I was even еще of a mess after that. I thought it was bad before. This was just incomparable. Before, I still had hope, even if it was only a tiny splinter. Now, I had no hope, with confirmation from Blake himself. I spent many nights venting to Kara, who listened intently, and offered Совет when necessary.
"Honey, I promised it'll all get better soon," she сказал(-а) quietly. I prayed that she was right.
Then spring break came. When I wasn't working, I was at home. When I wasn't at home, I was working. Not the best spring break I've ever had. Then Gwen's party came around. I was about to call her and say I couldn't go; I wasn't in the mood for a party. But I thought for a while. It'd probably have the most fun in a long time. Why not?
I went to Gwen's house, instantly feeling out of place. There were lots of people that I recognized from school, but most I couldn't match a name to the face. Others I had no idea who they were.
"Irina!" Gwen said. She came over and gave me a hug. A lot of people around us looked at her like she was crazy. She ignored them graciously. "I'm so sorry things didn't work out..." she frowned. I shrugged.
"It's fine... It's not your fault."
"Well, I know, but... And I'm also sorry because...." she paused for a while. "Mateo brought Blake." I mentally kicked myself. I knew this was a bad idea. Mateo is Gwen's boyfriend for crying out loud. Of course he'd be here, and of course he'd bring his best friend. Gwen looked behind her. "Oh! There Ты are!" she said. She turned back to me. "Stay here." She ran off after someone.
She brought back Mateo.
"Tell her," she ordered. He looked down at me, and frowned.
"Irina, I'm sorry," he said. "I... I guess I was just mad that Blake was spending so much time with you. When Heidi сказал(-а) she had a plan to break Ты two up, I... I just wanted my friend back."
"It's fine now," I сказал(-а) quietly. "It's over."
"Hey, man, I've been looking all over f---" I looked back up. It was Blake. He came in a patted Mateo on the shoulder. He stopped when he saw me, his face becoming agitated. I turned around and left before any of them could say anything.
I stayed at the party for a couple hours, mostly keeping to myself, and also avoiding Blake. It was like school all over again. Then after a while, I just couldn't take it. I went and found Gwen. She was with Mateo, who of course was with Blake. I ignored him.
"Sorry, Gwen. I gotta go home." She stood up and gave me a hug.
"Oh, that's ok! Thanks for coming! Call me if Ты ever want to hang out." I nodded and left. I felt like I could finally breathe when I got in my car. Still, I ached for a bottle of beer. I'd even drink wine if I had to; I hate that stuff.
***
I finally had the chance to drink one day.
"Irina, we're taking Hera to the movies, and then we're going out for пицца and ice cream. Do Ты want to come?" Dad asked. I shook my head no. "Alright. See Ты tonight." They left. I waited for about a half hour, to make sure they didn't come back in case they forgot anything. Then I went to the basement fridge, where Dad kept the bottles of пиво that he never drinks. I took out a bottle, and took a big sip.
Before I knew it, I had drank six full bottles. I huddled over the toilet, vomiting profusely. I vomited for about an hour, much longer than I usually do. My breathing slowed down once I was done, and even through when I started to panic. I probably over did it with the amount of пиво I drank. What if I had alcohol poisoning? I started to freak out more, not knowing what to do. I remembered hearing that it can be deadly. I tried to think of what to do, before the alcohol kicks in fully and I'm just an incoherent drunk. I quickly took out my cellphone, and went through the very few numbers, looking for the right one. Dad, no. Kara, no. Briar, I wish. Grandma, funny. Blake, hell no. Finally, I found Gwen's contact.
"Hello?" she asked.
"Gwn... Ay need Ты to... tike me to da hofpitol," I mumbled, starting to feel dizzy. There was a long pause, as she tried to put my jumbled words together.
"You need to go to the hospital?" she asked.
"Uh-huh."
"Oh my God! Are Ты ok?"
"Naw really..." Gwen started to panic too.
