Hi everybody, good buddy Kyo here… uhm, I'm not really used to this sorry for the nervousness. I'm not really sure about how to go about this. I mean, it's sort of out of the blue but I want to at least put what happened out there for other Хеталия Фаны like myself. I guess I'll just, talk… type или whatever and just get this through. As much of an interesting experience this was, I'd rather not remember it and continue on with my derp life.

All right so, this happened a while ago, before school started, that it went down. But I should probably go back even further to when it really first started. It was when Axis Powers Хеталия was in full swing; секунда season was still bounding through the fandom and giving out new glorious episodes every Monday.

My older sister and I were both very involved in the series, which was a rare occasion since she often didn't share interests with me. Oh sure, I would force myself to get into whatever she was getting into so we could at least have a reason to hang out, but this was the first she came into my fandom without me working for it. It was really nice. Considering it was still unknown in our small town, it was even nicer to just have someone to relate to.

She and I cosplayed it together, watched episodes together, got merchandise together, Ты know the whole kit-caboodle. Though she was always able to get еще stuff than I was because she actually had a job. At some point, she actually bought a bootleg DVD of Хеталия so she could be able to watch it at any time, (Whose picture I've provided here thanks to my mother lending me her camera for a секунда before she had it sold the Далее week) of course all the episodes just being ripped from the internet sites that had them subbed. I watched one или two episodes with her but really I was content with watching them online so I left her to it.

About two или three days after she got the DVD, she acted really… weird, is the best way I can describe it. In a drop of a hat, she dropped the whole Хеталия series, setting aside her merchandise and shelving her Хеталия cosplays, even selling some of them. When I tried to ask her about what was up, she just сказал(-а) she didn't want to talk about it to the point that she'd glare at me if I mentioned it to her. I was extremely disappointed at losing my sister when it came to sibling bonding and the fandom, at the time just figuring she 'grew out of it' или found something even better. That mindset especially fit in when she started to read Застрявшие дома soon after it to have something to do.

Now here's where it got even weirder, now it's been a while since then probably like about a месяц или so. I'm not sure why, probably a phone call from my best friend, I got the urge to watch some episodes with just some classic good ol' Italy. Though currently the internet was being worked on by my father, since he was changing phone providers and all that mess, so I decided to look for that Хеталия DVD my sister had.

It took me a long while but I found it shoved in the back of the DVD cabinet, not sure exactly why she shoved it back there... well at the time. The bootleg wasn't that bad really; it had Фан art of the everyone as chibi's around the world with the Название on top, same for the disc just printed on Фан art. I popped the DVD in the player in my room and decided to look through the episodes to find a really fun one, maybe the one when Romano is first introduced.

As I went through the 'Episode Choice' option though, I found something really weird in between episode 23 and 24; for those who don't know it's the 'Liechtenstein and Switzerland' episodes, very cute indeed~ and the 24th has the conclusion of the Axis on an Island arc.. thing. But there was another square choice like an episode, but there really wasn't a Название Далее to it, saying what number it was или what the episode was about. Though it wasn't that it was untitled that caught my interest, but the screenshot of it. It was Italy smiling, looking upwards in a content daze (his eyes actually OPENED mind you!) with glistening eyes and what looked like sand, like perhaps he was laying on it.

This blew my friggin mind, for this was something new! I craved for new things in a fandom, always! Perhaps this was a hidden chapter I wasn't aware of, like a bonus episode! I bit my lip and trembled with excitement, and I knew I had this all to myself. Wait until my Друзья heard about this! I was going to be еще knowledgeable than anyone else! Of course… when I look back, I wish that I wouldn't have found it.

Without much ado, I clicked the 'select' button on my remote to watch it. The Название Анимация appeared as always, the large orchestra blaring out for a few секунды to Показать the Japanese katakana of 'HETALIA' with 'Axis Powers' Далее to it. Soon after it shifted to the view of the island that the axis were stranded on, Япония and Germany sitting against a shade of the дерево while Italy just laid in the sand, soaking up sun with that cute dumb look on his face.

Now before I go on, I've read stories like this before about Остаться в живых episodes of Мультики (stories that I didn't believe in until now honestly), and I know how they went off about it being in extremely bad quality, but this actually wasn't too bad. Sure it wasn't the *best* quality, it was still quite pixelly from being ripped from a site then burned onto a disc, but it was okay, the sound just a tad muffled nothing too out of the ordinary. Of course, this just kinda made it creepier later on when it was able to be seen better... but I'll get that in a bit.

