"Tanna, please, your going to wake your mummy" Alice pleded downstairs.
IT was too late for that, how could i with this strain on my back? the cuts are still burning.
But too Many things are too late, like the fact that i'm pregnant, again.
I never taught i would be again, jacob and I never even wanted a baby, so unexpected, and i had told myself so many years ago, that i dont need children when im with edward.
When Tanna came, i Knew, this was it, she was all i wanted, so beautiful, and that i diddnt need anything else.
I Think im stranded on a burning bridge between "Take it out" and "Just keep it"
But for the mean time i dont think i have a choice anymore, the еще time i sit here in this sore condition to heal the еще it grows inside me and less time i have to make up my mind.
Should i bring another burden to this family? should i be unconciously rubbing it in their faces? или make them be the slaves? as i can see that they do, not in about 3-4 months, however long ive been here, have i ever had stress brought over me by Tanna.
"Bells, tell me what your thinking" A soft velvet voice whispered beside me.
i was too wrapped in myself to even relise that edward was there.
Then it occured to me. I've become soo slefish, i only think of myself. i diddnt think about jacob, what taking his daughter,HIS! daughter, and just running away from him for another man to call him the father, in which is his loathful enemy , and Tanna, just totally replacing her dad because this is where i want to be. this is not right,
and The cullens, looking after Tanna every час of the day. And now this baby, im thinking of myself again. How this is going to effect me.
silent tears began down my cheeks. i heard him sigh gently.
"Bella, i Любовь you. i Любовь Tanna, i Любовь this new life with you, and i will Любовь this baby, if Ты let me." His voice intoxicating me. His breath so sweet. I diddnt want to hear this. He only makes me feel еще guilty.
i shrugged my shoulder over away from him. i couldnt even face him.
His hand snatched me arm tight, i'd never seen his so fierce me my before. i became worried.
he slammed my arm into the side of the постель, кровати , pushing me down my back began to flame up. pinning himself over my shocked now body. My сердце starting to race, whats happening?
I Любовь Ты BELLA, DONT BLOCK ME OUT!
i rolled onto him stomach, his amrs wrapping around me.
ahh my place again. i diddnt know what to say back.
i just groaned.
"Carlisle told me. He сказал(-а) your about 14 weeks, and that he is surprised its jsut a small bumb right now. And with the maths, 14 weeks means that the port.........is not. But.. jake" his voice now low.
i didnt know what wheither this was ll good или all bad news.
i dont know whiether i would wanted the port ... to be .. then compared to jake. But yeah we had sex the night i left, but we were safe. . .
"Edward.. thats impossible. Jake can't be. He always used protection. . . What does this mean? Edward? " my voice broken, i am soo confused. was the break,very unlikely, i remember he always wore two, cause we were scared, what after happened last time, we already had one break. There was no other man there. Besides Edward.
my lungs heafed., i started gasping for air. i felt my gut had just be kicked.
"Edward, jacob is not the father. Ты are"
IT was too late for that, how could i with this strain on my back? the cuts are still burning.
But too Many things are too late, like the fact that i'm pregnant, again.
I never taught i would be again, jacob and I never even wanted a baby, so unexpected, and i had told myself so many years ago, that i dont need children when im with edward.
When Tanna came, i Knew, this was it, she was all i wanted, so beautiful, and that i diddnt need anything else.
I Think im stranded on a burning bridge between "Take it out" and "Just keep it"
But for the mean time i dont think i have a choice anymore, the еще time i sit here in this sore condition to heal the еще it grows inside me and less time i have to make up my mind.
Should i bring another burden to this family? should i be unconciously rubbing it in their faces? или make them be the slaves? as i can see that they do, not in about 3-4 months, however long ive been here, have i ever had stress brought over me by Tanna.
"Bells, tell me what your thinking" A soft velvet voice whispered beside me.
i was too wrapped in myself to even relise that edward was there.
Then it occured to me. I've become soo slefish, i only think of myself. i diddnt think about jacob, what taking his daughter,HIS! daughter, and just running away from him for another man to call him the father, in which is his loathful enemy , and Tanna, just totally replacing her dad because this is where i want to be. this is not right,
and The cullens, looking after Tanna every час of the day. And now this baby, im thinking of myself again. How this is going to effect me.
silent tears began down my cheeks. i heard him sigh gently.
"Bella, i Любовь you. i Любовь Tanna, i Любовь this new life with you, and i will Любовь this baby, if Ты let me." His voice intoxicating me. His breath so sweet. I diddnt want to hear this. He only makes me feel еще guilty.
i shrugged my shoulder over away from him. i couldnt even face him.
His hand snatched me arm tight, i'd never seen his so fierce me my before. i became worried.
he slammed my arm into the side of the постель, кровати , pushing me down my back began to flame up. pinning himself over my shocked now body. My сердце starting to race, whats happening?
I Любовь Ты BELLA, DONT BLOCK ME OUT!
i rolled onto him stomach, his amrs wrapping around me.
ahh my place again. i diddnt know what to say back.
i just groaned.
