CHAPTER 18
It has been 2 days, 3 hours, and 25 минуты and 3 seconds. Since I have been sitting here, thinking. Thinking of everything that has happened the last few days. I have killed both the секунда most powerful Вампиры in our world. I killed Jane and Alec. I still feel as though I failed. I failed my family. I failed my daughter. Though these days that I have been thinking I have been sitting in my room as still as a statute, not moving или breathing. Scared that realty will come down fast and harder then I would like it to.
“Bella, honey, what are Ты thinking?” My beloved asked. It has been the first time anyone has talked scene we came in this room. I don’t mind the silence. I miss it even.
“Nothing” I stated. I know I am lying but I don’t want to worry him and everyone down stairs. Who with no doubt are listening to every word for answers? I feel as though I should tell him but I can’t bring myself to do it. “Nothing at all” I сказал(-а) again with еще convened then last time.
“Bella, don’t lie to me. I have known Ты for almost for 8 years. Don’t Ты dare lie to me. All it’s going to do it destroy us. So please Bella, just talk to me.” He said. He had a string of worry in his voice. Though Edward was always hiding it and covered it with a light hint of a teasing tone.
“Edward, are Ты sure Ты want to know?” I asked hoping he would say no but he shakes his head yes. So I go into explain everything. Well kind of everything. “Fine. Ты asked for it.” I Sighed. Then begin. “I feel as though I failed Ты and my daughter, my own daughter. Who I wasn’t there for, instead I was battling the most ridiculous Вампиры in this lifetime. I failed this family. I feel as though I don’t deserve to be in this family. I don’t belong in this family. Ты guys are saints compared to me. God, I killed the most powerful Вампиры one by one. I also still have Aro and I have this weird feeling as though I may have to fight them just to follow through with the deal. I also have to make sure I find someone that will do a good job of being leader instead of having to be taken down later down the road.” I took a deep breath. This really wasn’t needed. “Edward, I am a monster. There is no taking back that I am. I am the one who killed two people not in even a few days ago. I am the one who is willing to kill Aro and everyone else who gets in the way of my family even if it kills me in the progress. Worst of all I am the worst mother, wife, also the worst person and also worst person to be in a family with.” I stated all of this in less than a минута rant. I was upset with myself. I was mad at myself. I just wanted to crawl in постель, кровати and sob and cry the tears I will never be able to shed. He was going to convene me I didn’t do anything and say I am wrong but I don’t believe him. “Edward Mason Cullen, don’t Ты dare.” I yelled. “Just don’t Ты dare tell me I am wrong and that nothing I сказал(-а) was right.” I screamed. “Don’t Ты DARE!!!” I seethed. I could tell just by the look in his eyes that he was planning on doing just that. “Please Edward. Just don’t.” I stated. I fell into his arms and sobbed for everything and anything.
“Bella, I know Ты don’t want to say anything but I feel as though it’s my job to say something. I also know it’s my job to care and help. Bella, Ты have not failed. Ты have won. Ты have won back our freedom and our time to spend endless time together with OUR daughter and OUR family because of you. Bella, Ты belong with our crazy, messed up family. Yes indeed Ты have killed Jane and Alec but that doesn’t make Ты a crazy monster. It makes Ты the wife that I Любовь and makes Ты the amazing mother Ты are. It makes Ты the daughter and sister –in –law that they love. Yes, I wouldn’t be surprised if Ты had to take down Aro and Ты won. Though let us help Ты when it comes to that part. Please? “He took a breath and looked at me and held me tighter. “ Bella Cullen, Ты are no monster because your number one reason for fighting was for your family. I would have done the same if I knew what was going on” He said. He stared down at and started laughing. “We would all do that if need be. Don’t ever forget that. Don’t allow yourself to forget that Ты are not alone. That Ты have a whole big family downstairs and Ты have Neisse and I. I will always be by your side. If Ты let me.” He stated and he kissed me. We were soon interrupted Emmett.
Yeah Bells were all here for you. No matter what kind of trouble Ты are in. Ты got to help. Even though what Ты did out there was killer. It was amazing. Ты got to teach me how to do some of that crap Ты did.” I laughed and сказал(-а) maybe. “Oh, no maybes. I get a defiantly from Ты missy. I understand Ты are stubborn as hell. God, did we just realize how stubborn Ты were when Ты pushed us all away. Though just because Ты as stubborn as hell that doesn’t mean I won’t beat your ass.” He was standing in front of me with his arms out for a hug and I ran into them. He was my big teddy медведь that was my big brother that I knew had until now.
“Thanks Emmett. That was good to hear from you.” I said. With the Любовь had for my Избранное brother –in-law coming out thickly.
