying one еще night in the hospital. Which Sam was very grateful for.
Lilith was equally overjoyed for Sam and Clay. Lilith was not only there for Serenity's birth but had over the past two months visited her granddaughter regularly. Sam would on her days off take Serenity over to visit Lilith. Lilith would constantly coo over her granddaughter Every time she would see Serenity Lilith would say happily Oh there's my Angel, come to Grandma!
Sam was happy by Lilith's reactions to her being pregnant and being a mom. She was also happy over how Lilith was handling being a grandmother. Lilith would nearly every time Sam would visit with Serenity give her Совет on how to care for her. Through Sam was grateful for her help Lilith was starting to get a bit overbearing.
Sam sighed and whispered quietly to her sleeping daughter “Grandma sure drives me crazy Ren.”
Suddenly Sam felt something around her waist. She gasped and turned. “Clay Ты nearly gave me a сердце attack!” Sam whispered furiously. Through her anger soon melted away by the warmth of his arms around her waist. Sam leaned into his arms. Clay nuzzled her hair and whispered apologetically “ Sorry Baby I didn't mean to scare you.” Sam turned around fully she wound her arms around his neck then she kissed him passionately for a few seconds.
They broke apart through her arms where still around his neck. Sam sighed and whispered “I forgive Ты Honey. “ Sam leaned into Clay again. He pulled her tighter to him. Clay whispered to Sam “So how is she doing?” Sam turned around and whispered “She's fine. I cannot believe she is finally slept through an entire night tonight. It's amazing”
Sam turned back around. She planted another passionate Kiss on Clay. Clay returned it with immense enthusiasm.
Sam gently pulled away and сказал(-а) with as much force as she could muster through her blazing passion for him
“Clay, Honey we can't. We have to take Serenity to a doctor's appointment tomorrow and it's early at six o' clock.” Clay kissed her neck softly. He then sighed and сказал(-а) a bit irradiated “Sam, please it's been so long. Can't we do.. something?” Sam sighed. It was true since they had Serenity neither of them were spending as much time together. Their intimate life was defiantly suffering as an result.
Sam still hadn't Остаться в живых all of her baby weight. Her extra weight wasn't her only issue when it came to sex. After working and taking care of Serenity whenever the subject came up Sam was usually to exhausted to do anything. Clay kept saying he didn't care about her weight. Through she still put the subject off and it was starting to take a strain on their marriage.
Sam took a deep breath. She then exhaled and сказал(-а) “Sweet сердце I promise we can have some fun when we get back form the doctor's. I'll take Ren to your mother's she has been dying to see her. It's been nearly two weeks since she's seen her grandma.”
Clay took a deep breath and сказал(-а) tiredly “Sam Ты сказал(-а) that last week and it didn't happen. I'm starting to get real fed up with your excuses.”
Sam pulled away form him. She then softly padded out of Serenity's room. Clay followed her. Sam got into bed. Clay closed the door behind him. He lingered at the door for a few seconds. Sam still fuming reached into her nightstand drawer and pulled out an hair brush. She ran it through out her hair a couple of times. Sam then quickly braided her hair. Clay exhaled slowly he then reluctantly climbed into постель, кровати with her.
Sam sighed once again that night. She finally turned to her husband and сказал(-а)
“Clay I really don't think Ты have been appreciating how hard I've been working. Since Serenity's arrived I am not only still holding down my job but I am taking care of our daughter. I usually don't get Главная on a good день till at least nine in the evening. I barely have time to eat. Now over theses past few weeks the only thing Ты have been thinking about besides work is having sex. Well I”m sorry I'm not a Stepford wife and I can't give that to you. I have other important things on my mind. Like making sure our daughter is taking care of!”
Sam took a deep breath to calm herself. She knew she had hurt Clay's feelings. Through she had to admit what she had just сказал(-а) felt great. The tension had been building for months and weeks and it felt good for Clay to know how she was truly feeling despite the pain it brought to his eyes.
Clay just stared at her for a moment stunned by Sam's reaction.
He then sighed and сказал(-а) “Sam, Baby I”m so sorry I didn't mean for it to come out that I don't appreciate Ты because I do. I know how difficult our lives have been since Serenity has come along. We've been so busy and hardly get to spend time with each other. What I'm trying to say is.. I miss you.”
Hesitantly Clay started to put his arms around Sam. Sam sat rigid still contemplating weather или not to lean into his arms. Sam took another deep breath and finally relented to Clay's touch.
