"Overall, I can say that I do love him.."<3
"Mmmmm. I missed you." I heard him whisper in my ear.
"Mmmm...No I'm pretty sure I missed you." I manged to whisper back. It felt a little weird saying that too him. I didn't want to be all rude and not say it back, but I just.. I still haven't decided whether I actually wanna go through with this или not.
Granted, I did say that I do Любовь him like Любовь him, Любовь him, but at the same time I Любовь him as my best friend and right now....I think i Любовь him еще as a best friend. I just don't know.
He set me down and gently moved a hair from my face. I could tell that he was gonna go in for the kiss, but I quickly stopped him.
"We need to talk." I tried to not make it too harsh but at the same serious enough for him to stop. But, he was a little turned off by it.
"Whats up Jaz.?" He sounded like the old Matthew. That was a little of a relief because I didn't know how to talk to this new, sweet Matthew.
"Okay. Well.....What exactly is gonna happen between...'us'?" The word "us" just seemed weird to me. he knew exactly what I meant. I could tell he was about to say something but he let it go.
"Well...after the pass few days....It's up to Ты Jaz." I hated that reply because that wasn't an answer! Now I was either can gonna start this whole new relationship или just completely nip it in the bud. No pressure или anything. I did want to be with him. I'm also the biggest non-risk taker Ты will ever meet. So...I just don't know. I Любовь him as my best friend and I am scared of losing him as my best friend if for some reason we don't work out as a couple. Uhhh, come on Jaz.
"Ummm...What do Ты want?"
I saw him try to think of how to say what he wanted to say.
"Jaz, I Любовь you. I have always loved you. Ты know that. Ты are my best friend and it would not matter to me whether Ты stay my best friend или be the girl I marry."
I was kinda taken by surprise by the whole marriage thing.The person you're going to spend the rest of your life with was a pretty big deal. But either way, I knew what I wanted to do. I put my arms around his neck and looked up at his beautiful Энджел face.
"The marriage thing is a little far fetched but,...I would not mind being еще than your best friend." I topped that off with big щенок eyes and a flirty grin.
What stop my сердце first was the glitter in his beautiful brown eyes as I сказал(-а) these words. The секунда was the amazing Kiss he gave me afterwords. For the first time in the whole weekend I felt the spark in the kiss, that longing to want more, To not want to push away. It was the best Kiss yet.
"Yummm." He giggled at me as I took a bite of my burger. Usually I was never wrong about things but Burger Boy burgers being better than Burger King burgers was defiantly something I waved my white flag to.
If Ты are wondering, yes he did take me out. To most girls a burger joint wouldn't exactly be the guy who would support Ты in the end but to me and Matthew, a burger joint was just as good as any other place in the world. It was kinda cute how we sat in one of those booth things and he put his arm around me. We did that cheesy thing and drank one shake out of two straws. It was a pretty good night. I loved every минута with him. He took me Главная and gave me a light Kiss before I walked inside. Overall, I can say I do Любовь him and I'm happy i finally took a risk. Lets just hope it last.
He didn’t want money или fancy cars; all he wanted was to be loved by someone, any one at all. He needed someone to care about him, not his wealth, not his ties to the rich and famous, someone that actually cared about him, the boy with bright blue eyes that sparkled in the sunlight, curly raven black hair and a boyish grin permanently plastered on his face hiding the pain of being alone. Yet no one did, all they saw was the heir to the Jeffrey Empire, the boy that was going to inherited it all. The boy, who was the prefect son living up to the Jeffrey name. They never saw the boy’s who’s arms were covered in cuts, the нож against his skin, the blood dripping down staining the carpet, his eyes closing never to open again. No one read the note tucked into his pocket cause no one cared.
I’m finished
I’m done
I can’t do this anymore
I’m through
I can’t last another second
It’s all I’ve ever seen
Surrounded by chaos
Filled with fear
Its’ all I can think about
All the Остаться в живых love
All the broken hearts
All the destroyed dreams
All the hopeless children
And devastated parents
Everyone who turned their cheek
Who ignored the cries
Of help and distress
No еще kindness
Only monsters and demons
Who always kill
Ты took her from me
And now you’ll pay
‘Cause I have one final thing to say
—Good-bye World
—Hello Death and eternity
I’m done
I can’t do this anymore
I’m through
I can’t last another second
It’s all I’ve ever seen
Surrounded by chaos
Filled with fear
Its’ all I can think about
All the Остаться в живых love
All the broken hearts
All the destroyed dreams
All the hopeless children
And devastated parents
Everyone who turned their cheek
Who ignored the cries
Of help and distress
No еще kindness
Only monsters and demons
Who always kill
Ты took her from me
And now you’ll pay
‘Cause I have one final thing to say
—Good-bye World
—Hello Death and eternity
There is strength in my heart.
I have looked for it
For decades now.
Yet I have not found it before.
Now I have.
It will get me over every obstacle,
Every region,
Every country.
It makes me proud
To see this.
To see my strength
Laying there,
Waiting for me.
And me only.
This type of strength
Is called courage.
Perseverance.
Perseverance is the best type
Of strength possible.
And I have it.
Yes, me.
Never before,
Will Ты see me cower within the shadows
Again, like before.
I have changed.
And I am sure Ты will see that.
I have strength in my heart.
I have looked for it
For decades now.
Yet I have not found it before.
Now I have.
It will get me over every obstacle,
Every region,
Every country.
It makes me proud
To see this.
To see my strength
Laying there,
Waiting for me.
And me only.
This type of strength
Is called courage.
Perseverance.
Perseverance is the best type
Of strength possible.
And I have it.
Yes, me.
Never before,
Will Ты see me cower within the shadows
Again, like before.
I have changed.
And I am sure Ты will see that.
I have strength in my heart.
I looked into the window
to see the girl before me.
she was gorgeous, and beautiful
She looked strong,
she looked independent.
Her Mask was no longer there,
but what was on the outside was visible.
Ты can see the scars on her heart,
Ты can see the hurt in her eyes,
and the pain on her face.
But Ты can also see how it made her stronger.
She has сказал(-а) "Enough is Enough, Today is the Day, and today i will be victorious"
she strikes the match,
and drops the flame, to burn her past
She smiles at me, and touches her face,
and she сказал(-а) the words "Today is the Day"
Today I finally discovered, The girl looking back at her,
was me. :)
to see the girl before me.
she was gorgeous, and beautiful
She looked strong,
she looked independent.
Her Mask was no longer there,
but what was on the outside was visible.
Ты can see the scars on her heart,
Ты can see the hurt in her eyes,
and the pain on her face.
But Ты can also see how it made her stronger.
She has сказал(-а) "Enough is Enough, Today is the Day, and today i will be victorious"
she strikes the match,
and drops the flame, to burn her past
She smiles at me, and touches her face,
and she сказал(-а) the words "Today is the Day"
Today I finally discovered, The girl looking back at her,
was me. :)
