Chapter two

March 15 1995,

Dad came into my room and сказал(-а) “happy birthday baby!!!” Today I turn a год old. He took me to the living room and there was new toys scattered all over the place. He сказал(-а) “I got Ты a bubble machine!!!” Nanny Grace turned it on and started to pop all of the bubbles. He сказал(-а) “I knew Ты would Любовь that!!!”

Then I noticed there was a cake on the coffee таблица and stood up so I could reach it. Nanny Grace сказал(-а) “I have a feeling she will be walking any день now!!!” Dad cut me a slice of cake and сказал(-а) “yeah; don’t remind me!!!” While I was eating he snapped a bunch of pictures and when he knelt down I smeared frosting all over the lens. He started to laugh and сказал(-а) “you are too cute!!!”

There was a knock at the door and Dad let Grandma inside. She picked me up and сказал(-а) “happy birthday!!!”Dad came over and wiped off my face with a napkin and сказал(-а) “she was just eating some of her cake.” Grandma smiled as she gave me a Kiss on the cheek and put me down. She pulled a Mickey мышь stuffed animal out of the gift bag she was carrying and Dad сказал(-а) “wow Ты have your own Mickey now!!!”

Grandma сказал(-а) “well; I have to head out I just stopped by to bring Alanna her present.” Dad walked her to the door and сказал(-а) “see Ты soon mother.” As she was shutting the door I blew her Kiss and they both сказал(-а) “awwww!!!”He took me back into the living room and I hugged him. I rested my head on his chest and he passed me my pacifier.

I sat on Dad’s lap as he talked to Nanny Grace. He сказал(-а) “I can’t believe it has been a год already!!!” Grace сказал(-а) “yeah; Alanna has changed so much!!!” He сказал(-а) “I knew Debbie wouldn’t have called here today.” She сказал(-а) “you’re doing what is best for Alanna, don’t ever doubt that!!!” He сказал(-а) “I hope that it doesn’t affect her too much!!!” Grace сказал(-а) “you are all she’ll ever need Michael; you’re an amazing father!!!” I took my pacifier out of my mouth and started to babble. Dad looked at me and сказал(-а) “you think I’m a good daddy too; huh.”

March 20 1995,

I was sitting in the living room playing with my toys when I wanted to get Dad’s attention. He was in the кухня cleaning when I сказал(-а) “Daddy!!!” He ran into the room and asked “did Ты just call me?” I сказал(-а) “Daddy” and he scooped me up into his arms. He ran into the кухня and сказал(-а) “Grace; Alanna just сказал(-а) her first word!!!” I сказал(-а) it again and she сказал(-а) “I knew it was only a matter of time!!!”

Dad kissed my forehead and сказал(-а) “my baby is growing up way too fast!!!” Grace сказал(-а) “she is going to grow Michael; Ты better get used to it!!!” He сказал(-а) “yeah I know…I’m еще excited to watch her grow up!!!” He hugged me and сказал(-а) “I am always going to be there for her when she needs me!!!”

My father is bound and determined to be a good parent no matter what happens!!! Grandpa wasn’t there for him and he is not going to let that happen to me.

March 20 1995,

There was a knock at the front door and Dad was surprised to see all of his brothers staring at him. He asked “what are Ты guys doing here?” They pushed their way pasted him and sat down on the barstools in the kitchen. Uncle Jackie picked me up and сказал(-а) “we have a Вопрос for Ты Michael.” Dad raised his eyebrows and asked “what?” Uncle Marlon сказал(-а) “we need some money to promote the group so, can Ты write us a check for 10 thousand dollars?”

Dad took me from Uncle Jackie and rolled his eyes. He сказал(-а) “this is going to be just another one of your get rich quick schemes that fails!!!” Uncle Jermaine сказал(-а) “this will be the last time we ever ask Ты for money!!!” Dad сказал(-а) “no….I’m not going to fall for that again!!!” Uncle Randy was about to say something when Dad сказал(-а) “I am starting my own family; I can’t give Ты that money just to waste!!!”

My uncles stormed out the door and Grace looked at Dad in shock. She сказал(-а) “I can’t believe they just expect Ты to give them 10 thousand dollars!!!” He сказал(-а) “they do that a lot….their just jealous of my fame!!!” I grinned and he сказал(-а) “you are еще important to me than their crazy plans!!!” He passed me a bottle and сказал(-а) “my father raised then to be money hungry; lucky that didn’t rub off on me.” Nanny Grace сказал(-а) “I know Ты won’t let Alanna turn out like them!!!” He сказал(-а) “they’re probably complaining about me to Mother already!!!” Grace asked “they only come over here when they want money from you?” He сказал(-а) “sadly that’s the truth.”

