Chapter 1:StarBucks Arrival
Mac was oddly buoyant as he made his way out of his cab and to the crime lab. The reason for his mood was he was finally going to come clean about his ordeal with his best friend and closet colleague Stella Bonasera. Through Mac was also feeling immense terror his happiness and relief about the situation ultimately outweighed his fears. Mac thought back in that секунда to his therapist Dr. Collin's words of encouragement I think Ты should start off with telling Stella first. Ты two are the closest and I think it will truly benefit your recovery.”
I can do this. I will do this Mac thought confidently. With that he took a deep breath and walked toward a smiling Stella. Mac сказал(-а) happily “Hey Stell how was your morning?” Stella smiled warmly at Mac and replied “It was pretty hectic but I survived.” Mac laughed nervously. He then сказал(-а) “So Ты want to go to the StarBucks near here?” Stella nodded and сказал(-а) “Sure, I guess.” Mac nodded and the two started to walk the ten blocks to the Популярное coffee shop.
Once they were their and had ordered their coffees and desserts Mac picked a booth in the very back so they wouldn't be over heard by other people. Apart form Комментарии on their choice of beverages and desserts neither Mac или Stella spoke. Stella as Mac had assumed already knew that he had something important to tell her. They had after all know each other for ten years and Stella could usually pick up on Mac's moods.
They were halfway through their desserts when knowing it was now или never Mac took a deep breath and сказал(-а) “Stella remember how I сказал(-а) that my therapy session was eye opening?” Stella nodded she sipped her чай cleared her throat and replied “Yeah I remember.” Mac took a long sip of his coffee. He then took a deep breath and replied “Well Dr. Collins сказал(-а) that I should somewhat explain to what happened with.. Mac was barely able to say her name. He took another deep breath and started again “That I should explain what happened with .. Ella.”
Stella gave Mac a startled look. Clearly she was surprised by his response. Mac normally didn't talk about his private life with her или any one. Stella took a small sip of her tea. She then smiled and сказал(-а) “Mac I know Ты are really discreet person. Ты don't have to tell me anything. I don't expect Ты too. But I will listen if Ты choose too. Also I promise that whatever Ты say to me I will not repeat to anyone unless Ты tell me too.” Mac was truly touched. He took another long sip of his coffee. He then took another deep breath and replied “Thanks Stella that means a lot.”
Stella smiled. She reached across the таблица and squeezed Mac's hand for a second. She then сказал(-а) “No problem.”
Mac took another deep breath. He then straighten in his chair and started to recount his horrific ordeal to Stella.
Chapter 2: Rehashing the Nightmare
Side Note: For those of Ты who don't know. In Season 2 of the Показать Stella had a boyfriend Frankie who was deranged he Опубликовано a video of them having sex online. After she found out he held her hostage in her own apartment in self defense she shot him.
Mac tried his hardest to tell Stella the entire story form start to finish. Through it was much еще difficult then he ever thought it would be. He once again took another deep breath and сказал(-а) “So after I drank that one cup of red wine I don't remember much else. When I woke up again I was..”
Mac's voice trailed off into nothingness. He didn't think he could tell Stella the main details of what had occurred next. Stella once again that день reached across the таблица and took his hand in her own. She squeezed it softly and replied “Mac I told you, Ты don't have to tell me this if Ты don't want too.”
Mac took another deep breath. He closed his eyes and remembered again back to his last session with Dr. Collins and what he had asked him specifically about this exact situation "I can start off slow right I don't have too tell her everything all at once?" Dr. Collins сказал(-а) "No Ты go at your own pace. I'm certain Stella will understand.” Mac exhaled slowly and сказал(-а) “No Stella it's okay. I want to tell Ты I just need to take it slow.” Stella nodded understandably and replied “I get it Mac, I do. When ever your ready to start again I'm here.”
This time Mac reached across the таблица and squeezed Stella's hand for a second. He then sighed and сказал(-а) “Well when I woke up my hands and feet were handcuffed to the вверх and bottom постель, кровати posts. And I was well...not wearing anything.” Stella gasped slightly.