Back to the episode, while Italy was sunbathing in his куртка and shorts, the camera cut over to Germany and Japan, though they both looked a tad... upset, if not a bit worried. And then they started to speak… two things through me off. One, there was no subtitles, so I had zero idea what they were talking about, and two… their voices were actually those who voiced them in the series. I was extremely impressed of such raw footage, though I was a bit miffed there were no subs. Oh well, as long as Hiroki Yasumoto (Germany's seiyuu) kept talking, I was happy all of the way.

The two seemed to be chatting about something serious, Germany clutching his stomach from time to time in pain as Япония would nod and set a hand on his stomach as well. My guess was that they had run out of steady Еда on the item so they were starving. That was kind of a downer to start the episode on, but it was only the beginning there was probably a fun way to get Еда later on! Just then Italy had called out, having the two of them look up to where he was, which was now currently running around in the ocean. He waved to them, and the two of them waved back unenthusiastically before the other went back to just playing in the sun and water.

I didn't notice this until then, but the only thing playing in the background of this was the ocean's waves, something not uncommon but it certain kept the atmosphere kind of stoic, especially when the focus was to the hungry and worried nations in the shade. But either way I was too sucked up in just the beautiful new material I didn't Вопрос it. I didn't even care that I didn't know the bulk of it; I mostly cared for the actions anyway.

The nations were quite for a while, before Япония had seemed to ask something and Germany look to him in shock, almost exclaiming before being quietly hushed by the island nation, making him whisper the line instead. Ooh what was Япония thinking, I thought~ But Япония had repeated the Japanese statement in a еще quieter and clearer tone, not taking his eyes off Italy in the water. For a few moments the two of them discussed the issue, obviously talking about the Italian, though soon enough the two of them nodded in agreement. At that moment, even though it was just for a few seconds, Germany had made the saddest face I had ever seen… like he could burst out to tears at any moment but kept it back. Honestly I inwardly flipped my shit at such emotion, even if it was short, though it made me wonder even еще what brought it on!

The scene changed to the night time, the three nations huddled around the огонь for warmth, though they seemed at least content with their jackets on being near the warmth. As usual, Italy was fast asleep Далее to it, sleeping contently while leaving the other two nations to their thoughts. Still, only the sound of the oceans crashing against the берег was heard in the background as the two were silent, though soon enough the camera panned over them giving each other a subtle nod.

In unison, the two stood up, going over to Italy and picking him up very carefully, not wanting to wake him up. At this point I was extremely confused, what were they planning to do with him? Were they going to a new location? Quietly, they shuffled the sleeping nation over to the ocean, and carefully set him in face down, Япония setting his hands over the others head so to keep it still below the water's surface. It didn't take long until Italy began to thrash around, bubbles popping furiously on the water Далее to his head, only having Япония press down harder while Germany was looking away with eyes closed and lip being bitten onto, hard.

While this was going on, my mouth was hanging ajar. Япония and Germany… were drowning Italy?! Why?! As I just watched this insanity, I recognized the words 'gomennasai, Italia' come from Japan. 'Sorry, Italy.' What the hell?!

About fifteen секунды later, which felt like almost forever of watching the poor nation, Italy's limbs fell with a plop in the water, the bubbles ceasing to rise anymore. The deed was done. But why?! Япония and Germany picked up the waterlogged Italy and brought him back to shore, placing him down Далее to the fire. While Germany sat aside, just staring at the огонь as if contemplating what they just did, Япония unsheathed his sword and kneeled down Далее to the corpse, taking off his own куртка and setting it aside. With one еще look to the blonde before back down, Япония took a deep breath before making an incision from the base of his neck all the way down to his bellybutton, cutting in a bit еще so he was able to flip the skin back to reveal the bloody organs of the once living nation.

At this, I had to pause the episode, feeling quite lightheaded at this. I just couldn't believe what I was seeing. I mean, I read and look at gory Хеталия stuff… but seeing it down in Studio Deen's style, and done in official voices (or if its fake.. a really good artist and very good sound a-likes), it was just way too surreal for me. And while I had the TV paused, I had a good chance to look at Italy's insides (god that sounds so weird as I type this), and they just looked so *real*. Not that they were hypercammed but as if the artist had stared at the inside anatomy of a person for hours, drawing every little curve to making it realistic.

I wanted to stop watching, I wanted to just turn it off and abandon that TV with the DVD inside. But I was already too far in; I had to see this through to the end. It would haunt me for the rest of my life if I stopped here. After taking a short breather and drinking some water, I pressed play on my remote to resume the madness.