I fell asleep in Dad’s lap and he сказал(-а) “that’s why I don’t want Alanna around them a lot!!!” He laid me down on the диван, мягкий уголок and walked back into the kitchen. Grace asked “does it bother Ты that they just Показать up here uninvited?” He got himself a glass of water and сказал(-а) “that irritates me so badly…it’s like they don’t see how rude they’re being!!!”

The phone and the caller ID read “Katherine Jackson.” Dad didn’t answer it and Grace сказал(-а) “it’s not like Ты to ignore your mother’s calls.” He сказал(-а) “I know my brothers and they told her some stupid little sob story about how I wouldn’t give them any еще money!!!” He put the phone down and сказал(-а) “I don’t want Alanna to grow up thinking everything in life is just handed to you!!!”

April 2 1995,

I was watching the Lion King in the living room while Dad was at a meeting with a public relations executive. Nanny Grace has been watching me for the past few hours and I have tried to take my 1st steps with no luck. Everytime I think about walking I start crawling instead.

Around 5 o’clock Dad walked through the front door and smiled when he saw me. I stood up and ran towards him. He scooped me into his arms and I сказал(-а) “Daddy!!!” He tossed me in the air and caught me as I shrieked with laughter. Grace сказал(-а) “she has been trying to walk all day; she must have really missed you!!!”

Dad put me down and I started running all over the room. I began to climb on вверх of a chair and he stood behind me to make sure I didn’t fall. Grace сказал(-а) “I think she is going to be a handful!!!” He сказал(-а) “she’ll defiantly keep me on my toes, that’s for sure!!!” I scooted the chair back and forth and he сказал(-а) “be careful!!!”

April 5 1995,

Grandma knocked on the front door and Dad let her in. They went into the living room and sat down on the couch. I walked over and grabbed my bottle off of the end таблица and climbed on to Dad’s lap. Grandma asked “when did she start walking Michael?” He smiled and сказал(-а) “a couple of days ago!!!”

I put the bottle in my mouth and Grandma сказал(-а) “your brothers told me that they stopped by here sometime last week!!!” Dad сказал(-а) “I don’t want to talk about them Mother!!!” She hesitated to say “well…they are your family Michael!!!” He сказал(-а) “no offence Mother but; my daughter is еще important to me than they are!!!” she looked at him with a loss for words and he ran his fingers through my hair.

Dad сказал(-а) “watch this Mother” and she looked at me. He asked “who am I Alanna?” I took the bottle out of my mouth and сказал(-а) “Daddy.” She сказал(-а) “I am going to give your brothers the money that they need!!!” He сказал(-а) “they don’t need the money; they’re playing Ты Mother!!!” She didn’t say anything because she knew deep down that he was right.

Grandma got up and silently walked out to her car. Dad looked at Grace and сказал(-а) “I’ll I’m trying to do is protect her!!!” Grace сказал(-а) “let me take Alanna so Ты can make sure your mother is alright.” She took me off his lap and he ran out the door. As he looked down the driveway he saw that she was already gone,

Dad walked back inside the house and сказал(-а) “she left.” I ran to him and he picked me up. Grace сказал(-а) “well, maybe it’s time for Ты to distance yourself from your family for a while.” He сказал(-а) “I hate to say it but; I think your right!!!” He сказал(-а) “I have too much on my plate to worry about their problems!!!” I rested my head on his shoulder and сказал(-а) “bottle.” He grabbed my bottle off the таблица and gave it to me. As he sat down with me in his arms Dad сказал(-а) “besides while I’m on tour they won’t be around to bug me.

It really bothers me that my family takes advantage of my dad. If they want something better than want they’ve got they should earn it. I am so glad that he is my father!!! Any guy can get a girl pregnant but, it takes a real man to be a daddy!!!

April 10 1995,

When I woke up this morning Dad wasn’t there. Nanny Grace took me out of my детская кроватка and brought me downstairs. I сказал(-а) “Daddy?” She put me down and сказал(-а) “Daddy is working right now.” I looked at her confused and сказал(-а) “see Daddy?” She dialed his phone number and put the phone on speaker:

Dad: hello?

Grace: hey, Alanna wants to visit you

Me: hi Daddy

Dad: awww my baby…yeah come by today and I’ll just go Главная with Ты at the end of the day

Grace: alright; we’ll be there in about a half hour

I kissed the phone

Grace: Alanna just kissed the phone

Dad: (giggling) bye bye, see Ты soon

Grace hung up and started putting stuff in my diaper bag. She helped me put my куртка on and carried me out to the car. Dad started rehearsing for his History tour today and he had left at six thirty, two and a half hours before I wake up.

