What kind of sick, twisted individual created the idea of dodgeball? Apparently it seemed like such a great idea to put child against child, and have them whip balls at each other. And it doesn't matter that gym teachers say "no hitting people in the face," because despite that, that's exactly what they're aiming for.
I was just happy I was out most of the game. I was able to sit out on the sidelines, with all the kids who were furious they were out. and avoid a panic attack.
I saw Jezreel again.
She was ducking behind a kid, who seemed to not mind her using him as a body guard. I almost laughed at the sight, if I didn't pity her so much. Didn't she know it was much easier to just get hit, and then sit out the rest of the time?
Then terror struck.
Jezreel's bodyguard was hit, leaving her to fend for herself. Her bodyguard came and plopped down Далее to me.
"Oh no..." he muttered. He looked at me with a worried look. I frowned. He shook his head. "She's gonna kill me," he chuckled, although it was thick with tension and worry.
"Why?" I сказал(-а) unthinkingly. I mentally kicked myself; I promised myself I wouldn't talk to anyone. Then people would know me, and it'd all go downhill from there. He smiled.
"She hates dodgeball. I'm supposed to be her shield," he laughed a little. I nodded, averting my eyes to the ground. He held out his hand. "I'm Emery." I bit my lip, but then finally shook his hand.
"Shelby," I сказал(-а) quietly.
"You're new here, aren't you?" Emery asked. I nodded. "I thought so," he chuckled. The gym teacher blew the whistle; class was over. "Well, if Ты don't have anywhere to sit in lunch, Ты can sit with my Друзья and I," he offered.
"Thanks," I said. "I don't know." Emery opened his mouth to protest, when Jezreel shouted his name.
"Crap," he laughed, even though he seemed kind of afraid. I managed to leave before he could notice I was gone.
***
I ate lunch by myself. Kind of.
Someone tripped me in the lunch line, and I got most of my Еда all over my shirt. I managed to save a little bit of food, and I ate in the bathroom, after attempting to clean myself off. It wasn't the best place to eat, but I was not going back there.
Still, it was better than elementary school. I'd rather take continuous hits to my self-esteem alone. Sure, my knees were still scratched and sore, and my face felt like it was on fire, but it was better than getting beat up.
I stayed in the bathroom the rest of the day. I couldn't gather up enough courage to go out to my Далее classes. So for the Далее two hours, I just sat there. It was boring, but at least it saved me from unwanted anxiety.
Soon enough, the final колокол, колокольчик, белл rang. I eagerly gathered up my bag, and practically ran out the door. As I waited for the bus, I kept getting stares and giggles.
"She's such a freak."
"Why the hell is she here?"
"Because she's a dumbass." I bit my lip, and walked away. Whatever. Who needs to take a bus? At least now I could be by myself. No sooner did I decide to leave, my bus passed me, with kids shouting and laughing at me as they zoomed past. I sighed. 5 miles to go...
I was just happy I was out most of the game. I was able to sit out on the sidelines, with all the kids who were furious they were out. and avoid a panic attack.
I saw Jezreel again.
She was ducking behind a kid, who seemed to not mind her using him as a body guard. I almost laughed at the sight, if I didn't pity her so much. Didn't she know it was much easier to just get hit, and then sit out the rest of the time?
Then terror struck.
Jezreel's bodyguard was hit, leaving her to fend for herself. Her bodyguard came and plopped down Далее to me.
"Oh no..." he muttered. He looked at me with a worried look. I frowned. He shook his head. "She's gonna kill me," he chuckled, although it was thick with tension and worry.
"Why?" I сказал(-а) unthinkingly. I mentally kicked myself; I promised myself I wouldn't talk to anyone. Then people would know me, and it'd all go downhill from there. He smiled.
"She hates dodgeball. I'm supposed to be her shield," he laughed a little. I nodded, averting my eyes to the ground. He held out his hand. "I'm Emery." I bit my lip, but then finally shook his hand.
"Shelby," I сказал(-а) quietly.
