>”Meredith , I think we need to talk.” was all he said, his voice cold and resentful, the look on his eyes indicated a mix of confusion, pain and anger.
>”Ok then talk.”
>”They’re mine, aren’t they?”
>”Yes…”
>”Damn it Meredith, how could Ты hide from me the fact that Ты were pregnant with my children.”
>”They are not your children, they are my children, I was there for their first steps, their first words, for everything, I am working 12 hours a day, am a single mum and still I’m there for everything, Ты never were so Ты have no right calling them your children.”
>”And whose fault is that? Do Ты think that if I knew I wouldn’t like to be there for all three of you?”
>” If Ты came here to fight, Ты might as well leave, I’m not in the mood for it and I don’t want to scare the kids with the voices. What’s in the past is in the past Derek, we can’t change that.”
>”Yeah but that doesn’t change the fact that I have two four year-old kids that don’t even know me.”
>”They know you! They know you! I’ve talked to them about you, cause they kept asking, JD knows that his middle name Derek is because of Ты and Cass knows that her middle name Emma is from your mother. They know Ты are a neurosurgeon and that Ты fix peoples’ brains, in fact сойка, джей wants to become a neurosurgeon too when he grows up, he is really smart he is definitely going to make it. They know Ты leave here in Seattle and that Ты Любовь fishing, another thing Ты have in common with JD, I swear this kids is like a replica of you. And they also have your last name… Shepherd. Their name is Grey-Shepherd and not Grey, Derek.”
Derek was now softer and he had become fascinated at the amount of information Meredith had just revealed him about his children. But what hit him the most…. Shepherd, after everything that had happened she wanted her kids to have his last name, she acknowledged him as their father, long before he knew anything about them.
>”I was going to tell you” she admitted silently, “I really was, I was coming to your office but I found Ты in the nurses’ station Показ the house plans of our dream house to that nurse. The kisses and the hugs in the hall did indeed bother me but I could handle it, I was used to watching Ты with another women, it was the same as Addison. But watching Ты revealing to her our future, I couldn’t take it Derek. I know I was being selfish but I couldn’t, so I left. Ты seemed happy, happier than Ты were when we were together, she was a better women, so I walked away. “ her voice was a level upon whisper and she could tell she was ready to break down in sobs but she didn’t want to reveal her vulnerability to him.
Derek didn’t know what to tell. He was stunned. So he сказал(-а) the only coherent word he could pronounce at that moment. ”Meredith…”
>”Don’t Derek…” she cut him, “please just don’t say anything, I can’t take anymore of your lies” she сказал(-а) with a defeated voice.
>”I’ve never lied to you” he stated firmly. “Every single thing I told Ты was real, I Любовь Ты Meredith, I do, but Ты won’t let me. I know I’ve made mistakes and I know I’ve hurt Ты but all I am asking is a chance to Показать Ты how much I Любовь you. These four years Meredith, were the worst of my life. I didn’t know where Ты had been, no one would tell how Ты were, I was a living ghost trying to breathe without Ты Далее to me. When I was with Addison I continued to live because I… because when I’d come to the hospital I could see you, even from far away, I could catch a whiff of you.” He admitted something he never had. He now had tears filling his dreamy blue eyes, who were matching the cloudy morning sky of Seattle.
Meredith could see how upset and how truly sorry he was. She extended her hand towards him and he immediately took it.
>”Come upstairs, they have already fallen asleep but Ты could see them.” She told him.
Derek felt happier that he had in four years. Meredith would let him see Jaden and Cassidy.
Derek walked into their room. The side of Cass’s постель, кровати was a bit messy, with lots of Куклы and teddy-bears on the floor as well as clothes thrown all over the place. The side of Jaden’s постель, кровати was еще neat. It had a small fishing pole and ferry-boat toys carefully placed on a dresser as well as some balls on the floor. His сердце was filled in delight when he saw the two sleeping figures. He went to sit in the middle after Поцелуи both of them on the cheek and whispering how much he loved them and how he’d never leave them. Meredith was on her bedroom, lying completely awake on the bed, staring at the ceiling. After a while Derek walked in.
>”They are perfect” he сказал(-а) calmly.
>”Yes they are,” stated Meredith “ they are both amazing.”
>”Thanks Mer, thank Ты for letting me see them, I know I don’t deserve your forgiveness but I would really want to have a place in their life.” He сказал(-а) hesitantly.
>”Um..It’s getting late Derek” she said, while missing his eyes.
>”Right yes, I’m going now, thanks again” he replied sincerely.
He was walking out of the room when he heard Meredith’s voice,
>”Maybe if Ты would like… I mean we’ll be here for at least one еще week, maybe Ты could spend the день with them, let them get to know you.” She suggested.
>”I’d Любовь that !” he сказал(-а) with excitement that made him seem like a child who was just дана a new toy.