We pulled up in front of a huge концерт stadium and Grace took me inside. I looked around and there was lots of equipment everywhere. Dad saw me from the stage and walked towards us. He took me out of Graces arms and kissed me on the cheek. I smiled and сказал(-а) “hi Daddy.” One of the female dancers came over and asked “who is this little cutie Michael?” He сказал(-а) “this is my daughter Alanna!!!”

As Dad danced around the stage I watched him with my full attention. I had never seen this side of him before and I loved it. The director laughed as I tried to copy what Dad was doing. Grace passed me my bottle and asked “are Ты having fun watching Daddy?” She helped me up onto a chair and I put the bottle in my mouth.

I had fallen asleep in the chair and Dad picked me up. He motioned to the sound producer to turn the Музыка off. He wrapped me in my blanket and sat down in the chair. His manager sat Далее to him and сказал(-а) “it’s fine that Alanna is here every once in a while…but this isn’t really the best place for a baby to be running around in!!!” Dad сказал(-а) “yeah; I know, I only had her here today so she could see where I was.”

A few hours later I woke up to Dad buckling me into my car seat. As he jumped into the сиденье, место, сиденья Далее to me and he сказал(-а) “hi sleepy head.” Grace сказал(-а) “you were amazing today Michael!!!” He сказал(-а) “thank you!!!” Grace сказал(-а) “Alanna seemed to be having a great time!!!

After I had been put to bed; Dad sat downstairs talking to Grace. He сказал(-а) “I hope Alanna is going to handle being apart from me all day!!!” She asked “what time will Ты be Главная by?” He сказал(-а) “I’m hoping by seven pm!!!” As he politely tried to eat his first meal of the день he сказал(-а) “that way I can still give her a bath and put her to bed.”





April 11 1995,

Dad didn’t have to leave for rehearsals till 10:00am today. I was playing with him and then he сказал(-а) “it’s time for me to go to work now.” I сказал(-а) “I go?” Nanny Grace сказал(-а) “you’re going to stay here with me sweetheart.” I looked at him and started to cry. I threw myself on the ground and started to throw a fit. Grace picked me up and сказал(-а) “it’s okay daddy will be back soon!” She ushered him to leave the room and as I saw him shut the door I was very confused. I didn’t understand why I had gone to work with him before and was allowed to go with him this time.



Grace put me on the floor and сказал(-а) “we’re going to have fun!!!” I сказал(-а) “no I see Daddy now!” As she did dishes in the кухня I sat there on the floor crying and screaming as loud as I possibly could. She tried everything to get me to stop crying, but nothing seemed to work. I spent at least 45 min. trying to open the front door and screaming for Dad. Eventually I fell asleep under the coffee-table in the living room with a blanket in my hand.



When Dad did arrive back to the ranch I was so happy to see him that I jumped into his arms. He сказал(-а) “I missed Ты today!” He kissed me on my four head and I gripped him as tight as I possibly could. Grace told him that I was having major separation anxiety problems and dad became very worried. He сказал(-а) “I don’t want her to think that I’m leaving her forever!” He sat down at the кухня таблица and tried to put me down. I would not let go of him no matter what. He сказал(-а) “I Любовь you; but I need to use the bathroom!”



He putting down and I threw myself on the ground out of fear. When he came back into the room he сказал(-а) “I wasn’t gone for that long, I don’t understand why you’re so upset.” Grace сказал(-а) “she has been like that all day!” He picked me up and сказал(-а) “I should have never brought Ты to work with me!” After ужин was ready we all sat down to eat. Dad had to sleep in my room that night because I wouldn’t let him leave my side.



April 18, 1995,



Grace came into my room and took me out of my crib. She сказал(-а) “good morning!” After she fed me I went into the living room to play with my toys. I had a box of crayons and a coloring book when I decided I was going to color on the walls. I had used every single color to draw tons of scribbles all over the place. Grace walked into the room and сказал(-а) “oh my gosh what did Ты do?” I looked up at her and just continued to play.


Grace tried her best to get that crayon marks off the Стена but, that didn’t even seem to make a difference. She сказал(-а) “I don’t think your daddy is going to be very happy about this!” She spent over an час trying to get it off the walls and then just gave up.


My naptime rolled around and Grace was getting ready to bring me to my room. She сказал(-а) “it’s time to go to sleep.” I сказал(-а) “no!” She was about to pick me up when I kicked her on her foot. She сказал(-а) “that wasn’t very nice!” After I refused to go upstairs she сказал(-а) “we’ll just have to wait until dad gets Главная won’t we?”