"Uh, ok, ok... But, I don't have a car! Mine's being repaired!" Tears started to fill my eyes.
"Buh I need you...." I said. What was I going to do now?!
"Uh, don't worry! I'll find someone! I'll be there soon!" She hung up. I sat on the bathroom tile, trying to stay conscious. I tried to take еще deep breaths, but it felt almost impossible. I felt like I was freezing, but when I wiped my forehead, it was beaded in sweat. About a half час later, I heard someone come in. I hoped it was Gwen.
***
I could've sworn it was Drew that was there. He came in, holding a нож and smiling at me. I screamed and thrashed out at him, but he picked me up, unphased. He carried me out, cradling me like an infant, outside. There were two graves, which were clearly marked Annaliese and Brandon. There was another grave Далее to it, where the hole was dug up and new. The headstone read, "Irina." He tossed me in, and fell six feet under.
I woke up, startled. I took deep breaths, and looked around. I was in the hospital. I took еще deep breaths, and closed my eyes, relieved.
"Hey," a voice сказал(-а) quietly. My eyes snapped open. It was Gwen. "You're awake," she smiled.
"Oh my God... Thank Ты so much, Gwen! If it weren't for you, I..." I would've died, that's for sure.
"Hey, I'm just glad you're ok," she smiled. "And, if it weren't for Blake, I wouldn't have been able to get you." I did a double take.
"Wait, what?" I asked.
"Well, I originally called Mateo for a ride, but he was at a family get together. Then he called Blake, and сказал(-а) Ты were in danger. He offered to give me a ride to your house." None of this was making sense. Was I still hallucinating? Gwen practically read my thoughts. She laughed. "Yes, you're still awake... Ты must've had a nightmare или something. Blake was carrying Ты out to the truck, and Ты kept kicking around and screaming 'put me down' and muttering the name 'Drew.'" My face turned pink.
"I... I was just having really bad hallucinations."
"I guess so," she said. I looked around the room. No Blake. I sighed a breath of relief. "He's in the cafeteria, getting us all something to eat. He was smart and assumed you'd be hungry. Y'know, after Ты had your stomach pumped and all...." Just then Blake came in, holding a tray of food. He barely looked at me as he crossed the room.
"Here, I got Ты a slice of pizza," he сказал(-а) to Gwen, handing her a plate. She thanked him and took it. He took another plate of pizza, and put it on the side table. He delicately put the tray on my lap. He got me блины and a черника, блуберри muffin.
"Thanks," I muttered. We began eating our food, and talked a little. I talked to Gwen. Blake talked to Gwen. Gwen talked to the both of us. But Blake and I avoided conversation for about a half hour. Blake mentioned to Gwen how his old friend, Claire, moved back into town; he hadn't seen her for years. I rolled my eyes. After a while, he cleared his throat.
"Um, Gwen? Do Ты mind if I talk to Irina alone for a while?" he asked. My сердце skipped a beat, and I felt my face flush. I did not want to do this. I looked at Gwen, my eyes pleading. She looked confused for a while, then shrugged.
"Uh, sure." She stood up and left. Dammit. She closed the door behind her. I began fiddling with my fingers, staring intently at them. Blake cleared his throat again.
"How're Ты feeling?" he asked after a long awkward silence. I shrugged.
"Fine," I mumbled. He sighed.
"Irina, I can't keep doing this."
"Doing what?" I pouted. I still refused to look up. He put his hand on my knee, and waited for me to look at him, but I still didn't.
"Pretending I don't Любовь you." I shifted my leg, and he took his hand away. I folded my arms stubbornly. "Irina, would Ты please look at me?" he asked. I bit my lip, then finally looked up. It made me feel worse, seeing him. It was bad enough hearing him rub it in how he loved me, but didn't want to be with me. Now I had to look at him too?
"What are Ты getting at?" I asked, trying to sound annoyed. He took a deep breath.
