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After losing my best friend, Barry, I slipped into a depression. My grandparents refused to see me. My less consistent Друзья turned their backs on me. The only ones there for me were my aunt and uncle, my brother, Daniel, and my cousin, Barbara Ann. I had very little, if any, self-confidence. I didn't even try to confront Grandpa again, fearing he would beat me again. The only thing that brought me any happiness was music. I still enjoyed the Beatles above all others, but I liked to explore different bands as well. I overheard someone talking about a metal band called System of a Down, so I decided to check them out. I never listened to metal before. I picked up a CD titled, "Steal This Album!" I listened to it, and I fell in Любовь with it. I felt a connection with some of the lyrics in the song, "Ego Brain".

"You see my pain is real
Watch my world dissolve
And pretend that none of us see the fall."

What I took from that lyric is this. The songwriter is experiencing a lot of emotional pain, and he's pretending that he's all right. It made me feel better knowing that somebody out there knew how I was feeling. I still wished I had some friends, but I was getting nothing but bullied. In life science, I learned that I was ugly, a loser, and a freak. In English, I learned that I don't belong. In mathematics, I learned that I was lame. Should I go on? No, I think I covered it well. One thing I didn't learn was why no one helped me. I went Главная crying one day. Daniel said, "Hey, little sis. Are Ты okay?" I said, "No." He asked, "What's wrong?" I said, "It's nothing. Forget I сказал(-а) anything." He said, "No, it's okay. Ты can tell me." I said, "I'm a freak." He said, "Erin, Ты are not a freak." I then said, "And I'm a loser." He said, "No, Erin!" I said, "And I don't belong." He said, "Oh, my God! Where on Earth did Ты get ideas like that?" I said, "That's all I ever get told in school. No one ever helps me. Nobody cares." He said, "Erin, I had no idea all this was going on." I said, "Nobody loves me." He said, "That's bullshit, and Ты know it!" He told my aunt and uncle. My aunt said, "Erin, we all Любовь Ты very much." My uncle said, "That's right. Don't ever think Ты are not loved. If someone's picking on you, please tell us. We'll try to fix it." My aunt paid a visit to the school. The bullying slowed down, but I still wished I had friends. Everybody needs a least one friend.
Catherine's Point of View
One night, I was talking with one of my friends. I said, "I'm going to tell Ты something that I don't usually tell anyone. It was the секунда worst part of the eighth grade, the part I didn't include in my story." She said, "You can tell me anything." I said, "During the last six months of my seventh grade year, I ended up with endometriosis. The following summer, I had a hysterectomy. At the beginning of my eighth grade year, I told one of my friends. Later, she wrote in one of the bathroom stalls, 'Catherine is a slut puppy.' That nickname spread like wildfire. I'm...
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Catherine's Point of View
One morning, during the summer, I noticed something wasn't right with one of my dogs. My Labrador, Sadie, seemed very lethargic. She did not want to eat или drink anything. I felt of her stomach, and it was really hard. My uncle took her to the vet, and it turned out her stomach had bloated. The vet tried to empty the blockage, but to no avail. The only humane thing was having her euthanized. As if that wasn't bad enough, I got a call from my friend, Sally, asking for me and Gavin to come to the hospital. I asked, "What's wrong?" She said, "You remember when I was treated...
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Catherine's Point of View
One day, I received a call that Gavin was hurt. I went over to his house to see if he was okay. He had a big cut on his face. It was deep, but he didn't need stitches. He has some bruising around the cut as well. I asked, "What happened?" He said, "I was opening the car door, and I accidentally hit myself in the face. I fainted when I saw blood." I said, "I'm sorry. I hope that heals up soon." He said, "I'm sure it will." He was left with a scar on his face. The one good thing about it was that he gained some respect. When I got beat up near the end of the school year,...
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Catherine's Point of View
One morning, I got up, and I opened my bedroom door. All of my Собаки were sitting there except my husky, Diesel. I thought, "It's not like Diesel to go off by himself." I called for him, but he never came. I went downstairs. I looked in the living room and saw him lying on the floor. He wasn't moving. I walked up to him and started talking to him. He didn't respond. I knelt down beside of my beloved dog to check for signs of life, nothing. I fell on вверх of him and cried. I said, "Diesel, please don't be dead! You've been my buddy for twelve years! Ты can't die!" I told...