Later on dad came Главная and put his куртка on the пальто rack. He looked at Grace and asked “how was your day?” She сказал(-а) “it’s been a long day!” He сказал(-а) “you look so tired!” She сказал(-а) “Alanna would not take a nap!” He walked into the living room and saw me sleeping on the couch. He сказал(-а) “she looks like she’s sleeping to me.” I woke up and сказал(-а) “hi daddy.” He picked me up and asked “were Ты good today?” I didn’t answer him and Grace сказал(-а) “go see what she did to the Стена in the dining room!”


Dad walked into the dining room and saw the crayon marks on the walls. He сказал(-а) “oh it looks cute!” She looked at him shocked and сказал(-а) “I can’t believe that doesn’t upset you!” He сказал(-а) “she’s too young to know any better. “Grace сказал(-а) “trust me, I think she knows what she’s doing!” They both walked back into the living room and she сказал(-а) “and when I tried to put her in her детская кроватка she kicked me!” He looked at her and сказал(-а) “I don’t believe you!”



Grace was mad because dad would not discipline me and dad could tell. As dad was setting the таблица сказал(-а) “I don’t know what Ты expect me to do about her kicking you!” She сказал(-а) “you should make sure that she knows that’s not okay to do!” He сказал(-а) “until I see her do it in front of me I’m not going to do anything about it” I started to cry and he сказал(-а) “it’s okay daddy’s here!” Grace сказал(-а) “if Ты don’t do something about her behavior now it’s only going to get worse in the future!”


No matter what anyone says dad is doing the right thing when it comes to raising me. One thing I know for sure is that he loves me and that will never change! I’m so glad he decided to be a single parent because if Debbie was in the picture things would be a lot different than they are now. Even his own family doubts his abilities to be a good father. All I know is that he would do anything and everything for me!



May 1, 1995,



I woke up this morning in a bad mood. Grace got me ready for the день and brought me downstairs to eat. She took out a банан flavored парфе and opened it for me. I looked at it in disgust and pushed it away. She сказал(-а) “this is what daddy wanted Ты to have, so that’s all you’re going to get!” I picked it up and threw it on the floor.


Grace looked at me not knowing what to do because my dad had instructed her not to enforce any type of discipline with me. She сказал(-а) “that’s not okay!” She gave me a cookie and сказал(-а) “that’s not the most healthy breakfast Ты could be eating but, at least Ты have something in your stomach!” Well she washed парфе off the floor I walked around the house with the cookie in my hand.



When I had finished that cookie I wanted another one. I went back into the кухня and сказал(-а) “more!” She сказал(-а) “daddy doesn’t want Ты to have a whole bunch of sweets, it’s not good for you.” I сказал(-а) “please!” She сказал(-а) “you can’t!” I stomped my feet and сказал(-а) “I need another cookie now!” She tried her best to ignore me and continued to wash the floor. I walked away for a few минуты and then came back with a toy in my hand. I took the toy and hit her over the head with it. She сказал(-а) “wow, that hurt!”


Ты could tell that she was at the end of her rope when she looked up at me. Grace put me on the диван, мягкий уголок and puts pressed play on a Дисней video tape. My father discouraged me from watching TV a lot because he didn’t want me to get addicted to watching it! That seemed to keep me calm for a long time because before I knew it dad’s car was pulling into the driveway.


I was mad because Grace wouldn’t let me go outside to see him. She сказал(-а) “he’ll be in here in a minute, there’s no point in going outside to see him!” She knelt down to pick me up and I hit her across the face. I didn’t notice that dad was standing in the doorway looking at me. He asked “what’s going on here?” Grace сказал(-а) “she’s been in a bad mood all day, and is not listening to me at all!” He сказал(-а) “come here Alanna.” He picked me up and сказал(-а) “you look grumpy…you must be tired!”


Grace сказал(-а) “you’ve got to be kidding me Michael, Ты should be telling her not to hit people!” He сказал(-а) “I don’t think she was really trying to hit Ты Grace!” She asked “what do Ты mean she wasn’t trying to hit me; Ты saw her hit me with your own two eyes!” Dad ignored her and started to tickle me.



May 7, 1995,



I was so excited because dad didn’t have to work today so he was staying with me all day. When I had gotten up from my nap he decided that I had watched enough TV and shut it off. I сказал(-а) “more!” He сказал(-а) “the TV is all done for today.” I walked over to the TV and turned the power on. He got up from the диван, мягкий уголок and сказал(-а) “no; we’re all done watching TV for right now.”