She sighed and сказал(-а) into his arms “I'm sorry that I blew up at you. It's just that this whole parent job is so much harder that I thought it would be. I foolishly thought it would be easy. I miss Ты too. I know we haven't been spending much time together less than either of us would like. Through I want to change that and I'm going to need your help to do so.”
Clay kissed her on the вверх of her head and сказал(-а) “Sam, Baby Ты so have my support. I'm sorry too. I guess I have been a tad preoccupied with sex.” Sam made a face. Clay backtracked and сказал(-а) “All right obsessed with sex. It's just I miss being with you.”
Sam hugged him and сказал(-а) “'So have I.” Clay kissed her and сказал(-а) “Your right Baby this parent job is tough. Through I know we can do it.” Sam smiled and сказал(-а) “Yeah we can. We just have to learn to prioritize.”
Clay laid down and Sam did the same. He then wrapped his arms around her. Once they were comfortable Sam sighed into Clay “So do Ты still want to take me up on my offer for tomorrow?”
Clay squeezed her softly and сказал(-а) “Sure Ты bet.”
Sam sighed again. She then сказал(-а) “I Любовь you, Clay.”
Clay kissed the вверх of Sam's head again he then сказал(-а) softly “I Любовь you.”
Sam then kissed Clay. She then drifted off into a deep content sleep.
The Далее morning the young family went to Serenity's doctor's appointment. Happily Serenity was a healthy two месяц old. There were no red flags during her exam.
Once the Serenity's exam was done she and Clay dropped Serenity off at Lilith's. She agreed to keep Serenity for the night.
Sam and Clay then hurried back to their townhouse. They ordered in Chinese.
Once they were done with ужин she and Clay bathed together. Sam still had left over lilacs and purple lavender scented candles form the time she told Clay she was pregnant. She quickly decorated their bedroom the exact same way as she had the last time. Sam also dressed the same.
She pulled on her black Белье with шнурок, кружева trimmings. She made Clay wait in the bathroom. Once Sam was finished pulling her hair into a french braid she called to him “All right Honey I'm done. Ты can come in now!”
Clay who himself was in clad only in a white t-shirt and boxers. He took in what she had done and сказал(-а) “Baby it's great.” Clay then shifted nervously form foot to foot. Sam too took a two deep breaths. It had after all been a long time.
Sam slid off the bed. She went to Clay and wrapped her arms around his waist. She kissed him softly. She then сказал(-а) “Don't worry Honey it's like riding a bike Ты never forget. Don't worry we'll take it slow.”
Sam started to take his рубашка off. Through before she could Clay was already there. Once he had pulled his рубашка off he kissed Sam vigorously. With out breaking rhythm Clay entangled his arms around her neck. Sam then slid the вверх and shortly after the bottom of her Белье off. Clay in turn slid his boxers off. They did all of this without breaking the intense rhythm of their kissing.
Clay pulled away and сказал(-а) breathlessly “Form what Ты can see. I don't want to go slow I want to go really fast.”
Sam smiled and сказал(-а) “Well lead on Honey.” Clay then took a sliding step вперед and pushed Sam backwards onto their bed. They then made Любовь and Sam never remembered a еще passionate или vigorous session.
Then then lay entangled in each other panting breathless form their many rounds. Sam propped herself up on her elbow and looked at Clay with an intense loving gaze.
She kissed him then сказал(-а) “Clay Ты were so right. We needed this. Do Ты think your mother could baby-sit every Monday night?”
Clay chuckled. He then kissed her and replied “I don't think so Baby. But I'm sure she can baby-sit every other weekend.” Sam smiled and сказал(-а) “Works for me. Do Ты want to go again?”
Clay threaded his arms around her waist. He then softly through quickly flipped her on вверх of him.
Sam laughed and сказал(-а) “I guess that's a yes?” Clay nodded. Sam started to Kiss him.
Before they got any farther Sam put an hand to Clay's lips and сказал(-а) “Clay, Honey I promise Ты there will be еще nights like this one. We just have to learn to balance the passion with being parents.” Clay nodded again and replied “We can do it Baby I know we can. I Любовь Ты so much. Thank Ты for this night.”
Sam smiled and сказал(-а) “I Любовь you. Your welcome and thank Ты too.”
At that moment Sam knew she and Clay could work out any troubles that came along in their marriage. They would work them out together.
The couple then continued their passionate Любовь making.
Sam and Clay enjoy much needed alone time
