BROKEN CHILDREN ARE HARD TO MEND

For children who were broken
It is very hard to mend...
Our pain was rarely spoken
and we hid the truth from our friends.

Our parents сказал(-а) they loved us,
but they didn't act that way.
They broke our hearts
and украл, палантин our worth,
with the things they would say.

We wanted them to Любовь us,
We didn't know what we did
to make them yell at us
and wish we weren't their kid.

They'd beat us up and scream at us
and blame us for their lives.
Then they'd hold us close inside their arms
and tell us confusing lies
of how they really loved us-
even though we were BAD,
and how is was OUR fault they hit us,
OUR fault that they were mad.

When days were just beginning
we sometimes prayed for them to end,
and when the pain kept coming,
we learned to just pretend
that we were good
and so were they
and this was just
one of those days...
tomorrow we'd be friends.

We had to believe it so.
We had nowhere else to go.
Each день that we pretended,
we replaced reality
with lies, или dreams,
или angry schemes,
in Поиск of dignity...
until our lies
got bigger than the truth,
and we had no one real to be.

Our bodies were forsaken.
With no безопасно, сейф place to hide,
we learned to stop
hearing and feeling
what they did to our outsides.

We tried to make them Любовь us,
till we hated ourselves instead,
and couldn't see a way out,
and wished that they were dead.
We scared ourselves by thinking that,
and scared ourselves to know,
that we were Актёрское искусство just like them
and might ever еще be so.

To be half the size of a grown-up
and trapped inside their pain...
To every день lose everything
with no saviour или refrain...
To wonder how it is possible
that god could so forget
the worthy child Ты knew Ты were,
when Ты had not been damaged yet...
To figure on your fingers
that the years till you'd be grown
enough to leave the torment
and survive away from home,
were еще than Ты could count to,
или еще than Ты could bear,
was the reality we lived in
and we knew it wasn't fair.

We who grew up broken
are somewhat out of time,
struggling to mend our childhood,
when our peers are in their prime.
Where others find love
and contentment,
we still often have to strive
to remember we are worthy,
and Герои just to be alive.

Some of us are healing,
some are stealing.
Most are passing the anger on.
Some give their lives away to drugs,
или the promise of lfe beyond.
Some still hide from society.
Some struggle to belong.
But all of us wishing
the past would not hold on so long.
There's alot of digging down to do
to find the child within,
to Любовь away the ugly pain
and feel innocence again.
There is forgiveness worthy of Ангелы wings
for remembering those at all,
who abused our sacred childhood
and programmed us to fall.
To seek to understand them,
and how their pain became our own,
is to risk the ground we stand on
to climb the mountain home.

The journey is not so lonely
as in the past it's been...
еще of us are strong enough
to let the growth begin.
But while we're trekking up the mountain
we need everything we've got,
to face the adults we have become, and all that we are not.

So when Ты see us weary
from the day's internal climb...
When we find fault with your best efforts,
или treat imperfection as purposeful crime...
When yu see our quick defenses,
our efforts to control,
our readiness to form a plan
of unrealistic goals...
When we run into a conflict
and fight to the горький end,
remember...
We think that winning means
we won't be hurt again.

When we abandon OUR thoughts
and feelings, to be what we believe YOU
want us to be,
или look at trouble we're having,
and want to blame it all on you...
When life calls for new beginnings,
and we fear they're doomed to end,
remember...
Wounded trust is like a wounded knee-
it is very hard to bend.

Please remember this when we are out of sorts, Tell us the truth, and be our friend.
For children who were broken...
it is very hard to mend.