I would not take no for an answer and continued to turn the TV on. At first dad just ignored me and started to read his book. Then he shut it off one last time and of course I turned it back on. Grace raised her eyebrows and looked at my dad. She сказал(-а) “see this is what I’m talking about; she always acts like this when she’s with me!” he shrugged his shoulders and сказал(-а) “she’ll eventually give up!” I walked over to him and climbed on his lap. I hit him across the face and he looked at me in shock.



Dad thought about it for a секунда and sternly сказал(-а) “you’re not going to act this way!” He picked me up and pulled out a chair from the кухня table. He put me in the chair and placed me in it. He knelt down to my level and calmly сказал(-а) “you sit here and think about what to just did, I’ll be back in a few минуты to come get you!” After he walked away I got out of the chair and went up to him. He brought me over to the chair again and сказал(-а) “do not get out from this сиденье, место, сиденья again!” I got up about eight еще times and he just kept bringing me back to the chair without saying a word. I finally got the message and sat there for a few minutes.



Dad came over to me and knelt back down. He asked “can Ты say you’re sorry to me for hitting?” I started to cry and in between sobs I сказал(-а) “I’m sorry daddy!” He сказал(-а) “as long as you’re sorry it’s okay!” He hugged me and сказал(-а) “I still don’t think she understood what she did wrong… I mean she’s only 14 months old for Pete’s sake!” Grace сказал(-а) “really because I think she understood every single word Ты said!” I got off the chair and went into the living room to play with my toys.



I have never seen this side of my father before but, I have the feeling that I’m going to be seeing it a lot from now on. I think in the beginning he was afraid to implement discipline because of his father’s strict punishment towards him and his brothers. Grace helped him realize that if he doesn’t lay down the law with me now it’s going to be so much worse as I get older. I don’t blame him for doing what he did because any good father would discipline their children and have control over them.



May 12, 1995,



It was the middle of the день and grandma was coming over today. When she got here I was sitting in timeout because I would not listen to my dad. She walked in the door and asked “so how are things going for Ты and the baby doing?” He сказал(-а) “things seem to be going okay for us right now; how about you?” She сказал(-а) “I thought Ты should know that I gave your brothers the money that they asked Ты for a while ago.” He raised his eyebrows and сказал(-а) “mother it’s not безопасно, сейф for Ты to be handing out money for their stupid little schemes that they come up with to get rich!”



Grandma got up from her сиденье, место, сиденья at the кухня таблица and сказал(-а) “yeah, well I see things completely different son.” Dad took me out of time out and сказал(-а) “I am just trying to look out for you…I know how they can be!” She сказал(-а) “contrary to what Ты may believe Michael, they come up with these plans on their own not with help from their father!” He put me down and сказал(-а) “I don’t mean to sound disrespectful to Ты mother but, Ты can’t blame me for thinking that way!” She asked “then why won’t Ты let them over here on a regular basis to see Alanna?” He started to get slightly irritated with her and сказал(-а) “because I don’t want her to think that everything in life is just came to you!”



Grandma was at a loss for words and just stared at dad in shock. It’s I grabbed the bottom of his pant leg and he picked me up. Grandma sighed and сказал(-а) “I guess you’re right Michael but, they make me feel so guilty for letting your father be so abusive towards them!” By the look on his face he was clearly remembering all the terrible things my grandfather had done to him as a child. He cleared his throat while pushing back tears and ran his fingers through my dirty blonde hair.



Dad quickly changed the subject and сказал(-а) “I’m going to go on a tour to promote my new album within the Далее year!” Grandma asked “how did Frank manage to convince Ты to go on another tour?” He chuckled and сказал(-а) “I told him that I wasn’t going to leave Alanna at such a pivotal point in her life… So I’m going to bring her with me!” She had a worried look on her face and сказал(-а) “it’s going to be a lot of work to balance parenting Alanna and making sure Ты are prepared for each concert!” He сказал(-а) “I know and trust me I’ve put a lot of thought into that but, I’m going to have to make it work because I can’t медведь to leave her behind with the nanny!”



It bothers me that his own family doubts his abilities to multi-task but, I have faith in him. I am worried though about my grandmother in regards to my uncles motives with her money. I think that she is being too trustworthy of them but, isn’t it a mothers job to be able to trust your children with anything. I can see where my dad is coming from with trying to warn her about their intentions… After all he’s doing what he thinks is best for me and maybe there?

June 9, 1995,



When I woke up this morning dad came in to get me but, something was different. As he picked me up I noticed he had a bandage over his nose. I went to grab for it and he сказал(-а) “no, daddy just had surgery done on my nose and it still hurts a lot!” I had never seen him with his nose covered like that before but, I wasn’t too interested in what was going on.