“Your welcome, Bells. Now how about Ты come down stairs and explain what the hell happened.” Emmett said. I looked at Edward in a silent look asking if it would be okay and if he would come with me. He just nodded and picked me up and ran down the stairs into the living room bring me down also.
“GUYS!” I yelled. “We need to talk everyone meet up in the living room.” I yelled. I walked over to the coach where my daughter was sitting and I grabbed onto her not letting go just letting her cry and sob into my shirt.
“I am so sorry honey” I said. “I Любовь Ты baby girl” I сказал(-а) and hugged her again. Edward sat down Далее to us and wiped away the tears falling down her cheeks.
10 минуты later
Everyone filled into the room taking any сиденье, место, сиденья available. I took a deep breath before I looked at everyone and saw confusion and a million other expressions but the one that stand out the most is Любовь and concern and relief and worry. Once everyone realized I was ready all hell broke loose.
It has been 2 days, 3 hours, and 25 минуты and 3 seconds. Since I have been sitting here, thinking. Thinking of everything that has happened the last few days. I have killed both the секунда most powerful Вампиры in our world. I killed Jane and Alec. I still feel as though I failed. I failed my family. I failed my daughter. Though these days that I have been thinking I have been sitting in my room as still as a statute, not moving или breathing. Scared that realty will come down fast and harder then I would like it to.
“Bella, honey, what are Ты thinking?” My beloved asked. It has been the first time anyone has talked scene we came in this room. I don’t mind the silence. I miss it even.
“Nothing” I stated. I know I am lying but I don’t want to worry him and everyone down stairs. Who with no doubt are listening to every word for answers? I feel as though I should tell him but I can’t bring myself to do it. “Nothing at all” I сказал(-а) again with еще convened then last time.
“Bella, don’t lie to me. I have known Ты for almost for 8 years. Don’t Ты dare lie to me. All it’s going to do it destroy us. So please Bella, just talk to me.” He said. He had a string of worry in his voice. Though Edward was always hiding it and covered it with a light hint of a teasing tone.
“Edward, are Ты sure Ты want to know?” I asked hoping he would say no but he shakes his head yes. So I go into explain everything. Well kind of everything. “Fine. Ты asked for it.” I Sighed. Then begin. “I feel as though I failed Ты and my daughter, my own daughter. Who I wasn’t there for, instead I was battling the most ridiculous Вампиры in this lifetime. I failed this family. I feel as though I don’t deserve to be in this family. I don’t belong in this family. Ты guys are saints compared to me. God, I killed the most powerful Вампиры one by one. I also still have Aro and I have this weird feeling as though I may have to fight them just to follow through with the deal. I also have to make sure I find someone that will do a good job of being leader instead of having to be taken down later down the road.” I took a deep breath. This really wasn’t needed. “Edward, I am a monster. There is no taking back that I am. I am the one who killed two people not in even a few days ago. I am the one who is willing to kill Aro and everyone else who gets in the way of my family even if it kills me in the progress. Worst of all I am the worst mother, wife, also the worst person and also worst person to be in a family with.” I stated all of this in less than a минута rant. I was upset with myself. I was mad at myself. I just wanted to crawl in постель, кровати and sob and cry the tears I will never be able to shed. He was going to convene me I didn’t do anything and say I am wrong but I don’t believe him. “Edward Mason Cullen, don’t Ты dare.” I yelled. “Just don’t Ты dare tell me I am wrong and that nothing I сказал(-а) was right.” I screamed. “Don’t Ты DARE!!!” I seethed. I could tell just by the look in his eyes that he was planning on doing just that. “Please Edward. Just don’t.” I stated. I fell into his arms and sobbed for everything and anything.
“Bella, I know Ты don’t want to say anything but I feel as though it’s my job to say something. I also know it’s my job to care and help. Bella, Ты have not failed. Ты have won. Ты have won back our freedom and our time to spend endless time together with OUR daughter and OUR family because of you. Bella, Ты belong with our crazy, messed up family. Yes indeed Ты have killed Jane and Alec but that doesn’t make Ты a crazy monster. It makes Ты the wife that I Любовь and makes Ты the amazing mother Ты are. It makes Ты the daughter and sister –in –law that they love. Yes, I wouldn’t be surprised if Ты had to take down Aro and Ты won. Though let us help Ты when it comes to that part. Please? “He took a breath and looked at me and held me tighter. “ Bella Cullen, Ты are no monster because your number one reason for fighting was for your family. I would have done the same if I knew what was going on” He said. He stared down at and started laughing. “We would all do that if need be. Don’t ever forget that. Don’t allow yourself to forget that Ты are not alone. That Ты have a whole big family downstairs and Ты have Neisse and I. I will always be by your side. If Ты let me.” He stated and he kissed me. We were soon interrupted Emmett.