"I was once told that Ты can't live without something that Ты think about everyday," he said. I returned my eyes to my fumbling fingers. Why was he torturing me like this? He must know that I still loved him. "I don't want to try to live without Ты anymore. It's impossible." If Ты can't live without me, I thought, then why aren't Ты dead yet? He pursed his lips. "Unless.... You've moved on?" I nearly choked. How could he think that. I just shook my head.
"No," I whispered. He took one of my hands in his. His touch was electrifying.
"What I did was stupid, hurtful, and crazy. Can Ты forgive me?" I looked back up at him, into his dark brown eyes. I could only nod. He sighed. "Thank you." Then he leaned in and kissed me.
"Oops," a voice said. He pulled away quick. It was Gwen, blushing almost as much as Blake and I. "Sorry!" she squealed. She smiled and waved, before leaving again and closing the door. Blake came close and kissed me some more.
I was in a shit-load of trouble when I got home. I insisted that my curiosity got the best of me, and I overdid it. Well, at least the last part was true.
"You have no idea how lucky Ты are, young lady," Dad сказал(-а) in the car ride home. I wanted to go back with Blake, but of course Dad objected. "Do Ты know how close Ты could've been to dying?!" Very. He ranted on and on the whole way home. "You are grounded! I don't care that it's spring break! Two months!" I didn't complain. Everything seemed better now, nothing seemed to corrode my mood.
I went straight to my room, as I was told. A half час later, Kara came in to talk to me.
"Honey, please don't ever do that again. Do Ты have any idea how scary that was? The doctor сказал(-а) if Ты had gotten to the hospital only fifteen минуты later, Ты probably wouldn't have survived." My eyes widened. They hadn't told me that.
"I'm sorry," I said. I reached over and gave her a hug. It was kind of weird. Only a месяц назад I never would have gotten this close to Kara. Now, it was just a natural occurrence. I smiled. "Blake and I are back together." I explained to her a while назад about the whole cheating misunderstanding, and also how Blake still didn't want to get back together. She let a smile slip.
"Well, I'm happy that it all worked out." She stood up to go. "But please, don't ever do that again." I nodded.
"I won't. Promise."
"Dinner's almost ready. Let's go."
After dinner, I was sent to take a shower, and then go straight to bed. It was only 8:30. I laid in bed, my hair dripping all over my рубашка and pillow, trying to sleep. Then, almost literally, I was saved by the bell. My phone buzzed on the night stand. It was Blake.
"Hey," I answered. I sat up in the darkness, and wrapped my free arm around my knees.
"Hey," he сказал(-а) back. "How much trouble are Ты in?"
"A lot," I sighed. "I'm grounded for two months." There was a pause.
"Hmm... Do Ты have to work tomorrow?" he asked.
"No?" He laughed.
"Well, I think Ты do." It took me a couple seconds, then I got it.
"Ok," I laughed. We talked for a while, then we got to the topic of how we were while we were temporarily broken up. Blake admitted he was a mess as well, but he tried to cover it up at school. I admitted that eventually, I just gave up on trying to cover it up.
"Just out of curiosity, who'd Ты think I was cheating on Ты with?" I wondered. It was all forgiven and forgotten now, so I wasn't really that worried about asking.
"Skye," he answered. I nearly choked.
"Are Ты serious?" I laughed. "Skye?!"
"Yeah, I don't know what I was thinking," he admitted.
"Apparently not." We talked a little more, then before I knew it, it was midnight. "Goodnight."
"Goodnight. I Любовь you. Sleep well," he сказал(-а) before he hung up.
I dreamed peacefully that night, for the first time in a month.
"Honey, I promised it'll all get better soon," she сказал(-а) quietly. I prayed that she was right.
Then spring break came. When I wasn't working, I was at home. When I wasn't at home, I was working. Not the best spring break I've ever had. Then Gwen's party came around. I was about to call her and say I couldn't go; I wasn't in the mood for a party. But I thought for a while. It'd probably have the most fun in a long time. Why not?