She reached for Mac's hand again and Mac let her take it eagerly wanting the support of her touch as he recounted the horrible events. Mac then сказал(-а) slowly “The Далее thing I know I'm vomiting over the постель, кровати and calling Ella's name.”
Mac took a breath and сказал(-а) “Well she came into the room wearing Белье and not much else. I could tell almost immediately that well.. that we did.. it because I could smell it, it was so... strong.” Tried as he might Mac shuddered at the memory. Stella сказал(-а) nothing she just held onto Mac's hand trusting him that he would continue with his story when he wanted too.
The support Stella was giving him made Mac want to break down into tears. He took another long sip of his coffee and sighed. He then сказал(-а) “She told me that she had drugged me which I had already figured out because of the vomiting and I had remembered nothing of the night before.”
Mac then let out another breath and сказал(-а) somewhat fast “She well she wanted to do what we had done the night before. Since I wasn't able to fight her off, I- I- didn't want too but I couldn't figure out a way to stop her. It felt like... I was having sex with my daughter или close relative. It was the most awful experience in my whole life.
I have never felt so powerless, so.. helpless. She would hit me if I didn't do what she wanted или how she wanted it. I was able to seduce .. He took another breath and сказал(-а) in the same rushed tone ”I vomited a lot in those two days. Because she hit me a lot. I was finally able to seduce her and got her to get the cuffs off of me. Then I put her in a choke hold. Put my pants back on and called you. The Далее thing I remember was waking up in the hospital and seeing your face.”
Ashamed in spite of himself Mac leaned back in his сиденье, место, сиденья relinquishing Stella's hand in the process. Stella too leaned back she took a deep breath and сказал(-а) in a somewhat low voice “Mac I'm so sorry that this happened to you. I really am.” She reached for his hand again through Mac kept his hands at off the таблица Stella asked “Mac what is it?” Mac сказал(-а) irritated with her reaction “You don't feel disgusted about what I just told you. About what I did but what she.. she made me do!” Stella held up her hand and сказал(-а) in a calming voice “Mac she had dominance over you. I don't feel disgusted. I felt the same way when Frankie held me hostage. Ты did what Ты had to do to survive.” Mac felt like throwing up by her words instead of being reassured by them. He took two deep breaths and сказал(-а) somewhat angrily “You're telling me the truth?”
Stella nodded with conviction and replied “Mac I know Ты went through Hell with Ella but I'm here for Ты and I”m 100% sure that the rest of team will be here for Ты too.”
Chapter 3: Moving вперед
Mac sighed and thought amazed and a tad embarrassed I can not believe I just did that! Mac didn't realize that he would be able to tell Stella all of what happened to him in just one sitting. Slightly dazed Mac took two deep breaths. He put his hands back on the таблица and made no Переместить to pull away when Stella once again grabbed his right hand and held it in her own.
Once he was able to gather his composure Mac squeezed Stella's hand back and сказал(-а) “Stell I can not tell Ты how appreciative I am for your support in this. Thank Ты so much for listening. Now that I've told Ты I think I can finally start moving вперед in my life.” Stella smiled and сказал(-а) light heartily “Well Mac Taylor I'm glad your happy and your welcome. Through I must admit that this is by far the most deep emotional lunch I ever had!” Mac laughed and the laughter felt extremely good. He sighed and сказал(-а) “Well your welcome.” Stella checked her watch and сказал(-а) “God it's nearly four. Ты sure know how to tell a story. How about I buy Ты dinner?”
Mac smiled and сказал(-а) “Sounds great, thanks Stell for everything.” Stella got up form her сиденье, место, сиденья she went over to Mac and planted a peck on his cheek. She smiled and сказал(-а) “Your welcome, Boss. Don't worry I'll help Ты tell the others when your ready if Ты want me too.” Mac smiled and replied “I'll let Ты know.” Stella gave him a warm smile and the two paid for their beverages and food.
As Mac walked out of the StarBucks he knew what he сказал(-а) to Stella was true. Now that he had told her could and would Переместить вперед in his life. With Stella's help he would tell the rest of his team. Through now Mac was just concentrating on having a stress free ужин with his closet friend.
