Look around you, I told myself, over and over and over again. Look around you, and cry. Cry freely, girl.
But I didn't. I couldn't find the strength to cry... to make the tears fall from my eyes. I didn't think I was ready to let the tears hit the ground with a soft patter; to wince at the sad and depressing sound that came from my mouth; to let Duncan see that I couldn't handle anything.
I looked up at him. His eyes were glazed and pained as he gazed into mine. I immediately felt a pang of guilt, and I sighed.
"Mina?" He brushed my cheek.
I didn't answer. I wanted to cry -- yet I didn't... I had no idea why. I wanted to let it all go, yet the other half of me, the еще determined half.. warned me not to let it go until it was the right time.
Whatever that was.
"Duncan..." I would do it. I would break up with Duncan. "I'm... sorry." Well, that's great, my sarcasm inside me sneered. You're sorry. How delightful. Want me to tell Ты I'm sorry, too?
No. That won't help, I pleaded with myself.
That's wonderful. So... go ahead and tell him you're sorry..
SHUT UP!! I screamed to myself.
I paused. Duncan didn't say anything, he regarded me, nervous, sad, and he knew what was happening. But could I do it? Maybe I was being dumb. Who was I to break up with him? Why did I do it? If I had no reason... then why?
"I understand you, Mina," he сказал(-а) quietly, his eyes becoming shinier by the moment.
"That's good," I whispered, looking down.
"I know what Ты want." He paused, looking at me one time over. "But before... please, Mina... tell me why."
"What?" I was startled by his question.
"What did I do?" He was still as upset as he ever was.
I closed my eyes, hoping they'd stay that way forever, so that I'd never have to see anything ever again. Blackness was better. I could see clearly. Everything else as blurred with tears.
"Nothing." My voice was almost inaudible.
"Then why--" Duncan broke off, then tried to pull back. "Let me guess. You've moved on."
I could have сказал(-а) yes then, to make everything so mcuh easier... but I didn't. Something in me was protesting... and I couldn't help but notice. My longing for Duncan burned in me, and I hated myself for doing this as much as I hated myself for everything else in the world that I did wrong. But that something burned strong in the depth of my heart... and whatever it was, that something made me disagree.
"No," I murmured, my voice muffled. "It's not that."
"You don't like me anymore..." he guessed, clearly not realizing the double-meaning in his sentence.
That hit me with so much regret that I suddenly sprang back to life again. "No!" I protested. "I like Ты too much, Duncan. That's the problem."
He didn't get it. To be honest, I didn't, either.
Duncan was confused. "Then what.." he didn't finish.
"I'll go," I сказал(-а) softly. "You don't want me to be here."
I stood up, and I ran, as fast as I could in my coffee-brown and white flats, ignoring with all my will when Duncan called back to me.
I refused to turn my head back even once, because I knew my desire for him would take over. So I ran.
I threw open my penthouse door, and I ran, sobbing, into my bedroom. It wasn't fair. Duncan loved... me? He was too perfect. He could find someone like him; every inch as perfect as he is.
I flung myself face-first onto my pillow.
And I cried, letting my cry muffle against the pillow.
I loved, with the strong longing for Duncan somewhere in my heart.
I saw the world as it was... dark and horrible and loveless.
Speak, Mina, speak.
Love, Mina, love.
Cry, Mina, cry... <3
But I didn't. I couldn't find the strength to cry... to make the tears fall from my eyes. I didn't think I was ready to let the tears hit the ground with a soft patter; to wince at the sad and depressing sound that came from my mouth; to let Duncan see that I couldn't handle anything.
I looked up at him. His eyes were glazed and pained as he gazed into mine. I immediately felt a pang of guilt, and I sighed.
"Mina?" He brushed my cheek.
I didn't answer. I wanted to cry -- yet I didn't... I had no idea why. I wanted to let it all go, yet the other half of me, the еще determined half.. warned me not to let it go until it was the right time.
Whatever that was.
"Duncan..." I would do it. I would break up with Duncan. "I'm... sorry." Well, that's great, my sarcasm inside me sneered. You're sorry. How delightful. Want me to tell Ты I'm sorry, too?
