Dear Fang

I am sorry to say that I wont remember Ты that way. I can't seem to remember Ты in a tux. Such a un-Fang like moment. I don't want to remember Ты like that. Pretending to be something that your not. I want to remember Ты flying, free. I hope Ты stay free. And if I remember Ты flying I can imagine that Ты are flying back to me.

I spent nearly a год being sensible, doing the right thing. Not for me, But for the flock. Actually that is what I have done my whole life. Put my self behind the flock. Then one день I decided that I could give my self this one thing, the thing I wanted most in the world. You. It ended up being the best and the worst thing I ever did.

I chose you.

I got you.

And then…

I Остаться в живых you.

I remember the feeling when I decided to let Ты in. I remember the feeling when I realized I loved you. I remember the feeling when I Остаться в живых you… It's indescribable. I remember when I got Ты back and then… I Остаться в живых Ты again. But I wouldn't take any of it back. Not the pain, the sorrow the сердце wrenching feeling whenever I think about you, the happy times, the laughs and the smiles we have shared. And even if the smiles, the happy times and putting my self first led to all of the pain I wouldn't swap it for the world.

I can understand why Ты left. And I know that if it were me then I would have done the same thing. I couldn't stand to be with someone I Любовь knowing that it was putting them in danger. But the thing is that it isn't me, not this time. This times its Ты in Danger. And it isn't me who has to make the decision. But it is me who has to live with it. Every day. And I still hope that Ты will come back to me, no matter the consequences. Every day.

I was sad after I read your letter. That's an understatement

Then I was angry

God, I am still angry

But I have simmered down, I am still angry but I can see past that. See the reason Ты left. I can understand it. Doesn't mean I like it.

I could promise Ты that I will be a leader

That I can be Max and a leader

But in the end I know it wouldn't be enough.

Because I Любовь you

I cant help but be focused on Ты when were together

And one time I might slip up. Not be the leader I need to be, and I can't face those consequences.

They say that if Ты Любовь something, then Ты have to let it go and then if it is truly yours it will come back to you. I Swear Fang if in twenty years Ты aren't back and cant honestly say that it was all worth it, then erasers and Itex wont be the least of your trouble. Which is why I am going to try my hardest to fix things, to 'save the world'. Because when all of this is over it wont matter that 20 years isn't up, I will be at your doorstep.

But that's the thing. We don't know. Ты don't know and I don't know. I don't know whether Ты will come back. But I will get Ты back. Because I am Maximum Ride and I don't give up a fight. That's what my life is one big fight. I fight for my life and I fight for the ones I love. We all do.

One день we can be happy Fang but for now we are fighting for it.

I can't promise Ты that we will meet again in 20 years. Because I am fighting for it now and I don't honestly think that I can wait that long. Wait that long to be happy.

I Любовь Ты enough to let Ты go. And I trust Ты enough that Ты will come back.

So here's my promise to you. When the world is saved. And it will be, Ты leaving has дана me even еще motive to do so. I'll meet Ты at the вверх of that cliff where we first met the hawks and learned how to fly with them. Ты know the one. Once the world is saved. If were Alive. I'll be there waiting for you. Ты can bet on it.

We will have fought for our happiness and won.

I don't believe in saying good-bye so…

Until I see Ты next.

I Любовь you.

Max