I really need Peter right now

I've been on this site for about a год now and in that time I've been slipping in and out of belief. It's difficult being a 16 год old boy and believing in Peter Pan and I quite often... not stop believing but еще stop thinking about him because it's easier to clear my mind of him than to be constantly thinking about him and him never Показ up.It's been an interesting year, I've fallen in Любовь twice and had my сердце broken both times and I've never felt еще lonely yet at the same time I haven't felt this happy since my pre-teen years. It's weird and I don't really know how I feel или what I believe but what I know for sure is I need to believe in Peter right now so that's what I'm trying my hardest to do. This sin't really a question, I just needed to vent :)