I went to Gwen's house, instantly feeling out of place. There were lots of people that I recognized from school, but most I couldn't match a name to the face. Others I had no idea who they were.
"Irina!" Gwen said. She came over and gave me a hug. A lot of people around us looked at her like she was crazy. She ignored them graciously. "I'm so sorry things didn't work out..." she frowned. I shrugged.
"It's fine... It's not your fault."
"Well, I know, but... And I'm also sorry because...." she paused for a while. "Mateo brought Blake." I mentally kicked myself. I knew this was a bad idea. Mateo is Gwen's boyfriend for crying out loud. Of course he'd be here, and of course he'd bring his best friend. Gwen looked behind her. "Oh! There Ты are!" she said. She turned back to me. "Stay here." She ran off after someone.
She brought back Mateo.
"Tell her," she ordered. He looked down at me, and frowned.
"Irina, I'm sorry," he said. "I... I guess I was just mad that Blake was spending so much time with you. When Heidi сказал(-а) she had a plan to break Ты two up, I... I just wanted my friend back."
"It's fine now," I сказал(-а) quietly. "It's over."
"Hey, man, I've been looking all over f---" I looked back up. It was Blake. He came in a patted Mateo on the shoulder. He stopped when he saw me, his face becoming agitated. I turned around and left before any of them could say anything.
I stayed at the party for a couple hours, mostly keeping to myself, and also avoiding Blake. It was like school all over again. Then after a while, I just couldn't take it. I went and found Gwen. She was with Mateo, who of course was with Blake. I ignored him.
"Sorry, Gwen. I gotta go home." She stood up and gave me a hug.
"Oh, that's ok! Thanks for coming! Call me if Ты ever want to hang out." I nodded and left. I felt like I could finally breathe when I got in my car. Still, I ached for a bottle of beer. I'd even drink wine if I had to; I hate that stuff.
***
I finally had the chance to drink one day.
"Irina, we're taking Hera to the movies, and then we're going out for пицца and ice cream. Do Ты want to come?" Dad asked. I shook my head no. "Alright. See Ты tonight." They left. I waited for about a half hour, to make sure they didn't come back in case they forgot anything. Then I went to the basement fridge, where Dad kept the bottles of пиво that he never drinks. I took out a bottle, and took a big sip.
Before I knew it, I had drank six full bottles. I huddled over the toilet, vomiting profusely. I vomited for about an hour, much longer than I usually do. My breathing slowed down once I was done, and even through when I started to panic. I probably over did it with the amount of пиво I drank. What if I had alcohol poisoning? I started to freak out more, not knowing what to do. I remembered hearing that it can be deadly. I tried to think of what to do, before the alcohol kicks in fully and I'm just an incoherent drunk. I quickly took out my cellphone, and went through the very few numbers, looking for the right one. Dad, no. Kara, no. Briar, I wish. Grandma, funny. Blake, hell no. Finally, I found Gwen's contact.
"Hello?" she asked.
"Gwn... Ay need Ты to... tike me to da hofpitol," I mumbled, starting to feel dizzy. There was a long pause, as she tried to put my jumbled words together.
"You need to go to the hospital?" she asked.
"Uh-huh."
"Oh my God! Are Ты ok?"
"Naw really..." Gwen started to panic too.
"Uh, ok, ok... But, I don't have a car! Mine's being repaired!" Tears started to fill my eyes.
"Buh I need you...." I said. What was I going to do now?!
"Uh, don't worry! I'll find someone! I'll be there soon!" She hung up. I sat on the bathroom tile, trying to stay conscious. I tried to take еще deep breaths, but it felt almost impossible. I felt like I was freezing, but when I wiped my forehead, it was beaded in sweat. About a half час later, I heard someone come in. I hoped it was Gwen.
