No trust

Open your eyes to what is going on with me deep down and really understand why i sometimes frown i want Ты to see how i really am inside im tired of trying to cover it up and hide Ты think Ты know me but Ты really dont Ты should but Ты probably wont Open your eyes and see the real me
not the person that Ты want me to be understand that Ты cant make me who im not even though Ты probably want to a lot i dont care what the heck Ты think okay? im gonna find myself and be who i really want to be everyday
Open your eyes and see why im this way its because of everything thats happened to me,that i think about everyday whats done is done but the effects are still here living everyday of my life with some sort of fear why do i not really like people and have issues? because i have been hurt by them so many times theyve made me cry and go get tissues

I don't know who I want to be. I just can't decide whether I want to be quiet and mysterious или sociable and cheerful. Ты may think it's an obvious choice, but it's not for me.

I feel like being both, but I feel like it's wrong to be both. everything with me is either one или the other.

On one hand,I feel like pushing people aside.Mostly because they annoy me,but also because I feel better when I'm alone. One the other hand,I feel like talking to everyone with joyfulness.

I feel like the whole world is frowning upon me.

But yet I feel like smiling and that I can do anything without being ashamed. Every time I do this though,it turns to be something to be ashamed about and just wanting to keep my happiness inside and to never Показать it again.

Feeling like crawling inside a hole.

Feeling sorrow,guilt,embarrassment,happiness,unstoppable,trapped,and furious all at the same time. It's driving me crazy!

These regrets are еще like nightmares. And these nightmares never end. Somebody please stop them before I go insane.

Feeling like no one can save me from the depths of my disgrace.

All of my Цвета have turned gray since the first день I felt this way.

I know there's people who Любовь me and couldn't live without me,but that doesn't change the fact that I want to disappear. Because all I ever do is make mistakes.

Making the wrong Переместить at the wrong time is what I do. For there isn't room for people like me.

I don't want to feel any emotion. Not even Любовь for I fear there is still a gaping hole inside of me that I can't seem to fill.

Feeling detached from everything is the only way I can put how I really feel. Everything just seems so far out of reach. I want to be one of those people who feel complete but it seems impossible.

I am so weak because the only thing keeping me alive is my fear of pain.