"Carlisle told me. He сказал(-а) your about 14 weeks, and that he is surprised its jsut a small bumb right now. And with the maths, 14 weeks means that the port.........is not. But.. jake" his voice now low.
i didnt know what wheither this was ll good или all bad news.
i dont know whiether i would wanted the port ... to be .. then compared to jake. But yeah we had sex the night i left, but we were safe. . .
"Edward.. thats impossible. Jake can't be. He always used protection. . . What does this mean? Edward? " my voice broken, i am soo confused. was the break,very unlikely, i remember he always wore two, cause we were scared, what after happened last time, we already had one break. There was no other man there. Besides Edward.
my lungs heafed., i started gasping for air. i felt my gut had just be kicked.
"Edward, jacob is not the father. Ты are"
Ok don't get me wrong I Любовь the Cullens but take a look at what I would do if I was a Cullen
I would hot wire Edwards car and take it for a joy ride
I would go into my life story when ever I'm board
I would never sleep so I would jump all over
I use the saying "oh bite me" alot and I don't normaily get into fights but this is the Cullens we'r talking about
Sometimes I say my thoughts out-loud
I would think about Jakes body
I would be mad that I'm young and no guy would want to дата a girl like me
I'd copy Edward
I'd piss off Edward
^^If I did I'd say Bella did it^^
I might crack up when he trys to hold his anger
I would jump off a big дерево a yell "I belive I can fly"
And most of all I'm Crazy
So tell me if I should be a Cullen
I would hot wire Edwards car and take it for a joy ride
I would go into my life story when ever I'm board
I would never sleep so I would jump all over
I use the saying "oh bite me" alot and I don't normaily get into fights but this is the Cullens we'r talking about
Sometimes I say my thoughts out-loud
I would think about Jakes body
I would be mad that I'm young and no guy would want to дата a girl like me
I'd copy Edward
I'd piss off Edward
^^If I did I'd say Bella did it^^
I might crack up when he trys to hold his anger
I would jump off a big дерево a yell "I belive I can fly"
And most of all I'm Crazy
So tell me if I should be a Cullen
hi i dont know what to call this but heres the first chapter if Ты have any ideas tell me
"Alice we don't need to dress up it's just high school.again." I сказал(-а) under my breath.
"Oh come on Bella can't Ты let me have some fun today."
"Fine." I сказал(-а) giving up trying to argue with Alice. Alice had me in dark washed skinny jeans and high heel ankle boots,with a purple long-sleeved layered casual t.
"Just today though."Not wanting her to get the wrong idea that i would let her do this everyday.
"Agreed.Now stay still I'm almost finished.
"Time to go Renesemee,Jacob."I yelled upstairs. Jacob was now moved in with us we all pretty much not breath anymore but we had to get used to it again since we can go to schol again beacause renesemee is 7 now and stoped ageing
"Alice we don't need to dress up it's just high school.again." I сказал(-а) under my breath.
"Oh come on Bella can't Ты let me have some fun today."
"Fine." I сказал(-а) giving up trying to argue with Alice. Alice had me in dark washed skinny jeans and high heel ankle boots,with a purple long-sleeved layered casual t.
"Just today though."Not wanting her to get the wrong idea that i would let her do this everyday.
"Agreed.Now stay still I'm almost finished.
"Time to go Renesemee,Jacob."I yelled upstairs. Jacob was now moved in with us we all pretty much not breath anymore but we had to get used to it again since we can go to schol again beacause renesemee is 7 now and stoped ageing
This is for people who have been Чтение Esme's Story:
I don't want to call it Esme Cullen story the whole time so I have come up with some ideas for names. please Комментарий and tell me which ones Ты like. Ones i don't end up using for my story, feel free to use for any of yours:
Daybreak
Forever Awakening
Beyond Starlight
Nightfall
Sudden Dusk
Moonlight
Midnight Glimmer
Sunrise
Sunset
Dawn of Life
Precious Enchantment
If Ты can think of any others, please let me know
I want my story to have a еще interesting name so it draws еще attention than just 'Esme Cullen Story'. I went online to a Список of words with 'atmosphere' and I found these words and made different combinations with them.
PLEASE HELP ME!!!
THANK YOU!!!
I don't want to call it Esme Cullen story the whole time so I have come up with some ideas for names. please Комментарий and tell me which ones Ты like. Ones i don't end up using for my story, feel free to use for any of yours:
Daybreak
Forever Awakening
Beyond Starlight
Nightfall
Sudden Dusk
Moonlight
Midnight Glimmer
Sunrise
Sunset
Dawn of Life
Precious Enchantment
If Ты can think of any others, please let me know
I want my story to have a еще interesting name so it draws еще attention than just 'Esme Cullen Story'. I went online to a Список of words with 'atmosphere' and I found these words and made different combinations with them.
PLEASE HELP ME!!!
THANK YOU!!!