***
I could've sworn it was Drew that was there. He came in, holding a нож and smiling at me. I screamed and thrashed out at him, but he picked me up, unphased. He carried me out, cradling me like an infant, outside. There were two graves, which were clearly marked Annaliese and Brandon. There was another grave Далее to it, where the hole was dug up and new. The headstone read, "Irina." He tossed me in, and fell six feet under.
I woke up, startled. I took deep breaths, and looked around. I was in the hospital. I took еще deep breaths, and closed my eyes, relieved.
"Hey," a voice сказал(-а) quietly. My eyes snapped open. It was Gwen. "You're awake," she smiled.
"Oh my God... Thank Ты so much, Gwen! If it weren't for you, I..." I would've died, that's for sure.
"Hey, I'm just glad you're ok," she smiled. "And, if it weren't for Blake, I wouldn't have been able to get you." I did a double take.
"Wait, what?" I asked.
"Well, I originally called Mateo for a ride, but he was at a family get together. Then he called Blake, and сказал(-а) Ты were in danger. He offered to give me a ride to your house." None of this was making sense. Was I still hallucinating? Gwen practically read my thoughts. She laughed. "Yes, you're still awake... Ты must've had a nightmare или something. Blake was carrying Ты out to the truck, and Ты kept kicking around and screaming 'put me down' and muttering the name 'Drew.'" My face turned pink.
"I... I was just having really bad hallucinations."
"I guess so," she said. I looked around the room. No Blake. I sighed a breath of relief. "He's in the cafeteria, getting us all something to eat. He was smart and assumed you'd be hungry. Y'know, after Ты had your stomach pumped and all...." Just then Blake came in, holding a tray of food. He barely looked at me as he crossed the room.
"Here, I got Ты a slice of pizza," he сказал(-а) to Gwen, handing her a plate. She thanked him and took it. He took another plate of pizza, and put it on the side table. He delicately put the tray on my lap. He got me блины and a черника, блуберри muffin.
"Thanks," I muttered. We began eating our food, and talked a little. I talked to Gwen. Blake talked to Gwen. Gwen talked to the both of us. But Blake and I avoided conversation for about a half hour. Blake mentioned to Gwen how his old friend, Claire, moved back into town; he hadn't seen her for years. I rolled my eyes. After a while, he cleared his throat.
"Um, Gwen? Do Ты mind if I talk to Irina alone for a while?" he asked. My сердце skipped a beat, and I felt my face flush. I did not want to do this. I looked at Gwen, my eyes pleading. She looked confused for a while, then shrugged.
"Uh, sure." She stood up and left. Dammit. She closed the door behind her. I began fiddling with my fingers, staring intently at them. Blake cleared his throat again.
"How're Ты feeling?" he asked after a long awkward silence. I shrugged.
"Fine," I mumbled. He sighed.
"Irina, I can't keep doing this."
"Doing what?" I pouted. I still refused to look up. He put his hand on my knee, and waited for me to look at him, but I still didn't.
"Pretending I don't Любовь you." I shifted my leg, and he took his hand away. I folded my arms stubbornly. "Irina, would Ты please look at me?" he asked. I bit my lip, then finally looked up. It made me feel worse, seeing him. It was bad enough hearing him rub it in how he loved me, but didn't want to be with me. Now I had to look at him too?
"What are Ты getting at?" I asked, trying to sound annoyed. He took a deep breath.
"I was once told that Ты can't live without something that Ты think about everyday," he said. I returned my eyes to my fumbling fingers. Why was he torturing me like this? He must know that I still loved him. "I don't want to try to live without Ты anymore. It's impossible." If Ты can't live without me, I thought, then why aren't Ты dead yet? He pursed his lips. "Unless.... You've moved on?" I nearly choked. How could he think that. I just shook my head.
"No," I whispered. He took one of my hands in his. His touch was electrifying.
"What I did was stupid, hurtful, and crazy. Can Ты forgive me?" I looked back up at him, into his dark brown eyes. I could only nod. He sighed. "Thank you." Then he leaned in and kissed me.