No. That won't help, I pleaded with myself.
That's wonderful. So... go ahead and tell him you're sorry..
SHUT UP!! I screamed to myself.
I paused. Duncan didn't say anything, he regarded me, nervous, sad, and he knew what was happening. But could I do it? Maybe I was being dumb. Who was I to break up with him? Why did I do it? If I had no reason... then why?
"I understand you, Mina," he сказал(-а) quietly, his eyes becoming shinier by the moment.
"That's good," I whispered, looking down.
"I know what Ты want." He paused, looking at me one time over. "But before... please, Mina... tell me why."
"What?" I was startled by his question.
"What did I do?" He was still as upset as he ever was.
I closed my eyes, hoping they'd stay that way forever, so that I'd never have to see anything ever again. Blackness was better. I could see clearly. Everything else as blurred with tears.
"Nothing." My voice was almost inaudible.
"Then why--" Duncan broke off, then tried to pull back. "Let me guess. You've moved on."
I could have сказал(-а) yes then, to make everything so mcuh easier... but I didn't. Something in me was protesting... and I couldn't help but notice. My longing for Duncan burned in me, and I hated myself for doing this as much as I hated myself for everything else in the world that I did wrong. But that something burned strong in the depth of my heart... and whatever it was, that something made me disagree.
"No," I murmured, my voice muffled. "It's not that."
"You don't like me anymore..." he guessed, clearly not realizing the double-meaning in his sentence.
That hit me with so much regret that I suddenly sprang back to life again. "No!" I protested. "I like Ты too much, Duncan. That's the problem."
He didn't get it. To be honest, I didn't, either.
Duncan was confused. "Then what.." he didn't finish.
"I'll go," I сказал(-а) softly. "You don't want me to be here."
I stood up, and I ran, as fast as I could in my coffee-brown and white flats, ignoring with all my will when Duncan called back to me.
I refused to turn my head back even once, because I knew my desire for him would take over. So I ran.
I threw open my penthouse door, and I ran, sobbing, into my bedroom. It wasn't fair. Duncan loved... me? He was too perfect. He could find someone like him; every inch as perfect as he is.
I flung myself face-first onto my pillow.
And I cried, letting my cry muffle against the pillow.
I loved, with the strong longing for Duncan somewhere in my heart.
I saw the world as it was... dark and horrible and loveless.
Speak, Mina, speak.
Love, Mina, love.
Cry, Mina, cry... <3
HEATHER'S POV: A new girl?! lets just see how much of a fight this "new" girl puts up when im in a WAR with her! "New girl, hmm? Linds, go fetch the "new" girl for me and meet me bac in 5" i ordered her.
COURTNEY'S POV: Uh, im so confused. Where am i meant 2 b? "Hey you! Courtney? Is it?" the blonde girl from b4 asked, "Yh it is. And u r?" i asked, narked at how obviously bone-idle this girl truly was... "Lindsay. Cum wiv me, plz" she asked, "Where we goin?", "U'll c" i dont lyk the sound of this 1 bit...
COURTNEY'S POV: Uh, im so confused. Where am i meant 2 b? "Hey you! Courtney? Is it?" the blonde girl from b4 asked, "Yh it is. And u r?" i asked, narked at how obviously bone-idle this girl truly was... "Lindsay. Cum wiv me, plz" she asked, "Where we goin?", "U'll c" i dont lyk the sound of this 1 bit...
i got bored so i'm making this but i still need еще people
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Phil: where are they, i mean not even the co-host is here
Ghost: *banging on door* come on let me out i promise i'll give up my criminal ways just let me out
Phil: *sees ghost hunters come in* the ghost is in that room, destroy him
ghost: AHH!!! what are Ты people doing to me ow that hurts
*car horn*
Phil: finally the go-host is here
Duncan: sup
Phil: nothin you
Duncan: nothing
Phil: i'm gonna go check my e-mail
E-mail: we are sorry to inform Ты that the limmo Ты reserved to pick up is delayed
Phil: damm it
Ghost hunter: we're done
Phil: thanks here's 20 bucks
Duncan: wanna play cards
Phil: sure
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Phil: where are they, i mean not even the co-host is here
Ghost: *banging on door* come on let me out i promise i'll give up my criminal ways just let me out
Phil: *sees ghost hunters come in* the ghost is in that room, destroy him
ghost: AHH!!! what are Ты people doing to me ow that hurts
*car horn*
Phil: finally the go-host is here
Duncan: sup
Phil: nothin you
Duncan: nothing
Phil: i'm gonna go check my e-mail
E-mail: we are sorry to inform Ты that the limmo Ты reserved to pick up is delayed
Phil: damm it
Ghost hunter: we're done
Phil: thanks here's 20 bucks
Duncan: wanna play cards
Phil: sure
He's so annoying,can't he see?