>”Derek” she added “ I um… would Ты like to sleep here tonight? Its late and until Ты reach the trailer it will be morning again.” She wasn’t sure about this but she had missed him and now he was in front of her standing here smiling and she was afraid that if he left everything would disappear and she would be alone again.
>”Sure, but are Ты ok with it? I mean really ok?”
>”Yeah I am.”
>”Ok I’ll crash at the couch.”
>” Ты can um… I mean if that is also ok with you… Ты could, I mean we could…how can I say it… Ты could sleep here on the постель, кровати with me. Jut sleep, on the постель, кровати I mean. It’s big and the диван, мягкий уголок is old and small and your back will probably hurt in the morning. I mean we’re both adults we can sleep in the same bed. So yeah, if Ты want Ты can sleep with me here.” She finished and let out a relieved sight.
>”What?” he asked!
>”These four years, were the worst for me too, besides the kids everything else had fallen apart, I missed Ты and I still Любовь Ты and I want us to have a chance as a real family…but Derek, if you’re going to hurt me again, I need to know now, I don’t want to give Ты the key to my сердце again only to have it broken for once еще because now I have JD and Cass to think of and I’ll never allow anything to hurt them!” Meredith сказал(-а) with a firm voice as she was fidgeting with her wrist waiting for Derek’s answer!
Derek smiled at her and saw that she was still confused, so he approached her, gently place a hand at the small of her back and another hand at the back of her head and leaned down and kissed her. Soft kinda like a habit something that they would do for the rest of their lives, because he was never ever leaving her again, so unless she backed off he was going to be with her for the rest of their lives. Meredith immediately hugged him, while smiling through their Kiss which she deepened.
>”I Любовь you…” Derek whispered in her ear once they broke off the kiss.
>”I Любовь Ты too, I always have. “ Meredith replied without a hint of hesitation.
Derek smirked in his own unique arrogant way, a smirk that reminded her of their children who both would give her this kind of smirk when they’d achieve making her do something they wanted. And at that point she knew she was making the right choice letting Derek in once again. They always loved each other, they just had a weird way of Показ it, however this time it would all be different. They have their kids to think about. Derek would never hurt them and after not being with the Любовь of his life for four years he’d sure as hell never make a similar mistake to his Назад ones, a mistake that would cause him to lose Meredith once again. And she on the other side was far еще mature and stable, she is available for a clear, truthful relationship. No еще back and forth … they only Переместить вперед from now on.
>”Ok then talk.”
>”They’re mine, aren’t they?”
>”Yes…”
>”Damn it Meredith, how could Ты hide from me the fact that Ты were pregnant with my children.”
>”They are not your children, they are my children, I was there for their first steps, their first words, for everything, I am working 12 hours a day, am a single mum and still I’m there for everything, Ты never were so Ты have no right calling them your children.”
>”And whose fault is that? Do Ты think that if I knew I wouldn’t like to be there for all three of you?”
>” If Ты came here to fight, Ты might as well leave, I’m not in the mood for it and I don’t want to scare the kids with the voices. What’s in the past is in the past Derek, we can’t change that.”
>”Yeah but that doesn’t change the fact that I have two four year-old kids that don’t even know me.”
>”They know you! They know you! I’ve talked to them about you, cause they kept asking, JD knows that his middle name Derek is because of Ты and Cass knows that her middle name Emma is from your mother. They know Ты are a neurosurgeon and that Ты fix peoples’ brains, in fact сойка, джей wants to become a neurosurgeon too when he grows up, he is really smart he is definitely going to make it. They know Ты leave here in Seattle and that Ты Любовь fishing, another thing Ты have in common with JD, I swear this kids is like a replica of you. And they also have your last name… Shepherd. Their name is Grey-Shepherd and not Grey, Derek.”
Derek was now softer and he had become fascinated at the amount of information Meredith had just revealed him about his children. But what hit him the most…. Shepherd, after everything that had happened she wanted her kids to have his last name, she acknowledged him as their father, long before he knew anything about them.
>”I was going to tell you” she admitted silently, “I really was, I was coming to your office but I found Ты in the nurses’ station Показ the house plans of our dream house to that nurse. The kisses and the hugs in the hall did indeed bother me but I could handle it, I was used to watching Ты with another women, it was the same as Addison. But watching Ты revealing to her our future, I couldn’t take it Derek. I know I was being selfish but I couldn’t, so I left. Ты seemed happy, happier than Ты were when we were together, she was a better women, so I walked away. “ her voice was a level upon whisper and she could tell she was ready to break down in sobs but she didn’t want to reveal her vulnerability to him.
Derek didn’t know what to tell. He was stunned. So he сказал(-а) the only coherent word he could pronounce at that moment. ”Meredith…”
>”Don’t Derek…” she cut him, “please just don’t say anything, I can’t take anymore of your lies” she сказал(-а) with a defeated voice.
