Dear Michael, our dearest Michael, I'm sorry for the way I am. I'm sorry for being so negative. I don't try to be this was, to be frank. I'm doing this because I mean it. I really mean it. I hope you're not disappointed или displeased of me. Believe me, I really don't try to be mean. It's either because of my Asperger syndrome I have (which I consider an illness even though it's not) или that the devil is trying to take over my me. But deep in my soul and сердце I'm NOT evil или cold hearted and I don't want anybody especially Ты thinking that I am cause that's not right. It's just that the fact that you're gone is making so tense ever sense. I'm just in pain right now. Depression and loneliness and emptiness and nothingness inside me and I got nobody to help me out. Michael, I know you're not going to like what I'm about to say and that goes to whomever is Чтение this too. I am much much еще than sorry about the день I tried to cu... Well,you know what. I did it for two reasons: 1. I felt like I needed it. I needed something to express how I feel. 2. I wanted to take the pain for whomever is suffering in this world. But no worries. Even though I'm still so lonely and so sad, I'm not an Эмо anymore. What I did to myself is what emos do to themselves and it's completely wrong ( and painful. Literally).You taught us a lot, Michael. What Любовь and kindness is all about, how to smile even though I'm sad, I can go on 24/7. I feel like I took all what Ты taught for granted. I even feel like I sinned. If I did I really didn't mean to. I wish there was some way I can make it up to you. But what? I'm thinking about joining the ASPCA thing but I don't know how like Ты do. Ты see, I Любовь planet earth too. Just like Ты do. I want to help but I need help myself but who would be willing to help me? I feel useless. Ты are the most popular, successful, and nicest and wonderful man that ever set foot on the planet and me...I'm just a sketch artist, a pianist and a beginners contortionist. Michael, even though this world is a mess, Ты still didn't give up on it. Ты had whatever it took to make the world a better place. And Ты nkow what, I say Ты did make it a better place but without Ты now, what do we do? See what I mean? The fact that you're not here anymore is beating me and beating me so hard and I can't fight back....like I сказал(-а) before: even though this world is a mess, Ты still had the courage to change that and make us happy and I have faith in Ты for that along with Christ. Thank you, Michael. And once again, I'm so so very sorry. Please forgive me!!!!! :'(
In Michael's eyes, Maris was special and he wanted to get to know her.
i argee with Ты a 100 percent its not about how much stuff Ты own that's about michael или how many Книги Ты have about michael its about L-O-V-E that Ты have for michael and the respect that Ты have for him yes i have been a Фан of michael for 3 years now almost 4 years i read alot of Книги about him only the true ones and i have cd's that i own that i listen to alot i listen and read his Книги and listen to his Музыка is because its really good and i enjoy them although my family isnt a Фан of him doesnt matter to me i Любовь michael as a person not a enterainer like Ты сказал(-а) if michael was still here it would be so awesome if i had a full conversation with him about nothing but Болталка things and just have fun