"Overall, I can say that I do love him.."<3
"Mmmmm. I missed you." I heard him whisper in my ear.
"Mmmm...No I'm pretty sure I missed you." I manged to whisper back. It felt a little weird saying that too him. I didn't want to be all rude and not say it back, but I just.. I still haven't decided whether I actually wanna go through with this или not.
Granted, I did say that I do Любовь him like Любовь him, Любовь him, but at the same time I Любовь him as my best friend and right now....I think i Любовь him еще as a best friend. I just don't know.
He set me down and gently moved a hair from my face. I could tell that he was gonna go in for the kiss, but I quickly stopped him.
"We need to talk." I tried to not make it too harsh but at the same serious enough for him to stop. But, he was a little turned off by it.
"Whats up Jaz.?" He sounded like the old Matthew. That was a little of a relief because I didn't know how to talk to this new, sweet Matthew.
"Okay. Well.....What exactly is gonna happen between...'us'?" The word "us" just seemed weird to me. he knew exactly what I meant. I could tell he was about to say something but he let it go.
"Well...after the pass few days....It's up to Ты Jaz." I hated that reply because that wasn't an answer! Now I was either can gonna start this whole new relationship или just completely nip it in the bud. No pressure или anything. I did want to be with him. I'm also the biggest non-risk taker Ты will ever meet. So...I just don't know. I Любовь him as my best friend and I am scared of losing him as my best friend if for some reason we don't work out as a couple. Uhhh, come on Jaz.
"Ummm...What do Ты want?"
I saw him try to think of how to say what he wanted to say.
"Jaz, I Любовь you. I have always loved you. Ты know that. Ты are my best friend and it would not matter to me whether Ты stay my best friend или be the girl I marry."
I was kinda taken by surprise by the whole marriage thing.The person you're going to spend the rest of your life with was a pretty big deal. But either way, I knew what I wanted to do. I put my arms around his neck and looked up at his beautiful Энджел face.
"The marriage thing is a little far fetched but,...I would not mind being еще than your best friend." I topped that off with big щенок eyes and a flirty grin.
What stop my сердце first was the glitter in his beautiful brown eyes as I сказал(-а) these words. The секунда was the amazing Kiss he gave me afterwords. For the first time in the whole weekend I felt the spark in the kiss, that longing to want more, To not want to push away. It was the best Kiss yet.
"Yummm." He giggled at me as I took a bite of my burger. Usually I was never wrong about things but Burger Boy burgers being better than Burger King burgers was defiantly something I waved my white flag to.
If Ты are wondering, yes he did take me out. To most girls a burger joint wouldn't exactly be the guy who would support Ты in the end but to me and Matthew, a burger joint was just as good as any other place in the world. It was kinda cute how we sat in one of those booth things and he put his arm around me. We did that cheesy thing and drank one shake out of two straws. It was a pretty good night. I loved every минута with him. He took me Главная and gave me a light Kiss before I walked inside. Overall, I can say I do Любовь him and I'm happy i finally took a risk. Lets just hope it last.
such a waste, my life whole life is a fake!...but im sure ive been a thorn inside of you...that's torn at Ты for years. but, sometimes i can taste how горький i've become...& its еще then i can bare. sometimes i pray for someone to blow me away. just make it quick, but let it burn...so i can feel the pain thats torn at me for years. i can't be held responsable, 'cause this is all so new to me. can i...leave my pain behind?
the sercomstances of one's birth are irrelavent. its what Ты DO with the gift of life, that determends who Ты are. the pain Ты feel...its normal. let it go.
Ты think?
yes. Ты need to forgive and forget.
i can't...
Ты can.
but i can't just do nothing...
it's not nothing!
i cant just...forget.
it's hard to forgive, and its hard to forget, but it's easy to do nothing...
you're right...
the sercomstances of one's birth are irrelavent. its what Ты DO with the gift of life, that determends who Ты are. the pain Ты feel...its normal. let it go.
Ты think?
yes. Ты need to forgive and forget.
i can't...
Ты can.
but i can't just do nothing...
it's not nothing!
i cant just...forget.
it's hard to forgive, and its hard to forget, but it's easy to do nothing...
you're right...
I do not own this. I did not write it, and I do not know the author. I just really like this and wanted to share it.
Who will Ты be
when faced with the end;
the end of a kingdom,
the end of good men.
Will Ты run?
Will Ты hide?
или will Ты hunt down evil
with a venomous pride?
Rise to the ashes,
rise to the winter sky,
rise to the calling,
make heard the battle cry.
Let it scream from the mountains
From the forest to the chapel.
Because death is a hungry mouth
and Ты are the apple.
So who will Ты be
when faced with the end?
When the vultures are circling
and the shadows descend.
Will Ты cower,
или will Ты fight?
Is your сердце made of glass?
или a pure snow white?
Who will Ты be
when faced with the end;
the end of a kingdom,
the end of good men.
Will Ты run?
Will Ты hide?
или will Ты hunt down evil
with a venomous pride?
Rise to the ashes,
rise to the winter sky,
rise to the calling,
make heard the battle cry.
Let it scream from the mountains
From the forest to the chapel.
Because death is a hungry mouth
and Ты are the apple.
So who will Ты be
when faced with the end?
When the vultures are circling
and the shadows descend.
Will Ты cower,
или will Ты fight?
Is your сердце made of glass?
или a pure snow white?
tell me why i miss you
why did i have feelings for you?
i wish i could answer these Вопросы on my own,
but i cant.
honestly, they only thing that i want right now is you.
i dont know why i still miss you,
i dont understand why i really want another chance
what i really dont get is why Ты wont let me Показать Ты that ive changed
back then i didnt know any better
after going on intercession, ive grown alot
in all honesty, yesterday really made me think about things
it opened my eyes, and changed the way i felt.
i didn't really know you,
i wanted to get away,
now, i realize i was wrong, and im sorry.
i hate that we dont talk anymore
i wish we still do.
i hope Ты read this,
and forgive me, so we can start over again.
Hi, my name is Hikaru.
What's yours :)
why did i have feelings for you?
i wish i could answer these Вопросы on my own,
but i cant.
honestly, they only thing that i want right now is you.
i dont know why i still miss you,
i dont understand why i really want another chance
what i really dont get is why Ты wont let me Показать Ты that ive changed
back then i didnt know any better
after going on intercession, ive grown alot
in all honesty, yesterday really made me think about things
it opened my eyes, and changed the way i felt.
i didn't really know you,
i wanted to get away,
now, i realize i was wrong, and im sorry.
i hate that we dont talk anymore
i wish we still do.
i hope Ты read this,
and forgive me, so we can start over again.
Hi, my name is Hikaru.
What's yours :)