"You're new here, aren't you?" Emery asked. I nodded. "I thought so," he chuckled. The gym teacher blew the whistle; class was over. "Well, if Ты don't have anywhere to sit in lunch, Ты can sit with my Друзья and I," he offered.
"Thanks," I said. "I don't know." Emery opened his mouth to protest, when Jezreel shouted his name.
"Crap," he laughed, even though he seemed kind of afraid. I managed to leave before he could notice I was gone.
***
I ate lunch by myself. Kind of.
Someone tripped me in the lunch line, and I got most of my Еда all over my shirt. I managed to save a little bit of food, and I ate in the bathroom, after attempting to clean myself off. It wasn't the best place to eat, but I was not going back there.
Still, it was better than elementary school. I'd rather take continuous hits to my self-esteem alone. Sure, my knees were still scratched and sore, and my face felt like it was on fire, but it was better than getting beat up.
I stayed in the bathroom the rest of the day. I couldn't gather up enough courage to go out to my Далее classes. So for the Далее two hours, I just sat there. It was boring, but at least it saved me from unwanted anxiety.
Soon enough, the final колокол, колокольчик, белл rang. I eagerly gathered up my bag, and practically ran out the door. As I waited for the bus, I kept getting stares and giggles.
"She's such a freak."
"Why the hell is she here?"
"Because she's a dumbass." I bit my lip, and walked away. Whatever. Who needs to take a bus? At least now I could be by myself. No sooner did I decide to leave, my bus passed me, with kids shouting and laughing at me as they zoomed past. I sighed. 5 miles to go...
The inky sky pours in gradually,
Silver stars mingle casually,
огонь has left a stain on this land,
Trace the blackened ground with one hand,
Been a while, but I remember,
By waning light, a glowing ember
Fades out in silence, into dust,
Until the breeze will leave it crushed.
My frame, a statue, barely breathing,
As the wisps of smoke are leaving,
Now, my muscles start to thaw,
And heat from ashes leaves them raw,
I catch myself before my landing,
For as long as I've been standing,
I've stared out at a ruined nation,
Now I walk with trepidation.
Silver stars mingle casually,
огонь has left a stain on this land,
Trace the blackened ground with one hand,
Been a while, but I remember,
By waning light, a glowing ember
Fades out in silence, into dust,
Until the breeze will leave it crushed.
My frame, a statue, barely breathing,
As the wisps of smoke are leaving,
Now, my muscles start to thaw,
And heat from ashes leaves them raw,
I catch myself before my landing,
For as long as I've been standing,
I've stared out at a ruined nation,
Now I walk with trepidation.
The Man With No Eyes Collection (4): Lately
I thought I Остаться в живых Ты before Ты even left me.
That’s the message that your cloudy gaze sent me,
And now it’s become a glistening bubble of a memory.
Is it possible Ты regret me?
Is it possible that I’m empty?
Why else would I awake to find no one here except me?
Won’t anyone accept me?
My true face, not the stunning mask of the beautiful, bereft me?
Haunted riches; is it worth being wealthy?
The creeping outside my doors; they’re gonna get me.
And once they finish chopping me up, they’re gonna set me,
Ablaze, and then they’ll just forget me.
A еще grim tone and disorganized format were intentional for this one. Funny enough, the Название was the hardest part here. Trying to sum up this poem in just a word was difficult, but I think I found a good fit.
I thought I Остаться в живых Ты before Ты even left me.
That’s the message that your cloudy gaze sent me,
And now it’s become a glistening bubble of a memory.
Is it possible Ты regret me?
Is it possible that I’m empty?
Why else would I awake to find no one here except me?
Won’t anyone accept me?
My true face, not the stunning mask of the beautiful, bereft me?
Haunted riches; is it worth being wealthy?
The creeping outside my doors; they’re gonna get me.
And once they finish chopping me up, they’re gonna set me,
Ablaze, and then they’ll just forget me.
A еще grim tone and disorganized format were intentional for this one. Funny enough, the Название was the hardest part here. Trying to sum up this poem in just a word was difficult, but I think I found a good fit.
