The time seemed to go by too fast that night. I stared at the ceiling. My mind so blank, yet so complex with thoughts. I knew that I just wasn't ready for this. Abortion isn't even a option though. It doesn't matter whether Ты drown your baby in the bathtub или nip him the butt, murder is murder. Omg! What if I end up a cray mother like that?
I shook my head furiously. No, that won't be me. I will Любовь and take care of my child. How exactly I'm going to do that I'm not sure. I'm too much a chicken to tell Emet. I would completely ruin his future. That boy has his college fund in the bag. He is so smart and amazing at sports. Imagine if he were to throw all that away to work at McDonald's and support me and this "thing". I just can't do that to him.
What about me? I'm advanced in all my classes and I've been dreaming of the университет of Texas since I was like 7 years old. I can't attend UT with a baby. I wanted to travel and see this vast creation God has made. I can't do that with a baby. I'm a teenager who has no idea what I'm doing. Guess that's no excuse. I feel pretty hopeless right now.
Who would I tell first? (Other than Lette)...Could I tell Emet before my own mom? But then again Emet could help me approach my mom if he knew first. Ughhh, I don't know what to do! I'm only a teenager. This wasn't what I would've thought of when I thought of high school. There goes the nest four years. Kiss them goodbye.
I shook my head furiously. No, that won't be me. I will Любовь and take care of my child. How exactly I'm going to do that I'm not sure. I'm too much a chicken to tell Emet. I would completely ruin his future. That boy has his college fund in the bag. He is so smart and amazing at sports. Imagine if he were to throw all that away to work at McDonald's and support me and this "thing". I just can't do that to him.
What about me? I'm advanced in all my classes and I've been dreaming of the университет of Texas since I was like 7 years old. I can't attend UT with a baby. I wanted to travel and see this vast creation God has made. I can't do that with a baby. I'm a teenager who has no idea what I'm doing. Guess that's no excuse. I feel pretty hopeless right now.
Who would I tell first? (Other than Lette)...Could I tell Emet before my own mom? But then again Emet could help me approach my mom if he knew first. Ughhh, I don't know what to do! I'm only a teenager. This wasn't what I would've thought of when I thought of high school. There goes the nest four years. Kiss them goodbye.
Normally, this style just isn't me, but I feel like I needed to release all of my wrath, turning it into sadness, eventually.
So, I'm not an Эмо poem writer, but I just wanted to Опубликовать this piece I literally just wrote.
I am broken
There's no one left to fix me.
All hope is lost
There's so much I will never be.
I am broken
My world has been shattered.
All hope is lost
I am nothing, destroyed and battered.
I am broken
The world around me falls apart.
All hope is lost
There is no chance for a new start.
I am broken
I have been left here on my own.
All hope is lost
There's no one else; I am here alone.
I am broken
The pain is too much for me to bare.
All hope is lost
In the end, the others just don't care.
I was broken
No tears remain in my fearful eyes.
All hope is gone
My world ended with nothing but lies.
So, I'm not an Эмо poem writer, but I just wanted to Опубликовать this piece I literally just wrote.
I am broken
There's no one left to fix me.
All hope is lost
There's so much I will never be.
I am broken
My world has been shattered.
All hope is lost
I am nothing, destroyed and battered.
I am broken
The world around me falls apart.
All hope is lost
There is no chance for a new start.
I am broken
I have been left here on my own.
All hope is lost
There's no one else; I am here alone.
I am broken
The pain is too much for me to bare.
All hope is lost
In the end, the others just don't care.
I was broken
No tears remain in my fearful eyes.
All hope is gone
My world ended with nothing but lies.
im so sick.
im sick of everything about you.
i hate what Ты say,
what Ты do,
everything.
it sets off some spark,
that just angers me inside and out.
im so sick.
im sick of your laugh,
your smile,
your eyes,
everything.
i hate how Ты talk to me,
how Ты treat me,
what Ты think of me as.
im not your toy,
im not your anything.
i dont belong to you,
im not a possession.
im just me.
and im so sick.
sick of everything in this godforsaken world.
especially you.
and i dont want to be something
that hates and is sick
of everything.
im just sick of you.
and honestly...
i dont want to be with you
anymore.
im so sick.
im sick of everything about you.
i hate what Ты say,
what Ты do,
everything.
it sets off some spark,
that just angers me inside and out.
im so sick.
im sick of your laugh,
your smile,
your eyes,
everything.
i hate how Ты talk to me,
how Ты treat me,
what Ты think of me as.
im not your toy,
im not your anything.
i dont belong to you,
im not a possession.
im just me.
and im so sick.
sick of everything in this godforsaken world.
especially you.
and i dont want to be something
that hates and is sick
of everything.
im just sick of you.
and honestly...
i dont want to be with you
anymore.
im so sick.