Mac was oddly buoyant as he made his way out of his cab and to the crime lab. The reason for his mood was he was finally going to come clean about his ordeal with his best friend and closet colleague Stella Bonasera. Through Mac was also feeling immense terror his happiness and relief about the situation ultimately outweighed his fears. Mac thought back in that секунда to his therapist Dr. Collin's words of encouragement I think Ты should start off with telling Stella first. Ты two are the closest and I think it will truly benefit your recovery.”
I can do this. I will do this Mac thought confidently. With that he took a deep breath and walked toward a smiling Stella. Mac сказал(-а) happily “Hey Stell how was your morning?” Stella smiled warmly at Mac and replied “It was pretty hectic but I survived.” Mac laughed nervously. He then сказал(-а) “So Ты want to go to the StarBucks near here?” Stella nodded and сказал(-а) “Sure, I guess.” Mac nodded and the two started to walk the ten blocks to the Популярное coffee shop.
Once they were their and had ordered their coffees and desserts Mac picked a booth in the very back so they wouldn't be over heard by other people. Apart form Комментарии on their choice of beverages and desserts neither Mac или Stella spoke. Stella as Mac had assumed already knew that he had something important to tell her. They had after all know each other for ten years and Stella could usually pick up on Mac's moods.
They were halfway through their desserts when knowing it was now или never Mac took a deep breath and сказал(-а) “Stella remember how I сказал(-а) that my therapy session was eye opening?” Stella nodded she sipped her чай cleared her throat and replied “Yeah I remember.” Mac took a long sip of his coffee. He then took a deep breath and replied “Well Dr. Collins сказал(-а) that I should somewhat explain to what happened with.. Mac was barely able to say her name. He took another deep breath and started again “That I should explain what happened with .. Ella.”
Stella gave Mac a startled look. Clearly she was surprised by his response. Mac normally didn't talk about his private life with her или any one. Stella took a small sip of her tea. She then smiled and сказал(-а) “Mac I know Ты are really discreet person. Ты don't have to tell me anything. I don't expect Ты too. But I will listen if Ты choose too. Also I promise that whatever Ты say to me I will not repeat to anyone unless Ты tell me too.” Mac was truly touched. He took another long sip of his coffee. He then took another deep breath and replied “Thanks Stella that means a lot.”
Stella smiled. She reached across the таблица and squeezed Mac's hand for a second. She then сказал(-а) “No problem.”
Mac took another deep breath. He then straighten in his chair and started to recount his horrific ordeal to Stella.
Chapter 2: Rehashing the Nightmare
Side Note: For those of Ты who don't know. In Season 2 of the Показать Stella had a boyfriend Frankie who was deranged he Опубликовано a video of them having sex online. After she found out he held her hostage in her own apartment in self defense she shot him.
Mac tried his hardest to tell Stella the entire story form start to finish. Through it was much еще difficult then he ever thought it would be. He once again took another deep breath and сказал(-а) “So after I drank that one cup of red wine I don't remember much else. When I woke up again I was..”
Mac's voice trailed off into nothingness. He didn't think he could tell Stella the main details of what had occurred next. Stella once again that день reached across the таблица and took his hand in her own. She squeezed it softly and replied “Mac I told you, Ты don't have to tell me this if Ты don't want too.”
Mac took another deep breath. He closed his eyes and remembered again back to his last session with Dr. Collins and what he had asked him specifically about this exact situation "I can start off slow right I don't have too tell her everything all at once?" Dr. Collins сказал(-а) "No Ты go at your own pace. I'm certain Stella will understand.” Mac exhaled slowly and сказал(-а) “No Stella it's okay. I want to tell Ты I just need to take it slow.” Stella nodded understandably and replied “I get it Mac, I do. When ever your ready to start again I'm here.”
This time Mac reached across the таблица and squeezed Stella's hand for a second. He then sighed and сказал(-а) “Well when I woke up my hands and feet were handcuffed to the вверх and bottom постель, кровати posts. And I was well...not wearing anything.” Stella gasped slightly.
