14. Forgotten
I slammed on the braked and stared into her liquid Золото eyes. Every thing about her has changed. She looked еще like a vampire then before. Her skin had a high, gloss, Glow to it, her eyes were еще liquidly, her face was better chiseled, but most of all the fact that I could see her. I was never able to physically see her before. I was staring into a beautiful high school picture of me, And quite frankly it scared the hell out of me.
“What are Ты doing here?” I stammered. She smiled smugly and within a blink of an eye, she was sitting in the passenger side.
“What did Ты do to your hair, Edward will hate it. How long do Ты have to wait till it can go back?” she shrieked her face curved up into this beautiful sculpted face of hatred.
I touched a lock of my hair “Alice likes it. And so do I. ” I сказал(-а) standing up to the teenage me.
“Yes its nice and all but there is no way Ты can get Edward back with that. He prefers brunette, i.e. why he and Tanya never worked out.” She rolled her eyes. “Well God, your already late to the Собаки party” I didn't move. “Drive Isabella” she has in a haughty tone. I put the car in Drive and slowly drown down the road.
“What is it that Ты wanted to talk about?” I сказал(-а) after the silence killed me.
“You woke me up this afternoon, as soon as Ты saw Alice Ты thought of what Ты looked like as a vampire, so I when and redid myself.” She сказал(-а) gesturing to her body.
“No I didn't.” I сказал(-а) quickly but she ignored me. “Why can I see Ты then?”
“ I already told you. Ты wanted to see your self. God live with it.” She rolled her eyes then opened her mother to speak again the perfect wind chimes of her voice scared me
“Then when Ты wondered how much of me has been in your life. If I were the really reason Ты like so many Cullen related things. And well I did. I wasn’t about to let Ты forget about what would have been. I am your subconscious. The little devil whispering in your ear when Ты found Aly. When Ты found the great deal for the Jeep Cherokee. The Baseball Tickets Ты always seem to win when Ты call in. all of it was Me.” she smiled.
I was going 15 mph for the last 5 minutes. Someone behind me honked their horn I sped up just a bit. “Then what now?” I said.
“And now that you’re going to see Edward Thursday. I think Ты should let me see him.”
“What?!?” I exclaimed. As I drove into La Push.
“I can have Ты do it willingly или forcefully. Try me” she smiled and disappeared.
I sat in the car for second, willingly или forcefully? What could she do? I got out do the car and opened the door. My mind was wrapping around things 3 days form now and 5 минуты ago. But some how I put smile on my face as I saw everyone’s mouth drop.
My hair, right I forgot. “Hey everyone sorry I'm late my appointment ran a bit late.”
“Bella I Любовь it” Leah stood up and walked to me. She ran her fingers through it. I was slightly panicked; I hope Alice’s sent blew away on the ride over.
“Thank you” slowly everyone in the room got back to normal, commenting me as I walked into living room.
“Bella still not here?” Nicole asked from behind me.
“No I'm right here.” I turned around and smiled. She gasped.
“You beautiful brown locks what happened. Ты know Jake is going to make so many jokes. ” She laughed.
“Make jokes about what?” Jake walked into the room and stared laughing.
My cheeks went red. “Is it that bad?” I asked when Jake wouldn’t stop laughing.
“You’re a blond Bells.” He сказал(-а) mid laugh. “Did they bleach away your brain too.”
“What is it with Ты and blonds anyway” Leah asked. “Come on, Bella, let’s see what Charlie and Alison think.” Jacob couldn’t stop smiling as I walked to the back room.
“Mommy” Alison called as soon as I stepped thought the threshold.
“Bella” Charlie сказал(-а) abruptly. He tilled his head to the side. “Something wrong, your blond.” Charlie stuttered. I picked Aly up.
“Yeah dad I'm fine, just something new.” I smiled
“I like it.” Alison said. “Its like Talking Taylor.”
“I mean I like it, it was just a shock, that’s all. It makes Ты look еще tan.” He commented. I laughed.
“Thanks dad.” I smiled at Sue who was setting the таблица with food. “Hi Sue ”
“Hi Bella, I like the hair.” she smiled up at me and continued to work.
I made my way back to the living room and sat leaned on the chair Jake was sitting at. Alison walked over and sat in his lap.
“Ew Bella what did Ты do to your hair.” Seth turned his face up at me. I shrugged. “I don't like it.” He smiled apolitically.
I smiled back at him as he walked away. Ok so every one doesn’t like Blond Bella, not my fault.
“Wow Bella,” Quil walked in to the house and saw me first. He opened his mouth though speak to me but closed it the he surged and gave me a hug.