"Oops," a voice said. He pulled away quick. It was Gwen, blushing almost as much as Blake and I. "Sorry!" she squealed. She smiled and waved, before leaving again and closing the door. Blake came close and kissed me some more.
I was in a shit-load of trouble when I got home. I insisted that my curiosity got the best of me, and I overdid it. Well, at least the last part was true.
"You have no idea how lucky Ты are, young lady," Dad сказал(-а) in the car ride home. I wanted to go back with Blake, but of course Dad objected. "Do Ты know how close Ты could've been to dying?!" Very. He ranted on and on the whole way home. "You are grounded! I don't care that it's spring break! Two months!" I didn't complain. Everything seemed better now, nothing seemed to corrode my mood.
I went straight to my room, as I was told. A half час later, Kara came in to talk to me.
"Honey, please don't ever do that again. Do Ты have any idea how scary that was? The doctor сказал(-а) if Ты had gotten to the hospital only fifteen минуты later, Ты probably wouldn't have survived." My eyes widened. They hadn't told me that.
"I'm sorry," I said. I reached over and gave her a hug. It was kind of weird. Only a месяц назад I never would have gotten this close to Kara. Now, it was just a natural occurrence. I smiled. "Blake and I are back together." I explained to her a while назад about the whole cheating misunderstanding, and also how Blake still didn't want to get back together. She let a smile slip.
"Well, I'm happy that it all worked out." She stood up to go. "But please, don't ever do that again." I nodded.
"I won't. Promise."
"Dinner's almost ready. Let's go."
After dinner, I was sent to take a shower, and then go straight to bed. It was only 8:30. I laid in bed, my hair dripping all over my рубашка and pillow, trying to sleep. Then, almost literally, I was saved by the bell. My phone buzzed on the night stand. It was Blake.
"Hey," I answered. I sat up in the darkness, and wrapped my free arm around my knees.
"Hey," he сказал(-а) back. "How much trouble are Ты in?"
"A lot," I sighed. "I'm grounded for two months." There was a pause.
"Hmm... Do Ты have to work tomorrow?" he asked.
"No?" He laughed.
"Well, I think Ты do." It took me a couple seconds, then I got it.
"Ok," I laughed. We talked for a while, then we got to the topic of how we were while we were temporarily broken up. Blake admitted he was a mess as well, but he tried to cover it up at school. I admitted that eventually, I just gave up on trying to cover it up.
"Just out of curiosity, who'd Ты think I was cheating on Ты with?" I wondered. It was all forgiven and forgotten now, so I wasn't really that worried about asking.
"Skye," he answered. I nearly choked.
"Are Ты serious?" I laughed. "Skye?!"
"Yeah, I don't know what I was thinking," he admitted.
"Apparently not." We talked a little more, then before I knew it, it was midnight. "Goodnight."
"Goodnight. I Любовь you. Sleep well," he сказал(-а) before he hung up.
I dreamed peacefully that night, for the first time in a month.
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Tick, tick, tick
That sound, constant in my head,
A sound that haunts every mind,
A sound that brings fear,
A clock,
Ticking the секунды of your life away,
Making life shorter and shorter with every tick,
Drawing death nearer and nearer,
But Ты should not live in fear,
For life is too short for such a thing,
Some people waste these precious seconds,
Others treasure them, making sure that no tick is wasted,
The clock ticks on,
But as this sound is registered,
What do Ты do?
Tick, tick, tick
Three еще seconds, gone, like that,
Did Ты use them well?
Live life,
For life is too short to spend these секунды in hell.
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Tick, tick, tick
That sound, constant in my head,
A sound that haunts every mind,
A sound that brings fear,
A clock,
Ticking the секунды of your life away,
Making life shorter and shorter with every tick,
Drawing death nearer and nearer,
But Ты should not live in fear,
For life is too short for such a thing,
Some people waste these precious seconds,
Others treasure them, making sure that no tick is wasted,
The clock ticks on,
But as this sound is registered,
What do Ты do?
