"Overall, I can say that I do love him.."<3
"Mmmmm. I missed you." I heard him whisper in my ear.
"Mmmm...No I'm pretty sure I missed you." I manged to whisper back. It felt a little weird saying that too him. I didn't want to be all rude and not say it back, but I just.. I still haven't decided whether I actually wanna go through with this или not.
Granted, I did say that I do Любовь him like Любовь him, Любовь him, but at the same time I Любовь him as my best friend and right now....I think i Любовь him еще as a best friend. I just don't know.
He set me down and gently moved a hair from my face. I could tell that he was gonna go in for the kiss, but I quickly stopped him.
"We need to talk." I tried to not make it too harsh but at the same serious enough for him to stop. But, he was a little turned off by it.
"Whats up Jaz.?" He sounded like the old Matthew. That was a little of a relief because I didn't know how to talk to this new, sweet Matthew.
"Okay. Well.....What exactly is gonna happen between...'us'?" The word "us" just seemed weird to me. he knew exactly what I meant. I could tell he was about to say something but he let it go.
"Well...after the pass few days....It's up to Ты Jaz." I hated that reply because that wasn't an answer! Now I was either can gonna start this whole new relationship или just completely nip it in the bud. No pressure или anything. I did want to be with him. I'm also the biggest non-risk taker Ты will ever meet. So...I just don't know. I Любовь him as my best friend and I am scared of losing him as my best friend if for some reason we don't work out as a couple. Uhhh, come on Jaz.
"Ummm...What do Ты want?"
I saw him try to think of how to say what he wanted to say.
"Jaz, I Любовь you. I have always loved you. Ты know that. Ты are my best friend and it would not matter to me whether Ты stay my best friend или be the girl I marry."
I was kinda taken by surprise by the whole marriage thing.The person you're going to spend the rest of your life with was a pretty big deal. But either way, I knew what I wanted to do. I put my arms around his neck and looked up at his beautiful Энджел face.
"The marriage thing is a little far fetched but,...I would not mind being еще than your best friend." I topped that off with big щенок eyes and a flirty grin.
What stop my сердце first was the glitter in his beautiful brown eyes as I сказал(-а) these words. The секунда was the amazing Kiss he gave me afterwords. For the first time in the whole weekend I felt the spark in the kiss, that longing to want more, To not want to push away. It was the best Kiss yet.
"Yummm." He giggled at me as I took a bite of my burger. Usually I was never wrong about things but Burger Boy burgers being better than Burger King burgers was defiantly something I waved my white flag to.
If Ты are wondering, yes he did take me out. To most girls a burger joint wouldn't exactly be the guy who would support Ты in the end but to me and Matthew, a burger joint was just as good as any other place in the world. It was kinda cute how we sat in one of those booth things and he put his arm around me. We did that cheesy thing and drank one shake out of two straws. It was a pretty good night. I loved every минута with him. He took me Главная and gave me a light Kiss before I walked inside. Overall, I can say I do Любовь him and I'm happy i finally took a risk. Lets just hope it last.
The noise,
buzzing and buzzing in my ears.
It's just not right,
Ты think Ты are so bright,
saying Ты buzz because Ты care.
But it's so unfair.
I don't need your concern,
the best way Ты can Показать Ты care,
is to leave me alone.
Why can't Ты understand?
Have Ты tried to understand?
Do I really expect Ты to understand?
This is not a teenage problem,
the excuse Ты uses so often,
This is about my freedom.
Ты think I don't know anything,
Ты think I am naive and innocent.
But things are so different.
Ты think because Ты are older,
Ты know еще than we do,
That’s not true.
The world has changed,
We are not the fairy tales that sing,
we are the ones who could take our lives in a blink.
No, Ты are lying to yourself,
blocking the truth that would make Ты knelt
buzzing and buzzing in my ears.
It's just not right,
Ты think Ты are so bright,
saying Ты buzz because Ты care.
But it's so unfair.
I don't need your concern,
the best way Ты can Показать Ты care,
is to leave me alone.
Why can't Ты understand?
Have Ты tried to understand?
Do I really expect Ты to understand?
This is not a teenage problem,
the excuse Ты uses so often,
This is about my freedom.
Ты think I don't know anything,
Ты think I am naive and innocent.
But things are so different.
Ты think because Ты are older,
Ты know еще than we do,
That’s not true.
The world has changed,
We are not the fairy tales that sing,
we are the ones who could take our lives in a blink.
No, Ты are lying to yourself,
blocking the truth that would make Ты knelt
I look out
Into the crowd
Looking for you
Hoping to see you
I search
And search
But can’t find
Your face
In all the crowd
The one person
I wanted to see
I couldn’t see
I was left
With my disappointment
As I begin to think
Of all the times
You’ve broken your word
But then
I should have known
Ты never stayed
Unless Ты profited
Ты never were
A real dad
Never has been
Never will
I look out
In the crowd
Hoping against hope
That Ты will be there
But I shouldn't even bother
I'm a nobody
Someone Ты never loved
Someone Ты don't even know
Maybe someday
I'll learn
That all I get from you
Is broken promises
Half truths
And utter disappointments
So now I say good bye to it all
The hurt and anger
My disappointment
And you
Into the crowd
Looking for you
Hoping to see you
I search
And search
But can’t find
Your face
In all the crowd
The one person
I wanted to see
I couldn’t see
I was left
With my disappointment
As I begin to think
Of all the times
You’ve broken your word
But then
I should have known
Ты never stayed
Unless Ты profited
Ты never were
A real dad
Never has been
Never will
I look out
In the crowd
Hoping against hope
That Ты will be there
But I shouldn't even bother
I'm a nobody
Someone Ты never loved
Someone Ты don't even know
Maybe someday
I'll learn
That all I get from you
Is broken promises
Half truths
And utter disappointments
So now I say good bye to it all
The hurt and anger
My disappointment
And you
"You'll never get the secret from me!" The monsters' eyes gleamed. They wanted me to yell. It was a sign of my weakening resolve. I lowered my voice. "The secret is worthless to Ты unless Ты know where they are. Without them, you'll be trapped." None of us in the small chamber knew who was bluffing and who wasn't.