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Catherine's Point of View
Sometime later in the school year, Gavin's father and mother went on a business trip. Gavin stayed with me and my aunt and uncle for the week. It worked out, because Gavin and I go to school together, and his dog got along with my dogs. That Monday, our school день started out well. Sometime after lunch, some of our schools mates shoved us in the janitor's closet and locked us in there. It was really dark, and I got really scared. I was on the verge of having a panic attack. Gavin said, "We'll be okay. Someone will find us soon." I calmed down some. Not only was it dark...
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Catherine's Point of View
Spring Break came, and we got a week off from school. One morning, I got up, but then I fell down the stairs. As I tried to get up, I felt a sharp pain in my right knee. I couldn't get up. I cried for help. My aunt ran to me. She asked, "Are Ты okay? What happened?" I said, "I fell down the stairs, and my right knee hurts. I can't get up." She helped me up, but I couldn't walk. She said, "I need to get Ты to the hospital." I had to wait for a long time at the hospital. I could understand why, considering there was a man who had a сердце attack there. Still, the fact...
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Catherine's Point of View
It was Valentine's Day. My Друзья and I made Valentine's день cards for each other. After school, we all met at Jennifer's house to exchange them. I was careful about what I wrote on some of them, because not all of my Друзья understand my humor. The only ones who do are Gavin, Jennifer, and William. The card I made for Gavin was a classic example of my humor. On the outside, I wrote, "It's Valentine's Day. I got Ты a card." On the inside, I wrote, "This is the inside of it." Gavin laughed until he cried when he read it. He said, "Oh, Catherine, always funny!" I said,...
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Catherine's Point of View
One день in January, it was snowing. I said, "I swear it was warmer at Christmas." Gavin said, "I know. It felt еще like May than December." Pretty soon, it was getting really cold. I said, "It's colder than I can stand right now. I think we should go back inside." Gavin said, "I agree." As we were going inside, Gavin slipped on a patch of black ice on the driveway. I asked, "Gavin, are Ты okay?" He said, "Yeah." He got up, and I noticed that he was limping. I said, "You're hurt." He said, "I'm all right....ow!" I said, "But you're limping." He said, "Maybe I'm not...
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Catherine's Point of View
Our sophomore год was a good год for the most part. Gavin and I didn't get bullied much. The few times we did, we usually took up for each other. One day, Gavin was sick, and he couldn't be there to take up for me. Some bullies mocked me and pushed me down the stairs. Jennifer told the bullies off, and William helped me to my feet. He asked, "Are Ты okay?" I said, "Yeah, I'm okay." I was a bit upset. When I came home, I put on some Beatles Музыка to make myself feel better. I felt better, and one of my Друзья even told me a joke. She said, "What is the difference...
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Catherine's Point of View
One день during the summer, I decided to visit with Gavin. When I made it over there, his dog, Oliver, greeted me. I said, "Hi, Oliver! Where's Gavin?" The dog led me to Gavin. Gavin was resting under the дерево in his backyard. I said, "You look comfortable, Gavin." I expected him to say, "I am," but he didn't. Oliver licked his face, but he didn't stir. I thought, "Oh, God! Has he passed out?" I knelt down beside of him and gently shook him. "Gavin!" I cried. "Gavin, are Ты okay?!" He opened his eyes and said, "Good morning!" I said, "Gavin, don't scare me like that!...
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Catherine's Point of View
It was summer, and one day, Gavin came to me crying. I asked, "Are Ты okay?" He said, "No." I asked, "What's wrong?" He said, "My grandfather just died." I said, "Gavin, I'm so sorry." I hugged him. He continued to cry. I understood how he felt, since I had Остаться в живых Pops less than two years earlier. Despite my fear of heights, I decided to fly to Liverpool with Gavin. His father asked, "Are Ты sure Ты want to do this?" I said, "Gavin was there for me when Pops died. It's my turn to be there for Gavin." His mother said, "That's very sweet of you, love." On the plane,...
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Catherine's Point of View
One night, I heard that there was going to be a meteor shower. Bonnie, Gavin, and I went up a холм, хилл that was overlooking the high school, as it was a dark hill. After we saw the meteor shower, we looked down the холм, хилл towards the school. Bonnie said, "Ya know, that school seemed so big when I first started attending it, but looking down on it now, I realize how small it really is." I said, "Really?" She said, "Yeah. It seems like just yesterday when I was a freshman like Ты guys. Now I'm just four months away form graduating." Gavin said, "That's crazy. This time next...