Tick, tick, tick
Three еще seconds, gone, like that,
Did Ты use them well?
Live life,
For life is too short to spend these секунды in hell.
His Melody
To quiet the tears
She sings him to sleep
When the morning has dawned
He can’t be roused from a rest so deep
She sings him to sleep
Night after night
And when he does not awaken
Her will to go on grows slight
She sits and waits while he’s away
She remembers his laugh and smile
Oh what a joy to see his joy
She lifts up a prayer “May I see him in a short while?”
She sits at the window and waits
The sun sets slowly behind the холм, хилл
The others say hello but she doesn’t hear
She is waiting to make the tears still
The time has come she cannot wait
She sets out to see her boy
To stop the tears
To bring him joy
But the tears she stills are not his
They fall from her eyes
She sings his lullaby again tonight
As she kisses the stone and her son good bye
To quiet the tears
She sings him to sleep
When the morning has dawned
He can’t be roused from a rest so deep
She sings him to sleep
Night after night
And when he does not awaken
Her will to go on grows slight
She sits and waits while he’s away
She remembers his laugh and smile
Oh what a joy to see his joy
She lifts up a prayer “May I see him in a short while?”
She sits at the window and waits
The sun sets slowly behind the холм, хилл
The others say hello but she doesn’t hear
She is waiting to make the tears still
The time has come she cannot wait
She sets out to see her boy
To stop the tears
To bring him joy
But the tears she stills are not his
They fall from her eyes
She sings his lullaby again tonight
As she kisses the stone and her son good bye
Dear record of my misfortune I was correct. Today I walked into class and saw a huge pile of letters on my desk. When I opened them I realized that it was hate mail. It was so stupid, people were getting angry at me for what I did to Jessica when it was her fault! They were saying things like : Die Эмо сука die, bitchy whore. That last Комментарий doesn't even apply to me! I haven't even had my first Kiss and they are saying this stuff to me! There was one letter that was bot mean even though I don't know who sent it. Inside it сказал(-а) Розы are red violets are blue I don't now why they hurt you, if Ты want I'll tell them to can it, all because I Любовь Ты Janet. I don't know who wrote Ты Любовь poem rhyme thing but I Любовь Ты too!
Is It True Ты Lie?
Is It True Ты Hate Me?
Is It True Ты Want Him?
Is It True You're My Best Friend?
Is It True Ты Enjoy Hurting Me?
Is It True Ты Like Me Crying?
Is It True Ты Talk Behind My Back?
Is It True Ты Tell People Our Bussiness?
Is It True I Hurt You?
Is It True Ты Back Stabbed Me?
Is It True Ты Let Me Believe The Lies?
Is It True Ты Let Me Call Ты My True Bestfriend When Ты Weren't?
Is It True.....?
This is A Poem Hope Yuh Enjoy It Btw Tell Me What Yuh Think And This Is Just About Me Gettin Hurt After Being Stupid Enough To Believe Her Lies She Wasnt A True Bestfriend
Is It True Ты Hate Me?
Is It True Ты Want Him?
Is It True You're My Best Friend?
Is It True Ты Enjoy Hurting Me?
Is It True Ты Like Me Crying?
Is It True Ты Talk Behind My Back?
Is It True Ты Tell People Our Bussiness?
Is It True I Hurt You?
Is It True Ты Back Stabbed Me?
Is It True Ты Let Me Believe The Lies?
Is It True Ты Let Me Call Ты My True Bestfriend When Ты Weren't?
Is It True.....?
This is A Poem Hope Yuh Enjoy It Btw Tell Me What Yuh Think And This Is Just About Me Gettin Hurt After Being Stupid Enough To Believe Her Lies She Wasnt A True Bestfriend
Her eyes were огонь red,
as if they were
lit from anger.
I dont understand
why Ты are
mad at me.
Why Ты shoot
those harsh words
at me.