Dad took me downstairs and feed me something to eat and then we went into the living room to watch TV. He sat there on the диван, мягкий уголок fixing his bandage and trying not to focus on the pain he was feeling. I looked at him and smiled with my two front teeth grin. I quietly hummed along to the theme song of Mickey мышь club house ( old videotaped episodes from the middle 80s).



After a couple of минуты he seemed to be еще comfortable and started to talk to Grace. He сказал(-а) “Alanna keeps staring at my nose wondering what the heck I have sticking to my face!” She сказал(-а) “she probably doesn’t know what to make of it.” Truth be told I really didn’t care about the bandages on his face, I just thought he looked weird with a giant piece of gauze covering his nose!



June 29, 1995,



Dad was pacing back and forth across that living room floor. Why Ты ask? Lisa Marie Presley his ex-wife was coming over to visit and meet me for the first time since I’ve been born. As Ты can imagine he was extremely nervous about seeing her again. It had been months since they conversed on a civil matter. He was worried about what she might say about how much their lives have changed since the divorce.



Then she finally arrived and one of the security guards let her inside. She hugged dad and сказал(-а) “I can’t believe how long it’s been since we last talked Michael!” He сказал(-а) “I know, I know it feels as if we haven’t talked in years!” Dad knelt down and picked me up saying “this is Alanna, she’s my daughter.” Lisa stroked my head and сказал(-а) “she adorable Michael!” He сказал(-а) “thank Ты I know she is!” He pulled out a chair for her and they sat down at the кухня table.



Dad сказал(-а) “I have to admit that I was really nervous about seeing Ты again Lisa!” she looked at him puzzled and сказал(-а) “why were Ты nervous?” He сказал(-а) “after our flight on the Internet over a год назад I was worried how Ты would react to meeting Alanna for the first time!” She сказал(-а) “I was just really angry and sometimes when I’m angry I don’t realize what I’m saying until it’s too late!” He сказал(-а) “I still Любовь Ты just not as my wife… I married to Alanna’s mother now.” She asked “does she live here with you?” He сказал(-а) “no she lives on the other side of Los Angeles in a ranch house tending to all of her various animals.”



I сказал(-а) “blues clues please on TV!” Dad got up from his сиденье, место, сиденья and put in the videotape for me to watch. As he sat back down Lisa сказал(-а) “she must have a really good job to be able to afford that ranch house and all those animals!” He сказал(-а) “she works at my dermatologist office and no she doesn’t make that much.” Lisa asked “well then how does she pay for all of that stuff?” He hesitated to say “I gave Debbie compensation money for carrying our child and future children.” Lisa asked “wouldn’t that make her еще like a surrogate mother and a wife to you?” Dad сказал(-а) “I don’t feel comfortable talking to Ты about my private life!”



They walked into the living room and sat down on the диван, мягкий уголок Далее to me. I rested my head on dads lap and Lisa smile at the two of us. Dad asked me “can Ты say hi to Ms. Presley?” I hid my face in his legs and he сказал(-а) “oh, now Ты going to act shy!” He looked at Lisa and сказал(-а) “normally she’s very outgoing but when it comes to meeting new people she tends to be reserved.” She asked “I’m assuming she gets that dirty blonde hair from Debbie сказал(-а) his family obviously?” He сказал(-а) “yeah, other than that she looks like me!” She сказал(-а) “Alanna is so well behaved!” He chuckled and сказал(-а) “you just caught her on a good day… Normally she is pushing my buttons!” He asked “I have to put Ты in timeout a lot, don’t I Alanna?”



I started to blush and they both broke out laughing. Dad сказал(-а) “I bet Ты probably jinxed her good день Lisa!” He сказал(-а) “how are Ты kids I miss them?” She сказал(-а) “we’re doing well, they are getting so big!” He сказал(-а) “I’m starting my history tour soon and I would like Ты to have front row seats and backstage passes to my концерт for my Показать in Los Angeles!” He gave her the first two tickets before they even go on sale and she hugged him.



As she was getting ready to leave she kissed me on the cheek and сказал(-а) “I hope to see Ты guys soon!” Dad hugged her one last time and сказал(-а) “you will see is that the концерт in a couple months!” She сказал(-а) “yeah, but I won’t see Alanna!” He сказал(-а) “yes Ты will, she’s coming with me on tour!” She сказал(-а) shocked “well then, I will see soon!”



After she had left dad looked at a фото album the two of them together a few weeks after they had gotten married. I think deep down my dad still has feelings for her but, he didn’t want to get too far into their relationship and not be able to have any children of his own. I know he is still harboring feelings of hatred and resentment towards ever giving them manage it try. He was under the assumption that she would give him at least one child of his own, so as time went on and she still was refusing to have another child he felt hopeless. I don’t know if they would’ve lasted as long as he believes they would’ve but, that doesn’t matter anymore because I’m here and he’s happy!!!