“Fish is ready.” Sue called. Everyone made there way to the kitchen. The Еда was great, the company was great, but I continued to thing about Thursday. Am I ready to see all of them? And if I wasn’t is that what Bella Cullen meant by willingly или forcefully. Like if I tell her to take over. или if I stutter, или even worse faint will she come in. The sunset before I knew it and it was time to say bye. The drive Главная was quiet.
I got Alison into bed, and walked around the house for a while. I finally I took a сиденье, место, сиденья in the living room by the phone. I called Alice I wasn’t sure what to say if she picked up but I knew I would have to saw something.
“Hi Bella, how are Ты doing”
“Hey Alice, I was just calling… I'm good thought.” I had no reason why I was calling.
“Of course your good” her voice сказал(-а) sarcastically.
“I guess I just wanted to hear Ты voice before I when to bed,”
“Aw do Ты want me to come over?”
“No” I сказал(-а) quickly I knew some one was out side watching over me tonight. “That’s fine, I have work tomorrow and I would never get to sleep with Ты around.” I laughed nervously.
“Is something wrong?”
Very perceptive Alice. “Not really I'm just fighting with 18 год old self these days.” I laughed again, Bella Cullen is only 18 what does she know that I don't.
“Oh ok. Do Ты want me to stay on the line till Ты go to sleep?” she asked angelically.
“No I'll let Ты go, just, um… Thursday if I'm strange just know I'm not controlling myself.” I сказал(-а) in an unsure voice.
“What do Ты mean by that Bella?” she questioned.
“I Любовь Ты Alice see Ты in 3 days.”
“Sweet dreams Bella.” She kissed into the receiver and hung up.
I slammed on the braked and stared into her liquid Золото eyes. Every thing about her has changed. She looked еще like a vampire then before. Her skin had a high, gloss, Glow to it, her eyes were еще liquidly, her face was better chiseled, but most of all the fact that I could see her. I was never able to physically see her before. I was staring into a beautiful high school picture of me, And quite frankly it scared the hell out of me.
“What are Ты doing here?” I stammered. She smiled smugly and within a blink of an eye, she was sitting in the passenger side.
“What did Ты do to your hair, Edward will hate it. How long do Ты have to wait till it can go back?” she shrieked her face curved up into this beautiful sculpted face of hatred.
I touched a lock of my hair “Alice likes it. And so do I. ” I сказал(-а) standing up to the teenage me.
“Yes its nice and all but there is no way Ты can get Edward back with that. He prefers brunette, i.e. why he and Tanya never worked out.” She rolled her eyes. “Well God, your already late to the Собаки party” I didn't move. “Drive Isabella” she has in a haughty tone. I put the car in Drive and slowly drown down the road.
“What is it that Ты wanted to talk about?” I сказал(-а) after the silence killed me.
“You woke me up this afternoon, as soon as Ты saw Alice Ты thought of what Ты looked like as a vampire, so I when and redid myself.” She сказал(-а) gesturing to her body.
“No I didn't.” I сказал(-а) quickly but she ignored me. “Why can I see Ты then?”
“ I already told you. Ты wanted to see your self. God live with it.” She rolled her eyes then opened her mother to speak again the perfect wind chimes of her voice scared me
“Then when Ты wondered how much of me has been in your life. If I were the really reason Ты like so many Cullen related things. And well I did. I wasn’t about to let Ты forget about what would have been. I am your subconscious. The little devil whispering in your ear when Ты found Aly. When Ты found the great deal for the Jeep Cherokee. The Baseball Tickets Ты always seem to win when Ты call in. all of it was Me.” she smiled.
I was going 15 mph for the last 5 minutes. Someone behind me honked their horn I sped up just a bit. “Then what now?” I said.
“And now that you’re going to see Edward Thursday. I think Ты should let me see him.”
“What?!?” I exclaimed. As I drove into La Push.
“I can have Ты do it willingly или forcefully. Try me” she smiled and disappeared.
I sat in the car for second, willingly или forcefully? What could she do? I got out do the car and opened the door. My mind was wrapping around things 3 days form now and 5 минуты ago. But some how I put smile on my face as I saw everyone’s mouth drop.
My hair, right I forgot. “Hey everyone sorry I'm late my appointment ran a bit late.”
“Bella I Любовь it” Leah stood up and walked to me. She ran her fingers through it. I was slightly panicked; I hope Alice’s sent blew away on the ride over.
“Thank you” slowly everyone in the room got back to normal, commenting me as I walked into living room.
“Bella still not here?” Nicole asked from behind me.
“No I'm right here.” I turned around and smiled. She gasped.
“You beautiful brown locks what happened. Ты know Jake is going to make so many jokes. ” She laughed.