Instantly I was greeted by a 'sluuuurp' sound of Япония sliding his hand into Italy's body and pulling out one of the organs out of place, it looking like the liver (with it so detailed it was hard not to mistake the organ). Япония sighed as he cut off the connecting strand with his sword and set the mess of an organ onto the others discarded куртка before going back in and setting aside a kidney, both of them. While Япония searched around, Germany reached over to some sharpened sticks he seemed to have gathered earlier and penetrated the sharp end through each organ that Япония had laid out. With a saddened sigh, he set the organ-kabobs on a range on the огонь so it could get cooked, which I didn't know how that was even possible.

Once more, after a seemingly long period of time, Germany pulled the now cooked liver from the огонь while handing Япония - who accepted it with his arms still blood smeared - a kidney. Both of them were in silence before Япония murmured 'itadakimasu' and both took a large bite from it. Ugh it still makes me feel weird when I think about seeing that scene… but that lightheadedness faded as I heard something that made me gasp.

'….Doitsu?...Nihon?...'

The both of them turned in shock, the camera panning over to Показать that Italy was awake. What!? How was he awake?! They drowned him! или was he just unconscious? Hell, I wasn't even sure what was going on, and it seemed like the other two had no idea either. Germany and Япония tried to explain themselves, but Italy began to grow еще panicked, slowly getting what was happening and he began to scream, in pain, fear, sadness, I couldn't even pinpoint what emotion was there. But it was so weird to hear him like that, it almost sounded like the man voicing him was in a large amount of pain himself.

Germany and Япония went over him, trying to get him to be quiet. Though after the large confusion of everyone yelling at once, Germany was the one to finally scream for everyone to be quiet, shaking Italy to try to make him quiet, resulting to just tugging the curl to make him stop momentarily. At this point, when I should have laughed, I was practically at the point of tears.

Germany talked, trying to appear strong and try to explain their situation. My guess of the situation was, there was no Еда left, so they were going to eat Italy since he was the weakest. Though he was a nation, right? They were all nations! Why did they have to resort to that? Was that why Italy woke up?
Soon enough, Italy gave an understanding nod, whimpering in pain and fear as well. He sputtered out something, pausing at a point to cough, blood drooling down his chin. Now it was Japan's turn to talk, seeming to try to comfort him in a soothing tone. And after his small speech, Italy nodded once еще before looking down, seeing that Germany was gripping his hand tightly. With another nod from the German and Japanese nation, Япония went back over and scooped his hand into his now somewhat functioning body, pulling and cutting out his spleen and setting it aside.

Italy almost screamed, reduced to a sort of mixture of whimpering and sobbing, the camera cut to a view of his and Germany's hand becoming еще constricted against each other. The shot panned up to the frowning Germany, who once glanced to Japans work before speaking again, calling Italy's attention. He spoke for a bit, trying to smile, and soon Italy smiled back at him, for once in the series actually opening his eyes to reveal their golden honey color and called him the familiar word he used to call him 'captain'.

Then there was a time skip of soon a large portion of organs lying on Italy's jacket, things I could recognize being intestines, pancreas, bladder, practically everything but the brain, lungs and heart. Япония wiped an arm to his forehead, smearing it with blood accidentally before impaling them on sticks and sticking near the fire. He turned back to Germany, who was still holding Italy's hand. He crawled over to get a closer look, and Italy had seemed to pass on again, his eyes lightly glistening and staring blankly upwards with a small smile on his head.
This shot was the very one showed in the menu.

Япония looked up to Germany, seeing that he was frowning, blue eyes glistening with tears as he still tried to get over having this happen to him. Япония set a hand on his shoulder, murmuring something seemingly comforting, making Germany nod in agreement and sigh shakily. Япония frowned lightly at this before he moved aside, grabbing the dead Italian's free hand and squeezing it lightly saying something to Germany before looking to the огонь where the organs were roasting. Germany glanced back to the огонь for a moment before looked up to the sky where Italy was staring, the camera panning upwards to it, past the stars and everything until it was completely black.

And then the Далее episode started playing. Just like that, no credits или anything. Just left the episode on a cryptic или optimistic note. I have no idea.

I wish I could have it run on my computer to get screenshots, but the disk refuses to play on here for some reason (though my friend Fia was kind enough to get two screenshots for me, though the disk only worked on her computer for so long), and I don't really have a good camera to snap a clear picture. But I'd rather not look at that again. It may not sound as bad when Ты read this, but that made me get away from Хеталия for a while honestly. Though I am not as weak stomach as my sister, I still Любовь the series and I will continue to Любовь it.

But since then, I refuse to watch any Аниме episodes. I would prefer to see Фан made gore over official ones any time.