sitting there looking out my barred window
looking at the 2 Любовь birds
fluttering their wings
they look so sweet and so in Любовь
I frown....
will I ever have that?
I wonder most my life
in and out of ppls worlds
fake ppl that say they Любовь me
when they only truly want to use me
to hurt me then lose me
I am selfish
all I have dreamed of was
Любовь
family
understanding
laughter
friendship
I am selfish
a stubborn mother who wasn't suppose to bare me
a fathers hate bc of the lose of his wife
a mean hearted brother that hated the air I breathed
lies
abuse
hate
is what I grew to know as a world at which I couldn't win at
a world that shunned me and hated me
I hated it right back and laughed at ppl who сказал(-а) that...
one день someone will want me
I am selfish
all I have dreamed of was
Любовь
family
understanding
laughter
friendship
I am selfish
a foster family I was ripped out of
a family that hated me used me and abused me
unthinkable things that u would only see in Фильмы
I survived
I drank
I cut
I swore
I didn't care
the meaner ppl got the еще hateful I got
laughing at ppl
making fun of ppl who really seemed happy
for their tears made me smile
I am selfish
all I have dreamed of was
Любовь
family
understanding
laughter
friendship
I am selfish
at the end
finished
done
hell with the world
a razor in one hand
a bottle of водка in the other
.....
one post the only post that saved my pathetic little life...
a new beginning
a world of Любовь
hope
family
understanding
smiling happy for the first time in my life
loved by someone who saw me for me
a mom
kids
a life I could call my own...
I am selfish
all I have dreamed of was
Любовь
family
understanding
laughter
friendship
I am selfish
im still not good enough
called selfish
told I only thought of myself
I share the work I help when I can...
yet selfish and told I should never have been brought there...
crying huddled in a corner
being called a сука in hateful worlds
no one to talk to without starting a fight
....
he stands there when I know later he will say he didn't mean those nasty things he сказал(-а)
when I know in his deepest hearts of hearts
he did mean it
a pain I will carry with me forever
I am selfish
all I have dreamed of was
Любовь
family
understanding
laughter
friendship
I am selfish
I will stand by u
I will Любовь u
I Любовь mom
I Любовь the kids
all of u
unconditionally
but I never forget the cold night that took me back
to looking at those Любовь birds by my window
when I was called
I am selfish
all I have dreamed of was
Любовь
family
understanding
laughter
friendship
I am selfish
looking at the 2 Любовь birds
fluttering their wings
they look so sweet and so in Любовь
I frown....
will I ever have that?
I wonder most my life
in and out of ppls worlds
fake ppl that say they Любовь me
when they only truly want to use me
to hurt me then lose me
I am selfish
all I have dreamed of was
Любовь
family
understanding
laughter
friendship
I am selfish
a stubborn mother who wasn't suppose to bare me
a fathers hate bc of the lose of his wife
a mean hearted brother that hated the air I breathed
lies
abuse
hate
is what I grew to know as a world at which I couldn't win at
a world that shunned me and hated me
I hated it right back and laughed at ppl who сказал(-а) that...
one день someone will want me
I am selfish
all I have dreamed of was
Любовь
family
understanding
laughter
friendship
I am selfish
a foster family I was ripped out of
a family that hated me used me and abused me
unthinkable things that u would only see in Фильмы
I survived
I drank
I cut
I swore
I didn't care
the meaner ppl got the еще hateful I got
laughing at ppl
making fun of ppl who really seemed happy
for their tears made me smile
I am selfish
all I have dreamed of was
Любовь
family
understanding
laughter
friendship
I am selfish
at the end
finished
done
hell with the world
a razor in one hand
a bottle of водка in the other
.....
one post the only post that saved my pathetic little life...
a new beginning
a world of Любовь
hope
family
understanding
smiling happy for the first time in my life
loved by someone who saw me for me
a mom
kids
a life I could call my own...
I am selfish
all I have dreamed of was
Любовь
family
understanding
laughter
friendship
I am selfish
im still not good enough
called selfish
told I only thought of myself
I share the work I help when I can...
yet selfish and told I should never have been brought there...
crying huddled in a corner
being called a сука in hateful worlds
no one to talk to without starting a fight
....
he stands there when I know later he will say he didn't mean those nasty things he сказал(-а)
when I know in his deepest hearts of hearts
he did mean it
a pain I will carry with me forever
I am selfish
all I have dreamed of was
Любовь
family
understanding
laughter
friendship
I am selfish
I will stand by u
I will Любовь u
I Любовь mom
I Любовь the kids
all of u
unconditionally
but I never forget the cold night that took me back
to looking at those Любовь birds by my window
when I was called
I am selfish
all I have dreamed of was
Любовь
family
understanding
laughter
friendship
I am selfish