“Make jokes about what?” Jake walked into the room and stared laughing.
My cheeks went red. “Is it that bad?” I asked when Jake wouldn’t stop laughing.
“You’re a blond Bells.” He сказал(-а) mid laugh. “Did they bleach away your brain too.”
“What is it with Ты and blonds anyway” Leah asked. “Come on, Bella, let’s see what Charlie and Alison think.” Jacob couldn’t stop smiling as I walked to the back room.
“Mommy” Alison called as soon as I stepped thought the threshold.
“Bella” Charlie сказал(-а) abruptly. He tilled his head to the side. “Something wrong, your blond.” Charlie stuttered. I picked Aly up.
“Yeah dad I'm fine, just something new.” I smiled
“I like it.” Alison said. “Its like Talking Taylor.”
“I mean I like it, it was just a shock, that’s all. It makes Ты look еще tan.” He commented. I laughed.
“Thanks dad.” I smiled at Sue who was setting the таблица with food. “Hi Sue ”
“Hi Bella, I like the hair.” she smiled up at me and continued to work.
I made my way back to the living room and sat leaned on the chair Jake was sitting at. Alison walked over and sat in his lap.
“Ew Bella what did Ты do to your hair.” Seth turned his face up at me. I shrugged. “I don't like it.” He smiled apolitically.
I smiled back at him as he walked away. Ok so every one doesn’t like Blond Bella, not my fault.
“Wow Bella,” Quil walked in to the house and saw me first. He opened his mouth though speak to me but closed it the he surged and gave me a hug.
“Fish is ready.” Sue called. Everyone made there way to the kitchen. The Еда was great, the company was great, but I continued to thing about Thursday. Am I ready to see all of them? And if I wasn’t is that what Bella Cullen meant by willingly или forcefully. Like if I tell her to take over. или if I stutter, или even worse faint will she come in. The sunset before I knew it and it was time to say bye. The drive Главная was quiet.
I got Alison into bed, and walked around the house for a while. I finally I took a сиденье, место, сиденья in the living room by the phone. I called Alice I wasn’t sure what to say if she picked up but I knew I would have to saw something.
“Hi Bella, how are Ты doing”
“Hey Alice, I was just calling… I'm good thought.” I had no reason why I was calling.
“Of course your good” her voice сказал(-а) sarcastically.
“I guess I just wanted to hear Ты voice before I when to bed,”
“Aw do Ты want me to come over?”
“No” I сказал(-а) quickly I knew some one was out side watching over me tonight. “That’s fine, I have work tomorrow and I would never get to sleep with Ты around.” I laughed nervously.
“Is something wrong?”
Very perceptive Alice. “Not really I'm just fighting with 18 год old self these days.” I laughed again, Bella Cullen is only 18 what does she know that I don't.
“Oh ok. Do Ты want me to stay on the line till Ты go to sleep?” she asked angelically.
“No I'll let Ты go, just, um… Thursday if I'm strange just know I'm not controlling myself.” I сказал(-а) in an unsure voice.
“What do Ты mean by that Bella?” she questioned.
“I Любовь Ты Alice see Ты in 3 days.”
“Sweet dreams Bella.” She kissed into the receiver and hung up.
Blood!
alone in the dark i cannot breathe
where is my сердце its locked inside of me
somewhere i cant go on.im scared yeah i feel all alone
where did Ты go my only love
yes time moves on without me.
im not as strong as Ты want me to be
Ты tell me Ты dont want me
and that Ты must leave.
oh i fall on my knees
yeah i i cannot breathe
was it not enough to want Ты
forever and a day
i am sorry that Ты feel that way.
for i will Любовь Ты yeah till the end of time.
even then i will.in my world Ты will still be mine.
ive cried myself out .im numb of the pain
null and void practicaly insane
yeah i hear voices all the time
only yours my Любовь and only in my mind
can Ты hear me screaming out to you
i Любовь Ты forever i will be here waiting for you
where is my сердце its locked inside of me
somewhere i cant go on.im scared yeah i feel all alone
where did Ты go my only love
yes time moves on without me.
im not as strong as Ты want me to be
Ты tell me Ты dont want me
and that Ты must leave.
oh i fall on my knees
yeah i i cannot breathe
was it not enough to want Ты
forever and a day
i am sorry that Ты feel that way.
for i will Любовь Ты yeah till the end of time.
even then i will.in my world Ты will still be mine.
ive cried myself out .im numb of the pain
null and void practicaly insane
yeah i hear voices all the time
only yours my Любовь and only in my mind
can Ты hear me screaming out to you
i Любовь Ты forever i will be here waiting for you