Yeah Bells were all here for you. No matter what kind of trouble Ты are in. Ты got to help. Even though what Ты did out there was killer. It was amazing. Ты got to teach me how to do some of that crap Ты did.” I laughed and сказал(-а) maybe. “Oh, no maybes. I get a defiantly from Ты missy. I understand Ты are stubborn as hell. God, did we just realize how stubborn Ты were when Ты pushed us all away. Though just because Ты as stubborn as hell that doesn’t mean I won’t beat your ass.” He was standing in front of me with his arms out for a hug and I ran into them. He was my big teddy медведь that was my big brother that I knew had until now.
“Thanks Emmett. That was good to hear from you.” I said. With the Любовь had for my Избранное brother –in-law coming out thickly.
“Your welcome, Bells. Now how about Ты come down stairs and explain what the hell happened.” Emmett said. I looked at Edward in a silent look asking if it would be okay and if he would come with me. He just nodded and picked me up and ran down the stairs into the living room bring me down also.
“GUYS!” I yelled. “We need to talk everyone meet up in the living room.” I yelled. I walked over to the coach where my daughter was sitting and I grabbed onto her not letting go just letting her cry and sob into my shirt.
“I am so sorry honey” I said. “I Любовь Ты baby girl” I сказал(-а) and hugged her again. Edward sat down Далее to us and wiped away the tears falling down her cheeks.
10 минуты later
Everyone filled into the room taking any сиденье, место, сиденья available. I took a deep breath before I looked at everyone and saw confusion and a million other expressions but the one that stand out the most is Любовь and concern and relief and worry. Once everyone realized I was ready all hell broke loose.
me and indie were 3 weeks into our imortal lifes. aro had explained that we were the new volturi members but, he had also explained we had gifts.
"we have a vampire in our ranks, who senses gifts in other vampires." Aro had said, "he senses that Ты two both, have gifts." he concluded.
"So if we have gifts, what are they?" imortal life had made indie 10 times еще nosey than before.
"Young ones," aro сказал(-а) in a sweet voice, "your gifts are that, if Ты imagine what Ты want, it will happen."
After that me and indie went back to our room,"hayley?" indie asked
"yes." i answered putting down my book, "whats wrong?"
"I found this when we were out hunting." she handed me a flyer. the flyer had a picture of me and indie and it read 'MISSING'
"our parents are looking for us?" i asked...
we went silentg for 2 minuites.
"but we can't see them!" i said
"i know but i miss them!" she replied her cheerfull voice cold.
just then, Aro came in........
"we have a vampire in our ranks, who senses gifts in other vampires." Aro had said, "he senses that Ты two both, have gifts." he concluded.
"So if we have gifts, what are they?" imortal life had made indie 10 times еще nosey than before.
"Young ones," aro сказал(-а) in a sweet voice, "your gifts are that, if Ты imagine what Ты want, it will happen."
After that me and indie went back to our room,"hayley?" indie asked
"yes." i answered putting down my book, "whats wrong?"
"I found this when we were out hunting." she handed me a flyer. the flyer had a picture of me and indie and it read 'MISSING'
"our parents are looking for us?" i asked...
we went silentg for 2 minuites.
"but we can't see them!" i said
"i know but i miss them!" she replied her cheerfull voice cold.
just then, Aro came in........
La Push Beach
She talked about the most intimate scenes in the book in an interview with Hollywood Life.
"If Ты really look at the books, how much are Ты really seeing? I think [the movies] might wind up being saucier than the book because you’re actually seeing skin-on-skin and the horror of the birth scenes. We’re not shying away from it.”
She added. “We’re still debating the exact moment," Rosernberg said. "But it’ll fall down to the first half of Bella as a human and being pregnant and a newlywed and the секунда half being Bella as a vampire and a parent. Somewhere in the middle of that, the break will come.”
The first installment of Breaking Dawn will hit theaters on November 18, 2011.
9. Inform him, as politely as possible, that he has grizzly in his teeth.
8. Ask who wears the pants in his relationship.
7. Try to stab him through the сердце with a stake.
6. Tell him brawn is out, scrawn is in.
5. Inquires as to how he feels to be the least-liked Cullen male.
4. When he is around, wonder aloud what Rosalie calls him in bed.
3. Ask if he is overcompensating for something with that Jeep.
2. Ask if he is overcompensating for something with those muscles..
And the Number One way to annoy Emmett Cullen?
1. When he denies the above two claims, respond with “That’s not what Rosalie saaaaaid!”