She reached for Mac's hand again and Mac let her take it eagerly wanting the support of her touch as he recounted the horrible events. Mac then сказал(-а) slowly “The Далее thing I know I'm vomiting over the постель, кровати and calling Ella's name.”
Mac took a breath and сказал(-а) “Well she came into the room wearing Белье and not much else. I could tell almost immediately that well.. that we did.. it because I could smell it, it was so... strong.” Tried as he might Mac shuddered at the memory. Stella сказал(-а) nothing she just held onto Mac's hand trusting him that he would continue with his story when he wanted too.
The support Stella was giving him made Mac want to break down into tears. He took another long sip of his coffee and sighed. He then сказал(-а) “She told me that she had drugged me which I had already figured out because of the vomiting and I had remembered nothing of the night before.”
Mac then let out another breath and сказал(-а) somewhat fast “She well she wanted to do what we had done the night before. Since I wasn't able to fight her off, I- I- didn't want too but I couldn't figure out a way to stop her. It felt like... I was having sex with my daughter или close relative. It was the most awful experience in my whole life.
I have never felt so powerless, so.. helpless. She would hit me if I didn't do what she wanted или how she wanted it. I was able to seduce .. He took another breath and сказал(-а) in the same rushed tone ”I vomited a lot in those two days. Because she hit me a lot. I was finally able to seduce her and got her to get the cuffs off of me. Then I put her in a choke hold. Put my pants back on and called you. The Далее thing I remember was waking up in the hospital and seeing your face.”
Ashamed in spite of himself Mac leaned back in his сиденье, место, сиденья relinquishing Stella's hand in the process. Stella too leaned back she took a deep breath and сказал(-а) in a somewhat low voice “Mac I'm so sorry that this happened to you. I really am.” She reached for his hand again through Mac kept his hands at off the таблица Stella asked “Mac what is it?” Mac сказал(-а) irritated with her reaction “You don't feel disgusted about what I just told you. About what I did but what she.. she made me do!” Stella held up her hand and сказал(-а) in a calming voice “Mac she had dominance over you. I don't feel disgusted. I felt the same way when Frankie held me hostage. Ты did what Ты had to do to survive.” Mac felt like throwing up by her words instead of being reassured by them. He took two deep breaths and сказал(-а) somewhat angrily “You're telling me the truth?”
Stella nodded with conviction and replied “Mac I know Ты went through Hell with Ella but I'm here for Ты and I”m 100% sure that the rest of team will be here for Ты too.”
Chapter 3: Moving вперед
Mac sighed and thought amazed and a tad embarrassed I can not believe I just did that! Mac didn't realize that he would be able to tell Stella all of what happened to him in just one sitting. Slightly dazed Mac took two deep breaths. He put his hands back on the таблица and made no Переместить to pull away when Stella once again grabbed his right hand and held it in her own.
Once he was able to gather his composure Mac squeezed Stella's hand back and сказал(-а) “Stell I can not tell Ты how appreciative I am for your support in this. Thank Ты so much for listening. Now that I've told Ты I think I can finally start moving вперед in my life.” Stella smiled and сказал(-а) light heartily “Well Mac Taylor I'm glad your happy and your welcome. Through I must admit that this is by far the most deep emotional lunch I ever had!” Mac laughed and the laughter felt extremely good. He sighed and сказал(-а) “Well your welcome.” Stella checked her watch and сказал(-а) “God it's nearly four. Ты sure know how to tell a story. How about I buy Ты dinner?”
Mac smiled and сказал(-а) “Sounds great, thanks Stell for everything.” Stella got up form her сиденье, место, сиденья she went over to Mac and planted a peck on his cheek. She smiled and сказал(-а) “Your welcome, Boss. Don't worry I'll help Ты tell the others when your ready if Ты want me too.” Mac smiled and replied “I'll let Ты know.” Stella gave him a warm smile and the two paid for their beverages and food.
As Mac walked out of the StarBucks he knew what he сказал(-а) to Stella was true. Now that he had told her could and would Переместить вперед in his life. With Stella's help he would tell the rest of his team. Through now Mac was just concentrating on having a stress free ужин with his closet friend.