>”I’ve never lied to you” he stated firmly. “Every single thing I told Ты was real, I Любовь Ты Meredith, I do, but Ты won’t let me. I know I’ve made mistakes and I know I’ve hurt Ты but all I am asking is a chance to Показать Ты how much I Любовь you. These four years Meredith, were the worst of my life. I didn’t know where Ты had been, no one would tell how Ты were, I was a living ghost trying to breathe without Ты Далее to me. When I was with Addison I continued to live because I… because when I’d come to the hospital I could see you, even from far away, I could catch a whiff of you.” He admitted something he never had. He now had tears filling his dreamy blue eyes, who were matching the cloudy morning sky of Seattle.
Meredith could see how upset and how truly sorry he was. She extended her hand towards him and he immediately took it.
>”Come upstairs, they have already fallen asleep but Ты could see them.” She told him.
Derek felt happier that he had in four years. Meredith would let him see Jaden and Cassidy.
Derek walked into their room. The side of Cass’s постель, кровати was a bit messy, with lots of Куклы and teddy-bears on the floor as well as clothes thrown all over the place. The side of Jaden’s постель, кровати was еще neat. It had a small fishing pole and ferry-boat toys carefully placed on a dresser as well as some balls on the floor. His сердце was filled in delight when he saw the two sleeping figures. He went to sit in the middle after Поцелуи both of them on the cheek and whispering how much he loved them and how he’d never leave them. Meredith was on her bedroom, lying completely awake on the bed, staring at the ceiling. After a while Derek walked in.
>”They are perfect” he сказал(-а) calmly.
>”Yes they are,” stated Meredith “ they are both amazing.”
>”Thanks Mer, thank Ты for letting me see them, I know I don’t deserve your forgiveness but I would really want to have a place in their life.” He сказал(-а) hesitantly.
>”Um..It’s getting late Derek” she said, while missing his eyes.
>”Right yes, I’m going now, thanks again” he replied sincerely.
He was walking out of the room when he heard Meredith’s voice,
>”Maybe if Ты would like… I mean we’ll be here for at least one еще week, maybe Ты could spend the день with them, let them get to know you.” She suggested.
>”I’d Любовь that !” he сказал(-а) with excitement that made him seem like a child who was just дана a new toy.
>”Derek” she added “ I um… would Ты like to sleep here tonight? Its late and until Ты reach the trailer it will be morning again.” She wasn’t sure about this but she had missed him and now he was in front of her standing here smiling and she was afraid that if he left everything would disappear and she would be alone again.
>”Sure, but are Ты ok with it? I mean really ok?”
>”Yeah I am.”
>”Ok I’ll crash at the couch.”
>” Ты can um… I mean if that is also ok with you… Ты could, I mean we could…how can I say it… Ты could sleep here on the постель, кровати with me. Jut sleep, on the постель, кровати I mean. It’s big and the диван, мягкий уголок is old and small and your back will probably hurt in the morning. I mean we’re both adults we can sleep in the same bed. So yeah, if Ты want Ты can sleep with me here.” She finished and let out a relieved sight.
>”What?” he asked!
>”These four years, were the worst for me too, besides the kids everything else had fallen apart, I missed Ты and I still Любовь Ты and I want us to have a chance as a real family…but Derek, if you’re going to hurt me again, I need to know now, I don’t want to give Ты the key to my сердце again only to have it broken for once еще because now I have JD and Cass to think of and I’ll never allow anything to hurt them!” Meredith сказал(-а) with a firm voice as she was fidgeting with her wrist waiting for Derek’s answer!
Derek smiled at her and saw that she was still confused, so he approached her, gently place a hand at the small of her back and another hand at the back of her head and leaned down and kissed her. Soft kinda like a habit something that they would do for the rest of their lives, because he was never ever leaving her again, so unless she backed off he was going to be with her for the rest of their lives. Meredith immediately hugged him, while smiling through their Kiss which she deepened.
>”I Любовь you…” Derek whispered in her ear once they broke off the kiss.
>”I Любовь Ты too, I always have. “ Meredith replied without a hint of hesitation.
Derek smirked in his own unique arrogant way, a smirk that reminded her of their children who both would give her this kind of smirk when they’d achieve making her do something they wanted. And at that point she knew she was making the right choice letting Derek in once again. They always loved each other, they just had a weird way of Показ it, however this time it would all be different. They have their kids to think about. Derek would never hurt them and after not being with the Любовь of his life for four years he’d sure as hell never make a similar mistake to his Назад ones, a mistake that would cause him to lose Meredith once again. And she on the other side was far еще mature and stable, she is available for a clear, truthful relationship. No еще back and forth … they only Переместить вперед from now on.