July 17, 1995,



Dad, his manager Frank, and I were sitting in the living room waiting for a phone call with the results of the history tour ticket sales. They had gone on sale about five минуты назад and knowing how Популярное my dad is there probably all sold out! The phone rang and it spooked him and Frank as they jumped to answer it. Dad had his ear rested up against the back of the phone so he could listen in on the call. All I remember hearing is dad saying “oh well; I can’t believe it… That’s amazing!” Apparently that tickets sold out in less than 15 секунды for the entire tour, which if Ты ask me it’s pretty jaw dropping!



After the two of them got their composure dad сказал(-а) “I’m glad the tickets went so fast because this is going to be my last tour for a long time!” Frank сказал(-а) “yeah, yeah, yeah, I know Mike Ты don’t like to tour!” I climbed onto the диван, мягкий уголок and dad сказал(-а) “nanny Grace, you, and I are going to travel the world together…woo hoo!” I clapped my hands and сказал(-а) “yay!” Him and Frank laughed and he сказал(-а) “I think Alanna is еще excited about this than I am!”



August 30, 1995,



When I woke up this morning dad took me downstairs and put me in my highchair. He scooped some Фрукты салат onto my tray and sat down Далее to me. He picked up a клубника and asked “what Фрукты is this Alanna?” I сказал(-а) “that is a strawberry!” He ate it and сказал(-а) “very good!” I took a bite out of all the different foods and сказал(-а) “daddy I want to get out please.” He opened the highchair and lifted me out. He сказал(-а) “thank Ты for using your manners!”



Now that I’m talking еще I can also understand еще too. I was running around the living room and dad came in and sat down on the floor. I ran over to him and he started to tickle me. As I shrieked with laughter and he pretended to have a playful evil laugh! He сказал(-а) “the tickle monster is coming to get you!!!” He tossed in the air and caught me. I gave him a Kiss and pushed my container of blocks over to him. I dumped them out all over the floor and the two of us sorted them by color.



Dad has noticed that when he has a день off from rehearsals and spends time with me I don’t act out. Even when he is Главная though, I still get put into time out at least once a day. When dad says no he really means it. For a few weeks I thought he would give up on punishing me but he’s totally serious about how normal of a life I have. Most kids here in LA who are privileged by celebrity parents get away with anything but, I’m definitely not one of those kids!



September 13, 1995,



While I was in the living room playing with toys, dad noticed that my hair kept getting in my face. He has been putting off getting my hair cut for three months now. His reasoning for that is he doesn’t want me to grow up too fast. After all it did take 10 months for me to have a full head of hair, so I think it’s going to be hard for him to have it cut!



Dad picked me up and сказал(-а) “I don’t really want to do this but, I think it’s time for Ты to get a haircut!” He called for Karen Faye his hairstylist/makeup artist and she came downstairs. She asked “what do Ты need Michael?” He sighed and сказал(-а) “Alanna needs to have her first haircut!” She сказал(-а) “okay I can do that for you!” He сказал(-а) “I’d like to have her hair only go past her ears by half an inch; I didn’t really like her having long hair but, I couldn’t медведь having it cut!” He started to get a little teary eyed and Karen сказал(-а) “it’ll be okay Michael, it will grow back!”



Karen put me in a dining chair and covered me with an old towel. Dad sat down in the chair across from me and cringed every time Karen would chop off a lock of my dirty blonde hair. I smiled at him and he сказал(-а) “you look so cute!” I sneezed and he ran over to me with a tissue in his hand.



After Karen was done cutting my hair, dad looked at her and сказал(-а) “that looks so adorable!” He picked a piece of hair off the floor and сказал(-а) “this is going to go in her baby book!” Karen asked “did I do good job или not?” Dad smiled and сказал(-а) “I Любовь it, I want her hair to look like this from now on!”



October 31, 1995,



Today is my first Хэллоуин and dad had bought me a щенок costume to wear trick-or-treating. I was watching TV in my bedroom when he came upstairs to see when I was doing. He had the costume in his hands and helped me step into it. He zipped it up and сказал(-а) “you look so cute… My little brown щенок dog!” Grace walked in the room and сказал(-а) “I don’t know how Ты plan on bringing her trick-or-treating Michael!”



To be honest with you, I was thinking the same thing! After all my dad is Michael Jackson the international global phenomenon! He can barely leave the house unless he’s in disguise; let alone with his kid! He sat on the floor thinking about what bringing me out in public involved and I climbed into his lap. He smiled down at the floppy ears attached to my costume and I сказал(-а) “bark bark!”