Duncan isn't good for me
That little trouble-maker is so imature
Us? together,yeah right,I'm SO sure
Duncan has the mind of a pre-mature chimp
Everyone agrees;he's such an imp
He keeps waiting for me to say 'yes'
But I think he should take a секунда guess
He's so incredibly unkind;
Duncan tells me I need to unwind
What is with him?Take a hint!
His head must be full of lint
The name is COURTNEY
Can't he get it through his skull?
His sence of intelligence is horribly dull!
He says I like him
Maybe;I might
But Ты don't think I like him;you don't right?
Duncan isn't good for me
That little trouble-maker is so imature
Us? together,yeah right,I'm SO sure
Duncan has the mind of a pre-mature chimp
Everyone agrees;he's such an imp
He keeps waiting for me to say 'yes'
But I think he should take a секунда guess
He's so incredibly unkind;
Duncan tells me I need to unwind
What is with him?Take a hint!
His head must be full of lint
The name is COURTNEY
Can't he get it through his skull?
His sence of intelligence is horribly dull!
He says I like him
Maybe;I might
But Ты don't think I like him;you don't right?
chris:last time on total drama dynamite...our contestants had to swim!but kate couldn't so it was bye bye kate....who will be the winner?!find out now on total drama dynamite!the FINAL 2:megan,and selena!with everyone else voted off...these are our 2 finalists!
chris approached megan and selena:your FINAL challange a battle over a boiling pot of lava!
selena pushed megan off...
chris:selena wins total drama dynamite!
congratulations selena!(aka duncanxgwenyay)
chris:now..this season is FINNALLY OVER!
chris approached megan and selena:your FINAL challange a battle over a boiling pot of lava!
selena pushed megan off...
chris:selena wins total drama dynamite!
congratulations selena!(aka duncanxgwenyay)
chris:now..this season is FINNALLY OVER!
Chris: Bridgtte your late!
Bridgtte: Well I feel down the stairs! Then got bured buy a stove. Then I had to cool it down. I got out and had to go but 13 peaple wre already in line! Okay!
Chris: Fine Here's my doter.
Bridgette: Hi!
Chris: Ты will be teching here intil 2 mouths are gone, или your fired!
Bridgette: Fine! Let's start!
Jane: (PUCHES Bidgette in lake)
Bidgtte: What! What was that for!
Jane: Nouthing.Buy!
Bidgette: What! Where are Ты going!
Jane: To get a manicre.
Bridgette: But what about are leson?
Jane: Oh yeah. We aren't doing it.
Bridgette: What!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Jane: Buy!
Bidgette: I hate that girl! She is going to die! And that's not a thret!!!!!!!!!
Bridgtte: Well I feel down the stairs! Then got bured buy a stove. Then I had to cool it down. I got out and had to go but 13 peaple wre already in line! Okay!
Chris: Fine Here's my doter.
Bridgette: Hi!
Chris: Ты will be teching here intil 2 mouths are gone, или your fired!
Bridgette: Fine! Let's start!
Jane: (PUCHES Bidgette in lake)
Bidgtte: What! What was that for!
Jane: Nouthing.Buy!
Bidgette: What! Where are Ты going!
Jane: To get a manicre.
Bridgette: But what about are leson?
Jane: Oh yeah. We aren't doing it.
Bridgette: What!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Jane: Buy!
Bidgette: I hate that girl! She is going to die! And that's not a thret!!!!!!!!!