"We will get the secrets. Do not worry about that. Your 'friends' helped us еще than they could realize," a large black…thing said. Its eyes gleamed yellow. Not yellow like the sun, but yellow like the foulest thing ever seen. Another spoke up.
"What is in this case? Ты act like it contains something of value. Is the secret in there?"
"That's for me to know, and Ты to spend the rest of your lives guessing. The secret is going back where it belongs. Tonight. Once it's there, it will be forever beyond your reach."
And that is where I stop. If I get at least ten favorable comments, I'll write more. And be honest.
"We will get the secrets. Do not worry about that. Your 'friends' helped us еще than they could realize," a large black…thing said. Its eyes gleamed yellow. Not yellow like the sun, but yellow like the foulest thing ever seen. Another spoke up.
"What is in this case? Ты act like it contains something of value. Is the secret in there?"
"That's for me to know, and Ты to spend the rest of your lives guessing. The secret is going back where it belongs. Tonight. Once it's there, it will be forever beyond your reach."
And that is where I stop. If I get at least ten favorable comments, I'll write more. And be honest.
Dear diary
Today was my first дата with Oisin. It is kind-of wierd going out with your best friend. So, we went to серовато-коричневый, dun, дун Drum shopping centre. Then we went to see a movie, and then headed over to hes place. Then Olivia called and asked to go round to talk about girl stuff. I gave Oisin a little Kiss good-bye. Olivia was worrying that Sean might be cheating on her. I didn't know what to say.
Lucy xx
Tell me what Ты think. Rate, comment, tell me what should happen next. is it bad?!?
Today was my first дата with Oisin. It is kind-of wierd going out with your best friend. So, we went to серовато-коричневый, dun, дун Drum shopping centre. Then we went to see a movie, and then headed over to hes place. Then Olivia called and asked to go round to talk about girl stuff. I gave Oisin a little Kiss good-bye. Olivia was worrying that Sean might be cheating on her. I didn't know what to say.
Lucy xx
Tell me what Ты think. Rate, comment, tell me what should happen next. is it bad?!?
Where did it all go wrong
what made us fall apart
I was so caught up in a dizzy
spin of fantasies
I didn't even notice.
Baby please I'm sorry
I know we had a bad run
but i know we can make
this thing work
There are lines drawn
and Ive crossed them
Ты made no attempt to stop me
In fact Ты probably welcomed it.
I've crossed the bridge
now i must stand and
watch it burn
theres no going back now.
I've done some real bad things
in my past, some to others
mostly to myself, racked woth guilt
but i must soldier on
Because ...
The bridge is burnt
I stood and watched it burn
No going back, no backing out...
I've crossed the line
Im in too deep
far too deep
in Любовь with you.
what made us fall apart
I was so caught up in a dizzy
spin of fantasies
I didn't even notice.
Baby please I'm sorry
I know we had a bad run
but i know we can make
this thing work
There are lines drawn
and Ive crossed them
Ты made no attempt to stop me
In fact Ты probably welcomed it.
I've crossed the bridge
now i must stand and
watch it burn
theres no going back now.
I've done some real bad things
in my past, some to others
mostly to myself, racked woth guilt
but i must soldier on
Because ...
The bridge is burnt
I stood and watched it burn
No going back, no backing out...
I've crossed the line
Im in too deep
far too deep
in Любовь with you.
A/N: Okay, so this was an idea that pestered me. Let me know if I should continue.
Taylor paced the length of her quarters. Being unable to sleep was, ironically, a tiresome experience.
She had been a vampire for less than ten years, and remembered nothing of her life as a human. In her mind, it was simply an odd void, like the only way to sense it's presence was from it's very absence.
Tomorrow, the moon would be the smallest crescent, and she would be forced to hunt, along with every other vampire there. To vampires, the moon always looked the same. It was only when humans saw it that way too, would they need to hunt.
Resisting was futile, Taylor knew. She had tried every time and failed. The pain would be worse than she could manage. Than anyone could.
She sank to the floor against the wall, and melted into the shadows.
Taylor paced the length of her quarters. Being unable to sleep was, ironically, a tiresome experience.
She had been a vampire for less than ten years, and remembered nothing of her life as a human. In her mind, it was simply an odd void, like the only way to sense it's presence was from it's very absence.
Tomorrow, the moon would be the smallest crescent, and she would be forced to hunt, along with every other vampire there. To vampires, the moon always looked the same. It was only when humans saw it that way too, would they need to hunt.
Resisting was futile, Taylor knew. She had tried every time and failed. The pain would be worse than she could manage. Than anyone could.
She sank to the floor against the wall, and melted into the shadows.