Dad reluctantly сказал(-а) “I hate to tell her that we can’t go trick-or-treating after I got her all hyper and excited.” Grace сказал(-а) “well, it’s not like she knows what trick-or-treating is all about, she seems pretty happy to me just wearing the costume and running around!” He got up off the floor and сказал(-а) “yeah I guess you’re right; all just have to make a plan of action for Далее год so I am prepared!” She сказал(-а) “I know you’ll think of something Michael… You’re just good like that!” He watched me running around the room and сказал(-а) “she’s probably too young to remember this anyway!”



I can understand why he would be so upset by us not being able to go trick-or-treating because when he was a kid he wasn’t allowed to celebrate holidays because of his busy schedule and the fact that Jehovah witnesses do not celebrate holidays aside from Easter. It was hard for him because he wasn’t allowed to be a child, and he doesn’t want me to miss out on my childhood. He wants better for me than what he had. Which is why I know no matter how out-of-control I am in the future (because it’s becoming pretty apparent now that I will be defiant against authority) he will always Любовь me for who I am!”



November 2, 1995,



Dad was out in disguise shopping for some of my early Рождество presents when he came across a display of fancy feathered masks. In that moment he had an idea, he brought masks and ran out the store. He left in such a hurry that some of my gifts were still in the middle of the floor. The bodyguards had to go get them later on after the store had closed.



When dad did get back to the ranch I ran up to him screaming his name. He сказал(-а) “wait till Ты see what I got you!” He opened the bag he was carrying and pulled out some of the masks. Grace looked at him puzzled and asked “why did Ты buy all of those?” He put one of the masks on me and сказал(-а) “now I can bring her out in public with me and not have to worry about her being noticed или kidnapped!” Grace сказал(-а) “wow Ты can’t even tell that she looks like Ты because her face is hidden!”



I kept trying to take the mask off because it was hard to see what I was doing but, after a while I got used to it though! Now all that I need to do is to desensitize myself from all those loud screaming Фаны of his! I got up from the chair that I was sitting in and gave my dad a Kiss on the lips.



November 5, 1995,



This morning while I was eating my breakfast dad was talking on the phone with a representative from the HBO movie network. After they were done talking he took me out of my high chair and cleaned off the tray. Grace walked into the room and dad сказал(-а) “that was that movie network, they want me to do a концерт special about the new tour and I сказал(-а) I would do it.” She сказал(-а) “it’s not really my place to say anything but, you’re pushing yourself too hard… Ты need a break Michael!” He сказал(-а) “I’ll be fine, I’ve done stuff like this before and I can handle it!”



I started throwing toys all over the кухня and dad сказал(-а) “don’t do that; it’s not safe!” I looked at him and threw another toy across the room. It hit him on the foot and he gave me his look that all parents give to the kids when they mean business. I walked over to the corner of the room and stood there facing the wall. I knew that’s where he was going to put me anyways. It’s getting to the point though where timeout doesn’t seem like much of a punishment anymore. I just sit there and wait for him to tell me I can get out!



December 8, 1995,



While dad was filming for the Телевидение special I was at Главная with nanny Grace for the day. I was playing with some of my toys when the phone rang. All I remember hearing is Grace saying “oh my gosh; don’t worry we’ll be there in a matter of minutes!” She grabbed me and ran out the door, trying not to panic! I had no idea where we were going but, something must be going on!



We pulled up in front of a hospital and Grace took me out of the car. A nurse directed us to a room and dad was laying there in a white gown. He looked up at me and smiled as Grace passed me to him. She asked “what happened to Ты Michael?” He kissed my forehead and сказал(-а) “I just started to feel really dizzy and then I just collapsed… I couldn’t get any air to my lungs!” Grace looked worried and сказал(-а) “so how long did the doctor say Ты have to stay here for?” He сказал(-а) “they сказал(-а) that most of the pain I was feeling is attributed to stress and that as long as I take a break every once in a while I’ll be fine!” She сказал(-а) “I told Ты Michael Ты need to take it easy on yourself!”



Dad got up from his hospital постель, кровати and grabbed his куртка off one of the chairs that was in the room. I nodded off while I was in his arms and we went out to the car. He buckled me to my car сиденье, место, сиденья and one on the bodyguards drove us home. I remember waking up to dad and nanny Grace arguing back and forth about how he needed to relax еще for my sake!



This was the first time I remember my dad putting his health at risk by over working himself. I think part of his reasoning for this was that he was pushed into doing the tour when he didn’t want to. The problem is with everyone telling them what he should and should not do; he doesn’t know who to believe! Most of the reason why he’s touring again is to make sure we’re extremely financially stable for a long, long time.