Aimed like bullets,
piercing my soul.
And It cant heal.
I never can dodge them.
The words hit me,
and I fall back.
My Друзья ask me:
"What's wrong?"
"Can I help?"
But they cant help.
Because I dont understand,
why Ты are mad.
Why do Ты have to do
what Ты do to me?
Why does it give Ты
joy to harm me?
Why?
Why are people bullies?
Why dont my Друзья take action?
Why cant Ты tell me WHY?
as if they were
lit from anger.
I dont understand
why Ты are
mad at me.
Why Ты shoot
those harsh words
at me.
Aimed like bullets,
piercing my soul.
And It cant heal.
I never can dodge them.
The words hit me,
and I fall back.
My Друзья ask me:
"What's wrong?"
"Can I help?"
But they cant help.
Because I dont understand,
why Ты are mad.
Why do Ты have to do
what Ты do to me?
Why does it give Ты
joy to harm me?
Why?
Why are people bullies?
Why dont my Друзья take action?
Why cant Ты tell me WHY?
Streetlamps, houses, gates, remotes, books, CDs and televisions. Brothers. Pairs. Each has a twin. In this chaotic place of materials the world has come to be, everything has a brother. But brothers are family. And family is connected somehow; if not by blood, then by what?
Energy.
Look hard. At everything that has a brother. A line of energy casts a connection between the two. The energy, with its harsh glares and cold looks creates the strongest and most complex bonds. Strong because of their brotherhood. Complex because of its invisibility. For there is power in invisibility. Cold, cruel power. The power to be a persecutor with no chance of being a victim. The power to twist and squeeze but not feel the wrenching pain of your twists.
Now, Ты ask, what is left? Cruel, invisible energy. For a cruel, invisible world.
This is my first time Письмо in stream of consciousness. I know it's short but don't judge me too harshly.
Energy.
Look hard. At everything that has a brother. A line of energy casts a connection between the two. The energy, with its harsh glares and cold looks creates the strongest and most complex bonds. Strong because of their brotherhood. Complex because of its invisibility. For there is power in invisibility. Cold, cruel power. The power to be a persecutor with no chance of being a victim. The power to twist and squeeze but not feel the wrenching pain of your twists.
Now, Ты ask, what is left? Cruel, invisible energy. For a cruel, invisible world.
This is my first time Письмо in stream of consciousness. I know it's short but don't judge me too harshly.
jamie is a beautiful girl. she has long ,blond hair,she has a розовый рубашка and dark blue jeans. she was the cousin of lindsey.
she was walking her dog,sweetie,when,jamie tripped on a rock. she thn fell into the arms of trent.
'hell," he said.
"thnks for saving me,abd hi."
"you okay?"
"yeah,but,i,need to rest,and my house is pretty far from here.
"you can com,e over. i live across."
"thanks,um,"
"trent."
"trent."
they went to trents house,and they went up to his rom
"and this is my room."
i had a gray wall,with gutiar poster,and a bed.closet,drawers and other things.
"wow,thats a cool room."
"thanks."
"listen,do Ты have a girlfreind?"
"no,why?'
"i dont,do Ты wanna go out?"
"okay."
"so.."
then trent kissed jamie,and thats hat went on for the rest of the day.
she was walking her dog,sweetie,when,jamie tripped on a rock. she thn fell into the arms of trent.
'hell," he said.
"thnks for saving me,abd hi."
"you okay?"
"yeah,but,i,need to rest,and my house is pretty far from here.
"you can com,e over. i live across."
"thanks,um,"
"trent."
"trent."
they went to trents house,and they went up to his rom
"and this is my room."
i had a gray wall,with gutiar poster,and a bed.closet,drawers and other things.
"wow,thats a cool room."
"thanks."
"listen,do Ты have a girlfreind?"
"no,why?'
"i dont,do Ты wanna go out?"
"okay."
"so.."
then trent kissed jamie,and thats hat went on for the rest of the day.