What i want to do is to create something that speaks to kids или teens just like the Дисней Фильмы and comicbooks did to me as a kid and thats why i´m trying to write a book and i´m going to try and get that published.
I really admire people who succed with Письмо a book,drawing comics или anything like that and i really hope that i can be one of them some day.
Normally, this style just isn't me, but I feel like I needed to release all of my wrath, turning it into sadness, eventually.
So, I'm not an Эмо poem writer, but I just wanted to Опубликовать this piece I literally just wrote.
I am broken
There's no one left to fix me.
All hope is lost
There's so much I will never be.
I am broken
My world has been shattered.
All hope is lost
I am nothing, destroyed and battered.
I am broken
The world around me falls apart.
All hope is lost
There is no chance for a new start.
I am broken
I have been left here on my own.
All hope is lost
There's no one else; I am here alone.
I am broken
The pain is too much for me to bare.
All hope is lost
In the end, the others just don't care.
I was broken
No tears remain in my fearful eyes.
All hope is gone
My world ended with nothing but lies.
So, I'm not an Эмо poem writer, but I just wanted to Опубликовать this piece I literally just wrote.
I am broken
There's no one left to fix me.
All hope is lost
There's so much I will never be.
I am broken
My world has been shattered.
All hope is lost
I am nothing, destroyed and battered.
I am broken
The world around me falls apart.
All hope is lost
There is no chance for a new start.
I am broken
I have been left here on my own.
All hope is lost
There's no one else; I am here alone.
I am broken
The pain is too much for me to bare.
All hope is lost
In the end, the others just don't care.
I was broken
No tears remain in my fearful eyes.
All hope is gone
My world ended with nothing but lies.
Shaun
I watched two little girls playing, watching one in particular. She reminded me painfully of Serena. The little girl pulled her friend to her feet and ran towards a woman that I recognized.
It was her. At first I was sure I was halluncinating.
Her dark hair was a little longer than I had seen it last. She was wearing a black pencil юбка and a deep blue blouse. She looked happy as the girl ran up to her.
She hugged the little girl. Their hair was the same colour.
I watched numbly as Serena looked at the child with unfathomable Любовь as she told her something.
Serena looked up at me, pain and shock evident on her face.
I watched two little girls playing, watching one in particular. She reminded me painfully of Serena. The little girl pulled her friend to her feet and ran towards a woman that I recognized.
It was her. At first I was sure I was halluncinating.
Her dark hair was a little longer than I had seen it last. She was wearing a black pencil юбка and a deep blue blouse. She looked happy as the girl ran up to her.
She hugged the little girl. Their hair was the same colour.
I watched numbly as Serena looked at the child with unfathomable Любовь as she told her something.
Serena looked up at me, pain and shock evident on her face.
Ты couldn't and wouldn't,
ask for anything more.
Now all Ты want,
is to be able to rest.
For your famliy to be happy.
Ты wish Ты could help them,
through the pain,
but Ты can't,
Ты can only watch,
from the sky.
Ты can only watch them cry.
Hearts are now broken.
But your love,
is forever out spoken.
For twith out you,
there'd be no hope,
for those to come.
Ты put the doctors one step closer,
to finding the cure.
Ты may be just another person to them,
but to me your so much more.
Your one in a million,
your unequie.
I have just one еще thing to say.
Plaese rest now.
Rest now and sleep.
May heven bring Ты happiness and peace.
ask for anything more.
Now all Ты want,
is to be able to rest.
For your famliy to be happy.
Ты wish Ты could help them,
through the pain,
but Ты can't,
Ты can only watch,
from the sky.
Ты can only watch them cry.
Hearts are now broken.
But your love,
is forever out spoken.
For twith out you,
there'd be no hope,
for those to come.
Ты put the doctors one step closer,
to finding the cure.
Ты may be just another person to them,
but to me your so much more.
Your one in a million,
your unequie.
I have just one еще thing to say.
Plaese rest now.
Rest now and sleep.
May heven bring Ты happiness and peace.