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Catherine's Point of View
It was the last день of school before Рождество Break. At one point, I noticed that I was having some pain in my right side. Gavin asked, "Catherine, are Ты all right?" I said, "Yeah, I'm just fine. Why?" He said, "You're Актёрское искусство like you're hurt." I said, "Oh, I'm just having some pain in my right side. I'm probably bruised from where I slipped and fell on a patch of ice, no big deal." Jennifer overheard me and said, "Look, I'm not a doctor, but Ты should definitely go see one." I said, "I think I'll be okay. I'll see what happens tomorrow." The Далее day, the pain...
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Catherine's Point of View
One day, I was visiting with my paternal grandparents. A thunderstorm was approaching as we were getting ready to leave. As I was walking to my aunt and uncle's car, I felt a bolt of lightning hit me. I felt the strike, and the Далее thing I knew, I woke up in my uncle's arms. He said, "Holy cow! I thought Ты were dead!" I said, "You did?" He said, "Yeah. Ты looked dead." My aunt said, "You really did." I said, "That really hurt." My uncle said, "I think we should get Ты to a hospital just to be sure you're okay." Thankfully, I only had minor injuries. The doctor...
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Catherine's Point of View
It was our first день of high school. Gavin and I were quite nervous, to be honest. The день started out badly. I heard someone make fun of Gavin's accent. The bully asked, "What's up with the cheesy accent?" Gavin replied, "I'm from England, Liverpool, to be exact." The bully said, "Oh, you're from that town where those insects are from. That explains your trashy haircut. Ты should be beaten for that." I walked up to the bully and said, "If Ты hurt Gavin, Ты better make plans for me to hurt you." The bully ran in fear and never bothered us again. Later, I got punched...
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Catherine's Point of View
I was reluctant to include the eighth grade in the story. There weren't too many good things that happened that year. The only good things that happened that год were a couple of new Друзья that I made and the fact that I made straight A's. Everything else that happened was bad. The worst thing that happened that год was the death of my maternal grandfather. Although my mother died in childbirth, her parents still wanted to have a relationship with me. I was close to Pops, (that's what I called him). I did at times think he needed to be knocked off of his pompous...
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Catherine's Point of View
One day, in the seventh grade, I noticed some kids threatening to beat Gavin. I came up to the bullies and said, "Don't beat up my friend. If Ты want to beat up someone, do it to me." Gavin said, "Catherine, no! What are Ты doing?!" I said, "I'd rather it be me than you!" The bullies began beating on me. Gavin begged the bullies to stop, but his pleas fell on deaf ears. I was outnumbered, so I couldn't fight back. Gavin tried to physically get them off of me, but he was unsuccessful. I said, "Gavin, get out of here! They'll get you, too!" Gavin said, "Hold on, Catherine!...
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Catherine's Point of View
Christmas Vacation was officially over, and we were back in school. Gavin and I were heading to our Далее class, and we saw someone being bullied. A group of kids punched a girl in the face, and she fell to the ground. Gavin said, "Come on, Catherine! Let's get those bullies away from her." I said, "I'm right behind you! I can't just stand and watch someone get bullied." We approached the bullies, and Gavin said, "Back off! I've got crutches, and I'm not afraid to use them!" The bullies walked away. I helped the girl to her feet and asked, "Are Ты okay?" She said, "Yeah....
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Catherine's Point of View
A couple of months passed, and Gavin and I became really, really close, but one day, there was something in the air. Whatever it was, Gavin and I got into a horrible argument. I don't remember what we were arguing about, but we сказал(-а) some cruel things to each other. I dare not repeat them. I went Главная crying. Later, I decided to make up with Gavin. I went across the улица, уличный to his home. His mother answered the door. I said, "I need to talk to Gavin. I want to make up with him." She said, "I'll tell him you're here." A few минуты later, she returned and said, "He's gone."...
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Catherine's Point of View
One October day, it had started out normally. Gavin and I had a really good день until the last class of the day. We had some free time at the end of the class. There was a girl calling me ugly and deformed. I was upset, but I tried not to Показать that she got to me. Gavin came up beside me and said, "Hey! Be nice to her!" The girl asked, "What are Ты gonna do? Boys can't hit girls." He said, "I know, but if they could, you'd be the first one I'd hit." She said, "But girls can hit boys." He said, "Go ahead! Hit me!" She punched him in the mouth, knocking out a tooth. The...
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